Hi Kelly, I Currently Am Really Lost In My "journey" And Busy Studying, How Will I Be Able To Realize

"Don't imagine to try, but to experience" -EdwardArt

In the beginning I heard this saying, but I never truly grasped the statement. Even now I still look at it kind of funny only because even though the basis of manifestation is proving to u that you've always had what you wanted, let's be real the main reason 99.9% of us started consciously manifesting in three first place is because we want to have this same experience in the 3d. But unfourtanetly, when you really change your perspective you will begin to realize truly, how delusional and illogical you are with approaching manifesting as a whole(bare with me). Let's run down the basics so you all can see what I mean:

You learn about manifestation. The main points you know is that:

1. Imagination is the only reality

2. You can manifest anything there are no limits

3. Manifestation is always instant

Some of you may be really saying to yourself "Ms. Allurèa I already know this stuff so how am I being delusional?" Well I'm glad you asked. You know these basic things about the law, you know the moment you've imagined what you want (imagination don't equal visualization) it was already fulfilled. You say you know imagination is the only reality yet you look outside in the mirror for validation, you say you know you can manifest anything yet you condition your desires, you say you know manifestation is instant yet every other minute something isn't shown desirable in the 3d you ask "where is it?" AND "why isn't it here yet?" You say you know you control your reality yet you act like you don't. You say you know the 3d and 4d are the same so you "know" to change 4d yet you try to change your reflection instead of changing SELF. You say you've imagined the end yet you question "did I do it right?" "When will it come?" "Is it done?"

You guys see how delusional, illogical and contradicting it sounds. If you have to question if your desires are fulfilled or not then no they are not fulfilled. If you have to ask "where is it?" After you've literally just saw yourself having what you want IN IMAGINATION, IN SELF then no you do not have it and you need to change your mindset immediately and when I say that I'm not just speaking on SC but your perspective entirely. Are you truly imagining to experience because you know imagination is your true reality therefore you are experiencing what you want now or are you imagining to try and get something that's already there. There is literally only I AM, if you must say "I will be" then you do not have it at all. You either have it or you don't.

"As far as I am concerned I already have what I want, there is no where is it? I just imagined it because imagination is the only reality. So therefore it's here right now. There is no when is it coming? It's already here. There is no well did I do it right or did it work? It's ALREADY WORKED. To deny this is being delusional" -EdwardArt

not my prodigal ass returning

The major steps are first, becoming aware of the fact that we are master over matter (and matter includes the body). Then, the second major step is becoming master over mind. And when we become really masterful over mind we are able to and we do let go of mind and operate in the realm of omniscience, in the realm of knowingness. Then we are fully aware of the infinite Being that we are, and are in the ultimate Happiness. We should start with the first step, consciously controlling matter. Whether we are aware of it or not, everyone is controlling matter all the time. Whether one wants to be a demonstrator or not, he is. It is impossible to not be a creator all the time. Everyone is creating every day. We are not aware of it because we just don't look at it. We have demonstrated or created everything we have! Every thought, every single thought, materializes in the physical world. It's impossible to have a thought that will not materialize (except that we reverse it). If we think the opposite right after we have a thought, with equal strength, we neutralize it.

So this thing of demonstration that we are all trying so hard to accomplish, we are doing all the time, unconscious of the fact that we're doing it.

You are a creator, so long as you have a mind and think.

━ these were all Lester's words.

Predicting the Q&A that will follow and answering you these.

Q: Does that mean if I think my dog died my dog will die???

Ada: Did you take that thought to be true? What reason would you have to suddenly believe your dog is dead? No, thought materializes when it's absolute, that is when you think "My fridge is in the kitchen", you have no doubts or questions coming along with that, it's a statement you take as real. You think your fridge is in the kitchen, and so it is. You have no feelings regarding that, it is just a statement, it is just reality.

Q: Okay then, how do I make reality of me being Lara?

Ada: This is why I insist to see you aren't either. You can't let go of Vanessa now because you think you are her. Can you think of your fridge being in the living room while you're convinced it is in the kitchen? You don't even allow yourself to, if that thought comes into being - you brush it off, you can't take it for a possibility because you know the fridge is in the kitchen. If you really thought you were Lara, the way you think your fridge is in the kitchen, then that would be materialized with no question. Do you ask questions about Vanessa being materialized? No, she is. No questions asked. You may have all these big feelings about her, but she is because you think so so strongly in the first place, you never allowed yourself to doubt it. Stop thinking it is so and see. what. happens. This is why I insist on equal-mindedness toward all bodies/persons, because then you can just pick and have it be so instantly. Now you don't pick because you go back to dealing with all of Vanessa's baggage, because you think she is the All, the background, the source - and you need to work with that, change her thinking to change her reality. There's this have to, have to, have to━you can't let go of. But Self is not Vanessa.

Being your Self is having all the fridges floating in space, picking one and placing the fridge wherever you want with a thought.

Revert to your natural state and have any thought be absolute the way Vanessa in this moment is to you absolute.

Saying "anything is possible" is an understatement.

by Being_is_IT / Twitter

Q: Because it is dream-like, anything is possible. So there’s no actual problems, right?

A: Yes, anything or any situation is possible. There is no actual restriction or limit. But it seems to the Mind that there are full of restrictions and limits. Yes, no actual problems, but just like in a dream, there seems to be full of problems. This is the magic that only SELF can appreciate. Saying "anything is possible" is an understatement.

Human language can't describe this magic. It's infinitely more magical than you can ever imagine. It is so magical that it can appear to have no magic. It's so magical that insubstantiality can appear substantial.

It's so magical that space-less and timeless can appear as space and time. It's so magical that absolute perfection can appear as if it is imperfect. That's how magic works. The Mind complains that there is no freedom.

But this is exactly how unconditional freedom appears to be. So, "feeling in bondage" is indeed an illusion projected by the Mind. The Mind complains that everything is hard and solid and there are so many hardships to overcome in life. Although such feelings of hardships may appear to be very obvious, it is an illusion projected by the Mind. This is exactly how the magic functions, illusions always appear very real.

Otherwise, illusion won't be illusion. If you don't get what I am talking about, just remind yourself how real a dream plotline feels until it pops. Through continuous noticing, your innate sensitivity will automatically increase, there will come a moment you will discover this magic while the current plotline seemingly continuing to proceed.

hiii omg am i glad that you’ve turned on your asks again!! i hope you aren’t feeling too overwhelmed with this blog/asks, you’re doing such a wonderful job!!

i’m this anon, btw :) https://www.tumblr.com/adadisciple/724563337217736704/hi-im-this-anon

i’ve got some more “success’s”!! as i stated in my last ask, i could potentially have some brain damage- but that’s only “true” if i identify with it. anywaysss, my memory isn’t the best so i wrote down a list of sorts, and conducted a little “experiment”.

before i did that however, i was able to get my desired body!! i also cleared up my skin, which took a turn after the whole cancer thing. i don’t want to get into details, but since the cancer affected my lymph nodes- it made it’s way to my skin, which “manifested” in hyper pigmentation , rashes, scabs, etc. it was just horrible. even after the cancer was “healed”, i was left with scarring on my skin- and tbh it just looked horrible. i didn’t really feel confident to wear shorts outside anymore. tbh, i wasn’t really attached to this body or it’s skin, so i decided to change it for funsies. i remembered who i truly was- Self. i just decided i had my desired body- kinda imagined it but just once- and that my skin was clear. i let it go, tbh i think that was the only time i thought about it till the next day, when my skin was literally so clear.

all the dark spots and problems seemed to disappear overnight, i even had some scabs that went away. i also lost my ability to rlly eat- or want to eat during the cancer period, so i kinda lost my natural shape. the same day my skin changed, my body reverted to how i wanted it to be. afterwards, i realized how little i thought of what i used to be insecure about- when i had the “desirable.” for example, with my skin, i didn’t think of how horrible all the scabs looked, i didn’t even think about how clear it was. i just knew, and it was normalized.

regarding the experiment, i made a list of things i wanted to occur- but wrote down how i did it- or what steps i took. i did 4:

receiving a text

getting a hug (tbh random lol but i love hugs)

revising the house i live in ac being always cold, and set to 73.

and then.. for you to have your asks on again!!

they all worked- and i wrote on my notebook that they would occur before the day was over. for the hug and ac, i wrote how it was ok for me to seek, think, worry, or obsess over it- because i knew mySelf to be Self- and none of my characters actions could hinder me. the hug and ac happened before i went to sleep. for the text and asks, it happened today. there’s no use in making sense of it- but to be a hypocrite, i would think they happened the next day because i felt it was essential to feel indifference. but when you know yourSelf to be Self- there really isn’t any essential steps to take, or anything that can stop you.

i feel as if i am a child again, im always giddy when i marvel at my true Self. it’s so amazing, and a complete total 180 or even 360 from when i first sent my ask to Lain. I even got into the void last night, completely aware of it, and was able to affirm for some things! I kept “waking up” in it, throughout the night. I genuinely have no worries anymore, and it’s so refreshing that I am in tears typing this. I know you must be overworked between this blog, and just the everyday forces of life- but truly it is people/blogs like you, who help others completely turn their lives around!! Thank you so much, all of your kindness, and aid will surely be returned tenfold <3

WOOWAA SO HAPPY TO HEAR FROM YOU AGAIN!!

@lains-reality your anon!!

Ahh I wish this would be the only thing my asks ever saw :')) life is truly this wonderful and easy ♡

"and then.. for you to have your asks on again!!"

Not you controlling Sofia like a puppet, this is really your world fr 😌

Jokes aside, you can see we really are all one.

Key points from their process for everyone:

afterwards, i realized how little i thought of what i used to be insecure about- when i had the “desirable.”

i just knew, and it was normalized.

for the hug and ac, i wrote how it was ok for me to seek, think, worry, or obsess over it- because I knew mySelf to be Self- and none of my character's actions could hinder me.

but to be a hypocrite, i would think they happened the next day because i felt it was essential to feel indifference.

but when you know yourSelf to be Self - there really isn’t any essential steps to take, or anything that can stop you.

Thank you for coming back to us, you're so sweet for helping others by documenting as well ♡

4dbarbie interview: All about Desires

4dkelly notes: I had fun making this in an interview style Q&A between 4dbarbie and Vanessa. I thought "how would 4dbarbie answer anon questions if she were still here today?". Spoiler alert, it wouldn't be much different to the questions anons asked her lol. Most answers are just directly extracted from her posts/answered asks but some have been adapted a bit or rearranged to make it flow better. I have added some relevant posts for further reading. I may or may not make more of these. This was mainly just for fun (but then it really evolved into an educational piece lol). My highlight key: key concepts are in pink, action points in purple, really important points in red

Vanessa: I really like this guy and want to manifest him. 😢 How do I do that?

4dbarbie: IMAGINE KNOWING ALL THIS AND STRESSING OVER A GUY?!?!? Unbelievable. Who's holding you at gun point to type this out to me??? 😧😧😧 I refuse to believe this is what this material is getting wasted on. I refuse to believe this is the understanding you guys have after I explained who you are in so many ways. Imagine liking someone who didn't text you back right after to tell you how amazing you are as well 🤮 what do you like about this nobody? You want to give me a heart attack? I tell you there is no one out there but you and instead of being free and loving yourself you... you give a crumb of your precious attention to this? I tell you you are life and you try to make life better through dates?

Vanessa: Okay but what about my other desires? I want them...

4dbarbie: Everything about Vanessa is meaningless. She has a life and if it's boring, who cares? Forget it. What do you need these stories for? Do you not understand they have reality because you give it to them? YOU! They have no standing on their own! The whole world is just your mere thought. The body exists because you are aware of it being! Only you have this power. Only you are. Why are you dreaming like this? Gosh, you break my heart. If Vanessa is hurting you why do you keep on choosing her?

Vanessa: Then what should I do? I still have things I desire despite knowing I cannot desire because I am not a person, ego, mind...

4dbarbie: You know it intellectually, but have you acted on it at all? You know yourself as Vanessa by acting like Vanessa, know yourself as your Self by acting like yourself. Desires and fears dissipate then. You have desires still because you never stopped thinking you're Vanessa. Investigate who Vanessa actually is :) Spoiler alert: it's a thought! Think something else and see what happens.

Vanessa: How long will this take? When will I see a change?

4dbarbie: Now. Who is doing the change in attitude, what are you waiting for to happen for you to change your attitude? It's instant. You see it, you realize you have no reason to worry/doubt/desire/fear anymore, let things happen as they happen while you're undisturbed and they dissolve.

Vanessa: Should I just keep assuming that I don't desire things anymore because I already have it while I'm denying and dismissing my senses? It feels like I'm just waiting and being delusional though

4dbarbie: Your world is right and perfect, what you see is what you are so even if you're seeing what 'you' don't want, the world is not wrong in being what it is. Fearing it, trying to manipulate it, lying to yourself about it being something different - all useless and vain attempts.

Not seeing the world as it is, is an aversion to it. - Lester Levenson

See it as it is and it will fix itself.

And no, being delusional is not good, it leads you not to trust your own judgment or senses. Which is not right, why shouldn't you? What is wrong with your vision? Being delusional from your ego self is really harmful, someone could be abusing you and you would go "i'm sure that's not right he loves me so much in my mind!!!"

You won't be able to get rid of the waiting feeling as long as you're identified with your ego, it can manipulate nothing. And if you weren't your ego -- everything would already be materialized, so there would be nothing to wait for.

Vanessa: Well since I Am and I give life to everything, when Vanessa desires something, I can just "give" her her desires, right?

4dbarbie: The desire that *I*... the desire is of Vanessa, the Self can have that and it's nothing to it. It's just another experience. Those things are in you, not you in them.

You don't have to give her anything... you don't have to fulfill anybody... I Am is already everything... you only don't see you are all and have the all because you won't stop thinking you're the ego. All you're doing all the time is creating lack & limitation, perfection already is. You just add unsatisfying labels constantly with your wrong thinking.

Let go of the thinking, it's instant. No need to fulfill anybody. 1 My tip is to realize your Self, have enough courage to face Vanessa's fears. See how unnecessary is to pay them any mind at all. Let go of thinking you are this little helpless thing already. After you realize yourself, any bold assertion does it. There's no time delay. 2

Vanessa: Now I feel defeated, do I just give up on everything then?

4dbarbie: Feeling defeat is actually good, it prompts you to let go :D You don't need to reach for what is already within you. Give up the idea that you have not found it and just let it come into the focus of direct perception, here and now, by letting go of all that is of the mind.

Abandon all sense of separation, see yourself in all and act accordingly - Nisargadatta Maharaj

You have it, all is well. Just stop believing the illusions born out of thinking you're a person.

Vanessa: So as Awareness, I have to stop desiring?

4dbarbie: If you know yourself to be Awareness, then you know yourself to be the all. There is nothing to desire, because you have no reason to create desire.

That's why it's necessary to realize all that is is awareness and the person comes second. If you think all that is is the person, then the chances of believing you're suddenly a different person are slim, and the persuasion and convincing are nothing but a form of self-instilled mental torture. 1 All you're doing is imagining/thinking you're an ego who has to strive for things, but it is "I AM" imagining itself to be so.

What is beyond is clear of all striving. The cause of suffering is in the identification of the perceiver with the perceived. - Nisargadatta Maharaj

When that identification ceases, so does desire. Then, if you want to express yourself as being a person, nothing is stopping you from doing so, only know yourself first. After that, no matter what you choose to experience the world as, you will know you are not it and it can't hurt you.

Vanessa: What do I do when a desire or fear comes to my mind then? It doesn't feel right to suppress them...

4dbarbie: I am not talking of suppression. Just refuse attention. Nisargadatta has a saying "When you happen to walk in a crowd, you do not fight every man you meet — you just find your way between." Neville has another "Indifference is the knife that severs, feeling is the tie that binds." When you refuse to play the game, you are out of it.

Vanessa: Then how do I stop feeling anxious about trying to change my life?

4dbarbie: You are not the one who is anxious or fearful, the ego is fearful. LOA was wrong about letting go because you can't let go of desires or fears if you don't know who you really are. If you think you are this ego you can't help being anxious. You can't help wanting to get. Real surrendering can only be of the ego. By letting go of who you think you are and seeing you were never it in the first place, that it is because YOU are, you naturally drop all desires and fears because they weren't yours. 1 Get into a habit of watching, letting them be but not identifying with them. If you can observe them, it means you are not them.

Abandon all imaginings and know yourself as you are. All craving is due to a sense of insufficiency. When you know that you lack nothing, that all there is, is you and yours, desire ceases. - Nisargadatta Maharaj

Vanessa: How do I stop feeling doubts then?

4dbarbie: You shut them down. There is no reason to argue with them, contemplate them, or give them any kind of attention at all. See them for what they are, an illusion of the mind. When you catch yourself being aware of something that's undesirable, just go 'What problem?' and know it to be perfect again. Always remember, the real you can't have doubts, only your ego can.

Vanessa: I feel like I'm not doing enough to realize my true Self. How can I be more productive on this journey?

4dbarbie: There's nothing to be productive about. What a silly concept. Don't add another burden or worry onto yourself. Right now you make yourself guilty over not seeking more and doing more to attain realization, but you already have it. You need not take time to meditate or put time aside to contemplate and "apply". All you need to do is detach from this form during the day, let life happen as it happens while reminding yourself it's a dream, a dream that doesn't have to be yours.

The guilt is because you think you're running out of time and you need to change "your" life now. Be patient with yourself because you don't lose any time, just get to that place I'm telling you about and then you can just go back in time if you so wish. All worry is pointless! And there is nothing to fear, things just happen, do not claim them as yours for a while. Unclutter your mind, it becomes your servant after you've freed it enough.

law school

back to masterlist

series

➵ peace is not known to man

∟ summary: after turning his back on the prosecutor’s office, lawyer han joon hwi attempts at a clean slate, starting his own private firm. but, there was no way for him to move forward without clearing his former suspect, his current coworker, lawyer kang sol. with lee man ho, their main suspect, escaped and an empty apartment, can they prove her innocence?

(part I) (part II) (part III) (part IV)

➵ push and pulI

∟ summary: during a trial, a lawyer must be ready for anything. they should be able to navigate their way through any sudden obstacles or arguments. but through her time at law school, this is the first time her opponent has used kisses as an argument strategy.

or: joon hwi decides it’s time to test how far kang sol’s concentration can last. you know, to prepare her for the trial. no other reason.

(part I) (part II)

➵ caught up in a dream (in a technicolor beat)

∟ summary: a dream or real life? when sol sneaks out of joon hwi’s room after a one night stand, he assumes the whole night to be a very vivid dream. a little too vivid. but of course, it had to be a dream. right?

aka: idiots to lovers but heavy emphasis on the idiots.

(part I) (II)

➵ underneath the singing moon

∟ summary: a story in two parts, from two people who watched as their life flowed past. a solhwi & jisolB fic

(part I) (part II)

➵ darling, you're the one i want

∟ summary: Kang Sol A was never known for her luck, but she suspected it to be more like a curse when after almost 5 years, she bumps into her rival and the bane of her existence: Attorney Han Joon Hwi. What’s worse? She has to work with him and she’s sure that she’ll either kill him or kiss him before this is all over

After Kang Sol B was freed from the clutched of her mother, her new found freedom spurred her into a night in bed with the mysterious Ji Ho. Yet, when he walks into her office the next day, she is faced with the realization that she is now working with the same man she slept with. What’s worse? He’s insufferable and she just might have to kiss him to shut him up.

(ch. 1)

one shots

➵ you're my sunshine in the rain when it's pouring (won't you give yourself to me?)

∟ summary: Kang Sol A was not afraid, she wasn’t built to be afraid. But what else could you call the pang that rippled through her heart as she noticed the two figures huddled at the cafe near the entrance of her school?

➵ there's gotta be some butterflies somewhere (wanna share?)

∟ summary: They were light and dark, yin and yang. Kang Dan and Kang Sol were a set, unbalanced without the other. Despite their differences, it was always clear that neither sister would leave the other.

Until one did.

aka: what would have happened if kang dan made her flight.

➵ and when the seasons change (will you stand by me?)

∟ summary: when kang sol’s mother has to work late, she has to take care of byeol. it’s just her luck that she has an exam the next day, one for professor yang of all people. joon hwi, being the kind classmate he is, offers to study with her.

or: byeol is solhwi mastermind, and she’s says everything we wanted to say to the two dummies

➵ a king and his rusty throne (i'm just skin and bones)

∟ summary: Lawyer Han Joon Hwi never yields, fighting endlessly. The court was his domain, where he held the power over his opponent. The only exception, of course, is his 5'6" passionate, animated girlfriend, Attorney Kang Sol.

➵ cause we're dancing in this world alone (when people are talking)

∟ summary: a puzzle with a missing piece and a kite with a fragile string, finding what they need most in their young, shaky lives.

or: ji ho finds understanding through the most uncharacteristic gesture.

➵ jumping in eyes closed, hands tied

∟ summary: Prosecutor Han Joon Hwi and Lawyer Kang Sol A have been avid rivals since they met at Hanguk Law School. Every courtroom turns into an intense dance between the two talented individuals, the tensions high and the arguments captivating. Their win rates were neck and neck, and the tension between them was just as thick as ever. Little did everyone else know, Han Joon Hwi and Kang Sol A held a secret underneath the sheets.

➵ wednesdays at 11 pm

∟ summary: a progression in time, lives, and goodbyes.

➵ golden (like daylight)

∟ summary: three times han joon hwi tried to confess to kang sol, and the one time kang sol confessed to him.

➵ he’s earth and heaven to you (you can’t conceal it)

∟ summary: Kang Sol A, just wants a one normal year. Just one year without some kind of explosion, or murder, or world ending event. Unfortunately, disaster has struck in the form of a 5' 11" insufferable, quidditch player and genius Han Joon Hwi.

headcanons

➵ wicked love, leaves me blind

Ok Anthony and Kate Bridgerton calm down!

Welcome ♡

Welcome to 4dkelly's world. You may call me 4dkelly or Kelly. @4dbarbie-archive and @ndjournal are my side blogs and I keep most of my reblogs @4dkellyreblogs. Most of my understanding of non-duality is from 4dbarbie (Ada), Lester Levenson, Nisargadatta Maharaj, Robert Adams and my own experiences as Self! I would say my primary teachers are Lester and Robert so a lot of the excerpts and quotes I share now are from them ❤️ I made an AI chatbot with Lester's teachings. If you want to ask it a question, see this post.

Everything that I share on this blog are intended to be pointers, suggestions and helpful tips for people on the same journey. If you resonate with it, feel free to explore it further and if it doesn't, you can disregard it :)

Note: I'm taking a break from Tumblr for an undecided amount of time. I feel like it's the right time to step away for now. Maybe (or maybe not) I'll pop back in in a few months and answer if there's any asks/submissions @askailester or @ndjournal. Take care everyone and don't forget that You are your best guide on this path. You don't need to take anything that doesn't resonate. Keep living your truth! ❤️

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Read this if you are going through a difficult time on your journey.

"Purpose" ?

"So, what is the purpose of this whole ordeal? Am I truly feeling helpless? Have I genuinely experienced heart-wrenching events? Is my life really that miserable? Understanding THAT, it became apparent that these things were mere illusions, appearing that way because I continuously identified with it happening to a little "me". I believed I was a helpless human being, lacking a deep understanding of my true existence. I stopped assigning any meaning to this story, not even deeming it meaningless. These thoughts are meaningless because they are nothing. Any idea is irrelevant to your true identity.

Then why does this situation exist? In the game of life, everything is just "Being-ness" playing with itself. I could ask why I have to go through this nonsense, but it's senseless. Why? It's all a big Paradox. So, when you ask why this situation arises, people seek a logical answer. But there is no rational, logical answer. It's like a puzzle; it's an appearance. In a dream, there are no rational, logical answers. All thoughts, emotions, and identities are things we collect. They are not you. This doesn't mean you have to confirm the truth in your mind because there is no truth in thoughts—they have no meaning unless you asign one to them. You can't describe THAT with words; you can only be THAT. Thoughts aren't something only you possess. So, there's only one thing: transcend it and realize who you are.

draft written by most likely Dawa , no one knows