If I Have Been Fulfilling Myself And I Feel Like I Have My Desires, Why Haven't They Manifested Yet???

hiiiiii besties!

im so sorry ive been so inactive 😭😭😭 i've had the busiest past two months!!

yesterday i reread edward art's series on reddit and took notes on it and i thought i'd post them maybe 😌 i really highly recommend reading his series in full to really truly get a grasp on manifesting!! like once you read it you will truly fully grasp manifestation. it's so good.

but here's my little notes i took bc i find it so motivating and helpful to just read the little quotes i wrote down every once in a while.

any time im in a bad/sad mood i always like to read neville or edward and it instantly puts me in a better mood & motivates me. so i took these notes for that purpose and i wasn't gonna post them but i thought maybe it could help you guys too!!!

if u read something u dont understand, u can read the part it is from in edward's series and gain clarity!!! <3 the posts are all pretty short :)

here's the link to the google doc :) enjoy!!!!

SPACE:

the japanese concept of yutori - the conscious act of slowing down to allow us to savour the world around us. The refusal to rush, no talking just absorbing the world around us with no goal expect to see. Spaciousness

Do not rush , just relax and be

There is nowhere to be , nowhere to go and no goal to achieve , notice “THAT” be still and just be it’s there but listen and notice it’s so subtle but noticeable

chapter ii -> of insights of a lunatic

CREDIT: @/ihategum on instagram

Hii, I hope you're well and I wanted to ask a question about something more practical: I've read a couple of times that you shouldn't try to control or change your thoughts and also actions because our very fighting gives them life and that it's better to just observe and witness. But I also remember reading a post of yours that talked about how dropping habits (which kinda leads to your actions/thoughts changing) or clearing the subconscious is a way to let go of the ego and now I'm a bit unsure what I should do? I like the idea of dropping habits as a way to drop the ego but I worry that it's gonna get me more involved in it as well. Idk if this made sense lmao😭

Yes it makes sense, I know what you're asking (I had the same confusion once as well haha). The short answer is there is no right or wrong approach as the ones you mentioned are all valid but there are more appropriate and effective approaches for each of us, and that all depends on us personally - it's something you just have to figure out for yourself based on trial and error, also keeping in mind that the practices can be done for a bit and then dropped for something else later when it feels right to do so.

I suggest you read the answer in this ask on mind purification and also the linked articles if you feel called to.

Basically the purpose and goal of mind purification is to remove a lot of the mental junk (aka samskaras) that makes the mind noisy so it can be calm and quiet enough for one to abide in the Self. Sure, you can try jump straight to abiding in Self (such as witnessing) but most people will not be able to sustain this for very long (if at all) without taming the mind through spiritual practice first.

Paul Brunton calls mind purification the prepatory stage or the "long" path that is necessary for most people and the "short" path is where one basically abandons all effort to do with the mind (knowing that it cannot be completely purified as it is always creating new thoughts) and goes straight to abiding in Self (and there can also be phases where one is doing both simultaneously as a transition period). Being on the long path is what then makes the short path possible and easy. Trying to do the short path prematurely won't result in much (let me know if anyone wants more details on the short and long paths). Even the realized beings who realized themselves at an early age were only able to do so because of their previous incarnations which they spent on the long path (as Robert Adams has said before).

Here is some further explanation:

Whenever attention is taken away from objects and put back on itself (awareness), it will start dissolving the knot of ignorance. Usually, this is hard to do because our mental tendencies and habits make objectless awareness or the state of empty consciousness challenging to abide in and sustain. Paying attention to an object is so much easier than paying attention to no object at all! That’s why aspirants generally start by practicing easier forms of meditation like breath-awareness, or even grosser forms of spirituality like dualistic bhakti rituals. All of these have the purpose of calming the mind and of purifying it so that it can sustain prolonged attention on an objectless awareness.

They talk about using meditation and physical rituals to calm and purify the mind however I personally found releasing to be most effective (of course it is going to vary from person to person).

Even Buddha and Lester Levenson did mind purification which made their enlightenment possible :) I recently discovered there's actual records of Buddha's discourses (part of the Pali Canon) that were preserved and translated. In this one, he talks about facing his fears and dreads until they were gone.

I considered thus: 'Whenever recluses or brahmins unpurified in verbal conduct, unpurified in mental conduct, unpurified in livelihood resort to remote jungle-thicket resting places in the forest, they evoke unwholesome fear and dread. But I am purified in livelihood While I dwelt there, a wild animal would come up to me, or a peacock would knock off a branch, or the wind would rustle the leaves. I thought: 'What now if this is the fear and dread coming?' I thought: 'Why do I dwell always expecting fear and dread? What if I subdue that fear and dread while keeping the same posture that I am in when it comes upon me?' "How would it be if in the dark of the month, with no moon, I were to enter the most strange and frightening places, near tombs and in the thick of the forest, that I might come to understand fear and terror. And doing so, a wild animal would approach or the wind rustle the leaves and I would think, 'Perhaps the fear and terror now comes.' And being resolved to dispel the hold of that fear and terror, I remained in whatever posture it arose, sitting or standing, walking or lying down. I did not change until I had faced that fear and terror in that very posture, until I was free of its hold upon me. And having this thought, I did so. By facing the fear and terror I became free." (summarised it a bit since the way they write is a bit repetitive)

If you look from Passage 27 of that linked sutta, he talks about the knowledge he gained directly from Self/Source/"That"/Brahman which was possible because of his purified mind "When my concentrated mind was thus purified, bright, unblemished, rid of imperfection, malleable, wieldy, steady, and attained to imperturbability, I directed it to knowledge of the recollection of past lives. This was the first true knowledge attained by me in the first watch of the night. Ignorance was banished and true knowledge arose, darkness was banished and light arose, as happens in one who abides diligent, ardent, and resolute." The other knowledge he gained in that same night: knowledge of the passing away and reappearance of beings, and knowledge of the destruction of the taints.

When I knew and saw thus, my mind was liberated from the taint of sensual desire, from the taint of being, and from the taint of ignorance. When it was liberated, there came the knowl­edge: 'It is liberated.' I directly knew: 'Birth is destroyed, the holy life has been lived, what had to be done has been done, there is no more coming to any state of being.'

Reading the recount of Buddha's enlightenment reminded me so much of Lester Levenson's own self-realization and enlightenment (he didn't read these discourses either) because he also did releasing to purify his own mind by correcting his past and thoughts from non-love to love and then later on he did self-inquiry and meditation (read the excerpts from here and here) and he also talked of the insights he gained directly from Self as a result of his awakening.

Toward the end of my period of seeking, l one day saw that, my gosh! This whole thing is like a dream in my mind, just like a night dream! And it's a dream that never really was any more than a dream you had last night was. Was it a real thing, that dream you had last night? No. It was only in your mind. But of course until one awakens out of this everyday waking state, it seems real to one. The new reality was that I am, and that's all there is! That my beingness is the changeless essence of the universe, of course, I was punch-drunk, slap-happy, and in a state of euphoria. In this state the whole world looks perfect. Looking at my body, I also saw this body as part of that perfection. This instantly corrected all my ailments.

Lol this ended up being quite a long answer but I wanted to show why mind purification is important and necessary on this path using examples from people I'm confident were truly fully realized beings and went all the way. I don't agree with a lot of the current teachings which just say not to do anything, that there is nothing to do. If that were true, why do people even come to seek spirituality in the first place and want to turn away from the material life?

Of course you are already the Self! Of course there is nothing to accomplish from the perspective of the Absolute. Of course there is no goal because who you truly are is already enlightened. But do you feel that way? Are you entirely free from suffering, ever at peace, bliss and with genuine (nonintellectual) wisdom? If you follow this type of Neo-Advaita teaching, from either the “nothing to do” or the “you are already enlightened” school, you will go nowhere. At best, you will stagnate in a tiny “peace-empty” feeling after doing 5 minutes of intellectual Self-inquiry, and then you’ll believe that you are enlightened, especially if the teacher or guru says “Yes, that is the Self! You have awakened!” Then you can become a guru too. In all seriousness, the aforementioned is what’s trending nowadays. It may have its purpose in certain circumstances, but it is mostly deceiving and unhelpful. All genuine and truthful Gurus, such as the Buddha, Lahiri Mahasaya, and Ramana Maharshi preached the importance of spiritual practice.

So basically, dropping habits/limitations/ego and clearing the subconscious isn't getting more involved in it, it's part of being on the long path and purifying the mind! Eventually, even this practice is to be dropped so you can just easily abide in Self as the observer on the short path with a clear mind. Of course in the end it is all up to you. Your inner guidance will tell you what is right :)

LET IT HAPPEN

In the law of assumption, you don't need to lift a damn finger. You don't have to get up and go out to do shit you don't want to do. You don't have to force anything to happen. All you're doing is interfering with your manifestations. Instead of trying to make it happen, you just have to let it happen.

Everything that you want will go to you exactly how you want it to. In Joseph Murphy's book "The power of your subconscious mind", there was a woman who would affirm for 5 minutes a day for a spouse. She didn't do anything special; she didn't actively go out or go on dates or seek for a lover. She just went on with her day, stayed at home as she affirmed. One day when she went out to buy something, she randomly met a man whom she ended up being with— the person she AFFIRMED for. The person she MANIFESTED.

The same can and will happen to you too!! You can do absolutely fucking nothing and you'll just randomly get your shit. So, let your manifestations happen to you. Stop trying to change anything because nothing will come out of it. All you have to do is, just accept your desires and let it be yours— affirming or not, whatever works for you.

One word and you're already in the state of having. You just have to DECIDE!!

© arisuworld

when operating as a limited egoic "human", things happen "outside" of you and there's little you can do about it.

when enlightened, you realize true Self was never human. your true nature is God/consciousness.

Will you let the Mind take over YOU?

"I have so many doubts"

"I don't know if it's gonna work"

"My life is Depressing"

"I want my dream life"

Who's thinking all this? Who's making you think that these thoughts are yours? Yep it's this mf mind!!

And you always get played by it. Uk i don't blame you for giving Mind so much power over YOU. You've been identifying with it since your dream birth. Even I was at this point where i used to take Everything serious that mind told me. But then i realised there's actually no mind here.

There's literally nothing happening rn. I am not writing this post and you are not reading it rn.

All along it is this mind tryna fool us thinking that it's all real. And uk why mind always go to the negative whenever it's bombarded with the ques that it don't have answers to?

Because Mind is trying to save itself from annihilation. It doesn't want to be destroyed. Therefore, it will scare you. It will cook up all kinds of schemes so that you will forget about self-realization. After all, who wants to be destroyed. The Mind wants to continue it's nonsense. Therefore it sometimes brings of all kind of negatives, to frighten you so you'll give up the practice.

Keep up the self inquiry!

I used to think how can i get rid of ego but then i realised there's no ego to get rid of. I am just aware of the thought of getting rid of something.

Whenever you say,

"Everything is Depressing" You are just aware of a dream that's Depressing.

"I want my desires" Want implies lack. You are just aware of the lack and you can't experience anything else unless you take your awareness off of the 'want desires'.

There's literally no where to reach, no thing to get. EVERYthing is YOU. Trust me you can never grasp it intellectually and no one can ever do it for you.

Now you have to decide if you are really Willing to give up Everything to get rid of pain, to be Free.

*just another thought, there's nothing to get rid of*

There's nothing else, nothing else but I AM.

See perfection in others

So the wildest thing just happened to me. I went to sleep thinking on the fact that I'm not this body, this is not my world.

I woke up as another version of myself, this was such a vivid experience. I experienced months as her. Let's call her Aranyani, but for total clarity, we share the same name.

I started this experience in Turkmenistan, a country this Vanessa knows nothing about. I had two elder brothers, and it was the wedding of one of them. I remember thinking how full of himself he was, complaining that people weren't able to pronounce his new title with enough passion. His wedding was a political one. My father was congratulating him.

I remember looking at him, pretending to smile along while I thought wow, you're so painfully full of yourself.

Now it was my turn. My father began explaining how he'd grant my wish, university in America. I can't remember the State, but the fascination of being allowed to travel, alone, to my dream school, was something [Vanessa] had never thought of before.

I'll speed this up. I was staying with an Aunt in her studio apartment, she was never really there, but when she was, she was so rude and demeaning. She even expected more money though my father was paying her rent in compensation for having me.

I ran into a group that sort of morphed into friends in the next few weeks. They were so different from me, band practice, partying, activism amd still finding time to function were pretty strange for Aranyani who didn't even have a job.

I also met someone I immediately started crushing on. Tall, dark, handsome - a classic but not all the way. Pretty green eyes, long, wavy hair. He was so strange to me, and well, cool. We had a flirtationship, no strings attached until he took me on a first date.

We went to something like a bodega. I was early, so I wanted to get something to snack on. I experienced r*cism for the first time in both regards. The name I chose for Aranyani is important because the clerk kept mispronouncing my name and laughing, even though it was a 2-syllable name. He even told me my name wasn't real, that it was ghetto so it wasn't his fault he couldn't get it right.

The others in the back were laughing as well. I'd never experienced this kind of thing, and got so angry. I explained to them that my name had culture, roots, my name is divine. It represented gods of forests and mountains and his own ignorance of the world he lived in was no one's fault but his incompetent self.

He didn't care very much. Poor Aranyani. Well, at least not until my date showed up, towering over my shoulder, abd made fun of him.

We left without getting anything.

He walked me home through a less expensive part of town where I'd gotten an apartment out of my allowance. A very spacious, 1 bedroom deal. He was so impressed with me, and asked if my parents knew. He'd never ask a thimg about them before so I gave him the whole rundown.

A Hindu mother who was no longer in the picture, and a father who was a very powerful man and probably would not approve of him. He seemed amused by that.

I invited him inside; to which I explained that after souring things between him and my aunt, he started sending all my compensatory money to me instead. I could buy other things now, like thigh high socks (she's so silly and cute (*＾＾*)//)

Now the dream ends with him teasing if he could see me in them, but he instead went to my kitchen, to make us both something before he left.

I woke up as this self, and that was such a detailed experience that has NEVER happened before. I'll continue to be disbelieve that I am any thing but I AM.

This is absolutely incredible, thank you for sharing it with me ♥

An acquaintance of mine went through a similar thing, although she did it more consciously (on purpose but uncertain if she would achieve it, she tried lightheartedly). Went to sleep next to her boyfriend, woke up to a totally different version of her reality with everything she wanted but without the boyfriend. She went on and lived as her for months, totally happy and content, it was her ideal of everything, including people, she had no bad experience with anyone whatsoever. She half missed him, things were too good, she didn't think about him that much, but living in literal perfection brought some boredom, so she decided she'd try and see if she could wake up in the same past timeline, next to him that morning. She did, it was the date she left again and it was like nothing has even happened. (She did try to tell him about if but he was like 'What the hell are you even talking about?') We lost contact since then so I don't know if she went back or chose to stay with him, but it just goes to show how malleable everything is when you don't take 'reality' seriously <3

Freedom

M: Only by denying can one live. Assertion is bondage. To question and deny is necessary. It is the essence of revolt and without revolt there can be no freedom. There is no second, or higher self to search for. You are the highest self, only give up the false ideas you have about your self. Both faith and reason tell you that you are neither the body, nor its desires and fears, nor are you the mind with its fanciful ideas, nor the role society compels you to play, the person you are supposed to be. Give up the false and the true will come into its own.

You say you want to know your self. You are your self — you cannot be anything but what you are. Is knowing separate from being? Whatever you can know with your mind is of the mind, not you; about yourself you can only say: 'I am, I am aware, I like It'.

Q: I find being alive a painful state.

M: You cannot be alive for you are life itself. It is the person you imagine yourself to be that suffers, not you. Dissolve it in awareness. It is merely a bundle of memories and habits. From the awareness of the unreal to the awareness of your real nature there is a bridge which you will easily cross, once you have mastered the art of pure awareness.

— I am That, Nisargadatta Maharaj

DO YOU EVEN REALISE HOW WITH THE SPEED OF LIGHT YOU 'MANIFEST' THINGS?

I really don't get it how y'all say I can't 'manifest' this or that!

Are you seeing this world rn? Yeah you created it...you are creating it every fucking second...by being aware of it! These trees...walls...your family....pillow...fridge... Everything you are 'manifesting' RN!!

You are expecting to see this same dream world and then asking how to be aware of new dream?

Lmao you know how silly it sounds...like you've been choosing your dream all along by yourSELF and now you wanna experience another dream!

It's not just having a thought that okay I'll experience another dream. You have to KNOW just the way you know your name...or uk where your bed or house is!

But how?

It's simple just don't expect it to be the same!🤷🏻‍♀️ Sleep doubting that you'll wake up in the same dream. DOUBT FRR!!

Not to get anything coz then that's operating from ego's lack mindset! Doubt the way you would as if someone's lying to you.