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Failures

Suguru Geto x fem!reader

In which you lose your relationship to Suguru Geto.

Set during the Hidden Inventory Arc. Angst, fluff, mentions of blood, murder, sad themes, break up, reader is a sorcerer. Mentions of showering together. Nothing sexual. I’ve had this one in my drafts for way too long! I am open to a part two if it’s requested.

Your pov

“Suguru, dammit, be careful.” I warned him as the anxiety was eating me away.

“Baby I’ll be fine. Satoru and I are the strongest. I can guarantee that this mission will be successful.” He boasted giving me a kiss on the forehead before heading out.

“Just please, I have a bad feeling.” I slightly yelled as he began waking away. “Don’t you worry, everything’s gonna be fine.” He waved off as he set off on his mission.

Something in me knew that it wasn’t going to be alright. My boyfriend and Satoru are indeed the strongest. Most of the time they can do anything even if they’re slacking off, which is most of the time. But this time it felt as though my very soul was screaming that it wasn’t going to be okay. That they weren’t going to be successful. That there was going to be something that was going to go wrong and I hoped it wasn’t my curse technique telling me so.

The next day I walked into principal Yagas office. I bowed showing my respect as I awaited my own mission call. The nagging feeling in my chest still hasn’t gone away but I decided that it must be nerves. I pushed my h/c out of my face trying to look more presentable.

“Is something troubling you L/n?” Yaga questioned as he continued making one of his dolls.

“I’m just worried for Satoru and Suguru.” I responded honestly

“They’ll be fine. Despite the importance of this mission and some of the dangers involved, I am more than confident that those boys will be successful.” He said confidently

“I hope you are correct on this Mr. Yaga. And I hope I am very wrong about this.” I spoke doing my best to swallow the nerves bubbling in my body.

A few days later, news of the incident reached the school. All of my peers teachers were scrambling to understand what happened and how the strongest sorcerers could fail. To my knowledge, someone intercepted their mission making success slim. I knew that once everything settled down that I would ask what happened to the mission that my Geto Suguru was so confident about.

The next day the boys returned. I made my way to great them at the entrance of the school hoping to give them some comfort in this horrible time. As soon as I saw Geto my heart skipped a beat but quickly broke seeing how utterly defeated he looked.

“Geto, Gojo!” I called out

“Oh hey y/n.” Gojo replied giving me a small smile before waking past me with a solemn expression.

“Suguru.” I whispered walking up to him as I placed my hands softly on his shoulders.

“Y/n.” He said looking into my worried eyes. “Good to see you’re still just as beautiful as ever.” He spoke looking down on my face

“Thank you. Let’s get you something to eat.” I said focused on taking care of him.

“I’m okay, not hungry think I might go shower. You’re free to join if you want.” He whispered in a tired tone

“Of course, let’s go.” I smiled giving him a quick hug.

Suguru proceeded to hold me for longer than I anticipated. I felt his poor body shake slightly. His head was placed securely in the crook of my neck. His grip was hard but I could tell he needed this. He needed to feel something good.

After we showered together we laid on his bed hugging each other close. The room was dark and there was no noise other than the fan blowing in the left corner. Suguru laid on my chest holding me close as I stroked his beautiful black hair. We laid like this for about ten minutes when I heard him snuffling into my chest. Immediately I felt worried and hugged him closer to my chest.

“Suguru baby, can you tell me what’s on your mind if you feel comfortable?” I asked placing a lingering kiss on top of his head.

“I failed y/n… I failed something so simple all because of him.” He whispered his voice raspy

“Him? Who was he?” I asked softly

“That damn bounty hunter, Toji Fushiguro. He killed her and defeated me without even an ounce of cursed energy.” He paused lifting up off my chest as his tears lingered on his saddened face. He looked at me, pure anger filling them.

“Y/n, the only reason he won was because Satoru finally learned how to use cursed energy. All while I was laying there in a puddle of my own blood.” Suguru spoke through gritted teeth.

“I’m so damn weak!” He spoke louder getting up off the bed and walking to the window.

“Suguru, you’re not weak! What happened was a surprise you couldn’t have know about Toji.” I replied walking to him placing a comforting hand on his shoulder. He quickly shook it off turning his shaking body around to me.

“I did know though! I knew something wasn’t right! I knew that this mission was too damn easy!” He snapped.

“You weren’t there you couldn’t have known!” He added making my heart ache.

“I did know.” I spoke after a small pause.

“I knew something felt off and I tried to warn you.” I admitted tears welling in my eyes.

“So you’re blaming me?” Suguru asked as I could tell he was starting to think irrationally.

“Suguru I’m not saying that at all!” I defended feeling hurt that he would think that.

“Then what are you saying? What are you saying y/n!” He barked his eyes showing pure anger.

“Suguru I know you’re upset right now but I need you to calm down a little.” I pleated feeling slightly scared.

“Don’t tell me what to do! Not you!” He yelled louder brushing past me as he opened the door.

“Suguru where are you going!” I called out as frustrated tears fell down my cheeks.

“Away!” He called out walking down the hall.

“Suguru, please!” I pleated standing in the hallway as I watched him quickly walk away.

My heart ached as it beat faster than it ever had before. All I wanted to do was talk to him and support him but the right words abandoned me. I shook with frustration and sadness. I felt for Suguru and what he and Gojo had to go through. However, I knew I didn’t deserve his words and I hoped that he would come to his senses and talk to me again. Although I was sympathetic to his anger, I knew that I didn’t deserve it.

———

A few days have past and it seemed like Suguru is avoiding me. I’ve tried asking Gojo about where he could be, but even he doesn’t know. Both of us seemed to realize that neither of us had seen him. What’s even worse is that once of our classmates was killed. Haibara was the sweetest and most positive person imaginable, especially in this line of work. Emotions were high and all I wanted to do was be in the arms of the man I loved even despite our last conversation. Despite the recent sadness, class resumed as usual with me and Gojo being the only ones to attend.

“Y/n, I’m sure he’s still upset about how it all ended.” Gojo said tapping his fingers on his desk.

“Yeah, I understand that. But it’s just not like him not to at least let us know where he is.” I replied holding my head in my hands looking at the blank chalkboard.

“That mission was the hardest one both of us either went on. I’m not sure you were told, but both of us nearly died. The only reason we survived was because my reversed curse technique finally decided to work.” Gojo spoke as my eyes widened with shock.

“You guys almost died!” I exclaimed as my heart filled with worry.

“Yeah, guessing he didn’t tell you that.” Gojo responded seemingly shocked himself.

“No, I can’t believe he didn’t tell me.” I whispered feeling ashamed about the last conversation I had with my boyfriend.

“It’s not your fault y/n. Neither of us saw what was happening. Not even me, and I’m suppose to see everything. Hell, I wasn’t even there for Haibara.” Gojo said through gritted teeth.

“Gojo, you both are alive and that’s what matters now. And Haibara is definitely not on your either.” I reassured holding his shoulder feeling my heart clenched at Haibara’s name being mentioned.

“Yeah, I guess so.” Gojo trailed off looking out the window with a solemn look on his “perfect” features.

“I’m going to try find Suguru.” I announced getting up from the hard chair.

“I’ll come with!” Gojo spoke happily

“Sure thing, I just hope he’ll talk to us.” I replied as my nerves began rising.

“Hey, it’ll be okay.” Gojo spoke as though he could read my thoughts and placed a comforting hand on my shoulder.

“Yeah, it will be.” I said even though part of me didn’t believe it.

———

We searched the entire campus for him, even double checking his usual spots multiple times. We tried calling him multiple times but his phone straight to voicemail. Both of us started to panic slightly and Gojo’s “cool guy” attitude began to fade. We both didn’t want to, but we decided to go to the principals office and ask about his whereabouts. Once at the principals office, both of us wakes into the dim lit room feeling hopeful that he might know where sour Suguru was. I decided to speak but was promptly cut of by the principal himself.

“Good, I’m glad you’re both here. Saves me the trouble of finding you both.” He spoke with an unfamiliar tone. “It’s about Geto, it appears we have some troubling news about him.” He added looking at us with a solemn expression.

“What about him?” Gojo spoke up stepping forward with a scowl on his face.

“I’m sorry to say but he sad been banned from Jujutsu society and is now a dangerous criminal.” Yaga said clutching his fists.

“What the hell do you mean!” I exclaimed fear and anger filling my body.

“What the hell did he even do?” I asked

“He murdered his parents and slaughtered an entire village.” Yaga spoke bluntly.

“No! I don’t believe that!” Gojo exclaimed grabbing onto Yagas jacket pulling him closer.

“Don’t lie to me old man!” Gojo added as his voice was laced in disgust

“Gojo, back off! That’s not gonna help anything!” I proclaimed pulling him off our principal.

“Dammit!” Gojo yelled storming out of the building. I decided not to follow him and instead stayed to speak with my principal.

“How could this have happened!” I asked hoping me might know the change in behavior.

“All we know is that this last mission hurt Suguru Geto, but nothing could have prepared us for this.” Yaga paused picking the bridge of his nose in frustration.

“Did he say anything to you that might give you some clue as to why he might of committed such a serious crime?” Yaga asked straightening his back

“W-we had a fight and he stormed out. But he never mentioned anything about wanting to murder his parents a-and innocent people. Gods, his parents were so sweet, how could he do that to them!” I replied as my grief began to hit me.

“I’ll need to talk to other students and staff about his behavior. I’m sorry L/n, but he’s been ordered to be executed once found.” Yaga announced.

“I understand.” Was all I could manage to say after a brief pause. What could I say knowing the love of my life has a death warrant.

“L/n, I would appreciate if you would help us find him. I know that this request seems unreasonable, but if any one should be able to find him, it’s you.” Yaga spoke softly

“W-what!” I whispered yelled appalled by what Yaga had just dared say to me.

“L/n, please calm down.” Yaga asked walking towards me attempting to touch my shoulder. “Back off!” I snapped stepping away from him. “How the hell could you suggest that!” I yelled as my body began shaking.

“I know this request is tough but you are a sorcerer and as as sorcerer it is your duty to uphold our laws!” He replied with tears streaming down his eyes. I could finally see that this was hurting him too. I paused looking at him. This strong man that never showed really any emotion was crying. My own eyes filled with tears as broken sobs left me.

The emotion was too much for me to handle and before I knew it I was running out of the building, just like Gojo had done a few moments ago. Yaga out for me, but I was too focused on leaving to acknowledge him. There was no where in particular I wanted to go, I just knew I needed to get away from the school. I ran and ran until my legs felt like jelly and my lungs burned.

Finally, I realized I was in the city with a few civilians looking at me strangely. I was too tired and thirsty to care about their looks and whispers. After catching my breath, I decided that I needed a drink. I patted my pockets and thankfully felt my wallet in them.

“Thank goodness.” I whispered as I walked to the nearest cafe which was just across the street from where I stood.

After walking in, I was greeted with the sweet smell of the fresh baked pastries. Normally I would love to have one of those. But this time all that was on my mind was a drink or anything that would quench my thirst. Just as I was about to order my f/d, I felt a small tap on my shoulder. Quickly, I turned around and to my shock there stood my boyfriend.

“Suguru!” I spoke wrapping him in a bone crushing hug. He hugged me back kissing my cheek as he did so. After a moment, he let go grabbing my shoulders as I held onto his arms.

“Good to see you y/n.” My boyfriend spoke as though no time had passed.

“Where have you been.” I questioned him feeling relieved that he was here.

“I’ll tell you in a moment, for now I’d appreciate if you’d follow me. There is someplace I’d like to take you.” Suguru spoke too calmly as though he had rehearsed this conversation.

“S-sure.” I replied feeling uneasy about the tone of his voice. I defied that my drink could wait, and finding answers was far more important in this moment.

“I’m glad, and you look lovely today.” He commented even though he didn’t seem genuine.

“Thank you.” I replied feeling uncomfortable

———

Suguru then grabbed my hand and the two of us walked out of the cafe together. The sun was about to set at this point and the sky was absolutely beautiful. For a moment I felt peaceful and relaxed even though I knew of his crimes. Part of me didn’t believe him and and I knew that where ever he wanted to take me that he would need to give me answers.

We walked throughout the city as he guided me in silence to a small park. It was the same park that he confessed he feeling to me a few years ago. Normally, I would fit this sweet but now now, not when that uneasy feeling was creeping in again. I looked to Suguru, who had such a serious expression on his face.

“What is it y/n.” He asked eyes focused ahead.

“Nothing, just what are we doing here?” I asked slightly cringing at how nervous I sounded.

“I thought you loved this place?” Suguru asked as he suddenly stopped and looked at me.

“I do, just” I paused trying to decide if now was the time to rip the bandaid off.

“Just what baby.” He questioned sounding eerily sweet.

“I know what you did Suguru. Please t-tell me if what I heard is wrong!” I pleated deciding that now was better than never.

“That’s why I I brought you here y/n.” He stated still sounding way too calm.

“Please, just tell me what I heard is false.” I said again as I could feel my heart beating against my rib cage.

“What you heard was true.” Suguru spoke as my entire world crashed down upon me.

“What.” I whispered as panic began to sink in. As if Suguru could sense it, he grabbed my shoulders as if he was steadying them.

“No, no! Y/n you need to understand me before you react!” He exclaimed as we made eye contact.

“Explain what?” I asked coldly

“Why I did what I did. You see I had a realization that we are going to die if we continue down this path.” He started looking at me with determination in his eyes. “If we keep fighting all our lives they will amount to nothing. What causes curses, love.” He added using my favorite pet name.

“Humans.” I replied as I was trying my best to contain my anger.

“Exactly, so if we just kill all of those useless monkeys, then we don’t need to fight anymore! Y/n, we can live peaceful lives without curses. We can get married and have children without the fear of them being killed by a curse!” He explained with an excitement that I had never seen before.

I pushed him away from me absolutely disgusted the would say such vile things to me. “What the hell is wrong with you! You’re talking about a fucking genocide!” I yelled finally releasing my anger

“Call it what you want, but this is the path I’m taking. The reason I’m telling you this myself if because I want you to join me.” Suguru spoke going back to his calm demeanor.

“W-why would I join you? You killed your parents Suguru!” I spat as I could feel frustrated tears pricking my eyes.

“My parents were filthy monkeys so killing then wasn’t a problem.” Suguru replied shrugging he shoulders like it was no big deal. “And Like I said, for our future together. You’ve talked about having children one day. I want that too, but I can’t do that if those monkeys are around making curses as though it’s as easy as breathing!” He said as I could tell he was filled with an unquenchable thirst for violence.

I stared at him filled with shock and rage, but also mourning for the man I once knew. Because my Suguru Geto would have never said such things or rather thought them. He would have never killed his parents or threatened genocide. Worst of all, he would never drag me into something he knew would hurt me in any way.

“Y/n, my love this is a good thing. I love you and this is the best way for us to be together.” Suguru said pulling me into a hug. My entire body was screaming for me to pull away but I knew my decision and this hug might be the last I would ever receive from him. I held him so tightly, not that he would notice. I felt him sigh as I held him as his head placed itself upon mine, but not before he kissed it gently.

“Good, I’m glad you’ve found your path to me.” He whispered comfortably

“I love you too.” I replied as I cried into his chest.

We stayed like that as the sun finally set. Our breaths were in sync and we held each other. My body was screaming at me to finally give him my real answer but being in his arms felt so right, so natural. But I knew that I couldn’t keep living a in a fairy tale any longer. Reluctantly, I pulled my head from his warm chest that I’ve grown so accustomed to and pulled away from his comfortable arms.

“Are you alright, my love?”Suguru asked with visible concern.

“I love you so much, but this is not the life that I want for myself.” I spoke solemnly as tears fell down my face.

“What! I don’t understand you seemed fine just a moment ago.” Suguru said taking a step away from me.

“I know, but I can’t allow myself to follow you no matter how much I love you and how much it hurts to walk away.” I admitted as my body trembled.

“You’re making the biggest mistake of your life. I’m offering to let you live in a peaceful world that I’m building to protect you and you’re turning me down!” He exclaimed looking at me with disgust.

“I don’t want that! I don’t want peace built on the blood of innocents!” I clapped back

“I don’t think they are innocent! Those filthy monkeys are the reason that curse killed your brother! You really want those creatures around!” Suguru lectured as my heart panther at the brutal reminder of my past.

“Don’t you dare bring him into this Suguru! Those humans don’t mean to make them! You and I both know that, how could you be so damn blind!” I exclaimed feeling hot with anger.

“Fine then! You want to be a disgrace that’s on you! I don’t need to be with someone so disgusting that she’d risk the lives of her own people over trash!” He spat looking at me with fury.

“Suguru, you don’t mean that!” I sobbed as I felt my heart break so hard I began to feel numb.

“You brought this on yourself Y/N, I truly hope one day you realize I’m right. But for now, looking at you makes my stomach turn.” He spoke coldly looking right through me as though I was the ugliest thing he’d ever seen.

“I could say the same to you, Geto.” I spat matching his look. For a second I thought I saw his face soften as I called him by his last name but it quickly went away.

“Goodbye L/n, I hope we meet on equal footing someday.” Geto said his voice going back to being eerily calm.

“Goodbye.” Was all I managed to say I I turned away from the man I loved so dearly. I heard no response from him as I walked away. The only sound I heard was him letting out a frustrated sigh as he too walked away.

———

The cold night sent chills down my spine as I struggled to keep myself warm as I began my slow journey back to the school. My body felt so numb, not just from the cold but from the disaster of a day I had. The love of my life confessed to being a cold blooded murder with no remorse for his victims. He’s now a genocidal maniac and there was nothing I could truly do about it. I couldn’t kill him, let alone call Gojo in fear Geto would kill me if I tried.

I felt so lost, so broken, and so done with everything. All I wanted to do was cry, scream, and wake up from this horrible nightmare. No matter how much I tried, noting could comfort me. I knew as I walked through those busy streets that my life changed forever and nothing could stop it. But what I did know, is that I needed to get stronger. Because one day I knew that I would see Geto again. Only this time I might have to kill him.

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