Spending The Day Off.

Hi! Ik this will sound weird and ridiculous even after you creating so many posts about things but still I as "Ego" or you can say "Vennessa" is wondering if everything this is real! I always knew about Non- dualism because it's connected to my religion but this all sometimes feels fake , is this all real right?? I feel same about shifting and some out of body things, i always manifest things faster but I do not longer want to do this all , sometimes it makes me obsessed with all methods and things, I have started to observe my thoughts and living in this moment, i was doing all that from long time , it's nice , But as soon this "I'm not this body!" That sounds so much weird to me, and believe me I feel happy with thought of being free, just being everything and no-thing together, But this stupid "Vennessa" that feels like if i won't do anything for her, who's with her? If i am not her then would she would do everything what she needs to do? I worry about all this stupid things because if i have to be stuck with this body and it's not possible then no one but "I" will get all the blame, as someone comes from "LOA 2" community this blame games never stop and I can't even do anything about it without feeling guilty , that "I" couldn't do it or yk...

So in short I'm asking if it's real? Do i have to worry about everything "Vennessa" does and doesn't because in the end "I" am being her, and this body doesn't seem to be disappear or "I" seem to shift it's pov towards just "Being"

Thank you for all blogs because of them atleast I get somewhat idea of what i am supposed to be doing/Being , also you can Yell at me lol 😭 i haven't gotten tough answers lately! Sorry this all is so dumb , i didn't wanted to be sound like ranting random things but this all was in my brain for so long, so i thought maybe you know something already and you had this question from someone already!?

!?! But thank you and lot's of love for everything you do! Sorry again and again for this random questions, and thank you thank you very much for all your blogs, I will slowly learn what I'm doing wrong,or thinking wrong, and you are helping very much! Thank you!

Listen. This is not something for you to believe in. Do you exist? Do you need to believe in your own existence to exist?

What is secondary is existing as something. For that, then, you need belief for it to be real. Of course Vanessa is real to you now, you take her for the truth.

The worries about what will happen to Vanessa... do you worry the same about what will happen with a character from a dream? You just move on with your life after you wake up... If she's not beneficial, why care? It's the attachment, that's all. That's what needs to be let go of. Nothing can happen that you do not want to happen. These fears are so irrational. For something to happen that you don't want to happen you have to give authority to something other than you, for example - the world. If you believe the world is solid and apart from you, then you'll always have to do methods and work at changining it. You will always fear it, and forever try to control it.

I don't want you to feel guilty? I said the opposite, there's nothing to feel guilty about. Worries, fears - are all justified when you are an ego. If Vanessa is a victim of something then I can't tell her that she's not - and this is what I find cruel about loa. The scolding about the 'victim mindset', that mindset might as well be justified, Vanessa could have went through the worst things and her world might really be shit. Changing Vanessa's thinking in a world that is really F'd up is no easy task, it's very hard to recondition your brain as it is, but doing so in the worst enviroment? Ten times harder. I know there were people who succeeded, but not all egos are the same. And to add to an already terrible life the guilt tripping about not doing more or blaming her for being unable to change the thinking is just crude to me. They don't understand what they're working with. That's what they've succeeded with so that's what they're pushing, but it is hard.

It's hard to be an ego, let go of thinking you're Vanessa if you want to hurt less. The attachement is strong, but not impossible to overcome when you're full of love for yourself.

I've said it before, you don't have to convince Vanessa that she's unreal. Just stop taking the thoughts you don't like for truth or reality. There is no convincing involved, it is all letting go... you're holding so tightly onto your ideas now, that's why you can't see their falsity.

“Don’t condemn yourself for the state into which you have fallen. If you don’t like it, move into another.”

Neville Goddard

Take a moment, let these words sink in.

Every moment we inhabit different emotional states. Sometimes we are afraid. Sometimes we feel infused with love. You can choose to dwell in a state that is beneficial to you. Every day I choose to dwell in the knowing that my desires are mine, no matter what. I even tell myself these words out loud when I feel a need to.

Often I just say the word, “Unconditionally.” Because, every part of me – and every part of the universe already knows exactly what I want, and there really is no need to micromanage, unless I really, really want to.

When I see something I don’t like, I allow myself to feel whatever arises because I’m not afraid that my emotions will doom me to some horrible manifestation. I know that I am God, and so there is nothing to fear, not even fear itself. As I remember to Remember who I am, I find comfort in knowing that I am safe. I am whole, and that is true no matter what imperfections my sharp mind can detect.

I no longer allow anything to step between me and my relationship with myself. When nothing is allowed to come between my unending love and loyalty to myself – not even self-loathing – this can be referred to as embodying the state of divine unconditional love: the Godself. A god is always on her own side. She never beats herself up for anything.

It is important to remember that all emotions are only passing states of being. Just as the sun rises and throws Earth into a state of light, then falls to put Earth into a state of darkness, our states are fleeting. In fact, our states say very little about who we truly are. They can be helpful, and they can be unhelpful. The only thing that every state has in common is its impermanence.

If we choose to, we can consciously select to live within the state of the wish fulfilled. This means that we feel safe, secure, no matter the circumstances. Feeling safe also means that we can feel whatever we feel without being punished for it. So, the state that I choose to dwell in every day is knowing that all my desires are already mine and granted to me. I choose to dwell in the state of safety. This does not mean that I do not feel worry or concern. It means that my predominant state is one of safety, and of knowing that my desires are mine no matter what.

When ‘bad’ feelings arise, I remember that I’m merely visiting this state for a few fleeting moments. Sometimes this moment passes in a second, other times the moment can stretch into minutes, hours and days, and that’s okay. It’s only a state, and I’m not bothered by it because I know that it cannot intervene in my receiving of my desires. It might be uncomfortable, yes, but it has no power over my life and manifestations. I–the I that I AM—My GODSELF– remain unmoved from within. Like an enormous mountain that is unmoved by a gust of wind (temporary states). My true self is GOD.

When difficult emotions arise within you remember this: No matter how dark you go, or how painful it is it cannot stop you from manifesting and living the fulfillment of your desires. Let go of your fears of negativity right now. Letting go of the fear is the same as accepting it is there. Like Bruce Almighty, you can scream, “Smite me almighty smiter!” because you know that nothing that could ever happen you can destroy you, or get in the way of your desire. So why fight the powerless circumstances of your life? They mean nothing.

I deeply know the meaning of pain. I consider myself a Master of Pain, for I have suffered and hurt so deeply that I can not even understand how it is possible that I am still alive. Pain sucks and is completely unnecessary. And for a very long time, I suffered immensely because of my pain. I hated pain, warred against pain, cursed pain, and had I had a magic wand I would have ‘Avada Kedavrad ‘the living hell out of pain. Even worse, I was resisting my pain with my mind, and every bit of my consciousness. I had been destroyed so utterly so many times that I was at constant war with my own suffering. Then one day, out of pure desperate, *desperate,* desperation I could no longer hold on. The cost of holding on was so much greater than the cost of letting go and surrendering into the pain so that it might finally destroy me and obliterate me from within.

For so long, I had done my very best. Kept my vibration high, been good, done right… but the suffering had always continued because deep within I was rejecting life, I was rejecting my pain. I was rejecting myself and every life experience that had brought me to this point. I couldn’t believe or understand why God – I would cause me so much suffering. Why had death torn a deep trench of loss into the very core of my being, why had I been betrayed, abused, neglected, hurt… why oh why, of why?

All my life I had been searching for answers. All my life I had been trying to make things right. I did everything, other than allowing my pain to consume me. And in the end, that was the only choice left to me.

To tell you that it was easy to feel it all so deeply would be a lie. To tell you that my escape impulses were dormant, would also be to tell a life. Every part of me was in escape mode. Every instinct was to flee the suffering. To hide. To make it go away. But I refused. I knew that I only had this last option left, and I was in so much pain that it no longer mattered if **feeling** it all destroyed me. Nothing of who I was was worth preserving. There was no way I could continue living as I had. It was death or metaphorical death. Either way, I had to die to my suffering, and so I persisted. And so I did. I died a million deaths for each trauma that had been held prisoner within me. I cried so much that it felt as if I might actually die from dehydration, but I refused to return to my old way of being. I talked to my own heart, I spoke lovingly to my poor little human self. I told myself, “I am right here and I’m not leaving. If we die we die together.”

The aspect of me that spoke to soothe me was my Godself. That higher aspect of being that is always who we are, though our minds may go to great lengths to deny it.

The experience was darker than the darkest night of the soul, and I had experienced many in my life. Suffering had entered my reality early on. Loss has ravaged my heart since childhood. Tears, manic shouting at the universe, every dramatic thing - I did it. I allowed myself to do it. Because if there was one thing I’d never do again it was to stand in opposition of myself. I’d never abandon my human self again, no matter the mess of this human monstrosity.

And as I felt as if my very soul was ripping into a billion pieces, the only thing I could do was scream to myself, ”I love you anyway. I don’t care if you never get better. I don’t care if you never get what you want. I am here, right next to you and I will be with you until the end. Unconditionally. **Unconditionally.**”

I truly went Gollum style crazy.

My only solace was meditation and going within. Not as a form of escapism, but as a return home to the only place where I am whole. I meditated for hours a day because the only place left for me was going into the silence. It was my only sanctuary. And I allowed every shiver of panic and the empty hollow in my belly to get saturated by tears even as I meditated until, somehow, the silence met me and I became it. I was home within my being, mounted into the awareness of my Godself. I was elevated to the infinite field where I am a Witnesser of my human aspects, and my heart overflowed with love.

Beautiful, profound love. As the parent loves a child. As Earth loves all her creatures. As the Universe loves every star.

I treated myself as if I were my own child and each time I broke I simply held my whole self within my heart. The energy I gave myself was one of allowance and acceptance. I did not try to force my mind to love myself. I only allowed my mind to be itself. I did not try to fix or change.

I had tried that my whole life without true healing. I did not suppress - I was fed up with being silent and being held hostage to ’the school of positive thought’. I let the reins go, and surrendered into the loving arms of creation itself. My fate was no longer my own. I no longer had the stamina to let my mind control the show.

I decided that nothing, not even shitty failed manifestations would get in my way of accepting myself anymore. I wouldn’t even let my rejection of myself bring me down. Instead, I would feel my rejection fully and own how much I hated it all. I allowed myself to marinate in every judgment, fear and feeling. I told myself that even if all my doubts are real and I’m stuck in suffering forever at least I’ll reclaim the last ounce of power that I have left. The power to be my own best friend. The power I have to remain loyal to myself even if creation itself has shunned me.

And… in allowing myself - no exception - I was finally free. Free to get dark, scary and hateful without judgment. And as soon as I was free the true transformation began. I was able to naturally feel love and light again without fearful OCD. I finally gave myself permission to be good enough for myself even if I was good enough for nothing else.

I proved my loyalty to myself because I let go of all the conditions I had clung to as an excuse to withhold love from myself.

I mattered to me. The circumstances of my life could rot in hell for all I care. Screw everything. I’m sticking to myself.

My human self was my baby, perfect, vulnerable and so, so worthy of love and unconditional support. I would be her mother and father and love her - no matter what. No matter the pain, darkness or treachery. No matter a million failed manifestations and 1000 lifetimes of despair.

I am the only human that can do it. The only one who knows and sees all the hidden aspects of myself, and the only one who can fully appreciate how hard I battled and how utterly I was destroyed. So too, you are the only one that can do it for yourself.

I am my only true witness, as you are your only true witness. And your heart and human self have yearned to be witnessed for centuries upon centuries of lifetimes.

How then can we forsake our bleeding hearts by turning away from and resisting the pain of the traumatised human? The human needs you – GOD – to remain by her side and see her through the darkness.

The trauma is real for the human. We don't have to accept it. Yet when we allow it to exist our trauma transforms into the passageway that leads to our liberation. True freedom. A place beyond fear. Because you’ve already got your own back and that is truly all you need. And once you’ve stepped up and taken back your sovereign power, the universe will do nothing but mirror this back to you. You are awake. The time of suffering has come to a close.

Manifestation and life be damned. You are not obliged to do anything. But life, you will find, rewards the one who has made peace with themselves.

I argue that the only reward worth having is peace. The only manifestation worth chasing is the gentle allowing of unconditional love.

When peace is lacking we can never enjoy our manifestation anyway. We fear losing it. We fear that getting it was a fluke and we quickly find something new to obsess and worry about. That is not freedom, that is enslavement to the dominion of mind. And since your Godself/Spirit/Soul/True Self/Higher self wants to bring every aspect of you back to wholeness its actions behind the scenes may seem to cause and trigger pain as it ’withholds’ manifestations.

In reality, your entire being has decided that it will no longer be a slave. More than anything, you are called to freedom. And you will get there, no matter the cost.

When you sit with yourself and remember who you are, the fear falls away. You understand that you do not need to fear the state that you occupy at any given moment. You understand that no matter what you are always God, and to God, all things are always possible and created.

You are God. Not an overactive ego that seeks dominion over all things, but the only thing that ever was and ever will be. There is no separation. No worthy vs. unworthy. It is all one and this ONE is who you are: the I that I AM. It is all the same.

Each state, feeling, circumstance and manifestation belongs to you. Each can be transformed by you. Each is yours for the taking. You do not have to accept it to be true, it is the only truth no matter what you think, say or do.

When you try, this is the time to remind yourself of who you are. Trying implies that you see yourself as separate. Remember that nothing is required for you to be who you are because you can never stop being your essential nature, and this nature is GOD.

“It is your father’s good pleasure to give you the Kingdom. You do not earn it. It is not your due, it’s not a reward. It’s simply a gift, unmerited. And therefore you cannot lose it. The gift is irrevocable. So no man can take it from you, no man can give it to you, so let no one frighten you. It’s yours and it's coming on time, and the gift is nothing less than God himself. When he gives you the kingdom, he gives you himself. For the kingdom is not a realm, the kingdom is a character, it’s a body. And that body is perfect, and wherever you are clothed in that body, everything around you is perfect.”

There are no requirements to manifesting your desire, and you know **it is done** by reminding yourself of this absence of requirement. No matter what you do, think or feel, it is done regardless. You are free to be as you want to be. Without filters or alterations.

Even if you can’t feel the truth of these words then at least accept them as true. Accept that you are GOD, accept that your desires are true and that it is done. You cannot escape who you are and you are GOD, whether you believe it or not.

You choose the state you wish to occupy every time you state the words “I AM” or “MY”... will you choose victimhood? Or will you choose to remember who you truly are?

There are no requirements. You can be sucky if you want to. It won’t make any difference. It is still done. You might just not be as happy as you would like to be, but the thing is still yours. You don’t need to change or be perfect. You just are what you are, and everything will work out anyway. And as the need to adjust fades away, and makes space for surrendered awareness you will actually feel your power build. Ironically, you will feel freer than ever when you stop imposing your (mind/ego-centered) will. You will have embodied the truth of who you are–your GODSELF.

Every single littlest thing is part of the fulfillment of your desires. It is all the bridge of events that leads you to the experience of every desire. Without requirements, or exceptions: **It is Done.**

”Each person is born with an infinite power, against which no earthly force is of the slightest significance.” Neville Goddard

What is the 3D? How do I change it?

Simple answer: There is no 3D. There only is a world because you are conscious of one being there.

Below is a post from an old reddit user, she deleted her account years ago, and back then - I kept reading this every day and still not getting what the feeling she was talking about was - how can you just feel everything is dependent on you? After all, we've been imagining our entire lives that we're this little ego walking around in this big world, that's so separate from what we know ourselves to be, a body with needs. When we come across this information, it sounds delusional, insane! But the apparent solid world is just an illusory world, the only thing that is is Self. The true delusion is fighting something entirely dependent on us, something that has no existence outside of us.

These are not my words, but imo something we can all attest to doing since we've discovered the law:

" -- Being absolutely shameless and feeling godly and maintaining that attitude -- Is this what being on drugs feels like? I've only ever taken CBD oil, so I don't know lol. But I felt like I wasn't actually living, until, like, Friday. Everything before that kinda felt like carefully controlling which assumptions I felt like interacting with that day. Avoiding things that I associated with being "bad", doing things I associated with being "good". Carefully navigating my own assumptions so I don't accidentally upset myself by encountering something I gave a shitty meaning to. Going back and forth between the two "sides" (note: 3D/4D), feeling temporary relief through meditation. Then, I woke up one morning and... I don't know how to describe it really. I woke up feeling absolute freedom. I never realized I had felt so trapped before. Now I feel so giddy it's ridiculous. And realizing that I can feel like this... all the time... because I choose to... it's absolutely fantastic. You can think and feel whatever you want, I swear, you can only pay like 2 seconds worth of attention to unwanted circumstances, and just continue feeling good about yourself, for yourself, inside yourself. You really, *really* can pay less attention to things you don't like than you think. If you read Neville's work for long enough, or have been in this community for long enough, you likely understand this intellectually. But when you FEEL stuff like this to be true, your perspective shifts in the most wonderful way. Just imagine it, the confidence. Being completely unfazed by circumstances because you know it starts and ends in you. Dreams are not only possible, but inevitable. The only thing that determines your destiny is what you *feel* like experiencing, nothing else. Is it a tad bit more nuanced than that? Sure, yeah. There's the baggage that comes up. But that's not outside of you either. Withdraw your attention from it, and the baggage goes away. First, usually, the fear/hate associated with the circumstance disappears. Then the physical evidence of your disdain goes along with it. What's left when you really understand that... is preference. Best Changes? PEACE. OH MY GOD. It sounds incredibly cheesy and cliche, but I swear, being at peace is the only thing I *actually* want. I mean, I like my manifestations and whatnot, don't get me wrong. But this, I wouldn't sacrifice it for anything. * A nice side effect to only caring about my state is that everything feels reasonably attainable. Nothing feels out of reach, or hard. Because: 1) It doesn't really matter in the first place 2) It's all really just a symbol of your consciousness 3) The only thing that determines whether or not you are able to do something is what you assume. It's one thing to know it in theory and another to really feel yourself to be the arbiter of your own fate... Knowing Wow, I was actually born a badass and carrying that mood around is SO. GOOD.

The external world, you control it (because it is you!, in you), you make it, fully, even when you tell yourself you don't. You like playing hide and seek with yourself? Fine. Keep going at it, but at least make sure you're treating it like what you're saying it is, a game. Don't take it so seriously, who you are is limitless, timeless, beyond your ego mind - why would the being you are be afraid of its own creation? And if you like to play, why not play a different way, you like the horror genre thaaat much? But sims is so much more fun... you can do anything there... you have all the cheatcodes, too - you have everything you need to make this human experience the funnest it can be. When everything obeys you, why do you keep things alive that you don't like being there?

What is the 3D? How do I change it?

Simple answer: There is no 3D. There only is a world because you are conscious of one being there.

Below is a post from an old reddit user, she deleted her account years ago, and back then - I kept reading this every day and still not getting what the feeling she was talking about was - how can you just feel everything is dependent on you? After all, we've been imagining our entire lives that we're this little ego walking around in this big world, that's so separate from what we know ourselves to be, a body with needs. When we come across this information, it sounds delusional, insane! But the apparent solid world is just an illusory world, the only thing that is is Self. The true delusion is fighting something entirely dependent on us, something that has no existence outside of us.

These are not my words, but imo something we can all attest to doing since we've discovered the law:

" -- Being absolutely shameless and feeling godly and maintaining that attitude -- Is this what being on drugs feels like? I've only ever taken CBD oil, so I don't know lol. But I felt like I wasn't actually living, until, like, Friday. Everything before that kinda felt like carefully controlling which assumptions I felt like interacting with that day. Avoiding things that I associated with being "bad", doing things I associated with being "good". Carefully navigating my own assumptions so I don't accidentally upset myself by encountering something I gave a shitty meaning to. Going back and forth between the two "sides" (note: 3D/4D), feeling temporary relief through meditation. Then, I woke up one morning and... I don't know how to describe it really. I woke up feeling absolute freedom. I never realized I had felt so trapped before. Now I feel so giddy it's ridiculous. And realizing that I can feel like this... all the time... because I choose to... it's absolutely fantastic. You can think and feel whatever you want, I swear, you can only pay like 2 seconds worth of attention to unwanted circumstances, and just continue feeling good about yourself, for yourself, inside yourself. You really, *really* can pay less attention to things you don't like than you think. If you read Neville's work for long enough, or have been in this community for long enough, you likely understand this intellectually. But when you FEEL stuff like this to be true, your perspective shifts in the most wonderful way. Just imagine it, the confidence. Being completely unfazed by circumstances because you know it starts and ends in you. Dreams are not only possible, but inevitable. The only thing that determines your destiny is what you *feel* like experiencing, nothing else. Is it a tad bit more nuanced than that? Sure, yeah. There's the baggage that comes up. But that's not outside of you either. Withdraw your attention from it, and the baggage goes away. First, usually, the fear/hate associated with the circumstance disappears. Then the physical evidence of your disdain goes along with it. What's left when you really understand that... is preference. Best Changes? PEACE. OH MY GOD. It sounds incredibly cheesy and cliche, but I swear, being at peace is the only thing I *actually* want. I mean, I like my manifestations and whatnot, don't get me wrong. But this, I wouldn't sacrifice it for anything. * A nice side effect to only caring about my state is that everything feels reasonably attainable. Nothing feels out of reach, or hard. Because: 1) It doesn't really matter in the first place 2) It's all really just a symbol of your consciousness 3) The only thing that determines whether or not you are able to do something is what you assume. It's one thing to know it in theory and another to really feel yourself to be the arbiter of your own fate... Knowing Wow, I was actually born a badass and carrying that mood around is SO. GOOD.

The external world, you control it (because it is you!, in you), you make it, fully, even when you tell yourself you don't. You like playing hide and seek with yourself? Fine. Keep going at it, but at least make sure you're treating it like what you're saying it is, a game. Don't take it so seriously, who you are is limitless, timeless, beyond your ego mind - why would the being you are be afraid of its own creation? And if you like to play, why not play a different way, you like the horror genre thaaat much? But sims is so much more fun... you can do anything there... you have all the cheatcodes, too - you have everything you need to make this human experience the funnest it can be. When everything obeys you, why do you keep things alive that you don't like being there?

hey ada i need advice, i want to create me waking up to my ideal life ive been through the law of assumption and everything like that and am learning how to drop that there is something to get but whenever i would wake up and still see something undesirable i would attempt to change my consciousness and remind myself i am that of which i want to be but its only a temporary relief, i know i control/decide everything by being aware, do you have any tips for paying the the things you dont want any mind?

I don't like repetition, it keeps you in lack. Do you need to remind yourself that you are a man or a woman?

My tip is to realize your self, have enough courage to face Vanessa's fears. See how unnecessary is to pay them any mind at all.

After you realize yourself any bold assertion does it. There's no time delay.

There was one person which got mad I blocked them because they corrected me in the comments when I said that unbotherdness comes first and said there was no reason for the scale of emotions I shared. I won't stand for any spreading of misinformation on this page. It's impossible for indifference not to come when you see you aren't that. When you see the desires and fears aren't yours. This is not an opinion, this is what happens when you do it. You get uninterested naturally.

Act like this, and from this. That's my only tip. Let go of thinking you are this little helpless thing already.

“I have a million things to talk to you about. All I want in this world is you. I want to see you and talk. I want the two of us to begin everything from the beginning.”

Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

HOW I MANIFESTED MY DREAM LIFE IN A WEEK

BACKSTORY

So I decided to fully immerse myself in "persisting" and fulfilling when I listened to Lonely one by LOVA because I spent around an hour just sobbing because I related to the song.

the week that I started was around Easter break and I was under the most amount of stress I have ever been through and I could see it the effects on my body

I was breaking out with huge pimples even though I was on accutane, I was averaging 2 hours of sleep a day every week for 2 weeks, my period had going on for 2 weeks, I was losing weight rapidly (was under 35kg:( ) my anxiety was at an all time high because I got harassed again(sexual assault victim). I used to have severe depression and have had multiple failed attempts of suicide. AND YES I WAS DESPERATE AS FUCK TO MANIFEST THIS DREAM LIFE OF MINE WHICH IS NO LONGER A DREAM

in the mornings I would be super anxious but I learned how to deal with it and get myself into the state super easily

HOW I DID IT

I GOT OFF TUMBLR: you know how many times I doubted myself only to realise I was doing everything right

I also read and listened to Edward Art MULTIPLE TIMES

Within a week of fulfilling and persisting, I had manifested my dream life. just like that. I woke up one morning and everything I had ever desired was right there. and it was super easy.

all I did was affirm(to remind not to get), visualise and feel. I would only do these methods if I wanted to, if I didn't I wouldn't.

Within a few days, the anxiety lessened so much and it started to feel natural. 

this was a question on Bambi's " how I manifested with hard circumstances " post which has now been sadly deleted but I remember copying this because it gave me hope at the time I copied it (don't hope, just know)

"But isn’t ranting “not letting the old story die out?” you and i could rant until our minds are cleared, just as long as you flip my thoughts, you are on the right track.  I rant for 2% of my 24 hour days. The other 98% i was persisting in the fact that creation was done. as “time” went on, it began to feel more natural and I felt more at ease. I held onto that feeling because I knew this was when I would get my desires and I did."

and that was when I knew I shouldn't give up and I just kept going even when I wanted myself to just get on tumblr and overconsume 

I actually nearly decided to see what I was "doing wrong". I clicked on one of Aphrodite's posts but I didn't read it. I just asked myself if I would look through it if I had my desires and I wouldn't and since I already have all of my desires I didn't.

Whenever the anxiety was too strong and I could feel the frustration and desperation building up, I would just rant and it helped me calm down and get back into the state super easily.

why?

because STATES MANIFEST THOUGHTS DON'T

which is why you can rant.

you know how many FUCKING DOUBTS I had, but I didn't even give them attention coz they didn't deserve any and how many times I wanted to just give up, but I was like NO, STFU, I DON'T WANNA LIVE MISERABLY ANYMORE and now I'm not :)

The affirmations I used:

It is done

I am living my dream life

I am in my desired reality

The 3d will conform as long as i keep persisting

Imagination is the real reality

I also daydreamed, but since imagination is the real reality they were real

WHAT I MANIFESTED

- desired appearance

- name change

- family change

- skills (drivers licence etc)

- apartment and furniture

- wealth

- a bunch of random materialistic things

- desired friend group (I absolutely love them!)

- desired uni and always getting good grades

- outfits from pinterest

and a bunch of other things

- I also ended up manifesting an sp without even knowing and he's pretty much I everything I scripted him to be(scripted a year ago because I didn't really care for a relationship) but this happened before I manifested my dream life

after a year and half of being on loablr I finally manifested my dream life. and you can too

(there was probably over 100 things I wanted but I realised what I want is not much, nothing ever is when you know about loa and yes, i was super desperate)

you don't need anymore information other than @angelsinluv states post and fulfillment challenge

you shouldn't ever be stressed or worried while manifesting whatever you want, because you wouldn't stress if you had it

TAKE YOUR TIME

YOU GOT THIS

I just need a tutorial on how to become self.

As in advice on what to do during the day. Like does saying “I Am” during the day suffice?

There is so much information everywhere and as someone who wants to become freedom, it is hard to just read asks or post and completely understand and apply it.

Does imaging help? Does just affirming I am help? Do I need to accept something? In that case what, and who is doing the acceptance?

I do feel confused. But telling me to let go is just hard to understand, because what am I letting go of? The thought or desires? Can you help the process by saying that you already are it/ have it/ I am?? Like what does it mean to let go?

Well, here's a practice.

I didn't follow this. I never repeated "I AM" to myself, I didn't need to remind myself of the fact that I exist.

All I did was remember what I was not, use everything to remind myself of who I truly am. Then, did what I wanted without considering ego (body/mind) and with no expectation.

Nisargadatta said he didn't condition his mind either, by telling himself "I am beyond", "I am God", etc. He trusted his teacher when he told him "I AM the Supreme Reality" and acted accordingly.

Here's the thing

The misconception of something "not working" is because you think there is "an ego" here to obtain something.. there isn't. The ego doesn't truly exist; it's just an illusion. You, as "THAT", already have everything you seemingly desire because nothing exists beyond "THAT"/you. It's an illusion that blinds your eyes, preventing you from seeing that you are already what you seemingly seek. Don't believe the "observer" is here, and the "observed" is there. The "observer" doesn't exist; everything is "THAT".

No one is observing; there's only the seemingly "observed".

How do you know you're seemingly perceiving something through "senses"? Isn't it because you were aware before interpreting it as "seeing, feeling, smelling, etc"? You think you're seeing, but no one is; it's just the "image" seeing itself. You think you're hearing, but no one is; it's just the "sound" hearing itself. It's all "THAT". Nothing is happening to you because there is no "body" here; you are the "screen", and these appearances happen "within" "THAT", on "THAT", AS "THAT".

You simply exist fullstop.

And you know that, even without "senses".

"IT" does not need confirmation of existence through five senses; they are not what you perceive any experience with. Transcended them and this world. You lose the illusion of being here or there, trying to find your place; you only experience a still, unmoving existence. Even if the "illusory body" moves, you know you are still, becoming a stationary space allowing things to move within. Because you are not the body; the body is within you. Everything "you want" is there, on yourself; it can truly be felt you're not here because you're not the body. You'll realize you are the formless, nameless source of everything you seem to desire. You don't need to search or wait for another experience which is "THAT"; you are "THAT" now. This is the present truth."

~ infinite.ko / Koda & Dawa

Ok Anthony and Kate Bridgerton calm down!