I Dare You

Body check✖️94.2lbs waist: 24"

What “pro-ana” means to me

Of course I’m not “pro” ana. None of the people who post with this tag are. None of us want you to develop an eating disorder. None of us want you to starve yourself, harm your body, and hurt your mind. Come on, who the hell would wish this on anyone? 

I’m not pro ana.

I know what “ana” is. It’s not something anyone in their right mind would support. I’ve been living with an eating disorder for over 10 years now. That’s my whole teenage and adult life right there. I don’t remember what it’s like living without it. I don’t know what having a normal relationship with food feels like. I don’t know how people go about their daily lives without obsessing about what they eat or how they look.

I’m not pro ana. 

“Ana” isn’t something you get out of. I’ll go through a restrictive phase, then relapse into bulimia, and every once in a while, feel like I’m getting better and healthier. It never lasts. It’s as if my eating disorder went to sleep for a while… took a little break, and then came back a little stronger. It always does. 

I’m not pro ana. 

If you’re not dealing with an eating disorder, or if the content on my blog is triggering to you PLEASE don’t follow me. Please don’t think eating disorders are an easy way to lose weight. Please don’t take any dieting tips from “pro ana” blogs. Please, please, please don’t starve yourself. Don’t harm yourself. Binging, purging, restricting, fasting are terrible ideas. Run while it’s still time. 

I’m not pro ana. 

I’m “pro” supporting my sisters and brothers who struggle with an eating disorder. If I post something with the tag “pro-ana”, it doesn’t mean I encourage you to develop disordered habits… it means I’m here for you. I’m right there with you. 

I don’t support eating disorders, I support people going through them. 

Perks of Losing Weight

Some of the things i have noticed 

- Hair doesn’t get greasy anymore, it just doesn’t 

- There is less to wash, exfoliate, self tan, etc. (Honestly really notice this one in the shower, i used to have 20+ lbs more in my legs) 

- Moving with more ease 

- Food is cheap. Hello water over cocktails and an apple over spaghetti bolognese 

- Generally feeling smaller is a bit euphoric especially wrapped in blankets or trying on old clothes 

- Skin clears up because theres less oil production 

- Barely sweating (even while exercising or on a hot day) 

- Sunglasses/glasses are more flattering against a more angular face 

and when i reach my goal weights, i just feel fucking invincible. 

so you binged

sit down. relax. breathe.

what the fuck is wrong with you, you fat pig. do you think that helped at all? HELL NO. YOU JUST PUSHED YOURSELF BACK BY AT LEAST A WEEK.

purge. can’t? then you better exercise until you feel like you’re gonna pass out.

i can’t believe you. what did you fucking gain from stuffing your fat pie hole? NOTHING. just more weight for you to lose.

you better drink a fuck ton of water. flush that shit out of your goddamn system. or better yet, do nothing. since you clearly don’t give a fuck & think binging is okay?

you want to be thin?

quit fucking it up.

me: *obsessively weighs myself* me: *counts every calorie* me: *fasts for 24+ hours regularly* me: *lies about eating to loved ones* also me: I don’t have an eating disorder, i’m faking it

IF YOU HAVE ASTHMA DO NOT DO THIS!!!! It sounds so dumb and obvious but I haven't had an asthma attack since I was 9 and I currently am freaking out can't breathe because I ran in place for two minutes! Seriously someone help my inhaler isn't working and I can't afford the hospital I can't breathe

i HATE being on my period because i’m so bloated and i have insane cravings and i always want to give up and i can’t even weigh myself because i’m too afraid to see how much i’ve gained just from being bloated

50 Safe Foods

Fruits

Strawberries (4 calories for one medium)

Blueberries (20 calories for 25 berries)

Raspberries (10 calories for 10 berries)

Blackberries (20 calories for 10 berries)

Cherries (4 calories for one medium)

Grapes (2 calories for one medium)

Apricot (17 calories for one medium)

Plum (30 calories for one small)

Apple (47 calories for half a medium)

Watermelon (46 calories for one cup)

Vegetables

Cabbage (17 calories for a cup)

Carrots (25 calories for a medium)

Tomatoes (22 calories for a medium)

Cucumbers (16 calories for a cup)

Romaine Lettuce (8 calories for a cup)

Spinach (7 calories for a cup)

Cauliflower (27 calories for a cup)

Broccoli (30 calories for a cup)

Sugar Snap Peas (26 calories for a cup)

String Beans (31 calories for a cup)

Spaghetti Squash (31 calories for a cup)

Mushrooms (4 calories for medium)

Iceberg Lettuce (10 calories for a cup)

Kale (33 calories for a cup)

Zucchini (19 calories for a cup)

Dairy & Eggs

Unsweetened Almond Milk (30 calories for a cup)

Unsweetened Chocolate Almond Milk (40 calories for a cup)

Unsweetened Cashew Milk (25 calories for a cup)

Unsweetened Coconut Milk (45 calories for a cup)

Egg Whites (17 calories for an egg white)

Meat, Poultry, Fish, & Other

Shrimp (11 calories for a medium)

Smoked Salmon (33 calories for 1 oz.)

Tofu (18 calories for 1 oz.)

Turkey Breast (29 calories for 1 oz.)

Chicken Breast (47 calories for 1 oz.)

Snacks

Pickles (7 calories for a medium)

Sugar-Free Jello (10 calories for a serving)

Graham Crackers (30 calories for a cracker)

Applesauce (50 calories for half a cup)

Rice Cakes (35 calories for a medium)

Starches, Grains, & Other

Sweet Potato (26 calories for 1 oz.)

Brown Rice (31 calories for 1 oz.)

White Rice (37 calories for 1 oz.)

Bulgur (24 calories for 1 oz.)

Barley (35 calories for 1 oz.)

Condiments

Sriracha (5 calories for a teaspoon)

Sugar-Free Barbecue Sauce (9 calories for 1 oz.)

Sugar-Free Ketchup (5 calories for a serving)

Sugar-Free Maple Syrup (15 calories for a serving)

Soy Sauce (9 calories for a tablespoon)