SHE NEEDS TO UNDERSTAND IM NOT INTERESTED

ngl talking with my brothers brought me so much clarity about my life.

I'm lucky to have what I have now.

I won't take the easy way out, because I promised I wouldn't.

i just need to sleep properly, I'll be a little better in the morning.

I've been getting better every day, I just had a bit of a doom mindset tonight.

Won't happen again though.

I cried there three times today. I’m glad you walked in on me actually being productive this time.

So… I didn’t eat again today. I know I said I would but I genuinely didn’t have time this morning and I’m out of money to buy lunch.

I’ll eat something at dinner time I promise

God at this rate I’m gonna be more malnourished then that glowing russian twink/ref

I can promise you that I'll do literally anything to prove I've made improvement.

Despite everything, I still care.

Despite everything, I'm still me.

Despite everything, I'm learning

Being an empath sometimes means knowing what people actually think even when they lie.

i set off an explosive reaction just now didn't i

“I want to strangle them all. I dont want you to ever feel that pain again. This world is so evil to the sweetest of souls.”

What

What

WHAT

She’s obsessive

I’m so conflicted

take time.

don't leave forever, just...

take time.

i don't want to never be able to see you again so just.

take time.

i will

i will take time.

I'll prove I'm better then him.

I won't take any easy way out like when he tried to.

This is where the parallels end.

I haven’t digested anything other then a handful of snacks in the last 48 hours because i lose my breakfast whenever i take my meds, I don’t get lunch money anymore, and I can’t bring myself to eat dinner for some reason.