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4dbarbie's original masterlist

I recreated the masterlist on a different side blog using links from the original backup blogs but here the links are from this blog only. (The banner links to a post too!)

Resources (including book excerpts)

Google Drive

LEGEND

Keys to Ultimate Freedom

How to be Awareness Guide

I am That, Q&A Pt.1

I am That, Q&A Pt.2

I am That, Last Q&A

EGO

Your will alone is done

'I' Alone Is

Desire No Thing

Conquer Attachment

You are free, Realize that

4dbarbie posts

The True You

Important (on thoughts)

There is no outer world

Results are Instant

Manifesting is struggling

There is no past and no future

You are Dreaming

Affirming against something is useless

The body and appearance changes (Part 1 and Part 2)

READ THIS FIVE TIMES BEFORE YOU ASK OTHER Qs.

4dbarbie answered asks

Difference between awareness and consciousness?

What does it mean to be Infinite

What to do if I have doubts?

Question Yourself

Questions about "void state"

Same answer for all 3D/4D questions

Because I am, all is - including a body and a world (guide for how to awaken ourselves and change our life)

THEN WHAT IS THERE TO DO?

You already Are.

Breathe, and take a look around you, whatever you see. It's NOTHING. Nothing but YOU. I know there's nothing left for me to say, but here's a heart to heart.

The air you're breathing right now, that's you. Keeping y/n alive. The tears your eyes have ever shed, and the sound of your loud and precious laughter, that's you. Experiencing how emotionally rich this 'life' is, playing with yourself, in this beautiful Dream you spun for yourself.

Even in the depth of the sadness, and peak of your joy, you've always been experiencing yourself. You've always been YOU. There's no escaping you, because you are all there is.

It hurts at times and looks too difficult, but you're not on a journey here. You can always take a step back. It's hard, I know. That's just how you made this play to be, And now you're too deeply indulged to just let go and realise you've always been free.

Emotions are a beautiful experience, as long as you remember that's also just you experiencing yourself. They are nothing to trap yourself in.

You already ARE all that you wish for. Always have been. I need you to do this with me, okay?

Take a deep breath, and let your thoughts be. Look around you. Whatever thoughts come up, let them be. The objects around you, whatever they might be, take away their labels. It's a Chair? No, take that label away. What's left?

" ". Silence. A space. That silence, that NOTHING is what everything is, that's what you Are. That pure awareness, which comes before any labels and titles, that's what you are.

No matter what you do. Wherever you go. You can never not be THAT. That's why I say, you always Are.

How can you not be, when you come before everything else. Always. Everything exists because you do.

You're so perfect. So beautiful. Complete and whole, in every way, on your own. And those are facts. The truth. Even in moments you don't feel that way, even if you feel like you're not going anywhere with this experience, there's not a single thing that can ever possibly hurt you.

You're Independent of it all. Because you're all there is.

It's all perfect, breathe. Remember. Notice this simple truth. Accept it. You're so much more than you could've ever imagined, even words cannot do justice to your grand existence.

You're beyond Every breathtaking poetry ever written, and any surreal painting ever made. Beyond every mystically cosmic star ever discovered, and beyond every beautiful sculpture ever carved.

You are. And isn't that beautiful, perfect, to be you?

I love you all. I really do. I am nothing but a part of your dream, a figment of your imagination. And my pointers can only help you as much as you'd let me.

Take care🩵

SPACE:

the japanese concept of yutori - the conscious act of slowing down to allow us to savour the world around us. The refusal to rush, no talking just absorbing the world around us with no goal expect to see. Spaciousness

Do not rush , just relax and be

There is nowhere to be , nowhere to go and no goal to achieve , notice “THAT” be still and just be it’s there but listen and notice it’s so subtle but noticeable

chapter ii -> of insights of a lunatic

CREDIT: @/ihategum on instagram

hi kelly i like ur account so pls dont take this as hate! im just kinda lost. isnt talking about ‘success stories’ and ‘getting what you want’ contradictory to nondualism? it just feels like mixing it with loass.

(this answer comes from me and Aster together as one voice!)

This is a good question. And yeah, at first glance, it seems contradictory. Talking about “success stories” or “getting what you want” sounds like it's coming from ego because in that framework it is—success means control, gain, achievement.

But what actually happens when you're free isn’t that you get what you want—it’s that the need to want in the first place dissolves. Life just starts flowing in a way that feels deeply harmonious, and things often unfold in your favour—but not because you're chasing outcomes. It’s because there’s no tension left around how life should be.

So yeah, “success stories” is an egoic term, and to live effortlessly, even that lens has to go. Because when you’re not holding onto anything, reality molds around you without needing a story at all.

What I shared before wasn’t a “here’s how to get what you want by letting go” kind of post—it’s more like: when you're no longer holding onto any specific version of how reality should look, life naturally starts flowing in ways that feel almost magical. Not because you're trying to make it happen, but because there's no resistance. You’re just present. Effortless. And that absence of tension lets life reshape itself around you, without you needing to do anything—not even set an intention.

But again, this isn’t an invitation to go “okay, I’ll let go so I can get the things I want.” That’s still agenda-driven so it's an attachment with expectations. And that agenda is what keeps you entangled. True freedom means not needing reality to conform to your preferences at all. And funnily enough, when that’s real, things often align better than you could’ve planned—but by that point, it’s almost beside the point.

That’s also where the difference between desire and intention becomes clear. Desire comes from lack and tension—it says, “I need this to be okay.” Intention is just the natural movement of Being—it says, “This would feel aligned to act on, but I don’t need it to complete me.” One clings. The other flows. Wanting something isn’t wrong—but if it carries lack, it binds. When it comes from wholeness, it’s already free, even before anything changes.

So yeah, it’s absolutely paradoxical from the ego’s perspective. But when you're not seeing through ego’s lens anymore, the contradiction disappears. It just becomes how reality behaves when you're no longer trying to manipulate it.

A quote from Doctor Strange comes to mind:

“You cannot beat a river into submission. You have to surrender to its current and use its power as your own.”

It’s not about getting what you want from Life—it’s about not needing anything. And when you live this way, it’s not even that your desires get fulfilled—it’s that desire itself becomes irrelevant. Life molds itself around you so fluidly that there’s no need to want in the first place. What appears does so effortlessly—not because it was needed, but because there’s no resistance left.

It’s like Lester’s analogy of logs in a dam: the moment you remove even one log, the water starts flowing through that gap. It doesn’t wait until the whole dam is gone. The same is true here—the Infinite begins flowing through wherever openness allows it. The mind is quiet, the field is clear, and what shows up reflects that openness. There’s no sense of lack, because lack only exists when you believe something is missing. But without identifying with the ego or its commentary, nothing feels absent. And there’s no longer a personal mind calculating what should or shouldn’t be.

Ego can only perceive from the frame of “I want, therefore I act,” so this kind of effortless unfolding seems impossible from within its logic. But in truth, the moment that perception drops, ego’s grip is already gone. It’s not that ego finally gets it—it’s that the identification with it dissolves, and suddenly the need for a linear process evaporates.

There’s no longer a sense of ‘first I want, then I act, then I receive.’ All comes from your Beingness. What appears, what moves, what expresses—it all arises from your Being. For the Infinite Being, it’s not a step-by-step progression but a seamless unfolding. Nothing is chased. Nothing is achieved. Nothing is needed or wanted because nothing is missing. Wholeness isn’t something you need to seek—it’s what naturally reveals itself when all distortion falls away.

To the ego, it feels like it is bound—to desire, to time, to outcome. But when perception drops, the illusion goes with it. And what remains is obvious: your life was never bound by your desires—and you were never bound to anything. There was never anything holding you. Freedom was always the case.

“Once you realize that the world is your own projection, you are free of it. You need not free yourself of a world that does not exist, except in your own imagination! However is the picture, beautiful or ugly, you are painting it and you are not bound by it."

Nisargadatta Maharaj

i don’t know how to deeply know instead of only believe/think i know

THIS IS A POINTER

DO NOT dm realitywarpingg , his dms are CLOSED😭 please respect that, many of you just dmed him despite his bio clearly stating "no dms"..

Everything is naturally and beautifully itself. By being so, everything is absolutely realized already. However, there is neither someone becoming aware of that nor is there someone arriving in that.

There is no liberation. There is no bondage.

There are not many. There are not two. There is not even one.

The only thing that wants to live is the illusion of being a separate, living entity.

This ‘I’ wants to live in order to "find" fulfillment.

It wants to "experience" that all its efforts have been worthwhile. It does not want to die, not yet, because then all its efforts could have been in vain. And, yes, it was and is in vain.

There is no separate person. In that sense, there is nothing to gain and nothing to lose. As there is no self, the idea of self-fulfillment is a mere illusion.

by Andreas Müller

you cannot become what you already are.

"but i want" - you cannot become what you already have

"but i wanna be the one who-" there is no "one" you do not exist in a singular form. you cannot become what you already are.

"i need this physically because it reflects my-" there is no delayed reflection when you are constantly experiencing yourself. you cannot become what you are.

it is okay to not "know" or "feel" like you are consciousness

i have been there before. you are not going to feel or know it all the time. you don't have to. consciousness doesn't have to. ever since my grandfather passed away i have not felt like consciousness i have very much felt like a person. so sometimes i get emotional and think i've failed or ill never be good enough. but i came to a realization the other day while answering someone's curious cat: it doesn't fucking MATTER how i feel even if i think im being consciousness right now im not. consciousness doesn't have to think about the fundamentals of non dualism in order to be consciousness but the ego needs to in order to feel like it. fuck the feeling neither the ego or feelings exist only consciousness does. continue to live your life. you know you are consciousness now. the ego knows it is consciousness and can experience "moments" of it but you need to understand that you are ALWAYS being it. even when your ego doesn't know. even when you get your way or you don't. even if you think about it or you don't. do you honestly think consciousness needs to remind itself of entities that do not exist in order to observe? no! consciousness and observations are instantaneous. don't worry about the ups and downs. it's not always gonna be up for two reasons; 1, the part of you that has these challenges doesn't exist. it's not real therefore it is temporary. there's no need to stay faithful to it. and 2, because you will always be a slave to your perceptions as the ego so it'll keep fluctuating. sometimes it's okay to think about consciousness and be like "yeah i really am everything and powerful this is so cool" but if youre thinking like that right now then you're not. nothing is required, ever. even being conscious of you as consciousness. the one who said that is speaking in vain. the ego is a part of and a product of your consciousness so it's not real. please continue to live your life normally. the only thing that should be different between now and before you knew about non dualism is now you KNOW you're not a slave to anything because you are in fact everything. you are power incarnate. instantly. this should excite you, it excites me! and it's true. that's even better. this false feeling is the only feeling i care about having when i experience the human condition. . sadness, anger, hurt, jealousy all of them while they suck, they are just emotions. i don't have to make them any more real than before they were in my awareness. if im gonna have emotions (you will), im gonna at least persist in the good ones! what's with this loyalty to unreal negative things? that feeling will leave you just as quick as it came, but consciousness stays. so don't worry about it :)

SOME* OF YA'LL ARE NEVER GOING TO GET YOUR DESIRES, AND YOU'LL HAVE NO ONE TO BLAME BUT YOURSELVES

*WARNING: TOUGH LOVE RANT. also, like everything in life, take what resonates with you and leave the rest. if you're not doing anything i mention in this post, then this post doesn't apply to you.

before anyone comes for me, MOST of us are going through (or have gone through) hard circumstances. many of us have come from abusive households, abusive relationships, poverty, homelessness, & just overall bad circumstances.

but you know why the bloggers & anons who succeed in manifesting their desires/desired lives ACTUALLY SUCCEED?

because they took accountability for their current state and their limiting patterns.

because they were disciplined & determined enough to claim their desire(s), apply the law, & persist regardless of EVERYTHING.

because they knew that this practice would actually change their lives forever and allowed NOTHING to stand in their way.

AND GUESS WHAT? NOW THEY HAVE THEIR DESIRES/DESIRED LIFE!

if you were to be 100% honest and tell me why after months/years of being in this community you STILL haven't manifested your desires/desired life yet, what would be the answer?

overconsumption? procrastination? laziness? lack of persistence?

whatever the case may be, what i do know for a FACT is that it has been no one's fault but YOURS.

many of you guys come running on this platform; asking the same repetitive questions, complaining about not seeing results, whining about how sad your life is and how hard your circumstances are, or just straight up hating on some of these bloggers that are helping you FOR FREE, when they could be using that time to enjoy their desires/the life that they manifested for themselves.

LIKE...DO YOU REALIZE HOW PATHETIC & ENTITLED SOME OF YOU GUYS ARE?

"can you pleaseee manifest/tap into the void for me?" 🥺

"im so lazyyy, i can't be bothered to persist..." 🥱

"loa is FAKE! you guys are a bunch of lying b***hes..." 🤬

"my life is sooo hard, i have such a horrible life...*continues to trauma dump*" 😭

OHHH MYYY F*CKINGGG GODDD!

there are MILLIONS of people in the world who are in unfavorable/horrible circumstances that have NO IDEA what the law of assumption is, and have NO WAY to access this type of information!

you guys literally have the knowledge and awareness to make the most beautiful life possible for yourselves with JUST YOUR IMAGINATION, and yet, A LOT of you guys are the most ungrateful, lazy, irresolute, undisciplined whiners, who don't want to do even the BARE MINIMUM to change your entire lives!!

TRUST ME, everyone on this platform (including myself) understands that there will be setbacks. we all know that they are going to be bad days. we all understand that everyone has their own personal/mental issues. we get that life has obstacles and that not every day will be a win.

BUT, you guys NEED to put in the effort & not give up! you guys NEED to STOP letting your ego win! you guys NEED to get tf off of social media and stop overconsuming information. you guys NEED to claim your desires/desired life, stay consistent & persist until your desires/desired life has materialized.

because guess what, a day turns into a year pretty quickly, and you'll have gone another year of NOT having your desires/desired life, and it's going to be no one's fault but yourself...

do you REALLY want another year of watching everyone else get what they want besides you? do you REALLY want another year of not having your desired appearance, your sp, or financial freedom?

REALLY?

i hope the answer is no...because that's a HUGE waste of time that could be used to actually have the things & life you want.

everyone deserves to live the life they want...but at the end of the day, no one & nothing has the power to manifest the life you want but YOU.