Repeat After Me:

I will never be able to move on from this scene.

With Assemblyman Ko arrested and proven guilty, Han Joon Hwi was no longer indebted to Kang Sol A.

But then comes the line.

"I'll be rooting for you in your uncle's place."

Kang Sol A stepped up to root for him in replacement of someone who has passed away. Declared that she would always be there for him, take care of him, and be his family.

He smiled, right? I'm sure, by that time he realised--

Han Joon Hwi is forever indebted to Kang Sol A.

hi ! quickly stopping by.

stop imagining to imagine.

Many times when i “imagine” my desire i imagine myself imagining it again in order to “feel” it to get my desire. For example when trying to manifest an sp i’ll imagine myself with my sp then i’ll think about manifesting it again in the future. I hope that made sense? Do you ever notice when you have a passing thought or think about manifesting something usually once it manifests in hours or less ? why? because you simply just imagined the reality and did not care if it came to pass because you didn’t attach the mechanism of manifestation. This is a habit that must be broken : imagining yourself persisting for a while… WHAT the goal is not to persist for that long fr 😭😭😭 the goal is to be fulfilled immediately so why should you imagine yourself manifesting the same thing again or returning to the state “just incase”. It’s a habit of mine that i recently became aware of and i think it serves to explain the lack of materialization so just incase this you, fix it !

IT IS DONE.

oki byeeeee

blue.

tagging for reach i guess ?

@heartcollector @sexyandhedonistic @blushydior @lavender--fairy @creatorofreality @0t0mie @itsravenbitch

just to clarify i’m not saying you should entertain the “facts” i’m just saying why imagine a longer process for yourself? that’s materializing.

The major steps are first, becoming aware of the fact that we are master over matter (and matter includes the body). Then, the second major step is becoming master over mind. And when we become really masterful over mind we are able to and we do let go of mind and operate in the realm of omniscience, in the realm of knowingness. Then we are fully aware of the infinite Being that we are, and are in the ultimate Happiness. We should start with the first step, consciously controlling matter. Whether we are aware of it or not, everyone is controlling matter all the time. Whether one wants to be a demonstrator or not, he is. It is impossible to not be a creator all the time. Everyone is creating every day. We are not aware of it because we just don't look at it. We have demonstrated or created everything we have! Every thought, every single thought, materializes in the physical world. It's impossible to have a thought that will not materialize (except that we reverse it). If we think the opposite right after we have a thought, with equal strength, we neutralize it.

So this thing of demonstration that we are all trying so hard to accomplish, we are doing all the time, unconscious of the fact that we're doing it.

You are a creator, so long as you have a mind and think.

━ these were all Lester's words.

Predicting the Q&A that will follow and answering you these.

Q: Does that mean if I think my dog died my dog will die???

Ada: Did you take that thought to be true? What reason would you have to suddenly believe your dog is dead? No, thought materializes when it's absolute, that is when you think "My fridge is in the kitchen", you have no doubts or questions coming along with that, it's a statement you take as real. You think your fridge is in the kitchen, and so it is. You have no feelings regarding that, it is just a statement, it is just reality.

Q: Okay then, how do I make reality of me being Lara?

Ada: This is why I insist to see you aren't either. You can't let go of Vanessa now because you think you are her. Can you think of your fridge being in the living room while you're convinced it is in the kitchen? You don't even allow yourself to, if that thought comes into being - you brush it off, you can't take it for a possibility because you know the fridge is in the kitchen. If you really thought you were Lara, the way you think your fridge is in the kitchen, then that would be materialized with no question. Do you ask questions about Vanessa being materialized? No, she is. No questions asked. You may have all these big feelings about her, but she is because you think so so strongly in the first place, you never allowed yourself to doubt it. Stop thinking it is so and see. what. happens. This is why I insist on equal-mindedness toward all bodies/persons, because then you can just pick and have it be so instantly. Now you don't pick because you go back to dealing with all of Vanessa's baggage, because you think she is the All, the background, the source - and you need to work with that, change her thinking to change her reality. There's this have to, have to, have to━you can't let go of. But Self is not Vanessa.

Being your Self is having all the fridges floating in space, picking one and placing the fridge wherever you want with a thought.

Revert to your natural state and have any thought be absolute the way Vanessa in this moment is to you absolute.

hey lain! im so sorry if this post is long asf but i just spent like 25+ minutes reading your posts and replies to anons. i (well ego, actually) has spent every day since she learned about non-dualism seeking something that would "click." she was desperately trying to find what she needed to do to realize self, because as much as she told herself in her mind that she understands non-dualism, she really wasn't understanding. so anyway, she basically just had this feeling of "i'm done trying. this is exhausting and i'm so damn tired of this. there's nothing to try. the fact that i desire things and want to understand things etc., is all irrelevant." so with that, she started scrolling thru your posts, reading them fully rather than skimming them (she's lazy and doesn't like reading all the way, she always just skimmed long posts💀💀)

she just wanted the most simplest understanding on what to do and now she knows that it's literally just to stop identifying with ego. so i, my actual self, literally does not need to ask questions. i do not wonder what to do, all thoughts of "what do i have to fix" is ego. i do not have to convince ego that i am not her because... she isn't real and self doesn't think anyway, so anytime i have one of those exhausting mind battles where i think i'm telling ego that everything is fake and an illusion, i just need to remember that both of those thoughts are literally the ego. so feeling like i need to read more information, or i need to convince myself of something, will always be the ego, not ME. ALL THAT I NEED TO DO IS NOT IDENTIFY WITH EGO.

and let me tell you, i paused reading for a sec to "test it" (not necessarily testing anything but i was just getting into the feeling of not identifying) and i genuinely felt the difference. like i felt what i was supposed to, the freedom and desirelessness yk? every thought in my mind, every feeling i had, any desire i was thinking about "getting" i just said quietly said in my head, not me. that's all ego. and i didn't bother convincing or reassuring myself like "see its just ego so relax, okay i don't need to worry. i'm not ego! remember that!" because the only thing that ever needs reassurance is ego, and reassuring her is identifying with her. i didn't bother trying to "believe" anything because i knew anything further was ego. and if i am not ego, it is absolutely pointless to do anything more than just observe the thoughts and let it pass. i'd be holding my own self back from freedom by doing anything more than observing and letting it pass.

basically i just wanted to share that, because i got this giddy and relieving feeling because i know exactly what i need to do. it's not even something i "need to do", it's not a process, it's just a simple look at anything that makes me feel not free or like i'm desiring and thinking "not me, just ego." and moving on! i already feel less stressed because i'm not trying to achieve desires, i don't feel desire, ego does, but i'm not her so i don't have to fix it or remove the desire, i just let it pass on. i feel so relaxed now and just empty (in a good way. i'm emptied of hopelessness, desire, confusion) the "click" ego wanted so bad is basically this. and its so SIMPLE. i know that the habit of identifying is still kinda there for me though, but understanding the simplicity of this now and not feeling the need to search for "what to do" is gonna make it so easy to break the habit once and for all. thank you so much for your posts lain sincerely. i might delete tumblr to avoid the ego's habit of mindlessly opening the app and scrolling for hours cuz she thinks she needs to find the secret krabby patty formula to realizing self but at the same time your page brings such a comforting and safe feeling that i love 💙💙💙

i'm so glad you understand! it's good that you finally practised, you can read everything and get nowhere if you don't take the leap ♡

keep going!

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understanding consciousness & non dualism series: part 1 : how to know you are only consciousness part 2 : why everything is consciousness; non dualism part 3 : everything is imagination & an illusion part 4 : what exactly is consciousness (you)? part 5 : ego + when "you" dont understand non dualism part 6 : time, thoughts & meditation part 7 : proof that everything is imaginary part 8 : stop and just observe part 9 : non dualism vs law of assumption part 10 : the world within the mind + the 5 senses part 11 : the unreal vs the real part 12: finally, play a new game

Some suggested practices or experiments from Robert Adams

Be totally silent for a day - Do you think you can do it? Just for one day, tomorrow, be silent. Do not say a word to anybody. Try to spend that day by yourself if you can. If you have to go to work for a living, if you have to go to work, be silent in your mind. Now here's how you work this: if you have to talk to your employees or your employer, talk to them but shut it out of your mind. Do not entertain what you say. Get rid of it immediately after you finished. If you talk about a work problem, resolve the problem and then go back to silence. In other words do not carry it with you. Do not carry it with you at all.

Sit in silence as much as possible for a week - Isn't it better just to sit still at home in the silence and stop the mind from thinking? That's the easiest way, it's the best way, it's the simplest way. If you don't believe me, try it. Try it for a week and see what happens. For one week I would like you to experiment. I don't want you to read any book. Think you can do it? Don't look at any spiritual literature. Just sit by yourself as much as you can. And watch your mind, watch your mind. Do whatever you have to do to slow down your mind and then you're going to be amazed. You will laugh at yourself. For when the mind becomes quiescent, reality will rush in. And you'll see it's so simple, it’s so simple. Why didn't I know this all the time? I used to believe by reading volume after volume I'll become enlightened. But it was so easy, I just had to quiet my mind.

Identify as I-AM as you wake up - If you ask yourself when you go to sleep, you tell yourself, "Tomorrow morning as soon as I open my eyes I am going to identify with my source, I-am," and you will, even if for a second, it will change your life. First thing when you open your eyes, ask yourself. “Who am I?” Just put this question and see what will happen to you. You'll feel something different. But you'll have to do it every morning. Just try it and see what happens. You'll see Oneness. Keep asking yourself, “Who am I? Who am I?” when you first get up. As you keep on doing this every morning, every morning, every morning, the time between your awakening and the thought coming to you will become larger that space will expand, and expand, and expand until you are able to stay in the awareness. Of course at that time there will no longer be a "you". There will only be the awareness. Try it, you have to investigate. You have to intelligently dive deep within yourself and find the source of your I.

I-AM meditation for one day - You relax your body and you inhale and you say "I," and you exhale and you say "am, I-am". You can do this while you're waking, while you're walking, while you're washing dishes, while you're resting. What it does is it makes your mind one pointed, so it'll stop thinking. If you can practice I-am for one day, just one day, all of your troubles will be transcended. You will feel happiness you've never felt before. You will feel a peace that you never even knew existed. As you keep practicing I-am, your thoughts will become less and less. Your personal self will go into the background and you will begin to feel an inner joy, an inner bliss. You will begin to feel that it no longer matters what I am going through. It makes no difference, because it is God who is going through this, not me. And God has no problems. You automatically become happy, just by using the I-am meditation.

Love your Self every day - Begin to love your Self. I know that's really hard for some of you to do. To really love your Self, to love the Self which is really you. Try standing in front of the mirror and giving love to yourself. Some of you will not be able to do this. I'll bet there are people here who look in the mirror and they don't even want to look at themselves. They can't look at themselves for a whole minute in the mirror. Try it and you'll see what I mean. For when you look in the mirror, see God, not the physical appearance. See light shining from you, see bliss, see pure awareness, see total emptiness, see your Self. Begin to practice this exercise. Looking in the mirror, begin for maybe a minute, then you go on to two minutes, three minutes, four minutes, five minutes. Look at yourself. Admit the truth to yourself. "I am Brahman. I am the ultimate reality. I am boundless space. I am the atman, the perfect intelligence, the one without the other, all-pervading, perfect self." What if you told yourself this everyday? What do you think would happen? If you looked in the mirror and did this every day, you would turn into the God that you are. And you will find peace, total peace, total love.

Keep your mind on God all day - You will not think about your work or the food that you're going to eat during the day or what you're going to wear. But try to keep your mind clear, free. But you will watch yourself. You will see that you get up out of bed. You put on the right clothes. You eat your breakfast like you're supposed to. You go out into the world and do whatever you're supposed to do. But you're not part of it anymore, mentally. Your mind is on God. Your mind is on the absolute reality. Your mind is on perfection. Your mind is still and quiet. Yet you will continue to do what you have to do. You will no longer have to watch the clock or watch space and time. Leave everything alone and everything will happen by itself in a beautiful way. Try it.

Surrender completely - Perfect surrender is when you give up everything, everything to God including your body. Do what you want with me. Do what you want with my body, with my mind, with my affairs, with everything. Not my will but thine. If you can surrender like this you're already free. Try it, it's hard, because you're afraid what will happen after you do that. You believe everything will be taken away from you. This is human thinking. Stop being human. Surrender yourself and become totally free.

Be with your Sage all day long - When you're home, where you're working, think of the Sage. When you think of the sage's form, the sage's name, things will begin to happen to you. Find peace. Try it. Then you will be with the Sage continuously. Whenever you think of a living Sage, the Sage becomes part of your heart, it’s the complete heart and you feel the love of the Sage within you. So if you think of the Sage, the Sage will think of you. Whatever you think about, that you become ultimately. So you have to be very careful what you think about. Whatever you think about, you become. Think of the Sage, you become the Sage.

𝐀𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐬?

Think about the last time you had a "big" desire. Maybe you wanted to be in an Oscar-winning movie, maybe you wanted to be a world-famous singer, or maybe you just wanted to date your celebrity crush. How did you react to the desire? Did you allow yourself to feel worthy, did you feel the possibility of your desire, did you accept it as it came to you?

You most likely found yourself feeling unworthy, uncomfortable, or anxious about your desire instead. You might have even thought that you were insane for even thinking of it.

That's the issue.

You are considering your worthiness. You are arguing with yourself and allowing circumstances from the 3D, the past, or societal standards to get in the way of your ultimate fulfillment.

In fact, you can get exactly what you desire. It doesn't matter who you are, what you do for a living, how much money you had growing up, how much talent you have, or what you look like. None of this matters.

So, dare to assume. Accept your desires as they come to you. Never hold yourself back.

You don't need permission to become the version of yourself that you desire to be.

Hello 👋

All of your favorite horniest sex scenes?

Hello! I've been busy, so this has taken forever to get to!

I don't always need the guys to bounce around on each other and gyrate enthusiastically for it to out as horny. Oftentimes, I find myself more drawn in by the building desire between the characters, and the explicit acknowledgement of release. I like when the sex feels like it's also revealing something to us about the characters. I've highlighted many of these before, but it's fun to revisit.

Ghost Host, Ghost House Episode 4 Couch Scene

I will never get over this scene, and especially the director's cut of it. These guys knew they liked each other almost instantly, and it was so rewarding to see them reach a place where they could express that. Bonus points for discussing the logistics of gay sex.

This show has been on Gaga and YouTube for a while, but it's also now available on Viki!

La Pluie Episode 6 Floor Scene and Episode 7 Bed Scene

I liked this scene so much that I wrote about it. Again, there's a lot of anticipation between these two, and you can tell how far it's built up because Patts has to dial it back down when Saengtai wants to stop. It's especially important to me because Saengtai does blow Patts in the next episode. If you're on iQIYI, there's an extended cut of that at the end of the video lists.

Mood Indigo: The Post-Funeral Scene

These two are so horrible for each other, but damn are their sex scenes compelling. Theirs are the kinds of scenes only possible between two people you know can never work long term. I was so glad that we got back to Haruhiko in Playback, and the first thing he did was blow Rio in a car. If you haven't seen the Novelist, and you're itching for hornier BL, it's right there.

The End of the World With You "You're Soaked"

From the same team as The Novelsit, we got to experience baby's first fuckboy in this incredible show. Again, I love when we get scenes with couples who aren't ready to work, because they're allowed to have raunchier sex. They get to amp the intensity of the physicality because they need to give a reason why someone was so caught up and missed the warning signs. I actually love the car scene later as a more romantic intimacy scene, but we're focusing on horny here.

Jack o' Frost Birthday Sex

A common theme here with the Japanese offerings is that people are allowed to have more interesting sex scenes right before they split. This is true even in Jack o' Frost. We get a really great oner from the leads that precedes their breakup and Ritsu's accident. I think this might be my favorite of this list because the actors have to build the entire scene together since there aren't any cuts.

Gameboys 2 Bed Scene

Cairo and Gav are one of my favorite pandemic couples we got on screen, and I was quite relieved for them when they finally got to have this moment. We also confirmed they switch, and I love that.

Wedding Plan: Namnuea Showing Off His Stamina

No list for me would be complete without including them. I really loved seeing two gay men go at it after clearing out all of their misunderstandings. They had already had sad goodbye sex. It was thrilling to see them having enthusiastic, athletic sex. This also leads directly to one of my favorite emotional payoffs for a closeted character of all time.

Kiseki: Dear to Me Reunion

The second couple stole this show, but damn if I didn't love the way these two played out sex across multiple years between their characters. These two really suffered, and I really love the way Taro Lin and Hsu Kai captured the changes between these two as Bai Zong Yi grew and matured. This really was a solid sex scene.

Love Class 2: Sungmin and Joo Hyuk

I just really wanna thank them for reassuring me that if Korea wanted to, they could deliver.

Sleep With Me Jeans Scene

I am not a lesbian, but I share their beliefs. This scene was so good. I loved that these two, who have different kinds of disabilities, were able to have a very fun sex scene. I really like when it's clear both characters want to be there.

Only Friends: Boston and Top in the Car

Despite my eventual disdain for this show, I was impressed with Neo and Force for giving this incredibly selfish sex scene between their characters. This entire scene is about injured egos, and it's a standout scene from this show. We won't discuss the rest of the show here.

Thanks for the ask!

hiii omg am i glad that you’ve turned on your asks again!! i hope you aren’t feeling too overwhelmed with this blog/asks, you’re doing such a wonderful job!!

i’m this anon, btw :) https://www.tumblr.com/adadisciple/724563337217736704/hi-im-this-anon

i’ve got some more “success’s”!! as i stated in my last ask, i could potentially have some brain damage- but that’s only “true” if i identify with it. anywaysss, my memory isn’t the best so i wrote down a list of sorts, and conducted a little “experiment”.

before i did that however, i was able to get my desired body!! i also cleared up my skin, which took a turn after the whole cancer thing. i don’t want to get into details, but since the cancer affected my lymph nodes- it made it’s way to my skin, which “manifested” in hyper pigmentation , rashes, scabs, etc. it was just horrible. even after the cancer was “healed”, i was left with scarring on my skin- and tbh it just looked horrible. i didn’t really feel confident to wear shorts outside anymore. tbh, i wasn’t really attached to this body or it’s skin, so i decided to change it for funsies. i remembered who i truly was- Self. i just decided i had my desired body- kinda imagined it but just once- and that my skin was clear. i let it go, tbh i think that was the only time i thought about it till the next day, when my skin was literally so clear.

all the dark spots and problems seemed to disappear overnight, i even had some scabs that went away. i also lost my ability to rlly eat- or want to eat during the cancer period, so i kinda lost my natural shape. the same day my skin changed, my body reverted to how i wanted it to be. afterwards, i realized how little i thought of what i used to be insecure about- when i had the “desirable.” for example, with my skin, i didn’t think of how horrible all the scabs looked, i didn’t even think about how clear it was. i just knew, and it was normalized.

regarding the experiment, i made a list of things i wanted to occur- but wrote down how i did it- or what steps i took. i did 4:

receiving a text

getting a hug (tbh random lol but i love hugs)

revising the house i live in ac being always cold, and set to 73.

and then.. for you to have your asks on again!!

they all worked- and i wrote on my notebook that they would occur before the day was over. for the hug and ac, i wrote how it was ok for me to seek, think, worry, or obsess over it- because i knew mySelf to be Self- and none of my characters actions could hinder me. the hug and ac happened before i went to sleep. for the text and asks, it happened today. there’s no use in making sense of it- but to be a hypocrite, i would think they happened the next day because i felt it was essential to feel indifference. but when you know yourSelf to be Self- there really isn’t any essential steps to take, or anything that can stop you.

i feel as if i am a child again, im always giddy when i marvel at my true Self. it’s so amazing, and a complete total 180 or even 360 from when i first sent my ask to Lain. I even got into the void last night, completely aware of it, and was able to affirm for some things! I kept “waking up” in it, throughout the night. I genuinely have no worries anymore, and it’s so refreshing that I am in tears typing this. I know you must be overworked between this blog, and just the everyday forces of life- but truly it is people/blogs like you, who help others completely turn their lives around!! Thank you so much, all of your kindness, and aid will surely be returned tenfold <3

WOOWAA SO HAPPY TO HEAR FROM YOU AGAIN!!

@lains-reality your anon!!

Ahh I wish this would be the only thing my asks ever saw :')) life is truly this wonderful and easy ♡

"and then.. for you to have your asks on again!!"

Not you controlling Sofia like a puppet, this is really your world fr 😌

Jokes aside, you can see we really are all one.

Key points from their process for everyone:

afterwards, i realized how little i thought of what i used to be insecure about- when i had the “desirable.”

i just knew, and it was normalized.

for the hug and ac, i wrote how it was ok for me to seek, think, worry, or obsess over it- because I knew mySelf to be Self- and none of my character's actions could hinder me.

but to be a hypocrite, i would think they happened the next day because i felt it was essential to feel indifference.

but when you know yourSelf to be Self - there really isn’t any essential steps to take, or anything that can stop you.

Thank you for coming back to us, you're so sweet for helping others by documenting as well ♡

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