I Do Not Care How Depressing The Entire Podcast Is. This Part Will Always Be The Most Heartbreaking No

Beautiful Street Art in Hollywood. Walk of shame. By the way .....FUCK DONALD TRUMP!

I will take your pretty boy Neil agenda and raise it to: He looks a little fucked up. Like a little weirdo. With small jagged scars around his entire face and crazed look of a rabid hare in his oh so cold eyes.

nicky and aaron: when andrew’s on his meds he’s unhinged, but you haven’t seen him when he’s sober! he’s so much worse

andrew off his meds: *has clinical depression*

nicky and aaron: he’s craaazy

lately the only way i can make myself study or do any work is by pretending that i’m doing some super important world-saving research or uncovering some insane secrets of the universe…i’m straight up gaslighting myself into school…

"longing" is such a tender name for such a miserable state of being

Lighthouse Stars

You know sometimes you have a fact or a concept about the universe that you’d sort of vaguely brushed past a time or two but it never actually caught your brain in a way that sparked something before, until abruptly it does?

I was watching a Spacedock youtube video about pulsars in science fiction, and … I’ve heard of pulsars before, and this is the standard language around them, but I still never fully grasped until now the awesome concept that pulsars are lighthouse stars.

Pulsars are neutron stars, the superdense, compact remnants of supernovas, and they are super magnetised, and because they’re so tiny and so magnetic and rotating at such ridiculous speeds, that electromagnetic radiation is beaming out from their poles like twin lighthouse beams of radiation, causing the pulsar to appear to, well, pulse when the beam sweeps in our direction. They’re also so regular and so precise that they can and have been used as space navigation aids. Including on the Voyager Golden Disc map showing Earth’s position relative to 14 pulsars:

And. Look. You all know me and lighthouses from a standing start. The tangled ball of imagery around a beam of light in the darkness showing safe passage through the deadly chaos of the ocean. And. That, but in space. A star that is a lighthouse.

I don’t know why this never clicked for me before, but oh my god that is an image and a half.

And. So. For bonus points, because I love space horror so very, very much? There is a star system called PSR B1257+12 which was the first pulsar to have confirmed planets orbiting it. There’s three planets that have been confirmed so far. And in the mid-2010s during the Name Exo Worlds event, the public named this pulsar and its planets Lich, Draugr, Poltergeist and Phobetor. The star is named after an undead wizard, and its planets are named after various spirits, undead and nightmare creatures. So. Again. Just by the naming conventions, not any properties of the star itself (although pulsars, like all neutron stars, can be argued as undead given that they’re the remnants of supernovas), this is an undead lighthouse star. A ghostly stellar lighthouse, its twin beams sweeping the void, surrounded by three silent, undead worlds.

Please god tell me somebody’s written a space horror story with that concept? Because. *flails madly*

I think pulsars may be my new favourite type of star. And yes, I should have twigged this imagery years ago, pulsars have always been described as lighthouses, but still.

Lighthouse stars. Undead lighthouse stars. What a spectacular concept.

I know Hayden said Punish can be interpreted however we want but there is something so disturbing yet fascinating how without the context it’s so easy to relate to the song for whatever reason anyone has.

The first time I listened to it I genuinely thought that it was one of the most relatable songs, describing perfectly some of my feelings and thoughts. Then I read about the initial meaning behind it and just went “….oh”

She’s genuinely that good of a songwriter it’s insane.

please do not follow me if you are an ed account. i dont want anything to do with that thx

(also do have in mind i am an adult - especially if you do not have your own age in your bio!)

college jons