45 Hours Of Fast And A Binge Right After Coming Back Home... I Feel Disgusting

•★ B0dy check from today. I'm not really satisfied... ★•

•★ I did 25 hours fast because I was forced to eat something but I spat most and threw up the rest. I've never done it before so I'm kinda proud of myself. Definitely will use it once more ★•

•★ I feel so unreal lately. Like it's not me and my life I'm living. I look at myself in the mirror and I feel like I'm looking at someone else. Or sometimes I can't even tell how I look like because every time I look at myself it's different. I do things and then I'm not sure if it really happened or I just told myself it did. ★•

My sweet boy is $hing and I took his blades and told him to never do it and thought it's enough but he and his mom said I act like I don't care about him doing it at all when I actually do care. I care a lot. I just don't know what I should do. I should care more. I don't know why I can't show it... I feel like the worst girlfriend ever..

•★ My mom gave me some of her old jelewery. It's silver, but I mostly wear gold. Do you think I should put it on tomorrow?? ★•

Dream.

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I live for this album

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•★ b0dy check the day after I binged ★•

•★ Decided to post a b0dy check from yesterday bc why not ★•

•★ started the fast a few hours ago, maybe I'll post b0dy check tomorrow. Love ya ★•