Starting To Suspect That I Have Allergies.

I’m looking back at videos trying to explain Jirai Kei and not gonna lie, if I wasn’t a hideous, camera-shy freak, I’d go all out and make my own Jirai Kei essay.

The way that these people talk about Jirai Kei doesn’t feel like it does them justice since they’re into it from a fashion perspective. And I don’t wanna be that person, but if you’re into it purely for the fashion, you might as well call it girly kei since that’s what its fashion aspect of it basically took inspiration from, if not directly took it from (and if you’re a subcul Jirai, emo fashion in Harajuku is a primary visual inspiration).

Jirai isn’t just some edgy term used by Jirais to look cool and like some sort of anime menhera archetype. It was an actual insult used by people(usually men) in Japan to describe girls who are basically ticking time bombs. This is just Jirais reclaiming the term the same way Emos had reclaimed their name(Emo was an insult in the early 2000s).

I call myself Jirai because I understand this as someone who was often called overdramatic and too emotional, and feel a sense of power from it. Yes, I’m not Japanese, but there’s a reason that some Japanese subcultures have terms for participants outside of Japan(Ex. Gaijin Gyaru). It doesn’t have to be exclusive.

In conclusion, to quote a Reddit that I found, “I don’t think people(especially fashion Jirais) understand the implications of being called a Jirai.

You and me both.

i hate people

Shit I forgot also kin this bitch.

♡Kinlist♡

Feel free to judge me based on who I kin/kith/kinsider. XD

These aren’t in any particular order except for the very top one.

Also disclaimer I am very aware that some of these characters are very morally ambiguous. Just because I kin/kith/kinsider a character doesn’t mean that I exhibit their morals.

Anywho, here they are!

♡Kin: Ame-Chan(Needy Streamer Overload)

♡Kin: Aubrey(Omori)

♡Kin: Stocking Anarchy(Panty & Stocking)

♡Kin: Kotoko Utsugi(Danganronpa)

♡Kin: Konata Izumi(Lucky Star)

♡Kith: Shadow the Hedgehog(Sonic the Hedgehog)

♡Kith: Riamu Yumemi(iDOLM@STER)

♡Kin: Lain Iwakura(Serial Experiments Lain)

♡Kinsidering: Fluttershy(My Little Pony)

♡Kinsidering: Satou Matsuzaka(Happy Sugar Life)

bird like wings or wings made of nature

halos or horns

warrior or scribe

gardens or clouds

singing or playing

armor or soft linen

sword or quill

heaven or earth

god or gods

pearls or gold

human form or true nature

possessing a vessel or being born with it

creating life or destroying life

church or altar at home

worship or be worshipped

pray or answer prayers

rebel or remain

tag game this or that. angelkin edition

bird like wings or wings made of nature (fire, thunder,light)

halos or horns

warrior or scribe

gardens or clouds

singing or playing

armor or soft linen

sword or quill

heaven or earth

god or gods

pearls or gold

human form or true nature

possessing a vessel or being born with it

creating life or destroying life

church or altar at home

worship or be worshipped

pray or answer prayers

rebel or remain

tag: anyone that comes across this

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100+ Notes already, huh?

Thanks, y’all!

Fuck Gyaru vs Jirai discourse I want a cute Gyaru at my door in 10 seconds and if that doesn’t happen I’m gonna throw a fit.

I don’t have the biggest following ever BUT I have been getting a lot more attention recently..

Fuck it. Gonna take a shot in the dark and see what happens.

Feel free to ask me any of these :3

Nosy Anons (Jirai Kei Edition)

Reblog this post to let your lovely anons ask you any of these questions!

1: When did you first learn about Jirai Kei? 2: What is you Jirai Kei Unpopular Opinion? 3: What type of music do you like? 4: Do you have any Jirai Kei-esque or general characters you relate to/like? 5: What other styles beside Jirai Kei are you interested in? 6: If you could make an ita bag for any character, who would it be and why? 7: Bright Pastels or Dark Pastels? 8: What is Jirai Kei to you? 9: What made you decide to identify as a lifestyle Jirai Kei? 10: Do you use any creative outlets (drawing, writing, etc) to express yourself? 11: Did you have an emo phase and what was it like? 12: Are you apart of the LGBTQ community (if you're comfortable sharing)? 13: What healthy coping mechanisms do you use? 14: Favorite anime? 15: Favorite game? 16: Are you in a relationship or crushing on anyone? 17: Are you okay with fashion only jirai kei? 18: What are your favorite childhood tv shows and games? 19: Who would be on your "hear me out" cake? 20: What is your funniest memory on the internet? 21: Favorite old internet meme? 22: When was the first time you were on the interenet? 23: Favorite fanfiction or fiction tropes? 24: What is your biggest Jirai Kei pet peeve? 25: Jirai Kei culture is... 26: Who is your biggest inspiration/someone you admire? 27: Favorite media platform? 28: If you could only listen to one song for the rest of your life, which song would you pick? 29: What is a random fact about yourself? 30: What are two truths and a lie about yourself?

Just doing this to project my thoughts(as if that wasn’t the point of this whole ass blog).

I recently started thinking that I may be some form of dollkin. I used to identify as dollhearted/kith but I didn’t resonate with the term so I dropped it.

I made a little side note about why I feel a stronger sense of connection to dolls and why I lowkey wish I was one. I decided to take a look into porcelain dolls specifically because I didn’t really feel anything for other types of dolls. One of the notes I took down was that I always felt connected to vintage imagery and objects and like I was meant to be in a time that was not the time I actually was born in. Porcelain dolls are hella vintage and usually associated with elegance and the upper class of the time it was produced(1800s). I identify heavily with things associated with purity and elegance and all that jazz. That shit’s like peak gender to me among other things.

I know that otherkin identities are meant to be personal and so the experiences will also be personalized, but maybe if I hear the experiences of someone who is dollkin that’ll give me an idea of where I align.

Soooo….. PLEASE HELP!!!

Hey so sorry about my week or so absence.

The truth is that I was in a mental state of absolute limbo. I was so depressed and generally low energy that I lost a lot of motivation to do literally anything.

I stopped talking to people, barely went out or payed attention in classes, and kinda abandoned the blog as a product of my growing apathy towards… well everything.

Although I do feel better now(somewhat), I do feel very guilty. Not only will I probably fail most of my classes, but I feel like I’m just driving a wedge in all of my relationships to where I feel like I don’t have any connection or attachment to them anymore.

But hey. At least I got my monster energy. 🤷‍♀️