How’s Your Dream Going?

How’s your dream going?

it’s been a while since i’ve heard about you!! 🫶🏻🫶🏻

Dearest anon, my dream is well and peaceful although I am indifferent to it either way now which is what makes it peaceful and effortless :)

I considered writing a post on my learnings but was a bit hesitant because it's just another version of an experience that's already been spoken/written about many times before and there's nothing particularly special about this one. However, since you've asked, I will share some things about my journey and what has helped me personally which might help other Vanessas/versions of me out there. Please only take what resonates, my journey is not a blueprint for all journeys however I have noticed some commonalities in truth seekers.

The biggest thing was quite literally giving up entirely. I actually wrote a post on giving up about 3 months ago when I was earlier into this 'journey' and I still agree of course with what I wrote however I would write it differently if I were to write it now (it would be a more expanded version); perhaps I will write a part 2 although this answer here can sort of be taken as a part 2. You see, this Vanessa's life was quite comfortable in general so when she started on the ND path, while she was very determined to "get it", I wasn't motivated or entirely willing to give her up. We spent a lot of time letting go of concepts and limitations (and that definitely helped later on so I'm not saying it's not helpful, do what resonates for you!) and Vanessa/the ego was becoming subtler and subtler but it was still something I held onto. There was still identification with not much motivation to give it up entirely - sure there had been desire and interest to 'materialize' things but when we gave that up too, there wasn't anything. I was still lost in Maya despite the dream not being all that captivating or enjoyable.

Then quite literally life circumstances all of a sudden threw some major curveballs and Vanessa was terrified despite all that she had learned - it felt like all knowledge had suddenly disappeared and she had absolutely nothing to hold onto. After trying various things and going round in circles trying to keep everything at bay, the only thing left that really resonated was to quite literally give up on everything - it felt like there was no other option for peace but to do so because she was so mentally exhausted and drained from caring about every single thing that it was so much more appealing to be nothing and no one, to just BE… oh just the thought of being nothing and no one was freeing.

4dbarbie's words here gave Vanessa a lot of strength and direction (although her answer there was for a new identity, I did not use it for that as it was exhausting to even think of a new identity. I just wanted to be nothing and no one, that was most peaceful)

Give UP: It is what it is and 'you' can't do anything about it. Just let it all happen, we all die one day and it's over anyway. Worrying, fearing, doubting, striving, searching, desiring - how tiring, you would much rather sleep a hundred years. No matter what, you can't force life to give you what you want. Allow everything its being and leave it alone. Expect nothing from your body or mind. Let them do whatever they want, cease caring. Literally dgaf, if life wants to beat you, just let it beat you. (Ever had a bully? They get bored when you stop reacting and they leave you alone. They may increase the strength of their punches at first, but so what? You're already getting bullied... you can do nothing about it but cease caring and let it happen.)

And also this from 4dbarbie helped me understand the indifference that I had to embody:

I did not fake a lack of disturbance, I just let things happen to 'me' painful or not, I did not try not to react, I just didn't get involved emotionally with what was going on because I was tired, completely, of both desiring and being scared. The emotions didn't interest me anymore, I became indifferent to whatever was happening, neutral. If 'I' got what I wanted, whatever, if I didn't whatever again. I didn't try to change anything, the events just passed without leaving a 'footprint', all the bad/unwanted things had no reverberations anymore, it was like they never existed. Then there comes the idea of: what if they never actually did? And you fiddle and play with that a little. It's just play because you don't really care anymore, it's a real feeling of being unaffected, it's not manufactured because you aren't trying to get anything, not even 'realization', you want nothing anymore. This detached feeling, of needing nothing - it brings a lot of power, try to at least reach that and worry about the rest later.

She knew she had to stop trying to fight life but she was afraid of what would happen if she did stop trying. Eventually she got exhausted and had nothing left. Then no longer wanting/searching/trying to make happen any particular outcome or caring anymore, just pure indifference being in the present moment with no conditions/labels/problems is what gave her peace and then things just starting to ease up on their own. Things even happening on their own with just a random thought without any particular input.

I realized all the practices that Vanessa did before the curveballs had a 'doing' intention, a 'purpose' behind them (quieting the mind, self-realization, dropping beliefs etc) while afterwards, the same 'practices' were engaged again but with the intention of just being with no labels, no agenda, just being nothing and no one and this made all the difference - when you are no longer doing anything - you are not the doer/body/ego/mind; you're just being with no identification and no longer care about anything. And the indifference here is not forced or pretend like she used to have before as a defense mechanism, its genuine true indifference and full acceptance of everything (see the second 4dbarbie excerpt above - understanding and experiencing this subtle difference will help a lot).

The reality only comes when you give up yourself, when you give up your ego, when you give up your needs, your wants, trying to make something happen, desires, when you give up trying to become self-realized, when you just give up. - Robert Adams

Life is just a giant mirror of your Self. When you stop fighting it, it will stop too. But you have to be the one to initiate it. It takes courage and faith for sure to take that leap.

It has no choice but to die. What you take to be reality is the same, take away your identification and it soon ceases to be. - 4dbarbie

It can be easy to get lost in the dream again if you get caught up in the 'materialization' aspect - it's all still a dream even if forms change. Lester also talked about this in No Attachments, No Aversions:

I knew these things were not to be latched on to. I knew that if I got interested in them, I'd stop progressing. I had seen by this time that this world is a mentation - a dream. So to get interested in the dream again through interest in powers would trap me back into what I was wanting to get out of. - Lester Levenson

Also remember these things happen on their own, it's not the ego that's doing any of this and Self doesn't 'do' - Self is just effortlessly being. There's no 'doing' involved. If there's effort, it's ego as Lester said.

Now when I read my past blog posts or read Lester or Robert, there's an entirely new level of understanding and resonance with their words from before. This excerpt from Silence of the Hearts speaks more on what I was experiencing as well.

Let go of everything. Do not hold on. Stand naked before God, without any crutches, without anything to hold on to. There comes a time in everyone’s life when they have to stand naked before God. By standing naked I mean no scripture, no fancy words, no preconceived ideas, no spiritual intellectual knowledge. - Robert Adams

Perhaps without those curveballs, Vanessa would have continued to live in the illusion like an NPC in a Sims game until something like that happened to her and forced her to completely give up on everything and stand naked before God (her Self).

A day will come when you will long for the ending of the dream with all your heart and mind, and be willing to pay any price; the price will be dispassion and detachment and the loss of interest in the dream itself. Once you have seen that you are dreaming, you shall wake up. - Nisargadatta Maharaj

Now I know all happens by itself and I am just witness to it all. To all Vanessas out there, I know you got this. Follow your heart and trust in what resonates! And remember not to compare yourself to others, we are all One. Everything will be okay 💜💜💜

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harika-67

1 year ago

Why do you think some ppl are struggling to remember themselves? Bc the way you’re talking about it it looks so easy ?

Because from soo long we've been fooling ourselves to take everything as real, solid....when there's actually nothing at all.

Soo now even if you read everything, you understand superficially. When you know you know.

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harika-67

10 months ago

i’ve had great “success” with non-duality, yet my knowing of the true self does not remain permanent. it’s about 90% there. i was wondering what your take is on doubts? i feel as if i were Self, my characters doubts have 0 effect on me, literally nothing can alter Self. Yet, i’ve noticed when I shifted my awareness/thoughts to something- and then completely forgot about it, had 0 doubts, then it happened instantaneously.

right now i’m struggling to change something, and i think it’s because i’ve put it on this pedestal of attachment, and i’m so concerned wether im doing it right or wrong (ego), yet i know self can do no wrong. was just wondering about your thoughts of doubts/indifference! thank you :)

Yeah you're putting it on a pedestal because you feel it's a need, want it, are attached to it. It works the same for everything, all is just a form of consciousness, a symbol. The reason it doesn't work for this it's because, unlike food for example, you CARE because you feel desire, so you go back again to thinking it's not being, it's not there.

Indifference is second nature when you're fully realized and there is no differentiation between forms.

All happens instantaneously, you just haven't let go of ego for this one thing :)

You already have your answers it seems. You replied to yourself in your question.

But you aren't struggling and there is nothing to change. You are imagining the problem :D

You know your self by being your self. If you're perfect, there are no questions & problems that arise. Stop letting ego bother perfection if you know it's not you. Move on like with everything else. The faster you get ego out of the way, the faster you experience it.

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harika-67

1 year ago

With the same argument of "everything is illusory so why are you even replying?" or "Your actions come from the 'ego' " you might as well ask us why we still eat and drink, go to the bathroom or why we still buy food instead of just stealing it🤣or why are Chen and I in a relationship? Why are some of us studying nursing or still engage with our "families and friends"?

You said it yourself! That's the case

You are replying every ask with IT or nothingness etc etc but please, we have a life, a family to feed, we just wanna know how can we master it like u guys did :(

I saw your list of things u manifested using nd that's what we all want too WE BEG YOU! We want our desires as much as u wanted those things and thus manifested them

We really wanna experience everything!

How do we start doing it ? This world seems so real ? Now don't say no there's a ego OK there's no ego. Now what? Does it changes anything?

we have said many many times that we are not a "manifestation" account like many many of you think. Advaita Vedanta is about Realizing SELF and with that, everything else is done. Within Advaita V. the concept of "manifestation" dissolves and all one "wants" already is.

By Realizing that, Advaita V. is also automatically seen and dropped as a concept.

We are not talking on our Account about the conceptualized version of tumblr's so-called "Non-Duality"where People think it is a method and use it as such from the pov of a limited "person" they think they are.

As harsh as it sounds, many are seeking advice for "quick fixes" and we understand why but we are not going to hand out "how to manifest ___ " advice because it is not how we speak nor is it what we do.

Our account is for those that understand deeper.

When we learned about AV (NOT ND) we received pointers, nothing more. Everything else was done by ourselves, by deeply pondering on what we were told / learned without seeking for more and more content. Just Seeing without labeling. With that we understood that whatever we see, is.

We realized that what we call our "Visual Field", whatever that is, is seemingly(❗️) chosen by us, seemingly(❗️) changed by us, seemingly(❗️) experienced by us. NOT by the person you think you are. We removed all self-imposed limitations, removed what we thought we were and abided(?) in what was left. Afterwards, we did whatever we wanted to do.

Pointers is literally all one can get because what we truly are is BEYOND labels and never ever describable.

"You" "master" "IT" by "Being IT"

Knowing there is no ego, changes a lot because many of you think you are fighting against an ego, talking about it like it a person you need to ignore or get rid of. That's not the case. Understanding that, makes things a lot easier. It's never been "you" vs. "them", it's always been "You Alone"

We are more than aware that our content will not be understood by everyone but like Being_Is_IT once said "those that get it, will get it. Those that don't, will not."

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harika-67

1 year ago

When you sleep at night, you think the world you're dreaming of is real. You wake up in the morning and you go on living in a different world, which you also think it's real. But while you were in the first dream you had no memory of this world, did you? The life that you were living in the present moment was all it was, and it was real to you then. You come into the waking state and forget all about that dream (because you dismiss it as unreal & imagined so you have no reason to care once the experience is over), you're present in a second dream, and you deal with this one because now that's "what is real". But there is no difference between sleeping and waking, awareness is the background of both.

You just think the waking state more real because you've dreamt it over and over and reinforced your belief. They're equally imaginary. Become aware of this and life will forever be a breeze 🍃

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harika-67

1 year ago

How do I act upon this knowledge? :(

Stop attaching yourself to ideas you dislike

You are free

Stop acting otherwise

You are a victim of your own imaginations so stop imagining the world is a certain way you dislike

Let the sorrow go.... it's not real... literally. Very literally. Extra mega literally. Just like a dream literally. The definition of literally

The fact is that you are so powerful that the world would not function without your wish.

Nothing can be without you thinking it is. You are the owner of the world, wipe those ugly concepts from your mind, forget them. Seriously. Do it already. It's all in the mind. All of it. Stop all actions. Know what you want and nothing else

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harika-67

1 year ago

It's truly hilarious.

I still remember texting @illuminatedmystic 2-3 months ago or so, completely baffled and trying to tell her how I felt like every thing I thought to be true is crumbling down and it's...a major mind Fu*k. Because Awareness is all there is and there is no single moment when it hasn't been like that. When I wasn't I. When " " wasn't " ".

How well we've deceived ourselves, indulging with thoughts which hold no meaning, calling ourselves a person and our experiences our life. How we DELUDED ourselves into believing that we're stuck with this Life, trapped in it, as if we weren't living it moment to moment, effortlessly deciding what IS our experience every single moment.

It's so damn funny, how " " managed to fool itself. Such an intricate plan, a beautiful dream, an eternal play with itself. It's all fun, it's all joy and love, nothing is serious at all. You just need to Notice it!

"All that they're searching and seeking and looking for can be found within themselves. There is no need to go anywhere. There is no need to do anything. Just close your eyes and look within, and the kingdom of God is yours."

Credit:- @bumlehri on Instagram.

(You're free to not take my Goodbye seriously at all, I apologize for my impulsive decisions in advance. It might happen again...might....🥲)

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harika-67

1 year ago

time and again, when you guys ask “i don’t see it” yet think if “i give up on my desires” and if “you’re aware” you’ll “see it/ get it”? it is misidentification itself. (been there myself)

you’re aware it? you experienced it. that’s it.

example: you want a pink elephant? you do. it’s like you deciding to open tumblr, you just did. you didn’t have intrusive thoughts, doubts whether you can open it? you just did? effortlessly, before you processed “i need to open tumblr” YOU JUST became aware.

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harika-67

1 year ago

rant <3

"God" is consciousness. consciousness is omnipotent, infinite, creates everything, is INSIDE everything, and is your true nature.

there is no higher being/"external source". everything is you (consciousness) in another form. even if you created a higher being, it's still YOU in another form, and was created by YOU only. it would still be you bro.

recognize this. you, as God, have full power. there is no "external". you yourself created the "external", so it's not even actually external💀

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harika-67

1 year ago

How to manifest

All of us will stop with the over-consuming, overcomplicating, not applying nonsense NOW. We will start applying NOW, because manifestation is the easiest and most natural thing in the world, so why would we over-consume informations about something that is so natural to us? Please don’t make it harder for yourself than it has to be.

Everything that you need to know :

1. Your imagination is the real reality

2. Imagination creates & your reality mirrors

3. You are the only force

4. EVERYTHING is created by your imagination

5. You can have absolutely EVERYTHING, there are NO limits whatsoever

So all that you need to do :

Accept, that you have it in your imagination and PERSIST in the fact that you have it.

Concentrate on your imagination, it is THE most important thing! Screaming at the mirror (3D) won’t do anything, it is just a byproduct of your imagination.

Fall in love with your imagination, be creative and use it for your advantage. Persist in the most beautiful assumptions and make your imagination your heaven on earth.

Wanna manifest an Sp? - He’s addicted to you.

Wanna manifest a perfect face? - You have the face of an Angel.

Wanna be a millionaire? - You’re SO wealthy!

Do you have it in your imagination? Yes? Then you have it. IMAGINATION IS THE ONLY REALITY. You don’t have to affirm a billion times or force yourself to do anything in order to get something. YOU ALREADY HAVE IT! The only thing that you need to do is persisting in the assumption that you do.

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harika-67

1 year ago

It was all just a dream! ⏳🌙🌠

Embarrassing thing that happened to "you" as a teenager? Just a dream. Childhood trauma? Just a dream. The events that happened yesterday? Just a dream. "Your" entire life, what felt like years, was all just a dream up until this present moment.

Congratulations! None of these things have to be a part of your identity anymore! 👏🏽🎉

Allow that to sink in. You were so convinced that this entire life story was who you are, and it never was to begin with. The only reason why things seem to happen continuously is your habit to keep recreating the same world from memory. Time is not real, you are only moving from one present moment to the next. Stop bringing the past into the present, and stop imagining a future based on the past!

Let it all go now. Realize that you already have everything now. Choose something different now. After all, now is all you have!

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