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Trivia for Inception (2010) dir. Christopher Nolan

"Malaysia... That's right, Malaysia. I should go to Kuantan. I'll build a house on an empty beach. The books I have bought but never read has piled up like a mountain. I want to read them slowly, as if I'm retrieving the lost time."

呪術廻戦 S2 Ep. 18: Right and Wrong

Beautiful Day

He hated being born. He hated existence. All he could do was rage and scream and try to save others from the hell he had to live, completely convinced that life could never be worth living. Afterall, he only existed because his parents needed a royal blooded child to exist. He was born to be used as a weapon. There is no point to life, there is no meaning inherent to it, morals, ethics, value, none of it exists or matters. Only reproduction and suffering. Until Zeke realized that even tho life has no inherent meaning or value, he still liked parts of it. He loved playing catch with Mr. Ksaver. That’s the only thing he ever loved. He wouldn’t mind existing again if it meant he could go back to that. There is no value in that activity, who knows why it even exists if life is just about reproduction. But in that moment, it meaning nothing means nothing to Zeke. All he cares about is that he enjoyed it and it brought him happiness. Maybe he realized that his being used as a tool or a weapon was actually an afterthought, that his parents had him out of love and only used him later on in life. Maybe that realization is why he thanked Grisha as “Dad” for making him, because in having him he was able to play catch with Ksaver. Existential Nihilism isn’t and doesn’t have to be depressing. Life having no inherent meaning or value doesn’t have to be bleak, fatalistic, or filled with suffering unless the person looking upon it themselves is. If you are depressed that depression will use whatever the hell it can against you in order to fuel itself, which is what Zeke was doing. Whether Life has any meaning inherent in it is up for individuals to decide for themselves, but whether or not one believes it does, Life moves on. Life is just as beautiful and mysterious and worth living. Zeke finally realizes this but unfortunately it is too late. The world is cruel and beautiful. Zeke only ever saw the former. It is that cruelty that pushed him to try and stop all other Zeke Yeager’s from existing, no Eldian can exist because they are only ever used as tools. But the world is also beautiful. If he takes away all Eldians from the world there will be no Ksaver’s out there either.  I as an existential nihilist myself always loved Zeke’s character because I saw him as stuck on a dark path I myself went down. This belief that because there is no meaning in the world that life isn’t worth living and existence is hell. I thought Zeke’s constant punishment from Isayama was because Isayama was disgusted by this worldview because he himself didn’t understand nihilism, but that ended up being partly true. I think Isayama understands it far more than I ever gave him credit for. Maybe that’s what “The world is cruel but also beautiful” meant all along, and maybe that’s the true thruline of the series. This chapter is going to go down as my favorite chapter of all time and it made these months of constant waiting for Zeke’s character to get a proper sendoff worth it. Thank you Isayama and thank you Attack on Titan.

STRANGER THINGS 4 (2022) + selected songs (insp for this amazing set x, x)

reblog if you are interested in this mole

This recent trend in media I love is starting to become uncanny

Now I die for one more day, ‘cause there’s something I should have told you…

Little Women (2019), Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl (2003), The One With The List, Friends (1994-2004), Get Up Stand Up, Grey’s Anatomy (2005-), Exes, New Girl (2011-2018), RENT (2005), Niagara, The Office (2005-2013), IT: Chapter Two (2019). 

Pride and Prejudice (2005) + tumblr posts (part 1)

“Do you think anything of us could remain, or is that what we are – a dream?”

✮ NESSA’S 18K FOLLOWERS CELEBRATION ✮ 18 TV Ships I Love (in no particular order): 10. Barney and Robin (How I Met Your Mother) “This woman has a hold on my heart that I could not break if I wanted to.”

PRIDE & PREJUDICE 2005, dir. Joe Wright

I wish I could tell you this was anyone’s last cigarette,but it wasn’t. But we did eventually all quit smoking for real.

-on alternate timelines and universes

everything everywhere all at once/ @inanotherunivrse/ complex- katie gregson-macleod/ @tiredbtw/ @loviely/ eternal sunshine of the spotless mind/ @death-born-aphrodite

You want to know what would have happened? “What if”? EVERYTHING EVERYWHERE ALL AT ONCE (2022)

— EVERYTHING EVERYWHERE ALL AT ONCE’s (Oscar-nominated) screenplay

Wait a second. This is my umbrella. I left this umbrella at Cindy’s… you totally stole my umbrella. What? No, I didn’t. This is my umbrella. I bought this. Excuse me. It even has my initials on it right here: T.M. Ted Mosby.  Yeah. Look again, Ted Mosby. Those are my initials: T.M. Tracy McConnell.  Um, no, Tracy McConnell, it’s T.M.– Totally My umbrella.  Uh, your T.M.– Terribly Mistaken, because this umbrella has always belonged T.M.: To Me.

The Lovers

Dark (2017 - 2020) "Du Lebst" Midnight Mass (2021) "Book VII: Revelation" Star Wars: Rogue One (2016) dir. Gareth Edwards Watchmen (2009) dir. Zack Snyder