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I just need a tutorial on how to become self.

As in advice on what to do during the day. Like does saying “I Am” during the day suffice?

There is so much information everywhere and as someone who wants to become freedom, it is hard to just read asks or post and completely understand and apply it.

Does imaging help? Does just affirming I am help? Do I need to accept something? In that case what, and who is doing the acceptance?

I do feel confused. But telling me to let go is just hard to understand, because what am I letting go of? The thought or desires? Can you help the process by saying that you already are it/ have it/ I am?? Like what does it mean to let go?

Well, here's a practice.

I didn't follow this. I never repeated "I AM" to myself, I didn't need to remind myself of the fact that I exist.

All I did was remember what I was not, use everything to remind myself of who I truly am. Then, did what I wanted without considering ego (body/mind) and with no expectation.

Nisargadatta said he didn't condition his mind either, by telling himself "I am beyond", "I am God", etc. He trusted his teacher when he told him "I AM the Supreme Reality" and acted accordingly.

welcome . . .

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this blog is about Self realisation & nondualism! my reblogs are kept on @lains-journal and book excerpts are on @ndbookstudy

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understanding consciousness & non dualism series: part 1 : how to know you are only consciousness part 2 : why everything is consciousness; non dualism part 3 : everything is imagination & an illusion part 4 : what exactly is consciousness (you)? part 5 : ego + when "you" dont understand non dualism part 6 : time, thoughts & meditation part 7 : proof that everything is imaginary part 8 : stop and just observe part 9 : non dualism vs law of assumption part 10 : the world within the mind + the 5 senses part 11 : the unreal vs the real part 12: finally, play a new game

मन पवन हो गंगा में डूब नहाए,

मन रावण को जो लहरों में तूने बहाए..

Once again fighting and defeating my inner demons I realise, the evil and the virtuous are not outside but within one's self. It's about conquering victory over your own vices with your virtues. Ganga is the ever flowing river of knowledge in the universe. The knowledge that purifies the soul. The knowledge that takes our vices away in it's flow. All we need to do is plunge into the river. May knowledge enlighten you! Hari Om❤️

Then why do you even eat sleep or even live these are wants by the way , wanting and desiring are a part of dream yes it is not “us” wanting or desiring also how does desiring a mansion or whatever any different than wanting to eat if that so then you do also not practice ND right or whatever that is because i am sure you do have desires on daily

The motivation is different, you have desires because you take yourself to be separate

That is literally it, you’re giving yourself reasons to compensate yourself when we have countlessly talked about how there can be a participation in the dream without taking it seriously

In a simulation game , why do you do play it if it’s not real? In a lucid dream, do you just stand in one place because it’s unreal or do you continue on except with the unshakable knowing of the dream world having no substance

Of course desires are present, no one said they would disappear, sometimes I have the desire to delete my blog cause I feel like my words are literally doing nothing

Essentially, desires in themselves aren’t bad, but coming into ND with the sole aim of attaining something is what is futile because that alone contradicts “non duality”, desires are present due to the idea of being a real separate person in a real world that is against you

Can you do a guide for how awakening ourself and change our life?

All my posts are guides if you want it enough :D

There is already one up, and this too should be useful :)

First and foremost get to a place where the person you're identified with right now doesn't bother you anymore. It's a kind of surrendering but to me, truthfully and honestly, it felt more like a giving up. Even if it makes you miserable, accept it until you no more fear it or care if you stay the same.

If anybody here started from law of attraction back in 2020, you may know they had a step to "let go", everybody revolted because if we want it of course we aren't gonna be able to let it go. They were right, but not in the way they thought they were. Both letting go or trying to convince our ego of something does nothing. It feels very unnatural and:

• delusional to claim you have something you do not see, depending on everyone's personality;

• rage inducing to be told to let go when the ego considers this desire a NEED, it has to have it and nothing will stop it.

Last year when I've read Lester's book for the first time, it made my heart drop each time he said "Let go of all desires" - it made me feel hopeless instead of empowered. I was like "you can't be serious, I CAN'T, you're supposed to help me not sink me". Nobody trusts in the "let go", especially now after law of assumption when you know you are the source of all that is. Let go and do what? Who's gonna give it to me if it's all my doing? It really made me feel nauseous when he told me to stop desiring because I really couldn't go on without having what I needed. It felt like he was telling me to just endure life. We all got into loa because we were at low bottom and wished ourselves better, what do you mean wish nothing? I half wanted to smack him.

After law of attraction, it was law of assumption - you lose patience and gain resentment when it doesn't show up when you want it to, sometimes (a lot) not at all. You aren't sure of anything, you're just supposed to blindly trust. Don't ask how, don't ask when, just fulfill yourself. Well I want it now and I want it like this, if it's all me why isn't it happening now and like this???? It was contradicting and nothing exponentially significant happened no matter how much I mentally acted as that person, since I still knew myself to be me (past ego).

Loa was wrong about letting go because you can't let go of desires or fears if you don't know who you really are. If you think you are this ego you can't help being anxious. You can't help wanting to get. Real Surrendering can only be of the ego. By letting go of who you think you are and seeing you were never it in the first place, that it is because YOU are, you naturally drop all desires and fears because they weren't yours. And if you want to be a person, now can just pick another person who has none. You aren't anxious because you have no reason to, you were never what you thought to be your self so nothing can stop you from changing anymore. Doubts don't exist because they don't have "time" to. Creation is instantaneous with the creator. There's no rage or resentment since emotions are of the ego, your real self has an equal attitude toward everything.

See that you are first, with no labels; not even that of male/female. SEE THAT FOR EVERYTHING ELSE TO BE YOU NEED TO BE FIRST. See how there would be no thing if there wasn't someone for it to happen to! There is no world and no person without the one who experiences it. You are that one and not the thing you are conscious of.

pls help

I know you’ve answered this question before, about ego and I apologize for asking the same question but I just don’t get it.

I’ve been into every corner of the internet asking for the same advice, how do I get away from ego? and I’ve gotten the typical advices “observe” “be aware of everything and notice it” and so on. I’m not saying that’s bad I know what “you’re supposed to do” but girl, I’ve tried it and I still feel like this limited bitch (sorry for the cursing is just I feel so lost) like I feel like I’m glued to her. Everyone I try not to identify it feels IMPOSSIBLE, I don’t even know that feeling of just feeling numb or feeling extreme happiness and love Ike Robert Adams says. I know this topic intelectually, but I don’t know it and I don’t understand it. I few when people are giving me these advices they’re talking about something non existent, it feels like they’re lying ( pls don’t take is as if I’m saying that what you write is fake but I just don’t understand them ) my ego feels like still needs to work and all I do is try, try and go insane. I don’t want to read a book no more, I don’t want to read a book about ND and be like “wow I’m limitless” and then be like “oh nvm”.

How do u guys not feel like humans? How do u do it Sophie? It seems so far away from me. I don’t want to work or figure out. Like I genuinely give up on trying, I just want to exist. I want to know, how? genuinely, how??

how guys when you cry u dont identify??? it’s that even possible? how could someone ever feel numb?

A little piece of me believes in this, like I’ve somehow experienced the proof of this, which is my existence. But why do I feel like this ego??? Am I connected with Grace (my real name lol) for ever??? All I read is content and I don’t even understand nothing no more. It all feels impossible and so far away. I’ve tried everything, and I don’t feel like it works for me.

this is kinda embarrassing, but please, what would you do in my place? I don’t even want to read about ND no more lol that’s how done I am with this. I know this is my ego complaining but I feel like I’m just repeating theory over and over. I’ve cried these days over and over to figure out how it; what do these people do to not feel like their ego???

#help

You can literally see me starting my journey here. All my progress happened live and in front of this site's eyes. I did it all BY myself with myself. I read Ada's posts when she was here and replying to asks (~3months maybe?) And then other 3 months of revising her words over and over and doing my best to apply.

So if I'm "rude" sometimes; it's because I started just like all of you also. I didn't start as an enlightened master but just a girl coming across this information on tumblr. And not in good circumstances AT ALL.

I haven't really cried in a long time; but if I did I wouldn't feel "numb". I would enjoy the experience like all the other experiences. It's your ego's judgements that make something anything but lovely and love.

If you're spiralling then it means you haven't even understood it intelectually. You really have no choice but to make yourself understand; read some more or just give up. If it's too much — move on from the topic for now and do something else with your life until you're ready to come back to Self realization again (because you will be back, the world can give you nothing of lasting value).

Lastly, you can't get away from ego because you are making it up. You make it up and then go "how to get rid of it?" It doesn't exist. Not without you here to experience it.

Ego is A THOUGHT. You're trying to get away from your own mind.

𝐀𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐬?

Think about the last time you had a "big" desire. Maybe you wanted to be in an Oscar-winning movie, maybe you wanted to be a world-famous singer, or maybe you just wanted to date your celebrity crush. How did you react to the desire? Did you allow yourself to feel worthy, did you feel the possibility of your desire, did you accept it as it came to you?

You most likely found yourself feeling unworthy, uncomfortable, or anxious about your desire instead. You might have even thought that you were insane for even thinking of it.

That's the issue.

You are considering your worthiness. You are arguing with yourself and allowing circumstances from the 3D, the past, or societal standards to get in the way of your ultimate fulfillment.

In fact, you can get exactly what you desire. It doesn't matter who you are, what you do for a living, how much money you had growing up, how much talent you have, or what you look like. None of this matters.

So, dare to assume. Accept your desires as they come to you. Never hold yourself back.

You don't need permission to become the version of yourself that you desire to be.

hey lain! im so sorry if this post is long asf but i just spent like 25+ minutes reading your posts and replies to anons. i (well ego, actually) has spent every day since she learned about non-dualism seeking something that would "click." she was desperately trying to find what she needed to do to realize self, because as much as she told herself in her mind that she understands non-dualism, she really wasn't understanding. so anyway, she basically just had this feeling of "i'm done trying. this is exhausting and i'm so damn tired of this. there's nothing to try. the fact that i desire things and want to understand things etc., is all irrelevant." so with that, she started scrolling thru your posts, reading them fully rather than skimming them (she's lazy and doesn't like reading all the way, she always just skimmed long posts💀💀)

she just wanted the most simplest understanding on what to do and now she knows that it's literally just to stop identifying with ego. so i, my actual self, literally does not need to ask questions. i do not wonder what to do, all thoughts of "what do i have to fix" is ego. i do not have to convince ego that i am not her because... she isn't real and self doesn't think anyway, so anytime i have one of those exhausting mind battles where i think i'm telling ego that everything is fake and an illusion, i just need to remember that both of those thoughts are literally the ego. so feeling like i need to read more information, or i need to convince myself of something, will always be the ego, not ME. ALL THAT I NEED TO DO IS NOT IDENTIFY WITH EGO.

and let me tell you, i paused reading for a sec to "test it" (not necessarily testing anything but i was just getting into the feeling of not identifying) and i genuinely felt the difference. like i felt what i was supposed to, the freedom and desirelessness yk? every thought in my mind, every feeling i had, any desire i was thinking about "getting" i just said quietly said in my head, not me. that's all ego. and i didn't bother convincing or reassuring myself like "see its just ego so relax, okay i don't need to worry. i'm not ego! remember that!" because the only thing that ever needs reassurance is ego, and reassuring her is identifying with her. i didn't bother trying to "believe" anything because i knew anything further was ego. and if i am not ego, it is absolutely pointless to do anything more than just observe the thoughts and let it pass. i'd be holding my own self back from freedom by doing anything more than observing and letting it pass.

basically i just wanted to share that, because i got this giddy and relieving feeling because i know exactly what i need to do. it's not even something i "need to do", it's not a process, it's just a simple look at anything that makes me feel not free or like i'm desiring and thinking "not me, just ego." and moving on! i already feel less stressed because i'm not trying to achieve desires, i don't feel desire, ego does, but i'm not her so i don't have to fix it or remove the desire, i just let it pass on. i feel so relaxed now and just empty (in a good way. i'm emptied of hopelessness, desire, confusion) the "click" ego wanted so bad is basically this. and its so SIMPLE. i know that the habit of identifying is still kinda there for me though, but understanding the simplicity of this now and not feeling the need to search for "what to do" is gonna make it so easy to break the habit once and for all. thank you so much for your posts lain sincerely. i might delete tumblr to avoid the ego's habit of mindlessly opening the app and scrolling for hours cuz she thinks she needs to find the secret krabby patty formula to realizing self but at the same time your page brings such a comforting and safe feeling that i love 💙💙💙

i'm so glad you understand! it's good that you finally practised, you can read everything and get nowhere if you don't take the leap ♡

keep going!

Hello 👋

All of your favorite horniest sex scenes?

Hello! I've been busy, so this has taken forever to get to!

I don't always need the guys to bounce around on each other and gyrate enthusiastically for it to out as horny. Oftentimes, I find myself more drawn in by the building desire between the characters, and the explicit acknowledgement of release. I like when the sex feels like it's also revealing something to us about the characters. I've highlighted many of these before, but it's fun to revisit.

Ghost Host, Ghost House Episode 4 Couch Scene

I will never get over this scene, and especially the director's cut of it. These guys knew they liked each other almost instantly, and it was so rewarding to see them reach a place where they could express that. Bonus points for discussing the logistics of gay sex.

This show has been on Gaga and YouTube for a while, but it's also now available on Viki!

La Pluie Episode 6 Floor Scene and Episode 7 Bed Scene

I liked this scene so much that I wrote about it. Again, there's a lot of anticipation between these two, and you can tell how far it's built up because Patts has to dial it back down when Saengtai wants to stop. It's especially important to me because Saengtai does blow Patts in the next episode. If you're on iQIYI, there's an extended cut of that at the end of the video lists.

Mood Indigo: The Post-Funeral Scene

These two are so horrible for each other, but damn are their sex scenes compelling. Theirs are the kinds of scenes only possible between two people you know can never work long term. I was so glad that we got back to Haruhiko in Playback, and the first thing he did was blow Rio in a car. If you haven't seen the Novelist, and you're itching for hornier BL, it's right there.

The End of the World With You "You're Soaked"

From the same team as The Novelsit, we got to experience baby's first fuckboy in this incredible show. Again, I love when we get scenes with couples who aren't ready to work, because they're allowed to have raunchier sex. They get to amp the intensity of the physicality because they need to give a reason why someone was so caught up and missed the warning signs. I actually love the car scene later as a more romantic intimacy scene, but we're focusing on horny here.

Jack o' Frost Birthday Sex

A common theme here with the Japanese offerings is that people are allowed to have more interesting sex scenes right before they split. This is true even in Jack o' Frost. We get a really great oner from the leads that precedes their breakup and Ritsu's accident. I think this might be my favorite of this list because the actors have to build the entire scene together since there aren't any cuts.

Gameboys 2 Bed Scene

Cairo and Gav are one of my favorite pandemic couples we got on screen, and I was quite relieved for them when they finally got to have this moment. We also confirmed they switch, and I love that.

Wedding Plan: Namnuea Showing Off His Stamina

No list for me would be complete without including them. I really loved seeing two gay men go at it after clearing out all of their misunderstandings. They had already had sad goodbye sex. It was thrilling to see them having enthusiastic, athletic sex. This also leads directly to one of my favorite emotional payoffs for a closeted character of all time.

Kiseki: Dear to Me Reunion

The second couple stole this show, but damn if I didn't love the way these two played out sex across multiple years between their characters. These two really suffered, and I really love the way Taro Lin and Hsu Kai captured the changes between these two as Bai Zong Yi grew and matured. This really was a solid sex scene.

Love Class 2: Sungmin and Joo Hyuk

I just really wanna thank them for reassuring me that if Korea wanted to, they could deliver.

Sleep With Me Jeans Scene

I am not a lesbian, but I share their beliefs. This scene was so good. I loved that these two, who have different kinds of disabilities, were able to have a very fun sex scene. I really like when it's clear both characters want to be there.

Only Friends: Boston and Top in the Car

Despite my eventual disdain for this show, I was impressed with Neo and Force for giving this incredibly selfish sex scene between their characters. This entire scene is about injured egos, and it's a standout scene from this show. We won't discuss the rest of the show here.

Thanks for the ask!