Alt Bg:

kind of weird how parts of your soul are left in various locations without any warning… like yes i’m always at the top of that hill, sitting at the bus stop, in the cool light of the Japanese restaurant, standing at the pier etc etc

there is something really nasty the body does that I have to tell you about. sleep deprivation causes the body to feel stronger signals. it can make light and sound and pain worse, just from not sleeping. and then, get this - - that can be the kind of shit that keeps someone up at night. less sleep makes more pain happen, more pain can make less sleep happen, and this feedback loop keeps spinning. and then that feedback loop fucks with your body and can make you have worse illnesses, worse infections, worse physical health, worse mental health, and feel like shit overall. and then THAT can make it even harder to sleep.

quality of sleep is quality of life. no matter what else you have going on, you have to prioritize sleep. if your sleep is not restful, you might have something like sleep apnea that can make you weaker until you get treated. whatever is stopping you from sleeping needs to be a priority because it will wreck you until you can sleep. your body cannot function properly without enough sleep, and it might not even tell you that sleep is the problen.

your body might just tell you that everything sucks forever until you can figure it out and get it addressed. there are ways to break the pain and sleep deprivation feedback loop, like medication. and if sleep still sucks, really consider getting a sleep study. even if it is a pain in the ass, your health might depend on it.

no matter what else you try, no matter how else you try to prioritize your health, and no matter how you have to accomplish this, you might not be able to feel better until you can actually get enough quality sleep.

Im so ready to see Will suffering, not in a bad way of course, just the fact that he will probably be in his main character era again and noah is clearly going to slay that performance trust me.

idek if ill survive endgame byler like itll be the sweetest thing imaginable and ill probably just collapse

Inside you there are two wolves:

HELP NOT TUMBLR POSTING THIS ON INSTA 😭

I guess it needs to be said that I don’t hate people who ship Mileven. I don’t even think they’re stupid! I just genuinely don’t understand and frankly, I don’t care enough to seek understanding. If you feel the same way about Byler, I don’t care. I’m definitely not getting paid to convert anyone. Y’all do you, and I will do me.

two hours, forty eight minutes in

yknow what. i actually LOVE the byler airport hug. I LOVE IT because when juxtaposed with Mike hugging dustin in ep1, it shows that Mike is FINE with initiating and receiving hugs from his friends platonically- and so when looking at the airport hug, it shows that Mike is definitely repressing something/not seeing will platonically LMAO

there is no straight explanation for this