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nika + asura crumbs …?

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Today is a battlefield, and I am the only soldier. Anxiety, self-doubt, intrusive memories- they all showed up, dragging their sharp edges through my mind.

The magical thinking whispered lies about escape, about fixing everything if I could just be someone else. I’ve been fighting them all day, and now I’m too drained to even think about self-care. Survival may be the only thing I can manage today

by the way, quietly bottling your discomfort with someone and just hoping they'll "get the hint" until you can't take it anymore and then taking it to the nearest moderator isn't "setting a boundary" or "being victimized," it's actually called "being a huge piece of shit" and "expecting people to read your mind."

Sorry about your conflict aversion, but you actually need to tell people when they're making you uncomfortable. like, with explicit, clear, unmistakeable words that don't give you a safe cover of plausible deniability with which you can back out and "still be the good guy." It is kinder to let someone down face-to-face so they can hurt and move on knowing what went wrong than it is to lead someone on and then stab them in the fucking back, you know?

Also, I cannot stress this enough, it is not actually someone else's fault for making you uncomfortable when you literally make a point to lie to them about how much you like them by pretending you're enjoying their company more than you are. That's your fault. That's called making a bed to lie in. Maybe just desperately hoping someone who has already misinterpreted how close they are to you will just happen to pick up on the subtle signs of you desperately hiding your discomfort is, frankly, fucking stupid, and you need to get over yourself and say real words to them instead of getting some third party to punish them for your own inability to communicate.

Sorry this one isn't as nice as my other posts, but some of you need a wake-up slap. Stop fucking burning autistic people and trans women one-by-one because being a coward is easier than being a villain. It's not fucking nice, it's not cute, and the more I see it happen, the less forgivable it gets. Grow the fuck up and change in the scary but necessary ways.

Because it's kinder to tell someone when they're fucking up than it is to let them make the same mistakes in ignorance until you've secretly tallied enough transgressions to safely write them off as unforgivable, and thus disposable. Because I care about you, and everyone else, enough to give you a real chance to actually correct your harmful behaviors by being honest to you about the harm they cause. Because I believe people can make hurtful mistakes while still being genuine unintended mistakes, and that they can change.

Hint, hint.

Look how innocent they looked…. Their whole lives have been robbed for eternity… 😢 💔🌹

For my own reference, the ship name/tag for Sung Hyunje and Han Yoojin in Korean is

현제×유진 or 현제유진

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Silence The Demon in Your Head

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Relaxing Bath Time 🛁🫧📺🐰

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I Love You So-The Walters

They don’t even care enough about you ..

My friend who didn't even reach chapter 400 of TCF asked me why I love ogCale so much ?

I told her every single reason why I love ogCale so much. And I don't love him after reading chapter 656, I have loved him since chapter 1 !

The reasons I loved him before reading chapter 656 are:

His face! He looks like an angel. I started reading TCF after seeing his face!

He never hurts anyone physically.

He hates gangsters and scammers.

He respects women and defends them (according to wiki).

He doesn't create problems for his step family.

He comforted his father after Jour's death (he was between 5-8 years old)

Unlike other 2 faced nobles, he is true to himself.

He isn't greddy for powers or titles.

He never shouted or raised hands at Basen

And the reasons I loved him after reading chapter 656 and side story are:

He understands krsCale so well. He never let any misunderstanding happen when they talked.

His smile is very bright despite what he went through.

He destroyed his reputation for his step family at the age of 8.

He kept acting nonstop for 10-12 years.

He survived 20 years in the middle of the war.

He showed director Mia her/his place. (Director Mia harassed krsCale quite a lot)

He truly wishes krsCale to live happily and peacefully.

He told krsCale how he could avoid being the duke.

He took care of krsCale' responsibility despite the fact that he can easily avoid it.

His eyes were shaking when he heard Choi Jung Soo is dead. Means he actually cares about the dead people.

He can do anything for his family and still cares about them.

He didn't insult Harris villagers because he is a heartless person, but rather, he was also hurt (It's not justification but explanation)

Because of him, krsCale now fully accepted his new identity.

He is very elegant and noble-like.

But when it's needed, he becomes a a cool trash.

Most importantly, he let krsCale dig his mom' grave and let krsCale have Jour' power.

All of the TCF characters are tragic. Like KRS, Choi Han, Raon, Alberu, Mary and everyone else.

But I can relate with ogCale more than I can with anyone else.

He lost his mother at the age of 5-8. Instead of mourning himself, he comforted his father. Then when his step family came, instead of creating problems for them, he destroyed his reputation for them. He also kept his distance from his family for their own shake despite the fact that he loves them dearly . He also gave up his birth right for Basen.

Despite doing so much for everyone around him, he lost his family. Instead of hiding from the war, he participated in the war to avenge his family. He knew he could die but he still kept fighting.

Then after doing so much, he agreed to let his place taken by a stranger. When everyone got a second chance, he didn't get any. When everyone forgot all the pain they suffer in the 1st timeline, he still remembers it.

It would be easy to do so when his family was dead. But now that he knows they are alive, isn't it pure torture that he can't meet with them?

Maybe he wished for a very long time so that his family would come back alive. Now that they are alive, he isn't allowed to see them.

Now he is taking care of a unknown child and a team he has no connection with.

He never lived his life for himself.

1st for his father after Jour's death.

Then for his step family.

Then to avenge his family and territory.

Finally, for a his niece and team.

He never lives for his own shake!