Conflicted: Pt. 8🎀
i have 2 chapters for yall today i’m posting the other one later tonight ;)
Maddy P.O.V
I don’t really remember what happened after my breakdown at the beach because I had fallen asleep on the way back to the apartment.
And when I woke up I was tucked into my bed with the lights closed.
I looked around for my alarm clock to check the time and it read 11:00 pm.
I was out for that long?
I peeked around and saw some light coming from underneath my door meaning someone was awake in the kitchen.
Although I didn’t hear any noises I figured whoever it was, was probably just watching MTV.
Duff usually stayed up till 2 in the morning before calling it a night so it could most definitely be him or…..Izzy.
I stood up and ripped my door open, expecting to see my brother seated on the couch, which he was, along with Izzy.
They were both watching tv silently, as if they had had an argument , and neither was acknowledging the other.
“Finally. You're awake," Duff said, not in the least bit excited to see me.
Strange.
“Come and sit here, Maddy," he urged, patting the empty space next to him on the couch that was far away from Izzy.
"W-What's wrong?" I questioned, stealing a look at Izzy, who refused to move his gaze away from the television screen.
I could tell by his face something was wrong. That face he always made when he was angry was very visible right now.
“I’m only gonna ask you this once and you better fucking tell me the damn truth Maddy Elizabeth Mckagan.”
“Are you and Izzy fucking?”
“What! Why would you say something like that.” I squealed jumping up from my seat catching Izzy’s attention.
“We’re definitely not fucking Duff.” Izzy barked lighting up a cigarette.
“Then what’s going on! I’m not an idiot like you both may think. I can hear whispers and even the tiniest of noises from my bedroom.”
“At first I thought you would be sneaking Angela in every night when everyone would be sleeping. But then I woke up to pee one night and I peeked outside to see the action and I see Maddy on top of you!” he snapped pushing Izzy.
“I’m not sleeping with Maddy, if you want the honest truth but I did fool around with her.”
“How far did you do with her?”
“Duff please let it go-
“You have no right to be talking right now Maddy. Now let him finish.” Duff threatened making me sit back down and accept what was to come.
“We just messed around like y’know rubbing on each other and shit.” Izzy stated attempting to hide the smirk that was threatening to appear.
Duff was very quiet for a bit and placed his hands on his hips like he was thinking about what to do next.
I could see how angry he was by the way his chest was moving up and down in big breaths.
“I want you out of my fucking apartment. Fucking now!” my brother yelled grabbing Izzy by the shirt and shoving him into the door.
“Duff stop please. I-I love him.”
“You what?” he asked very quietly.
“I love Izzy.” I mumbled staring at him with glossy eyes.
“I can’t believe this right now. My sister and one of my best friends going behind my back like this.”
“I can’t even stand to look at you.” he glared with disgust.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for it to happen I swear.” I cried grabbing onto my brothers arm.
He shoved me off his arm and stomped off into his room slamming the door so loud that a few of the kitchen decor fell and broke.
“Fuck this.” was all Izzy said before leaving out the door and leaving me standing there a mess all by myself.
“Izzy wait!” I yelled chasing after him outside the apartment.
“Izzy please just wait.”
“Maddy just leave me alone.” he huffed slightly annoyed by me stopping him.
“No I won’t. I won’t leave you alone until you tell me why your being so mean to me. All I said was I love you.”
“You don’t love me. You’re only 16. I know what it’s like to feel that way towards someone and I don’t feel it about you.”
“I’m sorry.” he said before turning around and leaving.
“I’m sorry.” rang throughout my head and it just felt like my heart got stabbed a thousand times over and over again.
Izzy P.O.V
Fuck I felt like the biggest asshole on earth after saying that lie to Maddy.
The truth was that I had never felt this way about any girl before and it scared me to even think about it.
But I did love Maddy. She just couldn’t know. I would rather have her hate me than know I love her too.
Because once she finds out she’ll want to be in a relationship and expect things out of me like a normal boyfriend and I can’t do that for her.
My whole life I’ve never had an actual faithful relationship and I wasn’t so sure if I was ready to give all of that up.
Maddy was the perfect girl anyone could ever ask for but out of Duff’s sake I was going to stay away from her.
As much as I loved Maddy I felt the same way about Duff.
He was like a brother to me and I couldn’t continue on this way with his little sister if he felt so harshly about it.
And I was worried about him kicking me out of the band even though he didn’t have that much power, lately Axl had been a major asshole towards me so it wouldn’t be a shock if I found out I was kicked out just because of this.
The best option for now was to stay away from Maddy at all costs.
boo! we want guns n roses!😒🎀
Conflicted Chapter 31:
Maddy P.O.V
“I love you so much baby.” Izzy groaned as he rammed into me continuously, rocking the bed by his speed.
“I love you t-too.” I whimpered feeling my orgasm about to take over.
“Your never gonna leave me again right?”
Not even for him?” he whined almost pleading me to answer.
l was too euphoric to mutter a response as I felt Izzy sucking the sensitive parts of my neck.
Leaving them all bruised and purple.
“Say something Maddy please.” he urged not letting himself release until he heard exactly what he wanted from me.
“Yes. It’s you Izzy. It’s always been you.” I croaked looking up at him, pouting and seeing his hazel eyes that I missed so much.
He leaned in and gave me the sloppiest kiss, leaving strings of wetness as he pulled away and came inside of me making sure I took every last drop.
“Such a good girl f’me huh.” he said giving my ass a slap and plopping down beside me.
I quickly covered myself feeling sudden shame from being naked like this inside of a trailer with Izzy knowing my brother still wasn’t talking to me and here I was slutting it up with one of his best friends.
“What’s wrong?” Izzy asked as he sat up, grabbing his pants and slipping them on, letting them hang loosely around his waist as he let up a fresh cigarette.
“I feel guilty for doing this while Duff is still ignoring me.” I sighed feeling my lips pout and tears silently rolling down my cheek.
“Your grown enough to make your own decisions Maddy.”
“If Duff doesn’t approve he needs to get over it.” he replied gruffly.
“I know but he’s my brother Izzy. If he’s upset then it affects me too.” I replied angrily.
“Why are you being such a little girl over it. I didn’t get with you to handle your tantrums.”
“Why are you being so mean.” I huffed wiping my tear stained cheeks and climbing off the bed to confront him face to face.
“I’m not. I just think you’re overly sensitive and I don’t want to deal with a cry baby post fuck.” he casually responded letting out a cloud of smoke as he ran a hand through his black locks.
“You’re such a jerk.” I cried pushing him out of my way to exit the trailer.
I didn’t even know where to go since all the boys including my brother were rehearsing backstage so I just waited outside feeling helplessly guiltier by the second.
I was just another idiot who decided to sneak away with Izzy back into his bed. I didn’t even wanna leave my brother while he was practicing his drums because I planned on talking to him once and for all to figure things out.
But instead he caught a glimpse of Izzy kissing all over my neck while gripping my ass as we both snuck away to go to his trailer which I doubt my brother didn’t know of.
I heard the trailer door open and close.
Izzy came out to let me know he was going back to rehearse with the boys and asked if I wanted to join.
“I don’t feel comfortable being near you while you’re mad at me.” I retorted rolling my eyes at him like the dumb little girl I was.
I wasn’t even that much younger than him.
It was only a 6 year gap which he made seem like it was ages apart.
Twenty five and Nineteen weren’t that far apart.
Right?
“Come on. You know Duff will kill me for leaving you all alone out here.” he groaned.
“You don’t even care about me.” I said feeling utterly rejected at that point.
He came over towards me in long strides and pulled me up harshly by my arms placing of his arms on my lower back squishing me all the way into him while having the other hand on my cheek.
“What don’t you understand Maddy. I don’t act this way with any girl.”
“I don’t even have any emotions towards the girls I fuck or that try and talk to me.”
“You make me feel so many different emotions at once I don’t know how to act sometimes. I know I shout at you but I really feel something for you that I’ve never felt with any girl which drives me crazy especially when Duff says I can’t be around you.”
“I’m so in love with you. I want to fuck you and make love to you at the same time all the damn time. I want to kiss you everywhere when I see you. You’re always so fucking beautiful and sexy. And you have the sweetest personality which is the total opposite of me. You’re so fucking nice it kills me sometimes because I could never be that nice to you but that’s why I want to be around you all the time because you pull me in with your sweetness. You make me feel so good about myself, like someone genuinely cares for me.”
“God I wish I could fuck you right here against this trailer so everyone can see how much I want to make you mine.” he grunted swiping his tongue on my lips until I parted them feeling his tongue against mine.
“Izzz. Someone will see us.” I giggled against his kisses.
“That’s what makes it so fun baby.” he groaned grabbing my legs to wrap around his waist as he grinded his erection against me.
The parking lot where all the bands had parked their trailers was silent expect for small “uh, uh, uh.” whimpers that left my mouth like a chorus.
Izzy had me pinned against GNR’s trailer with my tiny skirt hiked up, rubbing my pussy up and down his clothed erection keeping my legs tightly gripped.
“Give it to me baby. Cream all over my fucking pants.” he grunted pinning me against the trailer further to help grip me as I bounced up and down feeling my pussy get slicker with the friction of his jeans.
“Izzy?”
“Is that you man?” Duff barked as he saw me looking disheveled and seeing my ass out as I bounced up and down Izzy.
“S-stop stop. Put me down Iz .” I gasped slightly out of breath due to the nature of our activities.
“I’m gonna fucking murder you.” my brother muttered watching as I fixed my clothes into place while Izzy readjusted himself in his pants rolling his eyes.
“It’s not like she didn’t want it Duff.” he said shaking him off.
“Fuck you motherfucker.” was the last thing Izzy heard as he fell to the ground.
authors note
wht did we think :)) i’m back! i’ve been rlly busy w school so apologies!
HENRY CAVILL as MIKE Hellraiser: Hellworld (2005) | dir. Rick Bota
Conflicted Chapter 22🎀:
Maddy P.O.V
My mother was furious at me to help clean the house since Duff had agreed to come with the band, reluctant at first but then, after hearing his sister's heartbroken attitude, deciding to reconsider not coming.
I chose to wear shorts and a satin baby blue crop top.
“Young lady, what are you wearing!" my mother yelled, putting her fists on her hips and looking me over.
“Mom! It's only Duff and his friends." I whined, wanting Izzy to see me in this clothing.
"Okay, as long as you don't wear that again," she remarked as she prepared the boys' lasagne.
I couldn't stop smiling since I knew Duff would be arriving with them any minute now.
Izzy and I had only been apart for a day, but it felt like forever; even if we didn't leave on good terms, I still missed him a lot.
And Axl.
I never got to thank him for helping me that day.
“YOUR FAVORITE KID IS HOME!" Duff shouted as he opened the door, allowing the knob to hit the wall like he always did, creating an even larger hole in the plaster.
I rolled my eyes at him and walked away, feeling angry again.
My brother was not the evil guy in this situation; I know he did nothing wrong, but I was still furious about how he sent me back without warning and without seeing Izzy.
The band poured into the warm two-story home, breathing a sigh of relief as they protected themselves from Seattle's cold air.
"Hi." I waved and smiled at everyone of them
“Hey Maddy!" Slash and Steven grinned eagerly, the only drink in their system at the moment being coke, a fizzy beverage heavy in sugar, contributing to their hyper behavior.
The boys had agreed to appear sober at the McKagan home so that Maddy's mother would have the best impression of them all.
Especially Izzy.
And there he stood, as tall as ever, with his black coat, slim jeans, and straight black hair.
I waited for him to get to me first, but he quickly moved past me and straight to Duff, who was conversing with my mother.
“Hey.” a voice said, snapping me out of my current haze of conclusion.
“Hi Axl.”
“How are you?.”
"I'm fine. I just wanted to thank you for being there for me that night."
“I'll always be there for you," he said, moving in close enough for me to look up into his eyes.
“Boys I made you all dinner, come eat." My mother yelled, making me jolt from the conversation with Axl, as the boys gathered around the dinner table like starved men, with Duff at one end of the long wooden table and my mother at the other, leaving me in between Izzy and Axl.
Slash and Steven were in front of us, sending me smirks, winks, and obscene gestures implying a threesome, which my mother did not appreciate
"Is there anything I should know?" she questioned the two of them, who dropped their grins and shook their heads no.
“Izzy, was it?…That’s your name young man?”
“Yes ma’am.”
“Okay...., well, my daughter here, tells me that you both love each other.”
“Mom!" I cringed as I felt his stare from the corner of my eyes.
“Yes…uh I do.”
“If you want to be with my daughter then you'll have to get married." she demanded.
The entire table, including Axl, burst out laughing as if it was the best joke they'd ever heard, leaving a sour taste in my mouth.
“Alright, gentlemen. It was a joke; now settle down and enjoy your lasagne.”
“Izzy, based on what I've seen, you appear to be an intelligent man. And the fact that you appear to be making my daughter upset because you aren't here, I'd say I want my daughter out of her pain, and I approve of you being with Maddy." she said, making all the boys except Axl erupt in cheers.
The night went well despite Izzy still ignoring me, and my mother even spent some time with Izzy alone so they could bond before calling it a night, while I felt a little overstimulated and walked upstairs to my room.
Izzy P.O.V
“Your mom loves me." I smirked and slumped into the couch in the living room, where the other boys were also watching cartoons.
“I’m surprised. My mother is generally quite protective of Maddy, but I think she saw something in you she liked." Duff said, glad to have given his best friend another chance after seeing how far he went to impress his little sister.
“Where’s Maddy?” I asked, looking around and seeing no sign of the young girl who I had sat next to, during dinner.
“I think she went upstairs to her room.” the bassist mumbled, yawning as his eyes focused on the cartoon Slash and Steven were watching.
I traveled upstairs searching for Maddy’s room when I spotted a door slightly creaked and light pink walls peeking through.
I was about to knock but fuck it, I just walked in and closed the door behind me locking it.
“Get out.” she grumbled, huddled on her side while hugging one of her stuffed animals.
“Maddy-.”
“You ignored me the whole day.”
“I was just trying to impress your mom.”
“By ignoring me.” she scoffed, feeling her eyes sting of tears.
“Baby I’m sorry.” I cooed, coming up to cuddle her in bed.
“I waited for you the whole day and even dressed up for you to see a-and you didn’t even c-care.” she exhaled shakily, brushing away tears with the back of her hands.
“Fuck Maddy. I’m not good at this shit y’know, this is my first time introducing myself to a girl’s parents.” I sighed sitting up against the headboard of her white and pink bed.
She turned over, with her tear stained cheeks.
“And I’m sorry about the way I treated you at the bar. I know that was fucked up. I care about you so fucking much, I never stop thinking about you.” I told her, holding her chin in my grasp, to raise her head up towards me.
“As long as you’re here that’s all that matters…I guess.” she whispered curling into me.
I caressed her hair till she fell asleep on me, then tucked her into her blanket and turned off the light, letting her lamp illuminate the room.
I ran across Axl as I was leaving her room, who gave me a strange look and asked what I was doing in her room after the argument at the bar.
“You don’t deserve her Izzy. And you know that too.” he told the rhythm guitarist.
“You think your any better.” I scoffed eyeing the arrogant asshole who used to be my best friend once upon a time.
“I know I’m not a good person but I don’t pretend like I am, unlike you.” he spat pushing me on the way to the guest room to which he slammed the door.
“Prick.” I muttered going down the stairs, seeing Duff, Steven and Slash all passed out on the couch.
Great. Where do I sleep.
Slash and Steven had taken up one whole couch and Duff’s height took up one single couch alone, leaving me with the couch chair that was not comfortable in the slightest.
I went back upstairs, contemplating whether I should knock on the guest room door and humiliate myself in front of Axl by begging him to allow me share the guest bedroom or knock on Maddy's door
So I took the better option and went into Maddy's room, closing the door and slipping into bed with her beneath her comforter.
“I-Izzy?" She whispered, half drowsy, as she noticed flashes of black garments in front of her half-closed eyes.
"I’m sleeping with you tonight. Axl is being a bitch." I grunted, slipping off my shirt due to the heat, leaving me shirtless and pantless, since I always slept in my boxers.
“M’kay.” she whispered, cuddling into my body, replacing her stuffed bunny with my body.
“Night.” I said giving her a kiss on the head.
“Mhm…n-nigh-t.” she replied groggily before we both drifted off into a deep sleep underneath her pink soft comforters and the illuminating light of her lamp in the quiet room which would be the complete opposite the next morning.
Conflicted Chapter 26🎀:
Maddy P.O.V:
Izzy led me to a dark corner of the corridor, where he pulled me against the wall and began kissing me. We made out for a bit before he pulled away and explained the issue to me in between kisses, assuring me that Pamela meant nothing to him and that I meant everything to him.
I let it go, persuading myself that I was overthinking, seeing them together in the hallway earlier, and allowed him to sweet talk his way into a quick fuck before we returned to where the boys were.
Axl had gone outside for a smoke break while everyone else was relaxing in the dressing room, with a couple of groupies hanging around, primarily Slash.
Izzy went to sit on the couch in the corner, where no one else was and played his guitar lightly, while I sat next to Duff.
“How was the show?” he asked with a big grin.
“Great. I really enjoyed seeing you live.” I gleamed, even if I let my anger cloud some parts of the show.
“Hopefully you’ll be able to see us again soon.”
“What do you mean?… I-I thought maybe I could go back with you to L.A.?” I pestered, scooting closer to tug onto his arm.
“I don’t know…, I don’t feel comfortable after everything that’s happened.” he spoke, sneaking a glance at Izzy who was knocked out, with his sunglasses miraculously still on.
“I promise I’ll be good.” I squeaked, jumping up and down, hoping to convince him that I should come back to stay with him.
He sighed and looked around for someone to support his decision, but Slash was too fucked, and instead, laughing his ass off with the random groupie he allowed to entertain him for the night.
And Steven was clearly not the best pick for an important choice.
“Where’s Axl when you need him.” he huffed, leaning back onto the couch.
“I’m right here.” Axl’s voice boomed, strutting in confidently.
“I was being sarcastic…”
“Well? I heard my name, so I have a right for you to tell me now.” the redhead demanded towering in front of my brother with his arms crossed.
“Do you think Maddy should come back with us to L.A.?”
“Nope. I don’t think she is capable enough to control herself around Izzy.” he snorted.
“What do you mean?” I spat.
“I passed by catering to look for my white jacket because some jackass on our set had misplaced it after the show, and when I found it, I was heading back when I heard Izzy fucking Maddy behind that long hallway where there's a small corner," he spilled, acting as if it wasn't a big deal, whereas Duff had already started fuming as soon as he heard the word fuck.
“Maddy is this true?” he asked through flared nostrils.
“What is your deal!” I shouted at Axl, completely ignoring my brother, too stunned to comprehend.
Izzy woke up after hearing me yell at Axl and rushed towards the scene, slightly irritated because he had been startled out of his sleep.
“What’s wrong baby?” he asked, putting his arm around my waist to pull me from Axl.
“You.” Duff sneered, getting up from the couch and pushing on the lanky bassist's hollow chest, causing him to stagger back, loosing grip on my waist.
“What do I do. He’s the one who’s always causing shit.” Izzy retorted, pushing Duff back, referring to Axl, who stood there with a smug expression on his face as the scene unfolded in front of him.
“You're fucking my sister backstage and making her into some cheap groupie whore. What if someone saw?"
“No one saw us.”
“That doesn’t matter Iz. You’re being a bad influence on her and it’s showing.” my older brother argued, poking a finger into him.
“She’s not a fucking mute y’know. I’m sure she can speak for herself. Maybe ask her instead of bothering me.” he shouted, throwing his arms up in the air.
“Nope. That’s the end of it. You’re not coming back with me and you are breaking up with Izzy right now!” my brother commanded.
“You can’t do this..”
“Break up with him now or else he’s out of the band!” he concluded, making me go silent.
I shifted my gaze between my enraged brother and Izzy, who gave me a sympathetic look that made me roll my eyes.
Of course, he would choose the band over me.
I was just a naive little girl to believe that he would drop everything for me if given the chance.
“Okay..I agree.” I sighed shakily, tugging on my lower lip as my nostrils flared and tears welled up.
“It’s for your own good.” was all my brother said before storming out.
Izzy only stared at me in silence; he didn't have much to say, so I walked out of the room, unable to deal with the awkward quietness.
“Hey, wait up!”
“What do you want asshole?” I growled, ready to start fighting the man in front of me.
“Relax, I’m just looking out for you.” he smirked, catching a lock of my hair and tucking it behind my ear.
I swatted his hand away making him laugh before he put both hands on his hips and stared at me.
“What!”
“I guess I’ll just miss seeing your beautiful face around.” he playfully sighed.
“Are you a narcissist asshole or something? What is wrong with you.” I yelled making him roll his eyes.
“Sweetie. Your dear Izzy won’t even remember you after a few months. I’m only doing you a favor.”
“Who are you to tell me that?”
“I’ve known him the longest. That’s why you should trust me.” he urged.
“You’re just trying to get in my pants…..nice try.” I scoffed, as I walked away, he grabbed my waist and pushed me against the wall, just like Izzy had, earlier.
“I’m serious. I care about you.” he whispered, gazing at me with those soft green eyes of his that often changed colors depending on his mood.
“Get….off.” I muttered through gritted teeth, pushing him off me, making him pissed off again.
“Izzy isn’t the guy for you….he‘ll forget about you and he won’t look back.” he yelled.
I dashed outside the arena, looking for a pay phone so I could contact my mother to come pick me up because I was not in the mood to talk to Duff.
It felt like it was freezing outdoors, but I was too stubborn to go inside and let anyone see or speak with me. And It didn't matter anymore whether my mother caught me wearing this outfit that I had sneaked out in because it no longer meant anything to me.
(ik this chapter was short but anyways,, this was mainly supposed to be an izzy fic but,, im very much considering axl to be the main character ,,, thoughts? 🫣🫣🫶🏼🫶🏼🎀)
if you film it while i suck it you could be a superstar ☆౨ৎ
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Conflicted : Pt. 7🎀
Maddy P.O.V
Axl joined us a while later. It was peaceful but then Axl mentioned something about rehearsal and Izzy started arguing with him about it.
And instead of helping, Duff turned up the radio even more to drown them out leaving me stuck in the middle.
"Guys stop please!" I pleaded pushing them away from both sides.
“Sorry, Maddy. But my friend Izzy here has an issue with my singing, and I need to figure out why." Axl argued.
“That's because everytime something doesn't go your way you disappear and our fucking song goes unfinished!" Izzy yelled.
“Izzy stop.” I begged, pleading with eyes.
“Whatever.” he scoffed turning the other way to face his window.
Axl gave me a strange look, glancing at both of us before shrugging it off.
“Axl how are you and Erin?" I asked, not sure how else to start a conversation.
"She’s fine. Why do you care?"
“I was just asking." I said, rolling my eyes.
“So did you enjoy my L.A tour, or would you like another private one?" he grinned, scooting closer towards me.
I noticed Izzy shift in his seat when he heard Axl, so I played into it.
I laughed and twirled my hair with my finger before responding.
“Yes I would like that."
“Are you gonna wear that sexy outfit of yours that you wore last time?” he smirked.
“Okay that’s enough Axl. Leave the poor girl alone.” Izzy spoke.
“What’s wrong with you? You’re just jealous because you want her.” he retorted making Izzy scrunch his brows.
“I don’t!”
“Save it Izzy. I can tell the way you look at her you have the hots for your best friend’s little sissy.” Axl mocked.
“What are you gonna do about it?” Izzy asked putting an arm around me.
“Fuck off. She doesn’t want you.” Axl barked pulling me into his arms.
“She doesn’t want you either!” Izzy spat yanking me back towards him.
“STOP.” I yelled causing Duff to slam the brakes.
“What’s going on!” Duff yelled turning around to face Izzy, Axl and I.
“Nothing.” we all said in unison.
“Okay well not that any of you were paying attention but we’re here.”
We all climbed out of the car wanting nothing more than some fresh air.
Axl and Duff went running towards the beach but Izzy pulled me back behind a shed and shoved his lips on mine hungrily.
“Stay away from Axl.” he whispered pulling off my lips.
“You’re not my boyfriend.” I huffed crossing my arms.
“It doesn’t matter. Your mine.”
Duff P.O.V
I wasn’t a dumbass as everyone around me thought.
I saw the way Izzy looked at Maddy and I intended on letting him know to back off.
If there was one thing I was keen on, it was keeping family away from any of the guys.
Including Izzy.
He wasn’t exactly boyfriend material. And I saw the way he treated women like they didn’t mean anything to him.
I’m not saying I’m any better but I know I’m better than Izzy regarding women.
He didn’t even flinch when Angela was being shared between the guys.
It was a normal occurrence to him and I wasn’t gonna let him turn Maddy into a slut.
“Hey man you coming or what?” Izzy asked coming up behind me.
“Yeah. Hey Iz can I ask you a question?”
“Sure what’s up.”
“Are you seeing Maddy behind me back?” I asked scanning his face for any reaction.
“Maddy? Come on Duff she’s like a little kid.” he joked.
I saw Maddy listening to us out of the corner of my eye and once Izzy turned around she stomped off looking pretty upset.
What was that about?…
“Okay. I’m just making sure bro.” I told him giving a pat on the shoulder before joining Axl in the water.
Maddy P.O.V
I trudged around the water looking out to the waves when I saw Duff talking to Izzy with his arms crossed and brows furrowed.
“Are you seeing Maddy behind my back?” Duff asked giving Izzy a stern look.
But instead of admitting to it, Izzy gave a big laugh and shrugged it off calling me a little kid.
What the hell does that mean?
I stomped off annoyed by the attitude I was receiving from his and went to sit on the bench which was located on the other side of the beach.
This day sucked and I just wanted to go home and forget about all of this mess.
Clearly Izzy didn’t care enough to tell Duff about our relationship and I didn’t want to lie to my brother about it either.
So I decided I was going to call it quits with Iz.
I felt like that was the right thing to do.
“Maddy.”
“What do you want Izzy.” I sighed in defeat.
I quickly wiped the leftover tears off my face and scooted over allowing him to have a seat.
“I know you heard the conversation with Duff.”
“It’s fine. You did what you had to for your friendship.”
“I know but it was fucked that you had to hear that and so I’m sorry.”
“What exactly do you want me to say though?” I spat back.
“I just heard the guy I’m in love with talking in such a demeaning way about me.”
“You love me?” he softly asked pushing my hair out of the way so he could see my face.
“I don’t know what to say.”
“Just tell me you love me. Even if you don’t mean it please.” I begged letting a tear fall down my cheek.
“Fuck Maddy.” he shouted.
“You don’t even know what love is. You don’t know what you’re talking about.” he urged.
“This is humiliating. I have to leave.” I bawled getting as far away from him as far as I could.
“Wait.” he yelled but I kept running until I bumped into Axl.
“What’s wrong?” he asked pulling me into a hug.
“I-Izzy. Doesn’t love m-me.” I sobbed crying into his bare chest with my salty tears.
“He’s no good for you. I’ve known him ever since we were little. He’s never gonna change.”
“Maddy. What happened!” Duff called out grabbing my face between his hands.
“Nothing. C-can we go home?”
“Of course. Let’s go right now.”
Conflicted Chapter 19🎀:
Maddy P.O.V
We arrived at a small gig that Guns N’ Roses were set to play, shortly after 8 p.m since they usually always played an hour later than scheduled.
Everyone got their instruments set up as they hopped onto the bar stage tuning their guitars and warming up, to play an acoustic version of “Mr. Brownstone” , “Sweet Child O’ Mine” & many others.
Axl and Izzy were planning on doing a duet for Paradise City but Axl stormed off, leaving Izzy clueless.
“The fuck is your deal.” the Indiana native spat, giving Axl a dirty look as Axl went about his business ignoring him and doing some vocal warmups.
“Baby just ignore him. I think he’s just a bit on edge.” I said rubbing his back.
“I think I’m gonna puke seeing you too.” Axl snarked rolling his eyes at us, moving his chair to the other side of the stage by Slash, taking the microphone with him.
“We need to do a duet and the microphone has to be in the middle of the stage.” Izzy told him, snatching his chair and tugging it back in the middle.
“I don’t need you. My voice is perfect on its own.” he smirked, grabbing the chair and planting it back on the other side of the stage.
"Shut up fuckers, we’re on in 5 minutes." Duff yelled, suffering from a severe headache brought on by yesterday night's partying, which Axl and Izzy intensified.
“Wait! I forgot my drumsticks.” Steven chirped scurrying backstage.
“Great.” Axl retorted, slumping down into his chair.
"Axl!" I heard a girl shout from behind the stage, sitting on a stool, along with other seating configurations on a platform above, with stairs leading down to the stage where the rockers would be performing soon.
She had long curly brown hair, that made her blue eyes pop and a voice that seemed hardly audible even when she shouted.
“Erin baby, you came.” Axl grinned blowing her a kiss.
"Baby?" I wondered, curious about when they got back together and why he would talk to me if he had a girlfriend.
“Jealous?” he smirked, seeing my confused expression which quickly turned sour upon seeing his smug attitude.
“Jealous!” I scoffed, correcting him by saying how disappointed I was.
“Your not my mother…..although if you wanted-
“Okay stop it.” Duff grimaced putting his hands over his ears.
“You guys are not going to treat my sister like one of your groupie whores and take turns with her.”
“Who said we’re taking turns?” Izzy countered, raising an eyebrow at Axl, wondering if anything had happened between the lead singer and the young girl whose heart he had stolen.
“Nothing happened between me and Axl!” Maddy huffed, causing everyone to look at her sudden outburst, stomping her feet as she went up the stairs to sit next to the quiet girl she had observed from earlier.
“Hi. I’m Maddy.” I smiled sweetly, extending a hand out to the bright eyed girl next to me.
“I’m Erin.” she smiled, giving off a soft vibe like she wasn’t a threat and seemed like a sweet girl who didn’t even look like she belonged with the hard rock singer, with her simple outfit.
"Your Duff's…….sister?" She queried, narrowing her eyes at me.
“How did you know.”
“You both have the same mannerisms and are really sweet.” she explained, with the same warm grin.
I returned the smile and got along well with her as the boys performed their songs perfectly, which surprised me given the circumstances from earlier.
One thing I had noticed about Axl and Izzy was that no matter how much they hated each other at times, they made sure to make each other look good while performing, not allowing one person to shine alone but equally sharing the spotlight, which is why they had been friends for so long because they respected and cared for each other deeply.
I hated seeing them fighting and was happy to know that they got along for the show and even hugged it out on stage, not that Izzy was an affectionate guy but Axl was and he made sure to show out for his loved ones.
“You guys were great!” Erin and I squealed rushing down the steps to give each of our guys a hug.
“Thanks Maddy.” Axl cockily grinned, putting his arm around Erin as she ignored the obvious looks he was giving me.
“Come on let’s go.” Izzy muttered, throwing his arm around my waist and placing a kiss on my shoulder, walking me backstage.
“Erin seems like a very sweet girl. I’m glad Axl found someone like her.”
“Yeah. He needs more than her to save himself.”
I didn’t inquire further, nodding, since Axl was a touchy subject.
“I wanna talk about you.”
“What about me?” I giggled, suddenly nervous by the way he was looking at me while he had me pinned between his hands, leaned back against the wall.
I felt my face flush as his hand went to rest on my cheek, running his thumb across my glossed lips, pressing down on the middle of them to form a pout around his thumb and teasing it inside.
“Suck it.” he demanded.
I gradually sucked on his thumb, moving it in and out between my puffed up lips remaining eye contact with him as I pulled off with a pop before spitting on it like he spit in my mouth and letting it drip down, collecting it all before it splattered on the ground beneath us, licking around as I evenly spread the wetness, taking it all the way, bobbing up and down and releasing to kiss his lips with a trail of spit connecting my lips to his thumb.
“Does my baby want my cock that badly that she has to make a mess all over my thumb?” he asked, kissing my lips, engulfing the trail of spit and releasing with a wet smack.
“Yes please. I want your cum. I want it all over my tits and my pussy, an-and all over my body.” I whimpered, as he snaked a hand down my body to aggressively rub my pussy over my panties in fast circles.
“Get on your knees.” he spat yanking on my hair to pull me down, on my ass, letting my legs fold on the ground in a “W” , so I could have my pussy against the ground to rub against.
I grabbed his cock and spit on it letting out a big bubble and blowing on it, creating tiny bubbles and rubbing my lips across it like it was a lip product, back and forth before kissing the tip.
"Take it down your fucking throat." He groaned growing tired of my teasing as he bucked his hips forward pushing my head down, causing me to choke and tear up, forcing him to let go, and let me cough it out before thrusting his cock back down with no remorse, gathering my hair in a messy ponytail to move up and down his hardened length.
I let go of his cock with a sputter, his precum mixed with my spit pouring down onto my tits, as I rubbed it in to give him a show, watching him jerk off in front of my face.
“Such a fucking slut for my cock. You just turn into a little bitch for it.”
“Only for you Izzy. I love being a slut for your big cock.” I replied, giggling as I licked a stripe up his cock while he stroked it over my face.
“Get up I wanna fuck you now.” he grunted pulling me off the floor by my underarms like a rag doll and flipping me around to face the wall, roughly pulling my skirt down, forcing me to stick my ass out for him, while standing on my tippy toes since he was significantly taller than me.
My sneakers squeaked against the ground as he pushed into me from behind wrapping one arm around my waist to keep me firm on his cock while the other pinned my arm up against the wall.
I gasped, arching my back as my pussy became ten times wetter, hearing the lewd noises of his cock entering in and out of my pussy.
“Be fucking quiet.” he growled in my ear.
“You don't want your brother to find us and witness me fucking his baby sister like the desperate little whore she is, would you?”
I loved hearing his perverted comments, enjoying how dirty he made me feel.
“I think you would love it if everybody were to see the cockdrunk slut you are." he spat, causing me to sob.
“I-Iz!” I squealed feeling pleasure waves throughout my body as his cock repeatedly poked against the spongy region of my pussy, making my eyes roll back and incoherently blabbering over and over again about how big his cock was.
“I said be fuck-ing quiet.” he hissed going deeper with his thrusts, moving his hand from my waist to my mouth covering it tightly.
I moved my hand over his, desperately trying to hold onto something as I felt my orgasm approaching and my legs going weak while he pounded into me faster.
“I-I’m gonna cu-cum.” I whined, muffled by his large hand, before he moved it abruptly to rub my clit as I let out a big squeal feeling a gush of liquid release out of me while I tried to stay on my tippy toes with my legs that were now worn out and shaking.
“Shit shit s-shit. Fuck-k yeah baby give it to me. Give me all your fucking cum.”
I squealed pushing Izzy away as I felt very sensitive coming back down from my high.
He pulled himself together while I stayed still trying to catch my breath after squirting.
“That was so hot baby. Did it feel good?” he asked as he buried himself in my neck.
“Y-Yes.” I breathed out, looking down my leg, and seeing his cum spill out.
I reached down my body, whimpering at the feeling of pushing his leaking cum back into my sensitive pussy.
“I would fuck you again but we have to catch up with the guys. Your brother is probably wondering where you went.” he sighed moving his hair out of his face.
I fixed myself and ran my fingers through my hair making sure there were no knots.
“Why don’t you go fix your face in the bathroom while I see what they’re up too?” Izzy suggested, seeing my red stained cheeks and smudged makeup.
“Okay.” I smiled reaching up to give him a kiss as he walked off.
I ventured off into the quiet bathroom fixing my face by running a wet napkin over my smudged mascara and reapplying lipgloss to my swollen lips, when I saw Angela walk in.
The same Angela that used to be Izzy’s favorite groupie.
What was she doing here?
“Hey Maddy!" She grinned, in the fakest voice I'd ever heard.
“Hi.” I responded, meekly.
“You look like you’ve been having fun. Who’s the lucky guy?” she smirked.
“Let me guess. Axl?”
“Axl? No. I’m with Izzy.” I reply, annoyed at her attempt to small talk answers out of me.
She appeared perplexed at first, but then lifted her brow, staring down at her hands as she played with the crusted nail polish.
“So you both are like official now?” she asked, the fake voice suddenly replaced by a bitter tone.
“Yes.” I blushed thinking about earlier while re-applying some fresh coats of mascara.
“Well I think that is very brave of you.”
“What do you mean brave?” I asked.
“Y’know….Izzy’s history with women and all.” she exhaled.
“Izzy is a changed man.” I sighed, annoyed by her false propaganda of trying to deter me away from him.
“I've heard Axl is in love with you." she spat, prompting me to halt in the middle of applying mascara and turn to face her with the wand in hand.
“What told you that?” I hissed, wondering if Axl was going around telling everyone our business.
“Erin Everly, his girlfriend.”
Conflicted Pt: 14 🎀
Izzy P.O.V
Our band received the best selling album label by the time our tour had ended, but our manager scheduled us to perform a gig at the Troubadour for old times sake.
We agreed to it, of course, it was nostalgic for us too, to see how far we had come since the last time we were at the Troubadour.
I was also excited for Maddy to come and see us perform since she’d never seen me play live.
“Izzy do you think your groupies will show up tonight.” she scoffed looking through her pile of clothes, scattered everywhere in the closet.
“Can’t say they won’t but I don’t care about them when I have you.” I cooed pulling her in from behind, so her body was pressed against mine.
She looked into the standing mirror that was in her closet and sighed.
“I wish you would hug me like this in front of them to show them your mine.”
“Baby-
“I know I know, it would ruin your playboy imagine.” she muttered pulling away to bend down at the black dress that was peeking out of the pile.
“You are not wearing that.” I laughed grabbing the flimsy material and throwing it at the top of her shelf.
“I am! If you don’t want us to be seen together then I don’t have to dress like I’m in a relationship.” Maddy retorted fisting her hands at her sides and stomping her foot down.
“I’m not letting you around the guys with this dress.” I told her imagining what would happen if she wore the tiny fabric.
I know Axl would love it.
“You’re not the boss of me.” she said attempting to grab at the shelf with her 5’6 frame.
“If you can grab it. You can wear it…I guess.” I replied rolling my eyes at her persistence to wear the tiny piece of clothing.
Did she have any idea what Axl would do if he saw her in the dress?
All of his self control would go out the door and into Maddy’s panties.
We all arrived an hour late to the gig since Duff got into an argument with Maddy over the tiny black dress and threatened her to change but Maddy didn’t budge so they went at it for another 20 minutes.
I intervened and told Maddy to just wear my jean jacket over it to which Duff agreed and said was a great solution.
“Maddy I better not see you without that jacket at the venue. I’m just trying to protect you from the guys y’know.” Duff sighed, looking at his younger sister who was currently ignoring him at the moment.
“It’s okay man. I’ll look at her.” I said giving Duff a reassuring nod before we all hopped into his car and made our way to the venue.
Slash,Axl and Steven all came together since they lived closer than Duff.
And obviously I didn’t have a place at the moment so I technically lived with Duff.
“I’m so excited to play this gig!” Steven exclaimed twisting his drumsticks in between his fingers and kicking his feet at the table which was provided in the backstage room.
“Same.” Slash replied chugging down the bottle of Jack Daniel while taking a few drags of his cigarette.
I couldn’t tell where he was looking since his shades were completely covering his eyes and his hat hid most of his upper forehead, hiding any expressions.
But I could see him smiling and giggling to Axl about something, and Axl was looking directly towards Maddy.
“Is something the matter guys?” I asked, my tone visibly bitter as I give Axl a stern look.
Axl then turned towards me with the opposite expression of which he displayed just a few seconds ago and raised his eyebrows a bit.
“Why?” he rudely asked smoking his cigarette and blowing the smoke in my face.
“Fuck off with that shit.” I told him, mostly annoyed by the smoke in my face but also wanting him to back off from Maddy who was completely clueless in what was going on.
“You’re not her daddy Izzy. She can do as she pleases.” Axl smirked getting up from the couch to give some stray groupies autographs.
Maddy sat at the floor since we all took up the couch, I had insisted for her to sit on my lap but she said she was more comfortable on the floor at my knees, I didn’t mind since I got to play with her hair while we did interviews.
Which was a big stress reliever.
I loved having her around during press interviews since I hated fucking speaking to them because all they wanted to know was bullshit personal questions instead of the real discussion, which was music.
“Iz. I have to pee.” Maddy whispered getting up slowly so her dress didn’t ride up.
I was still kind of mad at her for wearing the dress but when she stood up the dress straightened out enough for the jean jacket to cover her ass.
“Will you be okay alone baby?” I asked, since she hadn’t been to the Troubadour before, I wanted to make sure she was comfortable because there were always creeps at some of our shows who preyed on the girls that would come.
She softly declined and gave me a peck on the cheek as I snuck in a quick ass grab when she was bended over to which Duff gave me a sour look.
“Sorry man. Your sis is hot.” I shrugged lighting up a cigarette.
“Gross dude! Just do that shit when I’m not around.” Duff frowned.
“BOYS! WE ARE ON IN 10 MINUTES!” our manager yelled repeatedly slapping his wrist with his pointer finger.
“Can you yell any louder.” Slash mumbled slumping down into the couch with his bottle of Jack Daniel’s which was now empty.
“You didn’t save any for me. Fuck you man!” I whined grabbing the empty bottle and throwing it at the floor.
Slash and Steven burst out laughing while our manager came to calm their drunk asses down.
Maddy P.O.V
I swerved through the crowd of people who were starting to gather in clusters backstage.
And weaved my way out, desperately trying to locate the women’s room when I ran into Axl with his arm around some random girl.
“Maddy?” he called out,looking at me rather confused.
“I- I’m looking for the bathroom. Have you seen it?” I asked looking both at him and the girl.
“Yeah. I’ll show you.” he replied shrugging off the girl and walking me towards the restrooms.
“Who was that?” I asked looking at him with curious eyes.
I always heard stories about the groupies and how they played with different bands but it was pretty surreal to see it happen in real life.
“Just some girl who likes our music.” he smirked stopping right besides the door to the women’s room.
He walked me into the back of the wall and put his arm up to lean in front of my body.
“I’d like this dress much better without Izzy’s jacket.” he whispered tugging the jean jacket off one shoulder, leaving my right collarbone exposed.
I was wearing an off the shoulder black dress that stopped right below my ass.
It wasn’t something I would ever wear but I found it when I was cleaning and I figured it was left behind by some groupie so I washed it and wore it to look grown up since all the dresses I brought from home were frilly and floral.
And the girls here dressed so different so when I saw the dress it immediately screamed L.A.
“What if I took it off.” he said, not giving me a chance to think, swiftly pulling the jacket off and onto the floor exposing my figure.
“You look so good. Better than all of the girls here.” he gently murmured placing his pointer finger under my chin to direct my gaze on his eyes instead of his feet.
“Stop it Axl. I’m with Izzy.” I mumbled breathing with how close he was to me.
It was almost uncomfortable knowing he could see all of me, since my jacket wasn’t covering me anymore.
He reached for my thigh and started tracing small circles on it, inching closer towards the end of my dress, tugging it up lightly until he exposed half of my panties which were black to match my dress.
“W-wait stop. I can’t I love-
“Izzy. Yeah I get it.” he huffed letting go of me.
“Maddy?”
“Izzy?” I squinted wondering if it was really him or if I was hallucinating.
“I go to look for you to make sure you’re safe and I find you with him.And my jacket is around your feet?” he hissed grabbing his jacket with such force I almost stumbled on my heels.
“It’s not what it looks like I swear. H-he was just helping me found the restroom Iz!” I cried pushing Axl out of the way and following Izzy like a lost puppy.
“I can’t do this right now. Not when I’m about to preform with him.” he spat walking away from me briskly.
I looked back at Axl who was quiet, almost like he was still processing the situation.
“We can’t be together-
“Why. Why not?” he asked walking up to me with wide eyes.
“I-I can’t answer that.”