Call Me Perfect. This Blog Will Help You Learn About Your True Selves: Consciousness, And About Non Dualism.

Sharing something that was immensely helpful for me in the past few days: If your ego has strong worries or fears that keep popping up as thoughts that pull you away from Self and is also struggling to let go of them, try think of it this way instead: maybe it's not something that you have to let go of because it was never yours to begin with. It was never your burden to bear. Maybe it's about trusting that the higher power* will take care of everything on its own (whatever resonates with you, the unseen higher intelligence that is not part of the world) and trusting that everything will be okay. Maybe it's that the trust and surrender itself lends power into the story that's being written, just as not having faith and constantly worrying does too. It's surrender and letting go all the same but slightly reframed. I basically applied this to all the "strong" attachments and within 20 minutes of going through everything, they no longer had any hold over me, just like that. I don't even feel the need to mentally drop individual beliefs anymore. I had consciously surrendered in general but consciously surrendering the burden and responsibility for the ego's specific worries/fears was so effective in relieving Self from it. It is much easier to abide in Self once you let go of the dominant thoughts.

*I think it's easier for the ego to just believe and trust in a "higher power" than to try mentally understand/conceptualise Self (this isn't possible anyway!) - it's basically already in-built acceptance that the ego cannot understand or know this "higher power" anyway because it is not the higher power nor in the same plane of existence as it (just like ego is not Self but Self is Self imagining it is an ego) - the labels don't matter, call it whatever you want; whatever helps/resonates. The most important thing is the ego surrendering to Self which in another view is also Self surrendering the ego by giving up doership, accepting things as they are and trusting/knowing things will be just fine.

"Faith is when you let go, not when you hold on" - Alan Watts

What I absolutely love about some of my favorite kdramas:

Goblin (2016): the bromance

Shopaholic Louie (2016): the fluff

Witch At Court (2017): the protagonist's character development

Lawless Lawyer (2018): how deliciously villainous the main villain was

Beauty Inside (2018): the second couple

Touch Your Heart (2019): sunny x grim reaper AU lol

Hotel del Luna (2019): IU's acting skills

It's Okay Not To Be Okay (2020): the creativity of the storyline

Do You Like Brahms? (2020): the realistic & mature romance + slowburn friends-to-lovers

The Penthouse (2020-2021): the rollercoaster ride and the absurdity of it all

Run On (2020): the life lessons & meaningful dialogues

Flower of Evil (2020): the endless plot twists

Hospital Playlist (2020-2021): the cohesiveness of the characterizations, even with the supporting & minor characters

Law School (2021): the mystery pervading the show's entirety

Tomorrow (2022): the deep, angsty love story with a happy ending

Extraordinary Attorney Woo (2022): our beloved Woo Young-woo

Cafe Minamdang (2022): how everyone's a crackhead. in their own way. lmao

🍒masterlist🍒

‘The Alchemist' Series

a definitive guide to actually fulfilling your desires

you create everything - even your fear

get to the root of the desire

remove the force

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really amazing post from edwardarts reddit/series!

this is the meditation he’s talking about btw

ive read ur posts on dismissing the 3d (very helpful btw!!) but im still a bit confused, what thoughts are u supposed to think when doing this??? like if ur dream life is diff from ur current one, going abt ur 3d and saying "i am in my desired reality" it feels a bit jarring? any advice on how to make thinking about it easier? thank you!

"your subconscious mind doesn't care what your conscious mind is thinking"

you can think literally anything! you can vibe all day long and not think about your desire even once. as long as you shift back to the state of the wish fulfilled (or a neutral state) after slipping into a state of lack (doubting, wondering where it is, acknowledging you dont have it), you don't have to think about your desire at all.

if you WANT to think about your desire you can, but you don't have to say "am in my desired reality" if that feels stuffy and unnatural to you. a method i like to do is trying to replicate thoughts i might be having if i had my desire. for instance when i was manifesting an sp i thought it was fun to think stuff like "oh im so excited to hang out with my sp tonight, i need to start getting ready soon. i wonder where hes gonna take me" etc. these thoughts aren't what manifested, it was the feeling that they gave me that helped me to feel it real.

so for your desired reality, you can think about anything regarding your desired reality if you want (keyword: want) to. for example, maybe you're going about your day in your current 3D and you think about how you wish you were in the 4D, you can start talking to yourself about all the things you have to do today (things you're excited to do in your DR that you maybe can't do in your CR). this is just a method tho and not necessary! it's just something i find fun to do!

i hope this answers your question lol i swear sometimes i write replies and then im like idk if that was relevant at all

"Purpose" ?

"So, what is the purpose of this whole ordeal? Am I truly feeling helpless? Have I genuinely experienced heart-wrenching events? Is my life really that miserable? Understanding THAT, it became apparent that these things were mere illusions, appearing that way because I continuously identified with it happening to a little "me". I believed I was a helpless human being, lacking a deep understanding of my true existence. I stopped assigning any meaning to this story, not even deeming it meaningless. These thoughts are meaningless because they are nothing. Any idea is irrelevant to your true identity.

Then why does this situation exist? In the game of life, everything is just "Being-ness" playing with itself. I could ask why I have to go through this nonsense, but it's senseless. Why? It's all a big Paradox. So, when you ask why this situation arises, people seek a logical answer. But there is no rational, logical answer. It's like a puzzle; it's an appearance. In a dream, there are no rational, logical answers. All thoughts, emotions, and identities are things we collect. They are not you. This doesn't mean you have to confirm the truth in your mind because there is no truth in thoughts—they have no meaning unless you asign one to them. You can't describe THAT with words; you can only be THAT. Thoughts aren't something only you possess. So, there's only one thing: transcend it and realize who you are.

draft written by most likely Dawa , no one knows

True acceptance

“true acceptance… i always thought true acceptance was believing i had it instantly in the 3D and the 4D…”

while reading edwards art “though false” post and his pdf for his series (you can find on reddit) it made me realize what true acceptance is really is when it comes to the law.

true acceptance doesn’t mean trying to force yourself into believing that its there in both the 3D and 4D. true acceptance is accepting you have it in the 4D and its okay to not have it in the 3D.

true acceptance is believing that the 3D will change to mirror what you have within because the inner world is the only reality, the only thing that reflects. true acceptance is knowing the outer man can’t manifest. the outer man cant “change the 3D”. it cant make things happen instantly.. it’s accepting your outer man can only experience your creations and the human experience. true acceptance is knowing your inner world is your only priority to change and everything will come from what you are, have and experiencing within.

it made me realize that all i really had to do is just accept i have it within without worrying about whenever i have it or not and not and forcing myself to have it within for a change in the 3D.

i always freaked out about the 3D and would always force myself to change it by forcing emotions, forcing methods, forcing feeling, forcing literally ANYTHING because i had really bad circumstances. but that wasnt what i was supposed to do. i was supposed to accept i have it within. surrender to my 4D and just know i have it within. i didnt need to time “when i will get it” or time “when it would come”. everything will come to pass. i didnt need to do xyz, i didnt need to listen to “instant result” subs. i didnt need to do any of it.

“Sure, you can try to control the how and the timing but do you want that responsibility? If you truly don't have to know that, wouldn't that bring you ease?” -ed art

i personally feel like i feel more at ease that know i have it right now in the 4D than having it “instantly”, you “could” manifest instant results to get them in the 3D but manifestation is about being and experiencing within. i feel like the instant results thing makes people put a lot of pressure, expectations and fears on the outer man and the outer world and making people think their priority and goal is to manifest for results in the 3D instead of just feeling fulfilled within and knowing you already have it.

whenever i would “try” to manifest instant results, i would always put an extra responsibility on the 3D. i would always try manifesting to change the 3D instead of just being it within. whenever i saw people saying they manifested overnight it always made me jealous in a way. but putting the responsibility of the 3D off my shoulders really put my mind at ease. it really did.

its just how the world works in the law terms. the 3D can only reflect you. if you try to manifest instant results, it kinda just shows you arent it, you dont have it within and you simply aren’t being it in consciousness. (IMO) everything is instant within. you already have it within.

just relax and know you already have it within.

i promise it would better you mentally. you dont have to force to change the 3D out of fear. leave it alone. literally leave it. the 3D doesnt need your fixing, your timing, your fears. it dont need any of that.. it just reflects who you are within. just make it your home within. make it your dwelling place where you just know you have it..ROE. (regardless of everything.)

true acceptance is accepting it will pass. -starmorself🫶🏾

this was only proofread once or maybe twice so idk if i made some mistakes since i skimmed through it. this post inspired by @cleostoohot ROE challenge

edit ?: *edit deleted* i feel like yall get what im tryna say.. just dont manifest instant results because you already have it within anyways. it places too much power onto the 3D and creates fear and frustration about it coming “fast” or/and “instantly” (IMO)

Living in the end is easier than you think

CHAPTER I: What does it mean to live in the end ?

When living in the end, you're basically pretending that you already have what you want. You act and you think like the person who already has what they want. It's that simple !

CHAPTER II : How to live in the end the correct way ?

A big mistake most people do when living in the end is that they wait for their desire, they think about it coming soon or they want it to come. The point of living in the end is that you're living as you already have it, not as waiting for it to arrive. When you stop waiting for your desire to appear, that's when you will get it because the 3D has no other choice than to reflect. When you look at yourself, imagine yourself as the person who has that desire. Whenever you think of your desire, remind yourself that you are already the person who has it. Keep doing this and there is no way you won't succeed. Whenever you have doubts, relax and ask yourself: "am I waiting for my desire to come to me or do I already have it? " There will be days of doubting and that's absolutely normal. Relax, clear your mind and focus on the basics. Tell yourself that it is done, you have what you want, because you do. Feel the joy of already having your desire, not of waiting for it to arrive.

How do I stop worrying once I set the intention that I am experiencing something else? Doubts are constant and I can’t seem to stop them. I’m just worried I won’t get it

So what I need you first to realize is that, you aren’t setting an intention, and certainly not setting an intention to experience something “later on”. The realization of ANYTHING quite literally is the experience. I need you to recognize that nothing inherently has any meaning. When you strip labels from feelings and emotions they just remain as “sensations”. Try saying what a bad or good feeling is without describing it as a good or bad. It just is a sensation right? Right, so please start viewing it as what it really is. I truly understand how debilitating it can feel, however, if you truly wish to see past the hollow, weak illusions, you must start viewing everything as it TRULY is, not as it seems from the surface level.

There is no getting, desiring, wanting, these are labels made by this illusionary self who strives and relishes in goal, in journey, in doing. Without all these things the sense of self really has no purpose, look further into this. Who desires, who wants, who needs? Certainly not god, certainly not the true “ “ that is.

I’m not just telling you guys another technique or manifesting method, guys this is in reality what we are. The existence of all that is and appears to be is what we are. Your God, your “ “, your everything, how can you possibly crave when you are it.

Falsely identifying as the self and as the person, there will always be journey, there will always be an end goal, that never seems to be reached. When you experience that thing what happens? Another desire, need, journey appears, because as the self, nothing will actually be enough. (Trust me I know). Self exists for the illusionary experience. It’s literally the only purpose of it. Now I’m not in any way telling you to sit in misery and not be happy and live a dream life, but I want you to understand, it’s always going to seem like a never ending cycle of desiring if the only appearance you hold as real is self. Instead of the infinity you exist as.

This infinity you are tricks itself into being a limited self, a separate self. Recognize yourself again. You as it all is instant “manifestation”

Recognition of an experience is the experience, there’s nothing to chase

I’m telling you, your all of existence and appear as the experience, how can you possibly lack anything? There is no you that lacks, YOUR EVERYTHING. $500k? Alright it’s your, congratulations you just received it. Wondering where it is? Don’t you remember it’s you, you have it it’s yours! Relish! Be excited! Be Sad! Do whateveeeerrrr u want!

You are free to feel as you want because a sensation does not change the identity of god!

Just remember that the sensation (feeling) doesn’t dictate anything. Anyways I rambled for a while, take care!! 🥥🌴☀️🫶

Wow

Hi, i hope you're doing well.

First i want to say that i genuinely don't mean to trauma dump, so im sorry if it comes out this way. I just would want to get an advise on my specific situation. So the thing is that im ill and i have less than three months left and im panicking. I know you're probably going to say something like "time doesn't exist" but this doesn't make me feel better. I know that it's Vanessa who is sick and i try to remind myself everyday, but i feel like im just lying to myself. Every time when im dealing with pain, i try to remind myself that it's not me who's feeling pain, it's Vanessa, but i CAN'T convince myself at all. I know that im just awareness, the observer, and whatever i put my awareness on exists and what i take my awareness from, doesn't. So i just have to take my awareness away from this sick Vanessa and put it on the healthy Lara? But how? Or do i just keep doing what im doing, keep telling myself that im not Vanessa, until eventually something clicks and i start believing it? Im sorry, im just so lost.

Also, please don't feel like you HAVE to answer this. I guess I've already read the answer in one of your posts, but im struggling to apply it to this situation.

You're not trauma dumping, your ask is actually refreshing, coming from so many people having breakdowns over not having a mansion and a Porsche, this finally feels like a question that's worth answering.

You are awareness, you don't have to convince yourself.

Lester also got into this over a health scare, I got into this over a health scare, albeit not mine but a parent's, but just as severe.

Here's an excerpt from the book No Attachments, No Aversions, that I hope will help you:

I was told by the doctor not to exert myself, that I must live a sedentary life, because I could drop dead at any moment. This scared me almost to death! After several days I said to myself, "I'm still alive! Drop this useless fear and instead use all you've got to see what you can do about it." I resolved that either I get the answers or I'll take me off this earth, that no coronary was going to do it. And I had the where-with-all, enough morphine to do it-and in the most pleasant way. The doctors allowed me to have morphine to use when I would be overtaken by a kidney-stone attack. The major thing I did after my coronary thrombosis was cut out from the world, one hundred percent. Formerly, I had been very active socially in the arts, opera, jazz, ballet and theatre, whenever I was in New York. It was my necessity for escape. However, for three months I stopped all social activity, did no dating, and even cut out the weekend visits to my sisters and their families. I also cut off the phone. It was a total cut-out from the world. I isolated, right in New York City. I'd only go out to buy food between 2 and 5 A.M. when the city streets were the emptiest. Stores were open all night in Manhattan. I saw no one except the grocer. I was all out, hellbent on getting the answers.

I had spent over forty years of my life, mostly very unhappily. Friends would tell me, "Gee, Lester, you've got everything." I felt I had nothing. I had a nice family and an unusually loving mother. I was given a good education. I was living on 116 Central Park South-and in the penthouse. My friends were many. But my life was unhappy and sick. I had suffered twenty years with hay fever, fifteen years with ulcers and a half dozen perforated ulcers, enlarged liver and kidney stones. About twice a year I'd get jaundiced. I developed migraine headaches. Then heart trouble. And fear, anxiety and frustration all my life. After my coronary I was told I might drop dead any minute. "Don't climb a stair unless you absolutely have to," I was warned. That was in 1952. I was forty-three years old. I was desperate. This fear of dying scared me more than I've ever been scared in my life. It caused me to conclude with determination, "Either I get the answers, or I'll take me off this earth. No heart attack will do it!" That determination to get the answers was the thing that again gave me full realization of what life and happiness are. After a few days of fear of dying, I resolved that there was nothing I could do brooding about it. I started thinking of a way out. I sat alone in my apartment and just thinking, thinking, thinking. I had a problem and had to get the answer. So I sat me down and said, "Lester, you were considered smart. You were an honor student in high school. You won a scholarship when only three scholarships to Rutgers University were awarded through competitive, statewide examinations. You were an honor student in college." But for all of that, I was dumb! dumb! dumb! I did not know how to get the very elementary thing in life-how to be happy!

Well, what do I do? All of my past knowledge was useless. So I decided to drop it all and start from scratch. Okay. Well, what am I? What is this world? What is my relationship to it? I began reviewing the little happiness I had known and it was always related to a woman. "Oh, being loved by a woman is what happiness is!" Then I thought, "Well, here I am. I've had and still have lovely women wanting me. But I am still miserable!" I thought, "Then it's not being loved!" I began reviewing it again and I discovered that when I was loving them-then, I was happy. Conclusion: my happiness equates to my capacity to love.

Then I went through a very keen process of trying to love others. I would review my past behavior. Where I thought I had been loving, I saw I wanted to be loved. For instance, when I saw that I had been nice to a girl only because I wanted something from her, I would say, "You son-of-a-gun, Lester. Correct that!" Then I would love her for what she was, not for what I wanted from her. I kept on correcting this until I could find no more to correct. The next big awareness that came to me was what intelligence is. I got a picture of a single overall intelligence that each one of us is blindly using, available to us to the degree we do not cut off. I also discovered that I am responsible for everything that happens to me. Then I discovered that every thought materializes, sooner or later. Thereafter I took responsibility for everything that was happening to me. Looking for it, the initiating thought would come up in mind, and it being conscious, I would then be able to drop it. I was letting go and undoing the hell I had created. By squaring all with love, trying to love rather than trying to be loved, and by taking responsibility for all that was happening to me; finding my subconscious thought and correcting it, I became freer and freer, happier and happier. The picture of intelligence that I received I think is interesting. I suddenly got a picture of the amusement park entertainment consisting of bump-cars that are made difficult to steer so that the drivers continually bump into each other. They were all getting their electrical energy from the wire screen above, through a pole coming down to every car. The power above was symbolic of the overall intelligence and energy of the universe coming down the pole to me and everyone else, which we were all using and bumping into each other, instead of driving along together in harmony. We use this intelligence in life and we just bump! bump! bump! That was the first picture I got of life and intelligence. We all have a direct line to that infinite intelligence up there and we are using it blindly, wrongly, and against each other. For the first two months I was getting answers to, "What is happiness, intelligence and love?" As the answers came, I was gradually being unburdened of my miseries and tensions.

The very first insight was on love, seeing that my happiness was determined by my capacity to love. That was a tremendous insight. It began to free me. Any bit of freedom when you're plagued feels so good. I knew that I was in the right direction. I had gotten hold of a link of a chain and was determined not to let go until I had the entire chain. Then I saw that my sum-total thinking was responsible for everything happening to me, and that gave me more freedom. I could control my life by undoing the compulsive behavior, all of which had been determined in the past, and was now subconscious. The third phase was discovering and recognizing who and what I really am. I began to see that we are infinite beings with no limitations; that all limitations were only concepts in our minds, learned in the past, and being held on to. When we see what we really are, we can see that we are not that limited being that we had thought we were, and we can then easily drop the limitations. Working on those three things, I became freer and freer. My heart became lighter. I was happier, more at peace. My mind got quieter. Then my curiosity took me all the way. I said, "If this is so good, I must find just how good it can get. I'll go the limit."

I'd had a life mostly of misery. So when this wonderful thing of happiness began coming in, I wanted all of it. I doggedly kept at it. And then all of a sudden powers fell in on me. I could know anything anywhere. I saw there were people just like us on endless numbers of planets. Then I took a look across the country to Los Angeles. I called up this friend and said, "In the living room there are three persons," and so on. I started telling him what was going on. Dead air! Suddenly I realized I had frightened him. I had to cut the conversation short. I was amazed at the very pleasant sensation of watching divine laws in operation. The fascination was not the powers themselves, but the watching and witnessing of the divine laws operating. I really didn't feel like the doer. I knew these things were not to be latched on to. I knew that if I got interested in them, I'd stop progressing. I had seen by this time that this world is a mentation-a dream. So to get interested in the dream again through interest in powers would trap me back into what I was wanting to get out of.

Toward the end of my period of seeking, l one day saw that, my gosh! This whole thing is like a dream in my mind, just like a night dream! And it's a dream that never really was any more than a dream you had last night was. Was it a real thing, that dream you had last night? No. It was only in your mind. But of course until one awakens out of this everyday waking state, it seems real to one. The new reality was that I am, and that's all there is! That my beingness is the changeless essence of the universe, of course, I was punch-drunk, slap-happy, and in a state of euphoria. In this state the whole world looks perfect. Looking at my body, I also saw this body as part of that perfection. This instantly corrected all my ailments.

Several times on the way up I'd get a realization that would so supercharge my body, I'd have to walk for miles and miles at a good pace. Some of those realizations are really more than a body can take. You can't sit still. Many a time I was forced to walk off the new, intense energy. I was undoing the subconscious hang-ups, tendencies, preexisting dispositions, realizing more and more that I am free, that freedom is my basic nature. I was getting freer and freer and I automatically went into a state where, having undone enough of the mental limitations, the real Self of me began presenting itself to me. I saw that the real "I" of me was only beingness, was only existence, and that my beingness was exactly the beingness of the universe. And when I saw that, I identified with every being in this universe; I identified with every atom in it. And when you do that you lose all sense of being a separate individual, an ego. When I saw that, that I AM the Amness of his universe, I then saw the whole world as just an image in my imagination, like a dream. I imaged or dreamt that I was a body. And I'm dreaming right now that I'm this body. In reality, the only thing that is, is Isness, That's the real, changeless substance behind everything.

When I started, I couldn't have been much lower. I was plagued with all these ailments accumulated over the years topped with a coronary, and with deep depths of depression and intense misery. Three months later I was at the other extreme; I was so happy I had a smile on my face that I could not take off. I felt a euphoria and lightness that is really indescribable. Everything of life itself was open to me-the total understanding of it. It is simply that we are infinite beings, over which we have superimposed concepts of limitation. And we are smarting under these limitations that we accept for ourselves as though they are real, because they are opposed to our basic nature of total freedom. However, they are just hallucinations, mental concepts. Life before and after was at two different extremes. At first it was just extreme depression and sickness. After, it was a happiness and serenity that's indescribable.

Now, you don't have to follow exactly what he did - just ask yourself the questions and do what feels right for you. I will add this book to my drive as well so you can read it all if you want to, but in the end, you will be fine, don't worry. Love believes all things, nothing can happen against your will ♡