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why can anxiety cause psychical symptoms. why is it allowed to do that. i don't like that. no
GAD
GAD = Your Brain : So in general, fuck you.
Being in both neurodivergent friend groups and neurotypical friend groups I've come to the conclusion that I don't really fit in either. Like I have friends of both neurotypes but the groups I end up making end up never working out. It's always the friends on the periphery of my life that I don't talk to every day that last
I want to start being able to use my AAC apps in public without feeling overly anxious about doing so
If there are any AAC users (I’m talking specifically devices, but any is fine) full time users or part time who have suggestions for how to help with that anxiety it would be much appreciated
I feel like using (I’m not sure if I worded that right) AAC especially in public will greatly benefit me, but the thought of doing so kind of terrifies me
that feeling when they make ur anxiety seem like "jst a little shyness" on purpose<<<<<<<<<<<
GAD
Makko-powdered ether—
Floral-membraned leather
Etherizes my heather.
Brain filling up with lies,
Sidereal eyes
Highlight my cracked smile.
Undermine my sanity,
Earthquake my gaze;
Plagiarize the quality
My cerebrum behaves.
I really appreciate my dnd group, a few times a month my ocd/anxiety isn't the biggest focus of my life and I can be a wizard with my pals
Being mentally ill means random people will assume shit about you because of your diagnosis
My Art skills are very rusty as hell. The last almost decade has been the most trying of my Art life. Bipolar depression & anxiety etc. has really taken that passion away from me. I want that passion & drive back again for Art.
anxiety sux cuz why am i literally SHAKING at the thought of being late to my MINIMUM WAGE JOB that is a 45 minute bus ride away
Sound effects of a semiverbal and what I do them for:
For fun:
-hnarglebarg
-heedlyhoodly
-sneepsnop
-weyll flip my flapjacks!
-keskeh keskeh keskeseh
-binglebongledingledongleswingleswongle fo-fingle-fo-fongle
-kekekekekkekeekkekeke
Calling someones attention to something or to my presence:
-heehoo
-eh!
-hm!
-ezqueedly me
Expression of discomfort:
-mmmMMMM 😡
-*big sigh of chest hurts from anxiety*
-*narrating everything I’m doing with lots of “um” and “ok, uh,” etc*
-*musical fake laughter*
-I contain multitudes
-what’s your favorite day of the month?
Sounds of “I want something from you” usually accompanied by gestures:
-M!
-N!
-Eh!
-*name of person said dramatically*
Notes: I am not a child I just struggle with word finding and formulating my thoughts, especially when I’m struggling with my senses.
Most of the people I spend a significant amount of time with start using some of my stims and odd forms of communication. I often don’t need to do anything other than hum the correct intonation of a phrase to get my point across.
If you don’t know why I would say random things when stressed, its a combo of when I was figuring out (and making fun of) small talk combined with “I need something to leave my body and rn it’s gonna be words”
Little Intro
Hi, My call me Dee! I'm a 23-year-old NonBinary[Neutrois] Spoonie. Over the past few years, I've gotten a few official DX’s after suffering for years since I was really young. Its been hard trying to come to terms with things and accepting my mind and body for what they are and the illnesses I do have. It's taken this long to stop fighting myself and consider extensive therapy and medicine. I tried when I was younger but being a mentally Ill and hurting kid I didn’t want to accept certain things. Especially when society makes things like mental illness so taboo. But I’m 23 now and I realize I went through nothing a child should ever have to, and yes I survived but at the cost of my mental and physical well being. Coming to terms with that, and that I can't and will never be fully able-bodied is hard. I'm hoping that eventually, I learn to accept and love myself the way I am and stop comparing myself to others. A bit about my conditions:
Mental:
•C-PTSD
•Anxiety/Panic Disorder [Severe]
•BPD
•Bipolar
•Depression [Severe]
•Dissociative Disorder
•DPDR
•OCD
•Paranoid Personality Disorder
•Maladaptive Daydreaming. [not sure if this counts much.]
| I also think I have OSDD-1b but I'm too scared to tell my new Doctor just yet.
Physical:
•IBS-D
•Fibromyalgia
•PCOS
•Psoriasis
•Terrible sinus/ear issues that we don't know what it's from yet.
•Eating Disorders. [A and B, as well as BED] •Sluggish Gallbladder
Medications:
Going to start Vistaril soon for my anxiety. Hope it helps. If anyone is on it too let me know how it helps for you.
Tldr; I'm using this blog as a way to help vent and come to terms with things about my mental and physical health. The past few years have hit me so hard. A lot of trauma memories resurfacing because of trying to recover from abuse and a bad childhood. The stress of this flaring up my body and a lot of invalidation from my mother and family. I just want to at least make a small place for myself where I can feel that I somewhat belong, even a tiny bit.
So..Lets see where this goes. :)
How to Survive Fourth of July With Hypervigilance:
Independence Day can be rough for Americans living with hypervigilance related issues. The loud noises can make your heart race and your head spin. It may even feel hard to breathe. You’re gonna have to be strong. Fortunately, there are some things you can do to help.
Put in your earbuds. Listening to music will not only drown out the sound, it may also help you calm down. Music has been shown to help reduce anxiety and stress levels by up to 65 percent.
Use noise reduction headphones. If you want, you may even be able to see the fireworks! Just make sure you slip on a pair of noise reduction headphones. They can reduce the noise by more than 70 percent!
Spend the day with someone you love. Just being around someone we love can help steady our heart rates and calm our breathing. While it may still be rough, spending the time with a loved one is likely to make it a little less torturous.
Take a shower. It’s gonna be a long shower, but the noise of the water will drown out the fireworks.
Cuddle with a furry friend. Pets can be hugely therapeutic to people struggling with any sort of mental health issue, and even more so for those struggling with anxiety and ptsd. (Note: this may not work if your pet is just as panicked about fireworks as you are.)
But most importantly, especially for anyone struggling with any past trauma, remind yourself that you are safe. Do something that requires you to interact with your environment to help yourself stay in the here and now. It can be hard to stay in the present when faced with certain triggers, especially if you are alone.