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Anorexia And Bulimia Are Not Pretty

They are not pretty like the thinspo. It’s not high-waisted shorts, crop tops, and thigh high socks. It’s not cute clothes, compliments, and delicate skin. It’s not looking hot in coffee shops, fitting into tight spaces, and being able to be lifted. It’s not polite “No thank you”s and dainty shakes of the head. That’s not what and it is. 

It’s leaning over a toilet and throwing up the calorie filled chicken parm your mom made especially for you. It’s closing yourself off from entire events if there is even a chance of food. It’s crying in the bathroom when you only dropped five pounds that week when you needed seven. It’s looking in the mirror and seeing every bone and still believing you’re not skinny enough. It’s seeing clothes you were never able to wear before but still wanting to be a size 0. It’s freezing cold showers that make your fingers numb. It’s sleepless nights because your bones make it uncomfortable to lay down. It’s unconsciously pinching and pulling at your body in public. It’s seeing the bump on your lower abdomen and believing that it’s all fat. It’s thinking about getting a rib removed so you can look thinner. It’s lonely weekends because your friends want to go to the movies and out to eat but it’s your fasting day and can’t be stopped now. It’s under eye bags and fragile limbs. It’s smiling and saying no when we want to stuff our faces. It’s passing out because we haven’t eaten for a week. It’s trying to deceive the doctor into thinking that our small frame could really hold 130 pounds. It’s painful. It’s scary. It seems like it will never end. We tell ourselves we’ll stop here but, in the back of our minds, we’re not sure if we can. It’s hating everything about yourself and only feeling like you’re worth something when you’re not eating. It’s low electrolytes, a raw throat, and scarred fingers. It’s exercising until you want to faint. It’s being terrified that your weight will shoot up if you eat one chip. It’s scarfing down five servings of something to make the pain go away and crying for hours after. And this is not even the half of it. 

There are so many other eating disorders a person could go through and they’re all hell. Ask someone if they really love what they’re doing. Most if not all the time a person will say they hate it. It’s killing yourself and we know it. But here we are. So no. EDs are not pretty. Don’t ask me to teach you to get one.

(I’m sorry but I’ve actually been asked in real life and on the internet how to become anorexic or bulimic. And I hate it. They think it’s an amazing thing. An amazing way to drop a few pound in a month and get off once they drop a size. I just needed to rant about it a bit cause I’m tired. DON’T ASK ME HOW TO GET AN ED I WILL NOT TELL YOU! I would not give an ed to my worst enemy. So I will certainly not give the tools to a friend or even a stranger.)

I'm 5'0 I used to be 150 pounds but I'm down to 115 and it's like nothing is working anymore I wanna get to 90 pounds or at least 100 do you think that's ok? What should I do to kick off the first few pounds? And how do I stop binge eating? Love you 💞

Hi love, you’re at a healthy weight right now. Getting down to 100 would still be okay but 90 would be too low. Eating healthy and exercising is key and honestly I have no idea how to stop from binge eating as I suffer from that as well. I’m sorry I’m not much help. ❤️❤️

40 cal pancakes!!

what you’ll need: - half banana (50 cals) - one large egg (70 cals) - sprinkle of cinnamon

instructions: 1. mash up your banana 2. put egg in your banana mash 3. sprinkle your cinnamon 4. whisk your mixture 5. cook like normal pancakes

this recipe makes about 3 normal sized pancakes. the whole meal would be 120 calories, so 40 per pancake. a tablespoon of syrup is about 50 calories, so with syrup it would be 170.

stay safe!!

I’m sick today 🥀

@queenbadperra there are exercises like leg lifts that you can do that target the inside of the thigh, not everyone can or ever will have a thigh gap nothing to do with weight just with genetics, girls with thigh gaps have hips that are slightly further apart then girls without, but if you do side leg lifts I think that's what their called you should start to see some change

How can i get a thigh gap?

I have no idea  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

Reblog if you do or have actually cried because of your weight or the way you look.

I do

Safe foods list

/// sea weed (help burn fat) /// broth (very filling when warm) ///dates ( help detox your body and work as a laxative /// rice noodles (low cal alternative to normal noodles) /// apple sauce (alternative to eggs in baking recipes) /// ice (brand) fizzy drinks 0 calories and great for fasting days ///apples burn negative calories ///cauliflower great alternative for rice or for chicken /// almond milk instead of regular milk ///strawberries boost metabolism /// asparagus stops the craving of chocolate and is very low cal

pretty please reblog if you’re a pro-ana or thinspo blog. need more friends and blogs to follow on here!! 

xo

One day, you’ll look like her. Don’t give up, stay strong. I believe in you 🌸

Reblog if 3 or more apply to you:

-you are an active acc (16th of June, 2019)

-5'5 or taller

-14 to 18yo

-have a 1 or multiple mental illnesses

-post or reblog thinspo and ed memes

-have an UGW smaller that 90lbs

-live with your parents

-no one knows about your mental illness

-like books and art

-you support or are a part lgbtq+

I’ll follow everyone who reblogs!!