I Binged Today And Now I Feel So Gross. I'm So Full That I Feel Sick. 🤢

I thought for a while that maybe I could not handle being hurt again. That maybe my shattered heart would crack just one more time. But when in my deepest throws of sorrow, I remember that there cannot possibly be anything worse than what I've already gone through. That life has handed me the shortest stick in the pile that you cannot even use it as a matchstick. But maybe I'm okay with that. Maybe I need to lose grasp of that stick and let it fly away in the wind, like the ashes of a loved one or a dandelion for a wish. Maybe when you stop defining your life by limitations you will see that there are endless possibilities.

Melissa Rose

Bangtan meetings part 1/??

Me without You

I cannot tell if the reason I now want to be skin and bones is because you left me. I cannot tell if that was the match hitting the strike or just some kindle to a roaring flame. Did I always feel this way? There are no words left, because you stole them all. You could have saved me an explanation, but I guess my tears were answer enough. I thought I would become a person, but I’m less now than I ever was. Just a pebble in an ocean, instead of a boulder in a pond. When you feel deep in your heart and soul that you do not matter, things start to not matter. Life does not matter. Your health does not matter. So while I try to see the inside of my skeleton, I hope she was worth it, while I sit here and die.

me at family gatherings

WHAT A RELIEF THAT:

Namjoon didn’t go solo

Jin ignored SM’s street-cast

Yoongi saw BH’s flyer

Hobi didn’t quit

Jimin made it to the lineup

Taehyung went with his friend to the audition

Jungkook saw Namjoon and decided to join BigHit

BTS never gave up

WHAT A RELIEF THEY ARE 7, THAT THEY ARE TOGETHER

AND THAT THEY GOT EACH OTHER

Cr text twt post: https://twitter.com/3shells1991/status/1074110966269243393

The first warning sign was when you went from texting me every second of every day to barely once a day. The second warning sign was when you broke up with me because you "couldn't handle my mental illness". The third warning sign was when you only invited me over to spend the night because you knew I would have sex with you. The fourth warning sign was when you moved away and said you couldn't take time off to come see me, so I flew out there for my birthday to see you and you didn't even bat an eye about the $500 I dropped, when you knew I spent everything I had in savings just to come there. Then proceeded to take a week off to visit your friend in Chicago...without telling me. The fifth warning sign was when you wanted to get back together with me when you said "it seems like you're getting better". The sixth warning sign was when you decided that you really didn't want to get back together because I was "too sick" and you couldn't take the time to comfort me. The seventh warning sign was when you moved back home and didn't say a word to me about it. The eighth warning sign was when I'd text you and you'd never reply, even when you knew I needed you. The eighth warning sign was when I told you that I didn't want to be friends because I thought I was going to kill myself and didn't want him to be sad about it. You ignored me. What if I had killed myself? The ninth warning sign was when you texted me days later asking if I "felt better" and when I called you out on ignoring me during an extremely important time of need and told you I didn't want you in my life, you said "ok". The tenth warning sign was when you blocked me on all forms of social media after I unfriended you on Facebook. Kind of sad that it took ten horrible things to make me realize what a toxic person you were. I hope you're happy. I hope you find a girl you actually want to spend time with, whose normal and enjoys being ignored. Who has never experienced immense pain, doesn't know what the real world is like. Because she only exists in the fictional world. I hope you remain unhappy just so you can realize how shitty you are as a person and really sit down and think about what you've done. Because while to you, you just lost a friend, someone down to fuck, someone to talk to when you're bored; to me, I lost my heart, my trust, over 2 years of my life that I will never get back.

Melissa Rose

Today I attempted my very first fast. I made it to 21 hours! I'm very proud of myself! Tomorrow I'll try for the full 24 and progress from there 👍

I think the hardest part is convincing yourself that you are not hungry. 

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)