Is it me or does Jupiter in this also look like calcifer from howls moving castle
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➵ peace is not known to man
∟ summary: after turning his back on the prosecutor’s office, lawyer han joon hwi attempts at a clean slate, starting his own private firm. but, there was no way for him to move forward without clearing his former suspect, his current coworker, lawyer kang sol. with lee man ho, their main suspect, escaped and an empty apartment, can they prove her innocence?
(part I) (part II) (part III) (part IV)
➵ push and pulI
∟ summary: during a trial, a lawyer must be ready for anything. they should be able to navigate their way through any sudden obstacles or arguments. but through her time at law school, this is the first time her opponent has used kisses as an argument strategy.
or: joon hwi decides it’s time to test how far kang sol’s concentration can last. you know, to prepare her for the trial. no other reason.
(part I) (part II)
➵ caught up in a dream (in a technicolor beat)
∟ summary: a dream or real life? when sol sneaks out of joon hwi’s room after a one night stand, he assumes the whole night to be a very vivid dream. a little too vivid. but of course, it had to be a dream. right?
aka: idiots to lovers but heavy emphasis on the idiots.
(part I) (II)
➵ underneath the singing moon
∟ summary: a story in two parts, from two people who watched as their life flowed past. a solhwi & jisolB fic
(part I) (part II)
➵ darling, you're the one i want
∟ summary: Kang Sol A was never known for her luck, but she suspected it to be more like a curse when after almost 5 years, she bumps into her rival and the bane of her existence: Attorney Han Joon Hwi. What’s worse? She has to work with him and she’s sure that she’ll either kill him or kiss him before this is all over
After Kang Sol B was freed from the clutched of her mother, her new found freedom spurred her into a night in bed with the mysterious Ji Ho. Yet, when he walks into her office the next day, she is faced with the realization that she is now working with the same man she slept with. What’s worse? He’s insufferable and she just might have to kiss him to shut him up.
(ch. 1)
one shots
➵ you're my sunshine in the rain when it's pouring (won't you give yourself to me?)
∟ summary: Kang Sol A was not afraid, she wasn’t built to be afraid. But what else could you call the pang that rippled through her heart as she noticed the two figures huddled at the cafe near the entrance of her school?
➵ there's gotta be some butterflies somewhere (wanna share?)
∟ summary: They were light and dark, yin and yang. Kang Dan and Kang Sol were a set, unbalanced without the other. Despite their differences, it was always clear that neither sister would leave the other.
Until one did.
aka: what would have happened if kang dan made her flight.
➵ and when the seasons change (will you stand by me?)
∟ summary: when kang sol’s mother has to work late, she has to take care of byeol. it’s just her luck that she has an exam the next day, one for professor yang of all people. joon hwi, being the kind classmate he is, offers to study with her.
or: byeol is solhwi mastermind, and she’s says everything we wanted to say to the two dummies
➵ a king and his rusty throne (i'm just skin and bones)
∟ summary: Lawyer Han Joon Hwi never yields, fighting endlessly. The court was his domain, where he held the power over his opponent. The only exception, of course, is his 5'6" passionate, animated girlfriend, Attorney Kang Sol.
➵ cause we're dancing in this world alone (when people are talking)
∟ summary: a puzzle with a missing piece and a kite with a fragile string, finding what they need most in their young, shaky lives.
or: ji ho finds understanding through the most uncharacteristic gesture.
➵ jumping in eyes closed, hands tied
∟ summary: Prosecutor Han Joon Hwi and Lawyer Kang Sol A have been avid rivals since they met at Hanguk Law School. Every courtroom turns into an intense dance between the two talented individuals, the tensions high and the arguments captivating. Their win rates were neck and neck, and the tension between them was just as thick as ever. Little did everyone else know, Han Joon Hwi and Kang Sol A held a secret underneath the sheets.
➵ wednesdays at 11 pm
∟ summary: a progression in time, lives, and goodbyes.
➵ golden (like daylight)
∟ summary: three times han joon hwi tried to confess to kang sol, and the one time kang sol confessed to him.
➵ he’s earth and heaven to you (you can’t conceal it)
∟ summary: Kang Sol A, just wants a one normal year. Just one year without some kind of explosion, or murder, or world ending event. Unfortunately, disaster has struck in the form of a 5' 11" insufferable, quidditch player and genius Han Joon Hwi.
headcanons
➵ wicked love, leaves me blind
Because I said in the answer earlier the way is not controlling your thoughts⤵
You only feel the need to "right your thoughts" when you identify yourself with an idea. Pay them no attention. Don't fight them. Just do nothing about them, let them be, whatever they are. Your very fighting them gives them life. Just disregard. Look through. Remember to remember: 'whatever happens — happens because I am'. All reminds you that you are. Take full advantage of the fact that to experience you must be. That all depends on you. You need not stop thinking. Just cease being interested. It is disinterestedness that liberates. Don't hold on, that is all. Give up your addictions. There is nothing else to give up. You need not correct yourself — only set right your idea of yourself. Learn to separate yourself from the image and the mirror, keep on remembering: I am neither the mind nor its ideas: do it patiently and with conviction and you will surely come to the direct vision of yourself as the source of being — knowing — loving, eternal, all-embracing all-pervading. You are the infinite focused in a body. Now you see the body only. Try earnestly and you will come to see the infinite only.
Deepen and broaden your awareness of yourself and all the blessings will flow. You need not seek anything, all will come to you most naturally and effortlessly.
Hi Kelly, I currently am really lost in my "journey" and busy studying, how will I be able to realize Self if I'm always identifying with being a girlfriend, student, daughter and a friend... Ik it looks like I'm complaining and it might be true but life is different to everyone, maybe this isn't for me. Personally, manifestation, AV y ND, was and is a rabbit hole... This past summer I decided to let go of everything and behave "normally" again, always following the hipotetic rule of "do A to get B" and I think it's working fine, life is boring as it was before. However I also really want to know self, experience it and finally understand my true nature, but I guess it will take a bit longer. Thanks for your posts
I used to think like that too until I realized it was all ego (as usual). Ego wants full realization now and gets frustrated when it can't drop its identification. During the times I was in that state of mind, I got nowhere. Sure you can go back to the world but it won't truly fulfill you, we're all looking for Self where it's not - in the world. Eventually, you'll come back to this and then be faced with the same conundrum.
Maybe it works for some but I can only speak with my own experiences. Trying to force myself to think/see 'I am not the body' straight off the bat didn't work no matter how hard I tried. However, being open to that possibility without believing nor disbelieving, and then doing spiritual practice to drop more and more ego eventually allowed me to come to that realization. It took patience. Kindness. Allowing things to just be. Accepting things as they are. Surrender. Faith. It happens when it happens. I stopped caring *when* I would be realized, I stopped looking for signs of progress and results. I stopped comparing myself to other's experiences. I stopped getting frustrated that I "wasn't there yet" and stopped defining and labelling where I was at which allowed me peace in the present moment. I just practiced because the practice itself was freeing me more and more. Then one day I found myself (the ego identity) to be quite changed, just things I could not put into words, things that are only intuitively felt but so completely throughout my whole being. Then I understood what the masters meant when they say not to look at time and that everything will happen on its own accord. The disidentification happens on its own as you let go of ego.
So I'd say perhaps you're going about it the wrong way.
If you don't feel ready to completely detach from ego, that's okay too, no judgment there - many people are not. You can work on letting go of whatever limitations you can without trying to give up the ego entirely. Everything has its own time and place. Let things be. It's not something you can force anyway, everyone comes to that decision of their own volition eventually.
I'd recommend that you stop resisting the fact that you have all these identifications, that does nothing to drop them. Just find the practices that work for you and keep dropping ego. Things will happen on their own. Also I recommend reading this and this (or the whole tag) on why mental purification (dropping ego concepts) is important and necessary. It looks like there's too much expectation in general on being able to drop the entire body and mind identification with a single thought but most people will not be able to do this. If you're unable to wipe the mind completely and drop those thoughts that are attached to the dream itself, then dropping the ego through mental purification is how you make progress. This allows more and more of Self to shine through.
Use the mind to investigate the manifested. Be like the chick that pecks at the shell. Speculating about life outside the shell would have been of little use to it, but pecking at the shell breaks the shell from within and liberates the chick. Similarly, break the mind from within by investigation and exposure of its contradictions and absurdities. - Nisargadatta Maharaj, I Am That
"Don't imagine to try, but to experience" -EdwardArt
In the beginning I heard this saying, but I never truly grasped the statement. Even now I still look at it kind of funny only because even though the basis of manifestation is proving to u that you've always had what you wanted, let's be real the main reason 99.9% of us started consciously manifesting in three first place is because we want to have this same experience in the 3d. But unfourtanetly, when you really change your perspective you will begin to realize truly, how delusional and illogical you are with approaching manifesting as a whole(bare with me). Let's run down the basics so you all can see what I mean:
You learn about manifestation. The main points you know is that:
1. Imagination is the only reality
2. You can manifest anything there are no limits
3. Manifestation is always instant
Some of you may be really saying to yourself "Ms. Allurèa I already know this stuff so how am I being delusional?" Well I'm glad you asked. You know these basic things about the law, you know the moment you've imagined what you want (imagination don't equal visualization) it was already fulfilled. You say you know imagination is the only reality yet you look outside in the mirror for validation, you say you know you can manifest anything yet you condition your desires, you say you know manifestation is instant yet every other minute something isn't shown desirable in the 3d you ask "where is it?" AND "why isn't it here yet?" You say you know you control your reality yet you act like you don't. You say you know the 3d and 4d are the same so you "know" to change 4d yet you try to change your reflection instead of changing SELF. You say you've imagined the end yet you question "did I do it right?" "When will it come?" "Is it done?"
You guys see how delusional, illogical and contradicting it sounds. If you have to question if your desires are fulfilled or not then no they are not fulfilled. If you have to ask "where is it?" After you've literally just saw yourself having what you want IN IMAGINATION, IN SELF then no you do not have it and you need to change your mindset immediately and when I say that I'm not just speaking on SC but your perspective entirely. Are you truly imagining to experience because you know imagination is your true reality therefore you are experiencing what you want now or are you imagining to try and get something that's already there. There is literally only I AM, if you must say "I will be" then you do not have it at all. You either have it or you don't.
"As far as I am concerned I already have what I want, there is no where is it? I just imagined it because imagination is the only reality. So therefore it's here right now. There is no when is it coming? It's already here. There is no well did I do it right or did it work? It's ALREADY WORKED. To deny this is being delusional" -EdwardArt
Here's the thing
The misconception of something "not working" is because you think there is "an ego" here to obtain something.. there isn't. The ego doesn't truly exist; it's just an illusion. You, as "THAT", already have everything you seemingly desire because nothing exists beyond "THAT"/you. It's an illusion that blinds your eyes, preventing you from seeing that you are already what you seemingly seek. Don't believe the "observer" is here, and the "observed" is there. The "observer" doesn't exist; everything is "THAT".
No one is observing; there's only the seemingly "observed".
How do you know you're seemingly perceiving something through "senses"? Isn't it because you were aware before interpreting it as "seeing, feeling, smelling, etc"? You think you're seeing, but no one is; it's just the "image" seeing itself. You think you're hearing, but no one is; it's just the "sound" hearing itself. It's all "THAT". Nothing is happening to you because there is no "body" here; you are the "screen", and these appearances happen "within" "THAT", on "THAT", AS "THAT".
You simply exist fullstop.
And you know that, even without "senses".
"IT" does not need confirmation of existence through five senses; they are not what you perceive any experience with. Transcended them and this world. You lose the illusion of being here or there, trying to find your place; you only experience a still, unmoving existence. Even if the "illusory body" moves, you know you are still, becoming a stationary space allowing things to move within. Because you are not the body; the body is within you. Everything "you want" is there, on yourself; it can truly be felt you're not here because you're not the body. You'll realize you are the formless, nameless source of everything you seem to desire. You don't need to search or wait for another experience which is "THAT"; you are "THAT" now. This is the present truth."
~ infinite.ko / Koda & Dawa
Ok Anthony and Kate Bridgerton calm down!
“I have a million things to talk to you about. All I want in this world is you. I want to see you and talk. I want the two of us to begin everything from the beginning.”
Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood
hiii omg am i glad that you’ve turned on your asks again!! i hope you aren’t feeling too overwhelmed with this blog/asks, you’re doing such a wonderful job!!
i’m this anon, btw :) https://www.tumblr.com/adadisciple/724563337217736704/hi-im-this-anon
i’ve got some more “success’s”!! as i stated in my last ask, i could potentially have some brain damage- but that’s only “true” if i identify with it. anywaysss, my memory isn’t the best so i wrote down a list of sorts, and conducted a little “experiment”.
before i did that however, i was able to get my desired body!! i also cleared up my skin, which took a turn after the whole cancer thing. i don’t want to get into details, but since the cancer affected my lymph nodes- it made it’s way to my skin, which “manifested” in hyper pigmentation , rashes, scabs, etc. it was just horrible. even after the cancer was “healed”, i was left with scarring on my skin- and tbh it just looked horrible. i didn’t really feel confident to wear shorts outside anymore. tbh, i wasn’t really attached to this body or it’s skin, so i decided to change it for funsies. i remembered who i truly was- Self. i just decided i had my desired body- kinda imagined it but just once- and that my skin was clear. i let it go, tbh i think that was the only time i thought about it till the next day, when my skin was literally so clear.
all the dark spots and problems seemed to disappear overnight, i even had some scabs that went away. i also lost my ability to rlly eat- or want to eat during the cancer period, so i kinda lost my natural shape. the same day my skin changed, my body reverted to how i wanted it to be. afterwards, i realized how little i thought of what i used to be insecure about- when i had the “desirable.” for example, with my skin, i didn’t think of how horrible all the scabs looked, i didn’t even think about how clear it was. i just knew, and it was normalized.
regarding the experiment, i made a list of things i wanted to occur- but wrote down how i did it- or what steps i took. i did 4:
receiving a text
getting a hug (tbh random lol but i love hugs)
revising the house i live in ac being always cold, and set to 73.
and then.. for you to have your asks on again!!
they all worked- and i wrote on my notebook that they would occur before the day was over. for the hug and ac, i wrote how it was ok for me to seek, think, worry, or obsess over it- because i knew mySelf to be Self- and none of my characters actions could hinder me. the hug and ac happened before i went to sleep. for the text and asks, it happened today. there’s no use in making sense of it- but to be a hypocrite, i would think they happened the next day because i felt it was essential to feel indifference. but when you know yourSelf to be Self- there really isn’t any essential steps to take, or anything that can stop you.
i feel as if i am a child again, im always giddy when i marvel at my true Self. it’s so amazing, and a complete total 180 or even 360 from when i first sent my ask to Lain. I even got into the void last night, completely aware of it, and was able to affirm for some things! I kept “waking up” in it, throughout the night. I genuinely have no worries anymore, and it’s so refreshing that I am in tears typing this. I know you must be overworked between this blog, and just the everyday forces of life- but truly it is people/blogs like you, who help others completely turn their lives around!! Thank you so much, all of your kindness, and aid will surely be returned tenfold <3
WOOWAA SO HAPPY TO HEAR FROM YOU AGAIN!!
@lains-reality your anon!!
Ahh I wish this would be the only thing my asks ever saw :')) life is truly this wonderful and easy ♡
"and then.. for you to have your asks on again!!"
Not you controlling Sofia like a puppet, this is really your world fr 😌
Jokes aside, you can see we really are all one.
Key points from their process for everyone:
afterwards, i realized how little i thought of what i used to be insecure about- when i had the “desirable.”
i just knew, and it was normalized.
for the hug and ac, i wrote how it was ok for me to seek, think, worry, or obsess over it- because I knew mySelf to be Self- and none of my character's actions could hinder me.
but to be a hypocrite, i would think they happened the next day because i felt it was essential to feel indifference.
but when you know yourSelf to be Self - there really isn’t any essential steps to take, or anything that can stop you.
Thank you for coming back to us, you're so sweet for helping others by documenting as well ♡
really amazing post from edwardarts reddit/series!
this is the meditation he’s talking about btw
If everything is meaningless and this is a dream, why are you still continuing living then? Why don’t we all crawl up in a hole and die since everything is an “illusion”
You're misunderstanding what's being said. This isn't about a real person living in a fake world — it's not "me the real person" vs. "the illusion out there." That’s not it at all. That entire split is already a misperception.
You are not the one experiencing the illusion. You are the Knowing itself — not-knowing conceptually, but the raw, direct Seeing. That’s the only thing not appearing and disappearing. It's not something to believe in or debate. It’s to be noticed, directly.
Neither “you,” nor “me,” nor the world — not any idea, label, or form — is the Actuality being pointed to. When I say You are Actuality, I’m not speaking about a body, a person, or any mental concept. I’m referring to the constant, silent, untouched Beingness — the Is-ness that exists before and without name, image, or thought. That’s what’s always here, never born, never leaving. That has always been here — before any idea of “me” or “you” ever arose.
Also: people seriously misinterpret the words illusory and meaningless — assuming they imply something negative, depressing, or empty in a hopeless way. That’s just not it. That’s not what these words mean in this context.
When something is called illusory, it means it’s not solid, not permanent — like a dream, or a mirage. It appears, but it has no independent, lasting existence and relies on "Awareness/Knowing" to be perceived. That doesn’t mean it’s “bad” or that it shouldn’t appear. It’s just seen for what it is — a fleeting expression of something that doesn’t need form to be.
And when we say meaningless, it doesn’t mean sad or pointless. It means: it has no fixed, pre-given meaning unless one is assigned. Like pure open space — no labels, no judgment, no category, no good/bad, right/wrong. It just is, undefined. That freedom is what most people miss — because they think “meaningless” equals despair. But that only comes from assuming the person is real and now floating in some empty shell. But that “person” is part of the illusion too.
This isn’t about crawling in a hole because “life is meaningless.” That reaction comes from misidentifying with the one who experiences the illusion. But that “experiencer” is a mirage. The only constant is the silent Knowing — not a knower, not a thinker, but Knowing itself, unshaped, untouched. Noticing that is what ends the confusion. Nothing needs to be changed, added, or removed. Just seen.