Do Not Want, Simply Choose

Hiii I'm starting my manifesting journey again. I'm discovering stuff like states, fulfillment in imagination etc recently. My primary desire rn is to go to a med school in my country. Due to some medical issues, I wasn't able to study much these past 2 years. I need to crack an entrance exam for entering into med school.

So what should I do? If you were in my place... what would you have done? Like there's a specific cut off we need to cross to get into medical school....so should I imagine getting such marks , or should I go directly to the end...just being a doctor.

i'd go directly to the end of being in med school! completely forget about all the requirements you "don't meet," because now you DO meet them in your 4D, and you're already in med school anyway so it doesn't matter what the requirements are anymore!

now i'd focus on fulfilling myself in imagination. so, i'd try to think and daydream about things that im excited about doing in med school! maybe you're excited to learn, or to make new friends, or to be away from home! whatever makes you feel most excited about having your desire, i'd dwell on that in my imagination whenever im feeling down or doubtful, and remind myself it's already mine.

any time you think of med school, jump to fulfillment. "it is mine" "it is done" "there's nothing left to worry about" "im glad everything worked out perfectly" !

hope this helps!

Prior to "senses"

"Be mindful not to cling too much onto labels, as attaching 'XYZ' to something doesn't make it real. Of course you can still call your bed a "bed" and your phone a "phone". What we mean is to know that every label and concept is empty by nature and within " ".

Without these labels, you're simply experiencing reality, much like reading these words or breathing, because it's infinite and effortless. What you're seemingly doing because of your uncertainty is jumping between two "illusions":

One is realizing that all is how it should be because "consciousness" always precedes "senses".

The other is thinking there are 83738 reasons as to why that can't be.

If "consciousness" always precedes "senses", then ask yourself, what are you aware of, the seeking "X" or the Knowing "X"? Do you need to look outside of you to know something? Do you need to look outside of you to know you exist?

"Consciousness" precedes "senses"; "consciousness" is "experience".

These two sentences are inseparable."

This is a pointer, not to be taken literally as a Rulebook.

original: Dawa , translated: Koda

I have something to share. I debated making a throwaway or just sending it to one of 4dbarbie's backups but I settled on this because I just was too impatient to share

---Backstory: I've been patiently applying all that I've learned from 4dbarbie's asks and letting go of chunks of the ego mind---

Today, while at the beach with my group of friends, I realized that I was still somewhat stuck. I let go of big parts of what "I" thought I knew, but I still felt like I was missing something to have my realization. If you ask why I was thinking about that at the beach, there has been nothing on my mind aside from realizing my self since I discovered it. Nothing interested me more than this.

---Disclaimer because I'm sure I was only able to do this because of how free my mind was and what is now cannot be compared to the way my brain worked months ago---

So you can have a mental picture, we were all on the beach, some of us, mostly the girls, were sat on our towels. Conversation was going on around me and I was nodding but my mind was elsewhere. I was thinking what could I do to prove it to myself not only that I understood but that I can apply it.

So while on the beach, I was thinking... what seemingly impossible thing could I do to prove I can do it. Gee, an appearance change in the moment, that's pretty "hard", isn't it? So I decided on that. I didn't want to be something small like change my hair color, but completely change my face so that I can show I can. If I couldn't, so be it, I would continue disbelieving I was this character until I felt even freer. But I still wanted to try.

Because I am not fully realized so I still had some resistance, I thought- what would my ego have the least resistance me looking like? I was looking around the people at the beach trying to pick someone I had no desire to look like, but also no fear of being that person.

---- Backstory again: my original body had bleached blonde hair, tan skin and green eyes-----

So I picked a brunette, pale and with brown eyes. I thought in my head for what a cute brunette would look like, then I leaned back on my towel, closed my eyes and imagined being IT for a few seconds. Again, I didn't care if I succeeded, I just did it.

I didn't sit long like this, after I saw myself looking like that, I sat up again and looked at my reflection in my phone.

I looked exactly like I saw in my head.

I swear to God, I was so panicked- my heart was beating wildly in my chest. I was freaking out so bad internally. I could believe it and couldn't. You know when something shocking happens that ego just can't accept? Yeah, it was like that.

Then, I looked at my friends to see if they would notice any change. I called out to one of my guy friends (who was standing up) to pass me the water so that I could bring attention to myself. He gave it to me no problem, the girls turned to me too when I spoke up and nobody said a thing. I was scared to ask. What was I even supposed to ask? I felt like my mind was breaking.

I stood like that for minutes and nobody said a thing to me about looking different. I'll be honest I was really spooked, my heart was still racing. So I decided to go back to my "original" appearance to see if they say something then.

---The process was the same---

When I stood up this time I did it more confidently, because I didn't feel like I would be caught doing something crazy since everybody knew me as this body. I changed "back" no issue, and nobody said anything. AGAIN. This time I dared ask if I they think I changed somewhat, and they all looked like me like ? what do you mean?

My heart was beating again but in a different way. In euphoria, in joy. I still felt like my brain was completely broken but i was so happy I felt like I could fly.

My next instinct was to imagine myself with what used to be my "desired" appearance, I felt like I just gained a superpower I could lose so I had to do everything quickly, before it goes away.

There was no resistance now that I did it once, none at all. I was aware of no impossibility of changing.

We spent two more hours there and I felt more alive in my new body than ever. It was like the whole world opened to me.

On the way home, while I was in the car (one of the guys was driving) I felt like I now had the time and opportunity to imagine again. I was relaxed, and just daydreaming, but in the present. Just imagining myself with everything I wanted with no expectation.

...and they all came extremely quickly. They didn't spawn but some I got in the most bizarre of ways, Ways in which my ego could have never thought of receiving them. And everything I imagined happened until the end of the day. It's night now when I'm writing this and I'm getting ready to sleep, thinking of things to "wake up to".

Now I know a lot of people aren't going to believe me, but that is really not my problem. I am still processing it myself to be honest. I don't even know how to go forward with all this "power".

Anyway, you truly imagine everything and everything is in your mind. Including other people. No one exists without you, including the body.

I already have an idea for what to do tomorrow and it's to try and be invisible.

I'm thinking of what else could be really important to say so others can also do it... the lack of doubts? Or me not thinking of it being impossible rather? Having it in the back of my head always that the only real thing is ME? Everything I learned I learned from the 4dbarbie account, I didn't read any books because I don't like reading.

Lastly, just try without expectations of it not working. Accept it could not but still do it, if it doesn't now it may in the future, all depending on your ability to let of of the reality of the body and seeing your real Self.

I think that's it, PEACE OUT :)

Finally posting this one as well... sorry I left you hanging for so long 😭😭😭

Wish you well!! Continue to have fun in the dream ♡

If everything is meaningless and this is a dream, why are you still continuing living then? Why don’t we all crawl up in a hole and die since everything is an “illusion”

You're misunderstanding what's being said. This isn't about a real person living in a fake world — it's not "me the real person" vs. "the illusion out there." That’s not it at all. That entire split is already a misperception.

You are not the one experiencing the illusion. You are the Knowing itself — not-knowing conceptually, but the raw, direct Seeing. That’s the only thing not appearing and disappearing. It's not something to believe in or debate. It’s to be noticed, directly.

Neither “you,” nor “me,” nor the world — not any idea, label, or form — is the Actuality being pointed to. When I say You are Actuality, I’m not speaking about a body, a person, or any mental concept. I’m referring to the constant, silent, untouched Beingness — the Is-ness that exists before and without name, image, or thought. That’s what’s always here, never born, never leaving. That has always been here — before any idea of “me” or “you” ever arose.

Also: people seriously misinterpret the words illusory and meaningless — assuming they imply something negative, depressing, or empty in a hopeless way. That’s just not it. That’s not what these words mean in this context.

When something is called illusory, it means it’s not solid, not permanent — like a dream, or a mirage. It appears, but it has no independent, lasting existence and relies on "Awareness/Knowing" to be perceived. That doesn’t mean it’s “bad” or that it shouldn’t appear. It’s just seen for what it is — a fleeting expression of something that doesn’t need form to be.

And when we say meaningless, it doesn’t mean sad or pointless. It means: it has no fixed, pre-given meaning unless one is assigned. Like pure open space — no labels, no judgment, no category, no good/bad, right/wrong. It just is, undefined. That freedom is what most people miss — because they think “meaningless” equals despair. But that only comes from assuming the person is real and now floating in some empty shell. But that “person” is part of the illusion too.

This isn’t about crawling in a hole because “life is meaningless.” That reaction comes from misidentifying with the one who experiences the illusion. But that “experiencer” is a mirage. The only constant is the silent Knowing — not a knower, not a thinker, but Knowing itself, unshaped, untouched. Noticing that is what ends the confusion. Nothing needs to be changed, added, or removed. Just seen.

So, Should I just keep assuming that I don't desire it anymore because I already have it while I'm denying n dismissing my senses? The thing is this thought, puts me in a place of waiting. Even though, I'm saying I have it, denying the 3D is making me feel like waiting. I know being delusional is good enough, but my human body still needs it.

Do you think I'm giving attention to the wrong thing? Contemplating everything too much?

I just wanna get rid of this waiting feeling. Everyone is saying, it is done, but I don't think I understand what they truly meant when they say it.

I'm sorry if my English is bad, I'm not a native speaker.

Anyway, thank u for taking ur time and answering this q 🩶

I don't teach to do anything to the 3D, not even deny it.

Not seeing the world as it is, is an aversion to it. - Lester Levenson

Your 3D is right and perfect, what you see is what you are so even if you're seeing what 'you' don't want, the 3D is not wrong in being what it is. Fearing it, trying to manipulate it, lying to yourself about it being something different - all useless and vain attempts.

See it as it is and it will fix itself.

And no, being delusional is not good, it leads you not to trust your own judgmenet OR senses. Which is not right, why shouldn't you? What is wrong with your vision? Being delusional from your ego self is really harmful, someone could be abusing you and you would go "i'm sure that's not right he loves me so much in my 4D!!!"

You won't be able to get rid of the waiting feeling as long as you're identified with your ego, it can manipulate nothing. And if you weren't your ego -- everything would already be materialized, so there would be nothing to wait for.

“Health, wealth, beauty and genius are not created; they are only manifested by the arrangement of your mind – that is, by your concept of yourself [and your concept of yourself is all that you accept and consent to as true. What you consent to can only be discovered by an uncritical observation of your reactions to life. Your reactions reveal where you live psychologically; and where you live psychologically determines how you live here in the outer visible world].”

—Neville Goddard, The Power of Awareness Chapter 2, (1952)

hello i;m this anon. it was just my stream of consciousness, more like my daily thought. but I believe no one needs to be disciplined/motivated, we need more love. the idea of needing to stay disciplined/motivated comes from ego I believe. we're conditioning states. "in order to stay in this state, i must stay disciplined and motivated" this is a self-imposed condition. but states are unconditional. imagination is totally unconditional. we believe we need self-discipline because we don't know who we really are-not just this garment(body) we're wearing, but god. just like how we don't need to stay disciplined to eat our favorite food or to watch a favorite tv show, or to spend time with someone you're in love with or to listen to your favorite playlist. when you do things out of love, you don't need discipline or motivation and you lose yourself in the moment while being present. but because we're so used to the "no pain no gain" mindset, we believe in order to achieve something, even if it's through "manifesting", we need self discipline when in reality, we just need to fall love.

neville spoke about it here and there too. we must fall in love with the state we want to be in. we must fall in love with the version of ourselves that we want to be. from my experience, when I push myself to be disciplined, I easily waver and fall back. but when I simply yield and fall in love with my imagination and state as if I'm falling in love with someone, it becomes incredibly effortless. persisting feels like hell when I push myself to be disciplined. persisting feels like heaven when I'm in love.

and not just manifesting. like i don't want to stay disciplined to do my skin care routine. i want to fall in love with doing it and simply enjoy it. if you're in love with your profession and what you're doing in life, you'll more likely to succeed because you're in love. love is so powerful and I'm not speaking of just romantic love.

loving and caring mothers don't need to stay disciplined to hold their new born babies and kiss them. they do it out of love. discipline and motivation come from trying to achieve something when there is nothing to "achieve" because creation is finished. humans need discipline because we're constantly trying to make something happen but god is infinite love. and you are god so just fall in love with your desired states.

when I first fell in love with my imagination, it happened unconsciously but manifesting was so easy. I was so in love with the state of the wish fulfilled, I just couldn't gaf about what was going on in the 3d. I loved my imagination so much that I couldn't help but live in the end. that's when I realized that I didn't need to be hard on myself to live in the end, I needed love. I needed to fall in love with my imagination. this is just my experience and thought

This is... beautiful, and amazing. I couldn't have said it any better. Thank you so much for sharing <3

The major steps are first, becoming aware of the fact that we are master over matter (and matter includes the body). Then, the second major step is becoming master over mind. And when we become really masterful over mind we are able to and we do let go of mind and operate in the realm of omniscience, in the realm of knowingness. Then we are fully aware of the infinite Being that we are, and are in the ultimate Happiness. We should start with the first step, consciously controlling matter. Whether we are aware of it or not, everyone is controlling matter all the time. Whether one wants to be a demonstrator or not, he is. It is impossible to not be a creator all the time. Everyone is creating every day. We are not aware of it because we just don't look at it. We have demonstrated or created everything we have! Every thought, every single thought, materializes in the physical world. It's impossible to have a thought that will not materialize (except that we reverse it). If we think the opposite right after we have a thought, with equal strength, we neutralize it.

So this thing of demonstration that we are all trying so hard to accomplish, we are doing all the time, unconscious of the fact that we're doing it.

You are a creator, so long as you have a mind and think.

━ these were all Lester's words.

Predicting the Q&A that will follow and answering you these.

Q: Does that mean if I think my dog died my dog will die???

Ada: Did you take that thought to be true? What reason would you have to suddenly believe your dog is dead? No, thought materializes when it's absolute, that is when you think "My fridge is in the kitchen", you have no doubts or questions coming along with that, it's a statement you take as real. You think your fridge is in the kitchen, and so it is. You have no feelings regarding that, it is just a statement, it is just reality.

Q: Okay then, how do I make reality of me being Lara?

Ada: This is why I insist to see you aren't either. You can't let go of Vanessa now because you think you are her. Can you think of your fridge being in the living room while you're convinced it is in the kitchen? You don't even allow yourself to, if that thought comes into being - you brush it off, you can't take it for a possibility because you know the fridge is in the kitchen. If you really thought you were Lara, the way you think your fridge is in the kitchen, then that would be materialized with no question. Do you ask questions about Vanessa being materialized? No, she is. No questions asked. You may have all these big feelings about her, but she is because you think so so strongly in the first place, you never allowed yourself to doubt it. Stop thinking it is so and see. what. happens. This is why I insist on equal-mindedness toward all bodies/persons, because then you can just pick and have it be so instantly. Now you don't pick because you go back to dealing with all of Vanessa's baggage, because you think she is the All, the background, the source - and you need to work with that, change her thinking to change her reality. There's this have to, have to, have to━you can't let go of. But Self is not Vanessa.

Being your Self is having all the fridges floating in space, picking one and placing the fridge wherever you want with a thought.

Revert to your natural state and have any thought be absolute the way Vanessa in this moment is to you absolute.

How do I stop worrying once I set the intention that I am experiencing something else? Doubts are constant and I can’t seem to stop them. I’m just worried I won’t get it

So what I need you first to realize is that, you aren’t setting an intention, and certainly not setting an intention to experience something “later on”. The realization of ANYTHING quite literally is the experience. I need you to recognize that nothing inherently has any meaning. When you strip labels from feelings and emotions they just remain as “sensations”. Try saying what a bad or good feeling is without describing it as a good or bad. It just is a sensation right? Right, so please start viewing it as what it really is. I truly understand how debilitating it can feel, however, if you truly wish to see past the hollow, weak illusions, you must start viewing everything as it TRULY is, not as it seems from the surface level.

There is no getting, desiring, wanting, these are labels made by this illusionary self who strives and relishes in goal, in journey, in doing. Without all these things the sense of self really has no purpose, look further into this. Who desires, who wants, who needs? Certainly not god, certainly not the true “ “ that is.

I’m not just telling you guys another technique or manifesting method, guys this is in reality what we are. The existence of all that is and appears to be is what we are. Your God, your “ “, your everything, how can you possibly crave when you are it.

Falsely identifying as the self and as the person, there will always be journey, there will always be an end goal, that never seems to be reached. When you experience that thing what happens? Another desire, need, journey appears, because as the self, nothing will actually be enough. (Trust me I know). Self exists for the illusionary experience. It’s literally the only purpose of it. Now I’m not in any way telling you to sit in misery and not be happy and live a dream life, but I want you to understand, it’s always going to seem like a never ending cycle of desiring if the only appearance you hold as real is self. Instead of the infinity you exist as.

This infinity you are tricks itself into being a limited self, a separate self. Recognize yourself again. You as it all is instant “manifestation”

Recognition of an experience is the experience, there’s nothing to chase

I’m telling you, your all of existence and appear as the experience, how can you possibly lack anything? There is no you that lacks, YOUR EVERYTHING. $500k? Alright it’s your, congratulations you just received it. Wondering where it is? Don’t you remember it’s you, you have it it’s yours! Relish! Be excited! Be Sad! Do whateveeeerrrr u want!

You are free to feel as you want because a sensation does not change the identity of god!

Just remember that the sensation (feeling) doesn’t dictate anything. Anyways I rambled for a while, take care!! 🥥🌴☀️🫶