Destroy The Idea That I Will Ever Calm Down

oh hey sorry I’ve been distant lately…. I’ve been really busy having a brain that is bad

Christopher Isherwood's diaries, September 8, 1960

Zendaya said "I'm grown now and talented and any character I play from here on out will smoke cigarettes in a crisis and be lanky and yall gon like it." And honestly I support it.

pin her up against the wall like the masterpiece she is

in this essay i will—

sevdaliza !!

“Don’t be afraid to suffer—take your heaviness / and give it back to the earth’s own weight; / the mountains are heavy, the oceans are heavy.”

— Rainer Maria Rilke, from The Poetry of Rilke; “Sonnets to Orpheus”

the point of relationships of any kind is not for them to last forever. relationships aren’t a “failure” because they ended. it doesn’t mean the love was not enough!!! on the contrary!!!! it means the love was enough for you to know when to let go and set the other person free. it means you’re humble enough to understand when something isn’t working, when it is no longer healthy or functional. there is love in that. there is love in recognizing that the memories will remain and so will the lessons.

creating myself