Octiainyourpocket - A Deep-frozen Pocket-worm

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it has been a while since the last maia tits post

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So there are people out there who have a consistent mood for most of the day? My mood changes every other 5 minutes at any slight inconvenience.

When will y’all learn

People, especially games, get eldritch madness wrong a lot and it’s really such a shame.

An ant doesn’t start babbling when they see a circuit board. They find it strange, to them it is a landscape of strange angles and humming monoliths. They may be scared, but that is not madness.

Madness comes when the ant, for a moment, can see as a human does.

It understands those markings are words, symbols with meaning, like a pheromone but infinitely more complex. It can travel unimaginable distances, to lands unlike anything it has seen before. It knows of mirth, embarrassment, love, concepts unimaginable before this moment, and then…

It’s an ant again.

Echoes of things it cannot comprehend swirl around its mind. It cannot make use of this knowledge, but it still remembers. How is it supposed to return to its life? The more the ant saw the harder it is for it to forget. It needs to see it again, understand again. It will do anything to show others, to show itself, nothing else in this tiny world matters.

This is madness.

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Do you have ADHD? Well, may I suggest that you do The Thing right fucking now?

So, I have pretty crippling ADHD to the point that I can't think of a single aspect of my life it hasn't influenced. I also have a shiny medical diagnosis and have since I was seven. I'm in my 30s now. Yet in all that time, with 20+ years of therapy, lots of different meds, and a shit ton of the "why can't you just______" thrown at me by family and authority figures, it wasn't until recently that I truly grasped what time blindness means for me, an ADHD sufferer (yes I am going with sufferer cuz it makes me fucking suffer) in daily life. There's no Later with ADHD. If you know anything about ADHD, you know there's really only things that have happened, what's happening, and an idea of things you want to do with no concrete reality of future things.

And there's lots of cute things you can do to try and fight this. Lists, alarms, clacky bracelets with tasks on them. But all of these things imply that I, the ADHD sufferer, have enough executive functioning to remember to do them. Guess what? I don't. I have next to nothing and I'm lurching from impulse to impulse like a drug addict stumlbing towards a hit. Now, why's this matter? Because sometimes, there's an impulse to Do The Thing that is an actual responsible thing - pick something up off the floor, wash a dish, run an errand, feed a pet, anything even remotely responsible really - just like the impulse to go get a snack or to watch just one more episode of that show that's holding me hostage.

And before I really admitted to myself that my ADHD was a fucking disability and that I was suffering, I'd feel that impulse and go "oh, that's good, I'll do it in a minute" and it would never ever get done. Now? Now I understand, that minute is NEVER coming. It's never going to happen because there is NO SUCH THING as Later for me as an ADHD person. There's only the impulse.

So what have I started to do? Well, it sucks and I hate it but I've started treating the responsible impulses like the candy/tv/fanfic/"ooh shiny" impulse as in a thing I must feed my nervous system the SECOND it happens. No wait, only do. And the thing is, once I started doing that, treating every responsible impulse with absolute immediacy because I had 100% accepted that Later does not exist, yall, shit started getting done. My room started being cleaner, the dishes started getting put away, my laundry started getting done. It was getting done in huge bursts at 2am but it was getting done because I had the thought and went "okay I'll do The Thing right the fuck now." Pausing loses momentum nothing's worse to an ADHD brain than lost momentum.

Of course, NTs tend to want you to do stuff on their schedule, their way. That's a problem of its own so to facilitate this coping mechanism I had to learn to say to the people around me "whatever it is you are asking of me will have to wait until I finish THIS TASK because if I dont see it through, it will NEVER get finished" when following through on the impulse to Do The Thing Right the Fuck Now. Because it won't. If I lose flow, that's it. It's all over. Even writing this post. I had the idea, and now I'm writing it. If I stop it'll be gone. It's a fucking superpower really, both great and terrible. The thing is that harnessing it takes some willingness and an acceptance that us ADHDs do not and will not EVER function in the time stream like other people and a willingness to say so.

Right the Fuck Now belongs to the ADHDs. It's really the only concept of time we truly have. No reason not to fucking use it.