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my main mantras for 2025

plot plot plot

remember people love you

end harmful pattern

love yourself and know your worth

focus on growth (in all areas)

remember people care

be scared and do it anyway

no self-isolation (call bestie)

nonchalant is for losers

2025 is for yearning

my insta @ malusokay

Thursday, the 15th of May 2025

After I came home from rowing, I couldn't move a muscle. We hadn't the time for a break out on the water and had foolishly chosen a more difficult to handle boat while also not having someone to steer it. It was exhausting to do both. I kept turning around since it was busy out on the canals and I had to steer us with the sculls myself. Nevertheless, I adore being out with the boat. The sky and sun are bright, the wind refreshing and on the shores sit happy people: reading, playing with their dogs, having a barbecue or a drink. I too treated myself but to a pizza and quiet night with a book. Despite that, I carried the exhaustion into the new day and find it difficult to focus on my Czech essays. Somehow I have the ludicrous expectation to make it perfect, all-encompassing, when a good reflection is simply dependent on a specific question and a well-conceived argument.

~life update~

the past few days i've been really rough. i went out to dinner to celebrate one of my bestie's 21'st bday which was really fun. the beef short rib was super good. however, i started feeling really bad when I got home and i went to the dr the next morning. i tested negative for covid, flu, and strep so really no idea what's going on there but i got some lovely antibiotics so that's helping a bit. they did a throat culture to test for epstein-barr virus (mono) so answers soon?

i'm supposed to be taking the network+ certification tomorrow so we'll see if that happens but probably not. I can't even sit up straight bc of a killer headache. going to try and knock out some studying today for the holiday and tomorrow.

4.28-5.3

This week has been great honestly. I started back on my cut and focusing more on my weightlifting and cardio (peep the cute gym fit). I’ve been fairly productive study wise, just didn’t take pictures.

My boyfriend came up to visit me this weekend and we went hiking on Saturday and went to the gym. Side note: Emily Henry is probably my favorite romcom author and I’m getting a little sad that I’ve read all her books already lol.

I look at this one uh from time to time -

I haven’t taken a bio class since high school, so I did a lot of review before our first practical :) Anyway, this is one of my favorite rooms to study in!

05.04.2025—still slumping, but, in my defence, it’s the weekend 🤍📖📚⭐️🌸

17th feb 2025

— loved my journaling session today! & also that iced matcha latte was soooooo good guys aaaa 🍵

Tuesday, 13th May 2025

Electrodynamics review on campus & outside today… still fighting through a lack of motivation but switching up study spaces helps. One of these days I’ll do something other than online flashcards but here’s my laptop again 😅

🎵Infant Phenomenon – No-Man

17.02.2025

physician professional behavior roleplay at class today. we collaborated with students from indonesian arts institute, who play as difficult patients. and man it was difficult. kudos to the arts students, they are so fucking good at this.

physical activity: biking to and from medschool, pilates 10 mins, resistence training 200 leg lifts, 200 arm lifts (WOAH! UNEXPECTEDLY FELT GOOD! definitely not as hard as when i started out)

tadarrus (at taubah 50 - 67)

📖 - the bloody chambers, angela carter