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THIS IS JUST THE FIRST PART TO THE HUGE POST, PLEASE TAKE YOUR TIME

After what felt like months away from tumblr I really dove into self-inquiry fully, and of course still am, and I promised you guys a mega post so here’s the initial information so far. There is more to come.

IM SORRY IF THERE ARE ERRORS IN GRAMMAR OR SMTH I WROTE THIS AT MANY DIFFERENT MOMENTS THROUGHOUT THE DAY!! FEEL FREE TO ASK QUESTIONS, ETC BUT PLS DONT ASK BY RESPONDING TO THIS POST, ITLL CAUSE SO MUCH SPAM ON THE FEED AND MY ASKS PAGE

Hello! Yes I have started looking back into my inbox (THERE ALLOT OF ASKS 😭😭🫶) but I absolutely plan on answering as many as possible, and because your post resonated with how I used to feel, I want to answer yours first.

So to begin with, It makes me so happy to know that what I’ve written has some kind of affect (that being positive). I can’t remember if I told you guys how old I was but I must have cus you seem to know 😭😭, yes I’m 19 we’re very close in age, this moment in life is when allot of us who figure out this stuff lean into it more because we realize how much of a leg up we have if we just “apply” the teachings this early on.

So first what I want to say to you is, no, your not giving up on a dream and neither are you going to live a normal life, I’ll make sure of that, this beautiful world that we step into gives us so much insight on what we inherently are. But I need to remind you and everyone else, this is not some big secret that has to be practiced, it’s a look at what we are and always will be. You have purpose and you deserve to be happy and enjoy a life that’s easy and fulfilling. I apologize in advance because this is going to be a pretty long post!! 🫶🫶

Let’s get rid of the labels and titles we’ve given these understandings as if they are for someone to learn and master. No one masters manifestation, no one will ever master manifestation and I truly don’t care for how many “success stories” they have, it doesn’t hold proving value of what they are (notice how I didn’t say who), we are not who’s, but that’s for later in the post.

The reason I’ve stepped away from the concept of manifesting is because it is inherently lack and separation based. No matter the teaching, they all seem to glorify the idea of getting and achieving which puts great pressure on success stories and all that rubbish. (Not me turning British) 😝😝, okay sorry, so yeah this also goes for nondualism, I don’t associate a title with what I learn, it’s not NonDualism it’s actually just self discovery in disguise of a teaching. But for this exact reason I don’t think to myself “I need to learn NonDualism better”, nononooooo I made this mistake wayyy to much due to the sole fact that I came in with the expectation that this would now teach me the secrets of manifesting. This is kind of the set up to more desire and lack, which is actually the opposite of the self-realization “journey”.

So, when you say you have never manifested anything in your life, I say this with incredible pleasure, that this is impossible, I know I know, before you start thinking to yourself that youve heard this before but I don’t think people go that in depth as to what that even means. So, your life and your problems, are not actually problems.

Self-realization is not the journey for the person to become consciousness, but to understand that you ARE consciousness to begin with. You does no reference a someone, but “ “.

This is going to be, quite a post so PLEASE hang in there. And I just want to add in, this is still not a seperate being trying to understand that it’s connected to conciousness, no, you as conciousness, infinite knowing, are so involved with the content that you appear as, you’ve tricked yourself into thinking that you are just 1 thing of the content. Let me use my first example.

We have given ourselves the greatest interpretation and key to knowing ourself, and that’s dreaming.

Every night, we sleep, HOORRAAYYYY, now let’s get into the details because this is where the magic happens and it clicks.

Take the moment before a dream appears, recognize that when the eyes are closed there’s this presence. Not the darkness, the presence. Something, but not a thing.

Stay here and forget the rest of the world exists for a moment. Now there is only this presence, it’s knowing, it’s being right? Now there’s no actual material but regardless, it is, something. This isn’t something out of this world it’s literally, you. From this, knowing or no-thingness, comes expressions, absolutely infinite potential, this is registered as a dream, but, before the dream in any way can be experienced, there always has to be some type of interpreter/lens, this comes in the form a person or better yet, senses. Of course, there’s nothing to the senses or the person but whatever it’s formulated from, which was that presence/knowing. The activity of this infinite potential that is the knowing, (you asleep) appears, only with the help of a pov/sight.

Nonetheless, it plays out, it plays stories of absolutely anything, for no reason at all, and as it does, we get lost to it, it starts to become real, and without even realizing it, it’s no longer a dream but something we’re experiencing, now you are the character in the dream and you naturally play out the dialogue and storyline and explore the fields, magic towers, and laugh and dance and make friends, and then you wake up.

When you wake up, you recognize “oh, nothing was actually happening”, now of course, when your the person in the dream it is very real, but even then, is it? Knowing what you know, there wasn’t actually a place with dialogue, no character of its own experience or life, no actual forests or fields and magic, no one actually laughing and dancing or friends, but simply the appearance of that. The illusion.

And it’s not that it’s only a formulation of you when you realize it is, but it always is, the dream doesn’t only become an illusion or “fake” when you wake up, it’s naturally just fake, REGARDLESS of how it seems to be. And regardless we sleep every night knowing that we’ll forget it’s a dream.

So I think you can see where I’m headed with this, I’m going to use the example Rupert Spira uses but twist it a bit.

You go to sleep in Australia and dream yourself in the streets of Paris, and you take on the identity of John, you don’t actually become John and experience the streets of Paris.

Now, John drinks coffee and he feels the sunlight warm his skin, sees the greenery, feels the wind, all of it. But despite the way it all seems the sunlight, the sensations that John has, is not actually real, and neither is John. John isn’t actually feeling anything, he doesn’t exist and there is no Paris being traveled. And it’s not John that realizes/awakens to the understanding that he’s fake and this is all a dream, it’s you, asleep in Australia that realizes it as you modulate/formulate as the streets of Paris, the coffee, and the greenery, and John, understand?

The activity of that presence, if you recall when we talked about closing your eyes, formulated as something that seemed so real, and that doesn’t give any reality to the dream itself, because there is no separating the knowing from the content known. Without the “space” for it to appear or form from, how on earth would there be the content? A bigger step forward is to realize that there isn’t even an actual dream occurring but it’s all the self knowing presence of, well, knowing. I want to add something very important before moving on.

Knowing does not happen for the purpose of pleasure, we naturally deconstruct false ideas like this as we go, but something you MUST understand about the nature of existence is, none of this is appearing for the purpose of ant experience, there isn’t actually an experience. No one is enjoying nor hating the illusion, it is simply an appearance.

In the same way that the aware/presence before the dream appears from it simply is, in this way, we are. It’s like saying the TV screen plays a movie and experiences it, or does it for the purpose of experience, no that’s silly, knowing has no inherent motive, it is, you (infinite knowing) don’t “happen” for a purpose, never mind happen at all, you are, and in this do you take form of something, your self aware nature of course knows the content of your own being, but that doesn’t mean the illusion can enjoy itself, or that you enjoy or experience the illusion, it’s just a plain appearance, and that’s it.

For example, when you close your eyes on this next demonstration, truly try to grasp the essence of what I’m trying to explain.

Bring from the nothingness/knowing when you close your eyes, a blue vase, know it in every aspect you can, incorporate every sense you can (even taste if your a little freaky 🫦🫦😭) and make it as present as possible. After you open your eyes I have a question for you. (I’m serious, do the damn practice it’ll help you) please take as much time you need to truly get in there (not too long I can’t wait all day)

okay hey, your back, now answer me this, from what did this immersive appearance take reality from? You and I know that there’s no actual vase despite its presence, no matter the vibrant or dull colors, no matter the feel, rough or glossy, its taste 🫦😭, its feel, etc. So what was the substance that formulated this? If you guessed knowing, your soooooo correct, if you didn’t it’s okay you get brownie points 🫶. But yes, now I need you to understand this verrrry clearly, the vase was not real!!!! Yet it appeared that way! This is AN ILLUSION SURPIRISISIEIEIEIEIEIEISISBWHH- yes. No matter how much you want to convince yourself and go back to the vase and its appearance and its feel or colors or any aspect of it, it wasn’t ACTUALLY happening and that means it didn’t take place for anyone or anywhere!!! All there was present was knowing, from knowing forms vase and every seemingly alternate way that it is known, feeling is a form of knowing, literally every sense is just a form of knowing. Every sense that was “used” to understand the vase was all just aspects and appearances of knowing, the color, the sounds, the taste, the feels, they didn’t formulate anywhere else, but nonetheless appeared as immersive and real because YOU BECAME FOCUSED ON THE CONTENT OF THE APPEARANCE RATHER THAN RECOGNIZE THAT IT WAS JUST APPEARANCE. And even though the content of the appearance you formed as became the focus, it still didn’t change the objective fact that there wasn’t someone actually there and experiencing it in any way.

The knowing in/on which appearances formulate is not something different than the appearance, there is nothing to the illusion but its reality, and its reality is knowing. In this way, the illusion couldn’t even be described as something real or taking place, as if it could exist apart from the source of it.

Knowing this is also knowing there is no such thing as the knowing OF, we never know of things or of experiences as if they are something seperate and exist seperatley from knowing itself, that’s literally impossible. Moving forward

You are not the person/character, and it’s not that you are a limited being and you have to wake up to the idea that you are infinite knowing, you have to realize that you were never something seperate, and that this is simply the modulation of your being, and it’s not a someone it’s more of a something.

Let’s starts stabilizing this.

To all of the experiences across centuries, theres one constant amongst the billions of people who’ve lived and are now and that is, I Am. We might not know for certain about anything else ever in this entire universe, and we might not even know who or what we are but for a fact we can say, yes, I am.

There’s no true word that can describe the infinite essence of being, so we use knowing or conciousness or god, all completely the same.

So, to every experience, without an ounce of doubt, there can be the claim, I am. This is knowing, and only from knowing comes the statement, because we must know we are in order to claim that we are. I think something that can capture this is a newborn, imagine yourself to be newly born, mere seconds I mean, eyes closed. You have no understand of anything, no thoughts, no memories, no identity, your pure experience is simply being/knowing, and I don’t mean the action of knowing, that’s not a real thing. Knowing is inherent, you don’t force it.

Going back to experiences. Any experience that is recognized, any seeing, and hearing, tasting touching, and of course feeling, is assumed to be the experience of the body and this is therefore falsely established as “me”, in doing so, we forget our true nature of freedom and limit our understanding and abilities to the limitations of the body.

I’m now going to help you realize the body is an interpreter, and not of a world that’s happening somewhere in time and space, but that the world is the interpretation/modulation/illusion/dream/appearance of our shared infinite being, AFTER being recognized through the interpretations, (sensations and perceptions). This also means that it’s in no way an actual measurement to what you fully are.

What experience is there to seeing? Better yet let me narrow it down, there is nothing to seeing as if there is someone doing the seeing. Seeing simply is. There’s no one to do it, just what is. There is sight, how is there an acknowledgment of the sight/seeing? There must be something to it that gives the understanding “oh I’m seeing this”. (Hint, it’s the same thing that let you know, that “I Am”). Knowing, yes, not knowing as an action, that’s not real, people don’t know, knowing is the essence of what we are (we are not people). But just wait for that. So all there is to sight is knowing, and I don’t think I have to do this but you can say the same about absolutely every other sense, because every single “experience” absolutely requires knowing. Without knowing, “experience” never is, I think we can all acknowledge that.

There is no such thing as the experience of being a human, Why are we deciding that this is what’s it’s like to be humans, we know humans we acknowledge humans but there is no such thing as being a human, in the same way that there’s no true way that there is something to being a fox or a bird or a rock, it’s only with labels are these ideas decided.

The only thing you’ll be able to muster up is memories, emotions, etc, but that doesn’t make it the inherent experience of being a human. Our first and only experience of what we are is knowing, and then knowing that we are, that’s it. In the same way that a babies first experience is not “I am a baby” or “I am a human”, rather it’s just knowing. If being human was our nature, that’s all we’d recognize, and from the very beginning. Our experience does not actually change from being/knowing, we simply forget that there is the knowing, and decide to focus on the body to be “me” or “human”.

You don’t need senses to know you are. Knowing is something unimaginable. Go ahead and try to find it by closing your eyes or even with them open. Can you grab or touch the knowing. Can you recognize its dimensions or what its appearance is? How old or young is it?

Do me a favor and find the edge where knowing starts and stops.

Let me know when you find it because you never will.

Even when you try, it’s only conciousness itself that searches for its own parameters.

By recognizing that your truly not the body, or this person you as knowing have pretended to become, the made up problems of the person disappear, well actually, you realize that there is no person that has problems, only an idea. Only the idea that I am someone and something is happening to me, I am something seperate and need saving. There isn’t actually a seperate self, the seperate self is the activity that you as knowing are, when you become involved with the content and forget your true nature. And what’s truly the main takeaway from this is that, even when it seems like you’ve lost it and now you have to restart and understand it all over again, you as knowing haven’t gone anywhere, your the one pretending to be something lost, and not on purpose, but because you involve yourself too heavily in the appearances without recognizing where they originate from.

From what we know so far, I hope in some way you’re able to recognize that there is no one doing manifestations and having success stories. You ARE the manifestation and it will NEVER be any other way, whether we recognize it or not, that’s the beauty. So no matter if we go on about this appearance of life and say we don’t get it and move on, you as conciousness will continue to play the roles, because there is no off switch to this.

I’m hope this has been able to start untying the blinds over your “eyes” and you’re starting to somewhat understand the truth of what you/we are. This is only the beginning and it’s only going to get more incredible and beautiful from here. But for now I’m shleeepy hehehe, I’ll talk to you soon, never ever give up on your dreams!!!! 🫶❤️❤️

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manumagic11

1 year ago

In some parallel universe, I know you held me tighter. You tried harder. You said, “Look my love, I will meet you halfway.”

- N.M.Sanchez, from Initial Meeting

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1 month ago

hey ada i need advice, i want to create me waking up to my ideal life ive been through the law of assumption and everything like that and am learning how to drop that there is something to get but whenever i would wake up and still see something undesirable i would attempt to change my consciousness and remind myself i am that of which i want to be but its only a temporary relief, i know i control/decide everything by being aware, do you have any tips for paying the the things you dont want any mind?

I don't like repetition, it keeps you in lack. Do you need to remind yourself that you are a man or a woman?

My tip is to realize your self, have enough courage to face Vanessa's fears. See how unnecessary is to pay them any mind at all.

After you realize yourself any bold assertion does it. There's no time delay.

There was one person which got mad I blocked them because they corrected me in the comments when I said that unbotherdness comes first and said there was no reason for the scale of emotions I shared. I won't stand for any spreading of misinformation on this page. It's impossible for indifference not to come when you see you aren't that. When you see the desires and fears aren't yours. This is not an opinion, this is what happens when you do it. You get uninterested naturally.

Act like this, and from this. That's my only tip. Let go of thinking you are this little helpless thing already.

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manumagic11

1 year ago

𝐋𝐞𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐛𝐞

Neville says "Assume and let it be" As comforting this part should be, it turns out to be the hardest part for most of us. We just can't let it be we think "If i think it one more time then it will manifest" "if i affirm enough times it will happen""there must something more to it" but this just shows that you are still desiring it, you are "trying to make it happen" and that is NOT fulfillment and will cause you all sorts of problems.

Now some of you might want to let it be but just can't instead you are desperate and impatient and i'm gonna tell you how you can actually do it. I want you to truly TRULY understand this "Your imagination is the ONLY real reality" and "Leave the outer world alone for it is ONLY an illusion" this is very very important and i've said it unnumbered times and will continue to say it because if you overlook it you will suffer like i did. If Consciousness is the ONLY real reality and the outer world will reflect no matter what then why get so worked up about it? why worry "if it will happen", if you worry that just means you haven't completely accepted the law(as within so without) you aren't serious about it, i mean you've found GOD people all over the world are in search of God and you have found him don't just take this power lightly but completely accept him in you.After you accept you also trust his power and that means After you have assume something you let it be and that means to know it will come into being BUT not looking for conformation from the outer world.

When you assume something to be true as in if you have visualized a scene, you will want to look the outside to confirm your assumption, but this is the wrong attitude. You need to have confidence in yourself, that what you have assumed within, will happen in the outside world. You do not have to look for it, and by not looking for it, you will see it. No more craving or seeking. Now here are some really helpful quotes:

Many people get in the habit of thinking that "If I just think it one more time then it will manifest." No, it is when you let it be, you will be move under compulsion to manifest it. It is when you stop looking to outside world for confirmation, it will happen. Why? Because consciousness is the only reality. If your consciousness assumes something and then you use your consciousness to look to the outside to confirm, you will be denied, then you will accept the denied as truth and it is a cycle.

Think of manifesting as a breath. When you breathe in, you must let it go to accept a new breath. If you breathe in, and cling onto it, you will die. You will hold and hold and hold and you will never receive another breath. You must let it go to receive it. Every single time you succeed, there was this boldness, this confidence, this knowing that what you appropriated can effortlessly be done. This all comes from seeing yourself greater than your desire. If you try it you will see what I mean. Simply take the view that your desires are really nothing. They are simple goals that can easily be achieved within and through this you can feel the satisfaction of achieving it and you are able to move on.-Edward art

"So, people will tell you that “I work so hard at it,” well that's why you're failing. If you really believe all things are possible to God, and God is your own wonderful human imagination and his ways are higher than your mortal level, well then, what are you interfering with that state for? Assume the end and don't work it at all. You'll be moving under compulsion to manifest it, if you simply assume it and let it be. What do you do after someone is pregnant? Just let it be."-Neville

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manumagic11

1 year ago

"Don't imagine to try, but to experience" -EdwardArt

In the beginning I heard this saying, but I never truly grasped the statement. Even now I still look at it kind of funny only because even though the basis of manifestation is proving to u that you've always had what you wanted, let's be real the main reason 99.9% of us started consciously manifesting in three first place is because we want to have this same experience in the 3d. But unfourtanetly, when you really change your perspective you will begin to realize truly, how delusional and illogical you are with approaching manifesting as a whole(bare with me). Let's run down the basics so you all can see what I mean:

You learn about manifestation. The main points you know is that:

1. Imagination is the only reality

2. You can manifest anything there are no limits

3. Manifestation is always instant

Some of you may be really saying to yourself "Ms. Allurèa I already know this stuff so how am I being delusional?" Well I'm glad you asked. You know these basic things about the law, you know the moment you've imagined what you want (imagination don't equal visualization) it was already fulfilled. You say you know imagination is the only reality yet you look outside in the mirror for validation, you say you know you can manifest anything yet you condition your desires, you say you know manifestation is instant yet every other minute something isn't shown desirable in the 3d you ask "where is it?" AND "why isn't it here yet?" You say you know you control your reality yet you act like you don't. You say you know the 3d and 4d are the same so you "know" to change 4d yet you try to change your reflection instead of changing SELF. You say you've imagined the end yet you question "did I do it right?" "When will it come?" "Is it done?"

You guys see how delusional, illogical and contradicting it sounds. If you have to question if your desires are fulfilled or not then no they are not fulfilled. If you have to ask "where is it?" After you've literally just saw yourself having what you want IN IMAGINATION, IN SELF then no you do not have it and you need to change your mindset immediately and when I say that I'm not just speaking on SC but your perspective entirely. Are you truly imagining to experience because you know imagination is your true reality therefore you are experiencing what you want now or are you imagining to try and get something that's already there. There is literally only I AM, if you must say "I will be" then you do not have it at all. You either have it or you don't.

"As far as I am concerned I already have what I want, there is no where is it? I just imagined it because imagination is the only reality. So therefore it's here right now. There is no when is it coming? It's already here. There is no well did I do it right or did it work? It's ALREADY WORKED. To deny this is being delusional" -EdwardArt

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manumagic11

2 months ago

Deep dive into what you are experiencing

by Being_Is_IT / Twitter

In a previous article titled "Can the reality be experienced", I pointed out that the Mind subtly assumes that there is a higher or better reality hiding behind the present moment you are feeling, touching, and tasting. The Mind automatically assumes that the present moment is inferior to an imagined future moment as if you may transition into something better. Actually, the Mind's assumption is completely wrong. Unconditioned perfection is right here in the present moment.

Whatever you are feeling, tasting, experiencing, is already perfection without conditions. There is nothing better hiding behind. There will be nothing better waiting for you in the future. All that you have right now and right here is *perfection* by default.

But the Mind always complain that "I have not been able to experience the reality". The Mind automatically assumes that what is being experienced is something called "illusion" that is opposite to something better called "reality". And the Mind wishes to get out of something called "illusion" and get into something called "reality". No, it's not the case at all. Let me emphasize, what is being experienced is the only actuality that is SELF.

There is never anything that can be defined as illusion. The only subtlety is that all the interpretation of the Mind is illusory. All that can be experienced is SELF, the only perfection without conditions. Therefore, there is not anything or any situation that can be defined as illusion. The word "illusion" indicates only that the interpretation of the Mind is illusory, not indicative of any actual thing or object present that can be defined as "illusion".

For example, the effect of experiencing of an apple is actual, but interpreting such effect of experiencing as an object called "apple" is illusory. For example, the effect of experiencing of "me" is actual, but interpreting such effect of experiencing as a person living in a body called "me" is illusory. For example, the effect of experiencing of time is actual, but the interpretation of this effect of experiencing as something called "time" is illusory. Simply, the energetic effect of time is not actually something actually existing as time, all that is - is an energetic effect that Mind arbitrarily labels as a concept of "time".

For example, you can't deny the experiential effect of space, but the Mind automatically and arbitrarily interprets this experiential effect as something called "space" as if there is really an object or physical property called "space" existing. Such interpretation is an illusion. Don't seek something better or more glorious hidden behind the obvious phenomena. The phenomenon itself is by default perfection itself. Please notice all the interpretations and definitions imagined out of the Mind, these interpretations and definitions don't actually stand at all.

Even if the Mind interprets the present moment as "pain and suffering". No, it's actually not the case at all. Enjoy anyway. Even if the Mind interprets the present moment as lack or deficient. No, it's actually not the case at all. Enjoy anyway. The moment that the Mind imagines about "deep inside", you immediately discern that the Mind is lying to you. There is nothing hiding deep inside. The very concepts of "deep" and "shallow" are illusory.

The moment that the Mind imagines about "better future", you immediately discern that the Mind is lying to you. There is not a "future" because what feels like as "time" is not actually something as time. The idea of "future" is illusory. Regardless of what the Mind interpreting the present moment as, don't take the Mind's definition seriously, directly know that this is the only perfection that you can ever have, nothing better next second, nothing better tomorrow. Enjoy.

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2 months ago

Hi, i hope you're doing well.

First i want to say that i genuinely don't mean to trauma dump, so im sorry if it comes out this way. I just would want to get an advise on my specific situation. So the thing is that im ill and i have less than three months left and im panicking. I know you're probably going to say something like "time doesn't exist" but this doesn't make me feel better. I know that it's Vanessa who is sick and i try to remind myself everyday, but i feel like im just lying to myself. Every time when im dealing with pain, i try to remind myself that it's not me who's feeling pain, it's Vanessa, but i CAN'T convince myself at all. I know that im just awareness, the observer, and whatever i put my awareness on exists and what i take my awareness from, doesn't. So i just have to take my awareness away from this sick Vanessa and put it on the healthy Lara? But how? Or do i just keep doing what im doing, keep telling myself that im not Vanessa, until eventually something clicks and i start believing it? Im sorry, im just so lost.

Also, please don't feel like you HAVE to answer this. I guess I've already read the answer in one of your posts, but im struggling to apply it to this situation.

You're not trauma dumping, your ask is actually refreshing, coming from so many people having breakdowns over not having a mansion and a Porsche, this finally feels like a question that's worth answering.

You are awareness, you don't have to convince yourself.

Lester also got into this over a health scare, I got into this over a health scare, albeit not mine but a parent's, but just as severe.

Here's an excerpt from the book No Attachments, No Aversions, that I hope will help you:

I was told by the doctor not to exert myself, that I must live a sedentary life, because I could drop dead at any moment. This scared me almost to death! After several days I said to myself, "I'm still alive! Drop this useless fear and instead use all you've got to see what you can do about it." I resolved that either I get the answers or I'll take me off this earth, that no coronary was going to do it. And I had the where-with-all, enough morphine to do it-and in the most pleasant way. The doctors allowed me to have morphine to use when I would be overtaken by a kidney-stone attack. The major thing I did after my coronary thrombosis was cut out from the world, one hundred percent. Formerly, I had been very active socially in the arts, opera, jazz, ballet and theatre, whenever I was in New York. It was my necessity for escape. However, for three months I stopped all social activity, did no dating, and even cut out the weekend visits to my sisters and their families. I also cut off the phone. It was a total cut-out from the world. I isolated, right in New York City. I'd only go out to buy food between 2 and 5 A.M. when the city streets were the emptiest. Stores were open all night in Manhattan. I saw no one except the grocer. I was all out, hellbent on getting the answers.

I had spent over forty years of my life, mostly very unhappily. Friends would tell me, "Gee, Lester, you've got everything." I felt I had nothing. I had a nice family and an unusually loving mother. I was given a good education. I was living on 116 Central Park South-and in the penthouse. My friends were many. But my life was unhappy and sick. I had suffered twenty years with hay fever, fifteen years with ulcers and a half dozen perforated ulcers, enlarged liver and kidney stones. About twice a year I'd get jaundiced. I developed migraine headaches. Then heart trouble. And fear, anxiety and frustration all my life. After my coronary I was told I might drop dead any minute. "Don't climb a stair unless you absolutely have to," I was warned. That was in 1952. I was forty-three years old. I was desperate. This fear of dying scared me more than I've ever been scared in my life. It caused me to conclude with determination, "Either I get the answers, or I'll take me off this earth. No heart attack will do it!" That determination to get the answers was the thing that again gave me full realization of what life and happiness are. After a few days of fear of dying, I resolved that there was nothing I could do brooding about it. I started thinking of a way out. I sat alone in my apartment and just thinking, thinking, thinking. I had a problem and had to get the answer. So I sat me down and said, "Lester, you were considered smart. You were an honor student in high school. You won a scholarship when only three scholarships to Rutgers University were awarded through competitive, statewide examinations. You were an honor student in college." But for all of that, I was dumb! dumb! dumb! I did not know how to get the very elementary thing in life-how to be happy!

Well, what do I do? All of my past knowledge was useless. So I decided to drop it all and start from scratch. Okay. Well, what am I? What is this world? What is my relationship to it? I began reviewing the little happiness I had known and it was always related to a woman. "Oh, being loved by a woman is what happiness is!" Then I thought, "Well, here I am. I've had and still have lovely women wanting me. But I am still miserable!" I thought, "Then it's not being loved!" I began reviewing it again and I discovered that when I was loving them-then, I was happy. Conclusion: my happiness equates to my capacity to love.

Then I went through a very keen process of trying to love others. I would review my past behavior. Where I thought I had been loving, I saw I wanted to be loved. For instance, when I saw that I had been nice to a girl only because I wanted something from her, I would say, "You son-of-a-gun, Lester. Correct that!" Then I would love her for what she was, not for what I wanted from her. I kept on correcting this until I could find no more to correct. The next big awareness that came to me was what intelligence is. I got a picture of a single overall intelligence that each one of us is blindly using, available to us to the degree we do not cut off. I also discovered that I am responsible for everything that happens to me. Then I discovered that every thought materializes, sooner or later. Thereafter I took responsibility for everything that was happening to me. Looking for it, the initiating thought would come up in mind, and it being conscious, I would then be able to drop it. I was letting go and undoing the hell I had created. By squaring all with love, trying to love rather than trying to be loved, and by taking responsibility for all that was happening to me; finding my subconscious thought and correcting it, I became freer and freer, happier and happier. The picture of intelligence that I received I think is interesting. I suddenly got a picture of the amusement park entertainment consisting of bump-cars that are made difficult to steer so that the drivers continually bump into each other. They were all getting their electrical energy from the wire screen above, through a pole coming down to every car. The power above was symbolic of the overall intelligence and energy of the universe coming down the pole to me and everyone else, which we were all using and bumping into each other, instead of driving along together in harmony. We use this intelligence in life and we just bump! bump! bump! That was the first picture I got of life and intelligence. We all have a direct line to that infinite intelligence up there and we are using it blindly, wrongly, and against each other. For the first two months I was getting answers to, "What is happiness, intelligence and love?" As the answers came, I was gradually being unburdened of my miseries and tensions.

The very first insight was on love, seeing that my happiness was determined by my capacity to love. That was a tremendous insight. It began to free me. Any bit of freedom when you're plagued feels so good. I knew that I was in the right direction. I had gotten hold of a link of a chain and was determined not to let go until I had the entire chain. Then I saw that my sum-total thinking was responsible for everything happening to me, and that gave me more freedom. I could control my life by undoing the compulsive behavior, all of which had been determined in the past, and was now subconscious. The third phase was discovering and recognizing who and what I really am. I began to see that we are infinite beings with no limitations; that all limitations were only concepts in our minds, learned in the past, and being held on to. When we see what we really are, we can see that we are not that limited being that we had thought we were, and we can then easily drop the limitations. Working on those three things, I became freer and freer. My heart became lighter. I was happier, more at peace. My mind got quieter. Then my curiosity took me all the way. I said, "If this is so good, I must find just how good it can get. I'll go the limit."

I'd had a life mostly of misery. So when this wonderful thing of happiness began coming in, I wanted all of it. I doggedly kept at it. And then all of a sudden powers fell in on me. I could know anything anywhere. I saw there were people just like us on endless numbers of planets. Then I took a look across the country to Los Angeles. I called up this friend and said, "In the living room there are three persons," and so on. I started telling him what was going on. Dead air! Suddenly I realized I had frightened him. I had to cut the conversation short. I was amazed at the very pleasant sensation of watching divine laws in operation. The fascination was not the powers themselves, but the watching and witnessing of the divine laws operating. I really didn't feel like the doer. I knew these things were not to be latched on to. I knew that if I got interested in them, I'd stop progressing. I had seen by this time that this world is a mentation-a dream. So to get interested in the dream again through interest in powers would trap me back into what I was wanting to get out of.

Toward the end of my period of seeking, l one day saw that, my gosh! This whole thing is like a dream in my mind, just like a night dream! And it's a dream that never really was any more than a dream you had last night was. Was it a real thing, that dream you had last night? No. It was only in your mind. But of course until one awakens out of this everyday waking state, it seems real to one. The new reality was that I am, and that's all there is! That my beingness is the changeless essence of the universe, of course, I was punch-drunk, slap-happy, and in a state of euphoria. In this state the whole world looks perfect. Looking at my body, I also saw this body as part of that perfection. This instantly corrected all my ailments.

Several times on the way up I'd get a realization that would so supercharge my body, I'd have to walk for miles and miles at a good pace. Some of those realizations are really more than a body can take. You can't sit still. Many a time I was forced to walk off the new, intense energy. I was undoing the subconscious hang-ups, tendencies, preexisting dispositions, realizing more and more that I am free, that freedom is my basic nature. I was getting freer and freer and I automatically went into a state where, having undone enough of the mental limitations, the real Self of me began presenting itself to me. I saw that the real "I" of me was only beingness, was only existence, and that my beingness was exactly the beingness of the universe. And when I saw that, I identified with every being in this universe; I identified with every atom in it. And when you do that you lose all sense of being a separate individual, an ego. When I saw that, that I AM the Amness of his universe, I then saw the whole world as just an image in my imagination, like a dream. I imaged or dreamt that I was a body. And I'm dreaming right now that I'm this body. In reality, the only thing that is, is Isness, That's the real, changeless substance behind everything.

When I started, I couldn't have been much lower. I was plagued with all these ailments accumulated over the years topped with a coronary, and with deep depths of depression and intense misery. Three months later I was at the other extreme; I was so happy I had a smile on my face that I could not take off. I felt a euphoria and lightness that is really indescribable. Everything of life itself was open to me-the total understanding of it. It is simply that we are infinite beings, over which we have superimposed concepts of limitation. And we are smarting under these limitations that we accept for ourselves as though they are real, because they are opposed to our basic nature of total freedom. However, they are just hallucinations, mental concepts. Life before and after was at two different extremes. At first it was just extreme depression and sickness. After, it was a happiness and serenity that's indescribable.

Now, you don't have to follow exactly what he did - just ask yourself the questions and do what feels right for you. I will add this book to my drive as well so you can read it all if you want to, but in the end, you will be fine, don't worry. Love believes all things, nothing can happen against your will ♡

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manumagic11

1 year ago

''if you are already in barbados, why would you be talking about going to barbados?''

-abdullah to neville goddard (from god's law and his promise).

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4 months ago

I have something to share. I debated making a throwaway or just sending it to one of 4dbarbie's backups but I settled on this because I just was too impatient to share

---Backstory: I've been patiently applying all that I've learned from 4dbarbie's asks and letting go of chunks of the ego mind---

Today, while at the beach with my group of friends, I realized that I was still somewhat stuck. I let go of big parts of what "I" thought I knew, but I still felt like I was missing something to have my realization. If you ask why I was thinking about that at the beach, there has been nothing on my mind aside from realizing my self since I discovered it. Nothing interested me more than this.

---Disclaimer because I'm sure I was only able to do this because of how free my mind was and what is now cannot be compared to the way my brain worked months ago---

So you can have a mental picture, we were all on the beach, some of us, mostly the girls, were sat on our towels. Conversation was going on around me and I was nodding but my mind was elsewhere. I was thinking what could I do to prove it to myself not only that I understood but that I can apply it.

So while on the beach, I was thinking... what seemingly impossible thing could I do to prove I can do it. Gee, an appearance change in the moment, that's pretty "hard", isn't it? So I decided on that. I didn't want to be something small like change my hair color, but completely change my face so that I can show I can. If I couldn't, so be it, I would continue disbelieving I was this character until I felt even freer. But I still wanted to try.

Because I am not fully realized so I still had some resistance, I thought- what would my ego have the least resistance me looking like? I was looking around the people at the beach trying to pick someone I had no desire to look like, but also no fear of being that person.

---- Backstory again: my original body had bleached blonde hair, tan skin and green eyes-----

So I picked a brunette, pale and with brown eyes. I thought in my head for what a cute brunette would look like, then I leaned back on my towel, closed my eyes and imagined being IT for a few seconds. Again, I didn't care if I succeeded, I just did it.

I didn't sit long like this, after I saw myself looking like that, I sat up again and looked at my reflection in my phone.

I looked exactly like I saw in my head.

I swear to God, I was so panicked- my heart was beating wildly in my chest. I was freaking out so bad internally. I could believe it and couldn't. You know when something shocking happens that ego just can't accept? Yeah, it was like that.

Then, I looked at my friends to see if they would notice any change. I called out to one of my guy friends (who was standing up) to pass me the water so that I could bring attention to myself. He gave it to me no problem, the girls turned to me too when I spoke up and nobody said a thing. I was scared to ask. What was I even supposed to ask? I felt like my mind was breaking.

I stood like that for minutes and nobody said a thing to me about looking different. I'll be honest I was really spooked, my heart was still racing. So I decided to go back to my "original" appearance to see if they say something then.

---The process was the same---

When I stood up this time I did it more confidently, because I didn't feel like I would be caught doing something crazy since everybody knew me as this body. I changed "back" no issue, and nobody said anything. AGAIN. This time I dared ask if I they think I changed somewhat, and they all looked like me like ? what do you mean?

My heart was beating again but in a different way. In euphoria, in joy. I still felt like my brain was completely broken but i was so happy I felt like I could fly.

My next instinct was to imagine myself with what used to be my "desired" appearance, I felt like I just gained a superpower I could lose so I had to do everything quickly, before it goes away.

There was no resistance now that I did it once, none at all. I was aware of no impossibility of changing.

We spent two more hours there and I felt more alive in my new body than ever. It was like the whole world opened to me.

On the way home, while I was in the car (one of the guys was driving) I felt like I now had the time and opportunity to imagine again. I was relaxed, and just daydreaming, but in the present. Just imagining myself with everything I wanted with no expectation.

...and they all came extremely quickly. They didn't spawn but some I got in the most bizarre of ways, Ways in which my ego could have never thought of receiving them. And everything I imagined happened until the end of the day. It's night now when I'm writing this and I'm getting ready to sleep, thinking of things to "wake up to".

Now I know a lot of people aren't going to believe me, but that is really not my problem. I am still processing it myself to be honest. I don't even know how to go forward with all this "power".

Anyway, you truly imagine everything and everything is in your mind. Including other people. No one exists without you, including the body.

I already have an idea for what to do tomorrow and it's to try and be invisible.

I'm thinking of what else could be really important to say so others can also do it... the lack of doubts? Or me not thinking of it being impossible rather? Having it in the back of my head always that the only real thing is ME? Everything I learned I learned from the 4dbarbie account, I didn't read any books because I don't like reading.

Lastly, just try without expectations of it not working. Accept it could not but still do it, if it doesn't now it may in the future, all depending on your ability to let of of the reality of the body and seeing your real Self.

I think that's it, PEACE OUT :)

Finally posting this one as well... sorry I left you hanging for so long 😭😭😭

Wish you well!! Continue to have fun in the dream ♡

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manumagic11

4 months ago

Hello💕

To not make this ask even longer, i am not gonna explain my background a lot, but in short i have been in the metaphysics community for years now (time is an illusion, shifting, manifestation, loa,..), and recently around half a year ago i found out about void tumblr, huge success stories, and manifesting lists and waking up with all your desires the next day, etc.. (but i still don’t have huge success stories of mine yet, eg: manifesting out of thin air, dream life, shifting, void, etc..).

I read through all of your posts and asks (i found your blog around 2 weeks ago or less).

My question is, from your expertise, what makes others who don’t know about non-dualism succeed?

We read stories about those who listened to a subliminal or theta or delta waves, SATS, affirming and persisting, being in a state of having your desire, fulfilling yourself in imagination, living in the end, losing hope & letting it all go, meditating, clearing the mind, or using sleep paralysis and staying still for hours, (and ALL other methods with different variations), and:

There are multiple success stories for those who shifted,manifested a lot of things at once/or their whole dream life, or got into the void successfully and manifested what they wanted, etc..

There are other people who used the same things and didn’t succeed, or succeeded with another method of their own.

The methods go from as easy as intending to as complex as staying still for hours in the same position & having 100% clear mind, or completely changing your sleep schedules, or even more complex.

And the duration varies from hours, to days, to weeks, or more (meaning some succeed after doing their method or intending for 1 day, or for weeks, etc..)

So, what is actually happening?

Is it that they successfully trained their (Vanessa) ? They successfully made her change her beliefs or become well trained in a method?

Or is it that at some point they detached from everything and were so immersed in their (imagination/fulfilled with their thoughts) that they unknowingly applied what non-dualism is explaining (detaching from thinking you are it, and then you can identify with whatever else you want)

After all, they are only identifying with Lara.

And the time it took them to succeed was the amount of time it took them to finally be like (you know what, i am not this Vanessa person no more, I choose Lara, and that’s the only person I identify with) and they actually only identify with Lara. And because we project and experience our lives instantly (on a moment by moment as I understand from your posts) they “changed” the life they are experiencing from the moment they actually identified with something else (eg: Lara).

Or is there any other explanation?

I find that this question is the one that stayed with me while reading any posts about non-dualism (tumblr, books, or other websites).

The: what about those who used x,y,z methods, and didn’t know half of the things about (how life works) and still did it ? (What was they key or element that made all of them succeed despite the various time that it took them to succeed and different methods they used).

And sorry for the long ask

Thank you again 💓

Your question is so good and I can't wait to break it down!

"Although I kinda had already but maybe this will be even clearer" - me every time I make a post

I went through all those things as well, manifesting, shifting, void. I hadn't only read Neville but everyone. I love reading so I only read spiritual books for over a year, I've read from people nobody heard of, all the CIA docs I could get my hands on, everything everything. This brain is the library of all spirituality, I have journals on top of journals full of the main points of everything I thought I understood.

What makes others who don’t know about non-dualism succeed?

They've successfully convinced their egos that doing this or that will change their external life. Now egos are different, because backgrounds are different - a conditioned brain is a conditioned brain, but some may have an easier time accepting suggestions, especially if they are young, the way you learn to speak your native language when you're a child you can learn as easily to manifest with a method, because you don't know right from wrong, real from unreal, true from false - you accept what others tell you.

I did all of those things. All. All. All xD Most successes I've had were from not caring or letting it go -- because, and I'm explaining it from the understanding I have now: I was suspending my ego. For everyone things happen when they successfully let go of believing in the old story they used to tell themselves OR they just don't care anymore about any story (accepting ego is incapacitated) and as a result the situation/problem resolves.

There are multiple success stories for those who shifted, manifested a lot of things at once/or their whole dream life, or got into the void successfully and manifested what they wanted, etc...

For some, most - the void is a made up state (they ended up believing in). Ada is a made up state, in the same way void is made up state, it's a concept.

Now, for others, few - it's "I AM", it's their real being. Some truly grasped what Neville Goddard said when he told everyone to meditate on "I AM" -- which is a REAL letting go of believing in anything outside of that. Including body. But it's few, for 99% is just a method to change 'external reality'.

*EDIT: Can you not see you're successfully doing all those things right now as well? You're crafting this world and this body perfectly and in real time. You are manifesting all of those things at once too! You're an expert at doing it!

There are other people who used the same things and didn’t succeed, or succeeded with another method of their own.

I didn't succeed with void. It changed nothing for me because I couldn't believe I'm going to change externals even when I got in. And I can't! Because me, Ada, has no such power. Even if I lost the sense of my body I didn't lose the sense of 'who **I** was', therefore changed nothing. Of course, as you've seen, people managed to convince themselves (maybe with the countless success stories), but Ada couldn't change anything until reason agreed with her.

So, what is actually happening? Is it that they successfully trained their (Vanessa) ? They successfully made her change her beliefs or become well trained in a method?

Yes! They managed to, good for them, but you can ask anyone and they're still not satisfied, they won't be no matter how much they have in the material, the end goal is the same for everyone and that is complete freedom :) they can be satisfied for now (and incredibly happy with being Vanessa 2.0) but they'll seek again something later until they discover the something xD

That too can be the case, but it is not the end :)

So they completely detach from Vanessa, and then only identify with Lara (with the understanding that what they are experiencing inside/inner man/ focusing on/their dominant thoughts/ •insert whatever beliefs• is actually what matters) and that whatever else is going on around them (Vanessa’s circumstances/life situations) is none of their business. So yah, externally they might still accomplish their tasks, but it doesn’t mean anything about their manifestations/dream life. After all, they are only identifying with Lara. And the time it took them to succeed was the amount of time it took them to finally be like (you know what, i am not this Vanessa person no more, I choose Lara, and that’s the only person I identify with) and they actually only identify with Lara. And because we project and experience our lives instantly (on a moment by moment as I understand from your posts) they “changed” the life they are experiencing from the moment they actually identified with something else (eg: Lara).

Perfect explanation, see, you got it yourself!

--Closing sequence--

There is no external life, there is no need to use any methods to recondition or train your mind. It is much faster and much easier and you are hundreds times happier just letting go of the mind. To not depend on anything but everything to depend on you is a top state you can grasp with no method. All those things they do are in them and they are making them up all the time.

They successfully forget about the old man & manage to go on living like the new man. But unless you understand none of the two are real, that time is in you and not you in time, you won't have the indescribable happiness, freedom, and control you do as your Self.

You'll constantly try to change what you think is you, act in 'your' interest instead of others, continue to hurt and be hurt, experience desire and fear, have things happen without your consent.

There is nothing that is 'mirroring' you, you are either conscious of one thing or the other. You are conscious of the world, that's why there is a world. You are conscious of a body and that's why there is a body. YOU COME FIRST and not the world.

There are no others without you & the only reason there is a world in which there are things to desire is because you are conscious of a world in which you are this particular body that instead of having all the things it wants, it's lacking them. You are conscious of wanting. But there is nothing to want because before you want, YOU ARE CONSCIOUS.

Realize the root of all the concepts. After you can be conscious of being a body which has or hasn't, whatever you want whenever you want. Thought is absolute and instant. "I AM" and whatever you add to that is undeniably. You see it, you don't just daydream about it. You see what you are with no waiting for it to become natural because it is natural for the person you are identified with. Unlike manifestation, your fearlessness, happiness and freedom are now permanent and independent. Perfection follows you everywhere. It is truly like nothing else, it is not being empty but being everything, it is forever love.

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