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Welcome to 4dkelly's world. You may call me 4dkelly or Kelly. @4dbarbie-archive and @ndjournal are my side blogs and I keep most of my reblogs @4dkellyreblogs. Most of my understanding of non-duality is from 4dbarbie (Ada), Lester Levenson, Nisargadatta Maharaj, Robert Adams and my own experiences as Self! I would say my primary teachers are Lester and Robert so a lot of the excerpts and quotes I share now are from them ❤️ I made an AI chatbot with Lester's teachings. If you want to ask it a question, see this post.

Everything that I share on this blog are intended to be pointers, suggestions and helpful tips for people on the same journey. If you resonate with it, feel free to explore it further and if it doesn't, you can disregard it :)

Note: I'm taking a break from Tumblr for an undecided amount of time. I feel like it's the right time to step away for now. Maybe (or maybe not) I'll pop back in in a few months and answer if there's any asks/submissions @askailester or @ndjournal. Take care everyone and don't forget that You are your best guide on this path. You don't need to take anything that doesn't resonate. Keep living your truth! ❤️

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Practice: Self-inquiry, Witnessing, Surrender, Attitude, Exercise, Releasing

Topics: Ego, Desire, Problems, Pitfalls, Mind purification, Fears, Healing, Faith, Progress, Creation

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Quick links: 4dbarbie GPT

If you're new to non-duality and want a place to start, I suggest reading my 4dbarbie adaptation posts first (in order from the masterlist) then the practical guidance tag. Also be discerning about what you read and your sources.

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Read this if you are going through a difficult time on your journey.

"Your responsibility is not to make it happen in the world, your responsibility is to imagine its already happen and sustain that with faith"

-Edward Art

मन पवन हो गंगा में डूब नहाए,

मन रावण को जो लहरों में तूने बहाए..

Once again fighting and defeating my inner demons I realise, the evil and the virtuous are not outside but within one's self. It's about conquering victory over your own vices with your virtues. Ganga is the ever flowing river of knowledge in the universe. The knowledge that purifies the soul. The knowledge that takes our vices away in it's flow. All we need to do is plunge into the river. May knowledge enlighten you! Hari Om❤️

THIS WILL ALWAYS BE MY FAVOURITE LOA SUCCESS STORY

divider creds:

𝐀𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐬?

Think about the last time you had a "big" desire. Maybe you wanted to be in an Oscar-winning movie, maybe you wanted to be a world-famous singer, or maybe you just wanted to date your celebrity crush. How did you react to the desire? Did you allow yourself to feel worthy, did you feel the possibility of your desire, did you accept it as it came to you?

You most likely found yourself feeling unworthy, uncomfortable, or anxious about your desire instead. You might have even thought that you were insane for even thinking of it.

That's the issue.

You are considering your worthiness. You are arguing with yourself and allowing circumstances from the 3D, the past, or societal standards to get in the way of your ultimate fulfillment.

In fact, you can get exactly what you desire. It doesn't matter who you are, what you do for a living, how much money you had growing up, how much talent you have, or what you look like. None of this matters.

So, dare to assume. Accept your desires as they come to you. Never hold yourself back.

You don't need permission to become the version of yourself that you desire to be.

Ultimate: End of All Seeking

This took me hours, so I cannot imagine how long it should have taken her to write such detailed answers when only to catalogue them took forever. I did it mostly for myself so I could always come back to the response I needed and not search through 200+ posts. But I figured since I spent so long on it I might as well share. There's nothing, truly, that she hasn't given an answer for. I phrased the links as questions so that they could be easily accessible.

First, LEGEND TO UNDERSTAND TERMS.

Who am I?

What is ego?

What's it like, being your Self?

How do I stop identifying with something?

How do you become aware of something, do you accept it's yours?

Then how do I get something random (eg. a cold) if I wasn’t even aware of it before it came?

What is the 3D? How do I change it?

Does that mean I have everything I want in the 3D right now?

Why haven't my desires manifested yet?

How do you drop a belief?

Would dropping a belief be the same as accepting a belief? Is the process the same?

How can I change my appearance?

How can I stop being conscious of my old face?

What do I do when I have doubts?

If I know I am Awareness, why do I still lack things?

Why don't my affirmations work?

How to deal with situations which traumatized me? (TW: SA)

I want to change something in my life, how do I go about that?

How to make my life perfect?

Do past and future exist? Why not?

How can you explain there being no past and no future?

How to spawn things/make my results instant?

What happens to me when the body dies?

Is there ever any delay?

How to get rid of my conviction of being the body?

I've been living in my 4D forever and still no results in the 3D, what am I doing wrong?

How to have everything I want?

Do I need to meditate to discover my Self?

Should I condition my mind that I am God?

What do I do if I feel I am only halfway?

How do you practice erasing problems from the mind?

Why do I struggle with manifesting instantly?

Why am I still not getting my desires if I understand nondualism?

How to fix the separation between "me" and the world?

I can't control my thoughts, what should I do?

How do I cease to be what I feel I am?

I can't suppress my desires, help?

Do spirit guides/ghosts/deities exist?

My circumstances are so saddening and exhausting, how does one realize themselves in that?

Stop allowing yourself to be what you are not

I am attached to my character and her family, how do I get over this?

I'm sad letting go of my character, what happens to her?

If I am infinite consciousness, how can I be conscious of being a new person or having a new story?

I'm confused, shouldn't 3D be instantaneous if I have my desire in my 4D?

How do I get out of the cycle of trying to change my life?

I'm imagining myself as a person who is manifesting instead of a person who has, why can't I stop?

I have so many obligations, all I want is peace of mind. How can I be free from them?

I'm afraid of losing my mind if I believe in this

What's the simplest advice you can give me?

How do I treat the "real" world as a dream?

I only know myself as a conditioned being, how can I be the opposite?

What is realisation, after all?

How do I practice nondualism?

How can I stop experiencing desire and fear?

What prevents me from knowing my Self, here and now?

Why shouldn't I desire? I deserve the best so I should have the best

How to know my Self?

How to change the body?

How do I go back to just being "I AM"?

Can you do a guide for how to awaken ourselves and change our lives?

One concept that I don't understand is how are we as consciousness, everything?

Why am I still confused? I'm hopeless atp

What if I'm a certified non-believer?

Why hasn't my 4D come to fruition?

Is it all about having a new identity?

Can I change facts by changing my attitude?

How to be done with trying once and for all?

I feel hopeless about my circumstances, when will it end?

I overconsumed and I don't know what to do anymore, help?

4D Self/3D Self, do I exist as two people?

I know my Self but I still try to get things, so what does that mean?

I want my desires, to realize my true Self I feel like I should be in the right mental space first

No matter what, I can't make myself believe I'm my ideal person

How can I possibly realize myself as a depersonalized, universalized awareness of nothing in particular?

Why can't I get what I want by manifesting?

One thing that really bothers me is: do I have to endure the world while I know my self as awareness and disbelieve that I am Vanessa?

Why can't I change the world?

How do I get in the void?

Should I keep striving for the void?

What if I'm just not fit to know my Self?

How do I reach my higher Self?

I have a health condition that needs attending quickly

How long does it take to reach self-realization?

How to gain control over the world?

What do I tell my human Self when she asks for her desires?

What exists and what doesn't? What is real and what is false?

What am I, in comparison to the universe?

What if I'm unworthy of my ideals?

GOOGLE DRIVE

For those who are sad she left, so am I. I miss her too, but I also realize why she left. There was nothing more to say, she's said it all, we just need to listen, trust, and live in accordance with what we've found. Wish you all the best on your journey.

Here's more questions answered, if you hadn't found yours in this list. I hit the limit on links in a single post so I had to make a separate one.

some questions from lester levenson's 'happiness is free' book

most of these questions require you to write down a list of all your desires/beliefs and answer the questions related to them.

could i let go of wanting to get happiness from [insert item] and allow myself to rest as the happiness i am?

am i willing to live in a world with no problems?

when you see a problem: what frustrated ego desire is causing this problem?

then, you ask yourself: could i let go of wanting that?

would i rather fit in or would i rather be free?

can i turn [desire] into a desire for freedom?

would i rather have the desire or would i rather be free?

am i longing for the desire or to get out of pain?

can i let go of wanting to change this and let it be as it is?

would i rather believe in freedom or be the freedom that i've always believed in?

could i let go of [belief]?

would i rather believe in [the belief] or know the truth?

would i rather believe in [the belief] or be the truth?

these questions are about non-love emotions

could i change this feeling to love?

could i allow myself to love [thing] as much as i do?

LISTEN UPPP. And listen up good.

all the questions in my asks are the same worded differently. so i'll make a long post answering multiple points

The idea that there is a world outside of yourself is just your thought that there is a world. Body dies, alright? It dies. And with no one, no senses to perceive a world, the world goes as well. Both poof, both disappear.

YOU still exist. Can you imagine not existing????

Even when body, which is matter, goes, who you think you are (the personality) still stays. Here's how I know, not just from my documentation:

Before I discovered manifesting, back in 2019, I had a very poor sleep schedule, it was like 9-10 in the morning, I haven't slept all night, mentally I was wide awake but my body was so exhausted it felt so heavy on me. Mentally I was completely fine, so I had a hard time falling asleep. But I did. Or so I thought. Because as soon as I did I found 'myself' above my body, looking down at it. Reminder, I had no experience with spirituality, I watched a series about astral projecting in the past (Through her eyes on Netflix) but I won't say I believed it, or even contemplated that I could do it. Obviously when this happened none of my thoughts went to astral projection. I panicked so hard, if I had a body I would have been having 10 panic attacks a second and hyperventilating. I thought I was dead. That was my first thought. I was dead. I went from my bedroom to my parents, desperately calling for my mom, but no one was home, it was 10AM, weekday in the summer, and both my parents were at work. I was afraid to leave my parents room and go outside the house, because 1) my screaming was inaudible, even though I WAS screaming "MOM save me" with everything I had 😆 2) nobody could see me, i couldn't even see me, i was not even a cloud, i was nothing, how could anybody interact with me? 3) i was scared that if i went much farther away from my body, outside, then I would be abandoning it & really make it disappear since I was nowhere around it. What I did was go back to my bedroom, scream my name in my face telling myself to wake up. It didn't work, 'I' didn't hear me either. So my next action plan was to give myself CPR. I had no body, but what other choice did I have except attempt at resurrecting myself? I went full in, wanting to push whatever weight I had (none) onto my chest, and I... plunged. I was in the body again, wide awake now, shaking like a leaf and ready to cry. I was so panicked, I had a hard time believing I was actually alive. I was looking at my arms still unsure if I was dreaming or awake. I texted the only friend I knew I'd find up at that hour to confirm that they were getting my texts and I was real. I did start crying when I started explaining to them of how I "dreamed" I was dead. I had no other way to explain it to myself, let alone another person. That was the scariest experience of my life. I was afraid to go back to sleep. I kept my friend up with me for longer than an hour just talking to me so I could come back to my senses. I was legitimately afraid that if I close my eyes and fall asleep, I'll lose my body again. That I would die for real now. Then I settled to this being "another chance" (lol now) and I swore I'll fix my sleeping habits (because they lead me to death LOL again)

If you want more technical info on my experience with astral projecting: I could see but not as clear as I see with my eyes. The images were blurry but not blurry enough to not know where I was or what I was seeing, but blurry enough to not be able to tell if the body was breathing, hence the extra panic. (I've read that the more you do it, the better it gets and you end up seeing normally/clearly) You can check out Bob Monroe's journey with astral projection if it's something you're interested in. I can only explain it as floating in the air, I could go down or go up, change the perspective of my sight in whichever way I wanted. Body is on the ground so you know, perspective is quite limited from it. My angle was from above but I had a wider range of perspectives.

Back to the point, body dies. Personality is left. You are left with 'yourself'. But what is 'yourself' is only an idea you made up about yourself. An idea that you were born, had this body, developed this personality, and that is you. What're you gonna do now when there's no world and no body to interact with? Why stay like this when there's no one to know what you were before? You stay like this because you're attached to this personality. But being like this in nothing will get boring, eventually, so boring that you will be willing to lose this you have now to be something/someone else because it's the only entertainment you have. So you become another person, and another, and another... so many you are attached to none any more and they're just experiences YOU want to have. WELL WHO IS YOU IF YOU CAN ADD ANOTHER PERSONALITY ONTO IT?

Free will and "real" life

The free will of the character is so limited it's none. The extent of Ada's free will in making decisions goes "Yeah, I'll break up with Joe and get with Rowan. Rowan is a better fit for me because my personality is this and his is that and we go well together yada yada" Who's to say Harry wouldn't have been an even better fit, but she had no choice because she only knew Joe and Rowan. TRANSLATION: character only makes do with what it has. It's all it can do. Making choices in a play you're a part of doesn't change the overall destiny (Have you ever played any of those 'choose your story' games? They give you the illusion that the choice you make alters the character's life, when in reality most is decided already and you're making no dent in the plot). And yes, it's true that I can change the beliefs Ada has, therefore alter the plot (what manifesting mostly is), but it's a very hard process, conditioning an already extremely limited and conditioned thing. I can change her destiny only if I manage to change her beliefs (which are usually very strong and egos are very stubborn). Past is remembered all the time so whenever I try to make a change in her thinking the reasoning part of her brain goes "But HOW can I suddenly be lucky when all my life I've had bad luck? It's just very hard to believe." And it is, and she is right. And then you think you're weak minded for not being able to do it.

Listen. Your brain is a very limited thing. It stores memories and habits of this body and that's all it knows.

Mind (is synonymous with consciousness!) contains all, every conception, but identifies itself with one in particular for the duration of the play. The brain is the mind of that character, and all the character knows.

BLIND FAITH IS STUPID.

If Vanessa isn't naive or easily trusting, that girl is never gonna take some stranger's word for it that she can change her life by thinking she's gorgeous and powerful all of a sudden. She will try and try (to recondition herself and do what she's been told that works) but she doesn't really believe because she doesn't see it so nothing comes of it. Changes are small, mindset might be better (she may be overall happier depending on the amount of reconditioning of her brain she managed to do, or she goes insane and her mental health is even worse because she's always finding things to change with herself, trying and trying and trying in this never ending cycle of being better, doing more). Basically, Vanessa is doomed either way and she has limited power even when she thinks she's the shit. "Trust in God, I AM, your higher self!", "Have faith and it will work!" Well, I, as Ada, can't. I am very stubborn you see. I can't believe in waiting bringing me stuff about. Who's this higher self anyway, why is it making me wait and have faith? What's this law with its blind faith, except remastered religion?

Enough. What you are, you see. You are Vanessa or Lara, okay, you are because you believe you are. And you're right! It's true, you are, your eyes are working fine and your life might be hell 😍 what do you have to lose if YOU CHANGE YOUR MIND and think "What if I wasn't?" Streams and floods of better ideas of what you could've been/could be come through, don't they? "That's so nice if it were true🥺" Alrightie then! That must be the solution, no? Not be Vanessa? Well how do I stop being Vanessa? How (the big HOW!!) do you know you are Vanessa except by your belief that you are Vanessa? 🤷‍♀️ To know a different thing you must stop thinking this one is true first? "Got it, it's not!", "But even if it's not me I am seeing her life and her 'reality'?", "I am unaffected by the events now, but how do I stop seeing them?" Are you, though? You sure it has nothing to do with you anymore? Fine I'll take your word for it ☺️ Now start thinking you're a different thing. BUT THE SAME EVENTS OF HER LIFE HAPPEN?! Really, how so? World has no standing except for your thought of it, be honest with yourselves, not me. I'll reenact what you're doing.

"Ada, your depression is not real. Your house is not real. Your parents are not real." "Yes, they are, I see them!", "Don't invalidate my experience, I have TRAUMA😠" that's how the convo goes. Then you get disinterested in the convo, "Alright I'm tired of your problems, not me". And you feel lighter, you feel better. You soothed your mind for the time being, there's no big feelings now that you don't identify yourself with her...

For a while, because then something happens and you still believe it's there and it's real and you have to somehow deal with it. You're back confusing the 'you' with Vanessa. "I'm seeing the parents and the world again, that must mean I did it wrong?" I need to ask, seek more. Where do I go from this? WOULD YOU CARE WHAT HAPPENED NEXT, SEEING THE SAME WORLD TOMORROW, IF YOU REALLY DISBELIEVED VANESSA IS YOU OR YOUR BUSINESS? WOULD YOU CARE, I ask you.

"I don't care... but what do I do next, I'm lost🥺"

"Of course I care!!! I want a better life!!!" Who's you?, you go back to the beginning of the post again, you especially read it five times more actually.

To answer the first:

Think what you want.

Past doesn't come up anymore, memories don't come up anymore after you've ignored - detached yourself enough. They just don't. You can think freely now about being something different. If you can't, don't get mad, don't blame, only know that the one that's doubting isn't you, so the doubts are totally fine to be. They'll be for a while and then they dissolve too, because by ignoring, not getting involved - you forget. And by forgetting not only do you free up so much mental space, but possibilities of what can be become unnumbered.

All you are doing is becoming lucid. Becoming able to control the dream. You won't be able to, unless you step out of it. That is, stop thinking this story you tell yourself is true. You won't be able to get mad, sad, or even frustrated at whatever is playing in front of you, because to be involved to this extent you have to think you're it, it's an actual thing "you" are going through. That's not to say you'll become an emotionless robot (the only thing unlimited abt you guys rn is your worries, so much that i have to address them in advance), but that you will feel your emotion in the present and not remain mentally scarred by it forever. You will be able to say "alright, no more" when you've had your fill of crying, being angry, throwing a fit. Emotions won't be able to rule you anymore, right now, they fully do. You are their prisoner. Your ego dominates you so completely.

When Vanessa is no longer all you are, you'll be able to 'change reality' the way you change the film in a video projector. You'll be able to have as much fun in the play as you want to, change it when you no longer want this one specifically. The emotions of the character are fun and welcomed, because they no longer imprison you, there's the background of love to it all - that once you gain, it can't be lost, it's ever present.

That being said, please stop asking me questions about fulfilling or persisting, they're from another planet in this state.

Deep dive into what you are experiencing

by Being_Is_IT / Twitter

In a previous article titled "Can the reality be experienced", I pointed out that the Mind subtly assumes that there is a higher or better reality hiding behind the present moment you are feeling, touching, and tasting. The Mind automatically assumes that the present moment is inferior to an imagined future moment as if you may transition into something better. Actually, the Mind's assumption is completely wrong. Unconditioned perfection is right here in the present moment.

Whatever you are feeling, tasting, experiencing, is already perfection without conditions. There is nothing better hiding behind. There will be nothing better waiting for you in the future. All that you have right now and right here is *perfection* by default.

But the Mind always complain that "I have not been able to experience the reality". The Mind automatically assumes that what is being experienced is something called "illusion" that is opposite to something better called "reality". And the Mind wishes to get out of something called "illusion" and get into something called "reality". No, it's not the case at all. Let me emphasize, what is being experienced is the only actuality that is SELF.

There is never anything that can be defined as illusion. The only subtlety is that all the interpretation of the Mind is illusory. All that can be experienced is SELF, the only perfection without conditions. Therefore, there is not anything or any situation that can be defined as illusion. The word "illusion" indicates only that the interpretation of the Mind is illusory, not indicative of any actual thing or object present that can be defined as "illusion".

For example, the effect of experiencing of an apple is actual, but interpreting such effect of experiencing as an object called "apple" is illusory. For example, the effect of experiencing of "me" is actual, but interpreting such effect of experiencing as a person living in a body called "me" is illusory. For example, the effect of experiencing of time is actual, but the interpretation of this effect of experiencing as something called "time" is illusory. Simply, the energetic effect of time is not actually something actually existing as time, all that is - is an energetic effect that Mind arbitrarily labels as a concept of "time".

For example, you can't deny the experiential effect of space, but the Mind automatically and arbitrarily interprets this experiential effect as something called "space" as if there is really an object or physical property called "space" existing. Such interpretation is an illusion. Don't seek something better or more glorious hidden behind the obvious phenomena. The phenomenon itself is by default perfection itself. Please notice all the interpretations and definitions imagined out of the Mind, these interpretations and definitions don't actually stand at all.

Even if the Mind interprets the present moment as "pain and suffering". No, it's actually not the case at all. Enjoy anyway. Even if the Mind interprets the present moment as lack or deficient. No, it's actually not the case at all. Enjoy anyway. The moment that the Mind imagines about "deep inside", you immediately discern that the Mind is lying to you. There is nothing hiding deep inside. The very concepts of "deep" and "shallow" are illusory.

The moment that the Mind imagines about "better future", you immediately discern that the Mind is lying to you. There is not a "future" because what feels like as "time" is not actually something as time. The idea of "future" is illusory. Regardless of what the Mind interpreting the present moment as, don't take the Mind's definition seriously, directly know that this is the only perfection that you can ever have, nothing better next second, nothing better tomorrow. Enjoy.

I don't understand. Bloggers are saying to disregard the senses. I do and nothing happens, no matter how much I continue in my knowing... what am I doing wrong?

"Disregard the senses"???

Do you not realize what that is saying is just loa repackaged.... "ignore the 3D", basically.

3D = world

You are aware of the world, world IS.

Senses are part of the body. You are aware of the body -> body is and its seeing is PERFECT AND FINE. Ignore senses why? You are making them be, they ARE. You are the knower of those TOO if you are the knower of the body. You made senses the enemy now for some reason? Why? They exist through your awareness, they are just part of the body.

If you're not seeing what ego wants is simply because you're aware of yourself living in a world you don't want. Senses are totally under your dominion like everything else. You suddenly separated them for the body and started asking questions about them, to which I'm confused on what kind of answers besides what I've just said you could have gotten.