Hope Is A Skill

Your headcanons are amazing! Could you please do some about fem!master bringing Enkidu, who's been with them since Orleans, to the Babylonia singularity and meeting CasGil? How would their relationship go? And how it would affect wise king's attitude towards the master? Maybe trio interactions (I'm sorry if it's too specific)

note: im so sorry for being late anon :< was preoccupied but i hope you like this one as well! it will turn angst though nyehehe. I deliberately left it to be read as platonic or romantic

Gilkidu and Fem!Master headcanons

♡ Once Enkidu receives the news of a Babylonia singularity, he would have mixed emotions as he would be going back to his homeland yet it isn't his own, although he wouldn't show it outwardly.

♡ His master, who has been close to Enkidu would notice it even at the start as she knows Enkidu, so she would ask him about it.

"It is nothing of concern, Master." Enkidu says with a smile, trying to reassure her, "I had simply had thoughts regarding my past, but I assure you, it would be fine."

♡ With that, his master turns back with a sigh, often trying to make Enkidu ease but until realizing she could trust him with his own feelings and lets it be until he wants to be open with her regarding the matter.

♡ On the day of the rayshift, the two bravely face it and sooner or later encounter Ishtar (and therefore bonking her abit) and Caster Gilgamesh yet Enkidu is quickly faced with a problem upon them entering the singularity.

"There is someone who is the same as me, Master."

♡ While neither of them had understood it at first, it was obvious when they had spotted a being using chains as a weapon as well as the general confusion of the citizens and Ishtar herself upon seeing Enkidu, mistaking him for Kingu, who was an enemy.

♡ The master and Enkidu himself tries to reassure everyone that they aren't enemies and demonstrate Enkidu's personality differences from the more battle-hungry Kingu.

♡ As for King Gil, his affections for his friend will not overrule the priorities he has which is - keeping Babylonia safe. However, he will entertain you more as a form of respect for his only friend.

♡ Because of this as well, Gilgamesh sticks by you and Enkidu's side, making excuses and bringing Siduri a headache. Whether if its pushing back monsters or helping the people do chores, Gilgamesh would use it.

♡ Battles would also be followed by a more grand victory celebrations as per Gilgamesh's orders. Wine and good food would be passed around alighting you and the others servants' will to fight - to help the people, with you, Gil and Enkidu always being the last ones left.

♡ It is likely that Gilgamesh would be more open to you as you bought his real bestfriend back. Kingu would be much more aggressive in killing, you, the female master as Enkidu's existence makes his life null.

♡ This results in much more harder fights, with the master being pushed to the brim as she seems people drop lifeless easily as if they never mattered. However with Enkidu and Gil supporting you, you gain your senses to be able to fight back and defeat tiamat.

— Carol Rifka Brunt in Tell The Wolves I'm Home

Since your blog name mentions them I am legally obligated to ask you to share your Enkidu headcanons. Tell me about the cute clay enby. *Tell me.*

I am an enkidufanboy after all so here's some thoughts;

As a servant, Enkidu's base form is that of a clay monster and they are using their transformative abilities to keep up their humanoid form; if hit with a spell that would disable/limit their transform ability, they'd revert to their monstrous form.

Even if Gilgamesh refuses to meet them at some point, they have unwavering faith in him, so they have no worries about their friendship.

They love to be pushed to their limits during a fight and they rarely back down from a challenge; not because they're prideful but because they're curious to see what it would lead. Under the right circumstances, they'd probably even dismiss their Master to keep on fighting.

Enkidu likes humans, but doesn't see them as their kin, they will protect humanity and walk alongside it, but they see themselves outside of them (not too dissimilar from Qin Shi Huang). Thus they feel a bit more relieved to be around other non-humans and non-gods.

Enkidu is neutral towards Ishtar only during pride when she's being an ally. Outside of that, it's goddess hunting season.

especially after the events of olympus it is paramount that fgo players understand that they are not above the narrative, and the story’s antagonists will never be as cartoonish and one-dimensional as they might think they are. their motivations, their thoughts, and their goals will always be more complex than the most surface level reading, and often you will not know what they are right away. passing judgment upon them is stupid, the decisions they’ve made come from far more gray and far less lenient circumstances. it’s always been that way. you are not immune to making those same choices. that’s the point. from the earliest days of the fate series, way back during the original vn era, one of the most compelling and prevalent ideas within the story was you might have something in common with your worst enemy. you might have also walked down their path had your roles been reversed. you cannot say you could have objectively done better or worse simply because you have the benefit of hindsight and because your experiences were different. shit, ubw smacks you on the head with this by making its main protagonist and main antagonist the same fucking person.

this is especially evident with the crypters. everyone wants to brand them as insecure, jealous, holier-than-thou mass murderers. this is disproven as early as lostbelt 1. kadoc didn’t take part in the bleaching of the earth’s surface. he says explicitly that when he woke up from cryostasis, the world had already been bleached. he wasn’t truly jealous of you, he was taking out the trauma of being denied a purpose and then dying out on someone like him. had guda been in his position, they would’ve reacted the same. he cools off in lostbelt 2, which is why he is kinder and happy to see your gaze has regained some measure of resolve.

ophelia, akuta, and pepe also reinforce this. none of them took part of the bleaching, and they killed no one. the bleaching was all the alien god. the lostbelts were all the work of the alien god. the only thing here that matters is that the alien god chose wodime as their emissary, and the other crypters were expendable. kirschtaria did not accept this. he would not abandon his friends, his comrades, his family. the choice was to cooperate with the alien god or die. could you have seriously, in all honesty, chosen differently? could you, knowing the entire earth was doomed by a product of its history, honestly have decided to keel over and taken your loved ones down with you? could you look me in the eye with zero bullshit and zero hesitation and tell me to my face you wouldn’t have chosen to cooperate if it meant you had an opportunity to turn things around so none of those billions of deaths were for nothing and the world wouldn’t belong to the being behind that destruction?

the lostbelt competition was a foregone conclusion. everyone knew kirschtaria was going to win, because the contest was designed that way. the alien god only intended for kirschtaria to win, and kirschtaria knew this. which is why he used his connection to the crypters as leverage. the other lostbelts were never meant to survive, they were kirschtaria’s way of keeping the crypters out of the alien god’s watch. that’s why kadoc, pepe, and beryl weren’t killed by kirschtaria when their lostbelts went SNAFU. it is an immensely cruel thing to do to all those worlds and all those lives, yet would you have done differently? if the lives of your loved ones were at stake, if you were being surveilled at all times with a gun to your head ready to pull the trigger at the slightest disobedience, would you have been so reckless as to put the people you cared about in harm’s way? because that’s what kirschtaria’s position was. the alien god was ready to crush kirschtaria’s heart if he broke their contract, and tipping off the crypters that he intended to do so would’ve gotten them all killed.

ultimately, that’s what drives the conflict between chaldea and the crypters. the shared need to survive pitting them against each other. there is no guarantee chaldea can restore proper human history, and wodime could not take that chance when he had a plan of his own and the clear methods with which to accomplish it. a new world, a new humanity, free to make new mistakes and reach new heights, free from the grip of the gods, free from the grip of the systemic forces that plagued not just the lostbelts but proper human history itself.

and i need to stress that the story isn’t trying to justify the deaths (if we can even call them that, in all likelihood) of 7 billion people by trying to say “maybe wodime was right!” what the story is saying is that, if there was a staggering loss of life, what alternative would humanity have to even have hope of moving forward? through lostbelts 1 - 4, you may be helping these worlds die peacefully, but you are still letting them die over the chance that you might restore proper human history. your success is an uncertain inkling, yet you have no choice but to move forward and accrue suffering to make sure NONE of those deaths are in vain. you are not judged for it, because the story knows there is no right or wrong answer to this kind of conflict, and the same principle applies to the crypters.

need i remind you that olympus ends with people being crushed by buildings, abandoning all hope, quivering and perishing in absolute terror as the only world they’ve ever known crumbles around them and the only beings that could save them were killed by your hand and by your order because there was no other way out. it is a gruesome death, an unsightly death. and it is brought about by your actions, and it is a terrible burden. and it is the exact same burden carried by kirschtaria, because he was a member of team A tasked with safeguarding humanity, and he failed. he does not claim that proper human history is full of too many mistakes to salvage because he is above them. he claims so because he also made mistakes in his own limited existence and doesn’t want that for whatever humanity can still exist in the world he means to make.

and you know what? kirschtaria even understands what you’re doing. he is the only one who can. he cannot agree but he understands. which is why he never denies you the opportunity to prove yourself. he opposes you, challenges you, dares you. but he never denies you. he says “you think you can bring back proper human history? prove it. prove you have the conviction necessary to bear it and beat me with it.” and then you do. because he wanted you to, because he believed in you from the very start that you could do it if you set your mind to it because kirschtaria wodime for better or worse believes in mankind, and you do too.

so, tl;dr you and the crypters are the same do not be so arrogant as to pretend you are better than the story and you are the perfect blameless unbiased judge of everything ever because you look really stupid doing that

"I would kill for you. I would die for you" would you take a break for me? Would you sit down and rest? For a day, a week, a year? Would you let others take care of your needs for me? Would you let yourself be held for me? By me?

Cons of having Fae Eyes: You'll never trust anyone. Pros of having Fae Eyes: Every word can be a love confession.

Hello! May I request Enkidu from fgo x fem!master reader who tries hard to convince them that they're a human - not just a doll or a weapon, but a person - and they are so worthy of love (and please love yourself and let me love you already)? From whose perspective is totally up to your inspiration. Fluff or hurt/comfort both work

Hi, hi, this took like a super duper long time, sorry for that! I'm not very sure if this is what you wanted, but here goes nothing.

Masterpost

Human or weapon?

Enkidu is a weapon, nothing but a weapon. He knows and has accepted that a long time ago. He has no likes nor dislikes, no dreams nor hopes. It does not change even when the Babylonia Empire no longer stands, when the Mesopotamia gods are no more.

Even so, the Master that summoned him is so very kind. She constantly looks for him, asking for his likes and dislikes. When he retorts that he is a weapon, that he has no uses for likes and dislikes, she merely smiles.

His Master says that since he has no likes nor dislikes, they should find some for him instead so she brings him what she likes and watches his reaction. When she starts to run out of things that she likes, he is both grateful and not.

He is determined not to succumb, to remain the weapon that he is and will always be and yet, he fails. The gods would laugh at him if they can see him now, a weapon of the gods, and yet he falls to a single human’s determination.

He continues to repeat that he has no likes nor dislikes, but he cannot help but wonder who he is trying to convince, his Master or himself? Surely himself, because he likes the way his Master smiles, brighter than the sun, he likes it when she laughs, for it is more melodious than a harp, he likes it when she looks for him, trying to get him to try something new in her never-ending quest to get him to finally admit that he likes something.

He dislikes it when she is not by his side, when she spends time with people that aren’t him, when she graces her smile to someone that isn’t him, when she laughs in the company of people that aren’t him. He dislikes it when she is sad, the days that her smiles and laughter does not come as easily as they usually do.

Maybe one day, he will finally confess that to her that she has changed him, for because of her, he now has likes and dislikes.

made a mental illness chart. if anyone cares. snif.