"But I Promise To Be There One Day To Wake You Up." 12 Days.

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The reason I drew this (exactly a year ago today) was a nightmare I had back then. Everyone Koujaku even remotely cared about had died in this dream, and he blamed it all on himself.

He felt so empty inside, he couldn’t do a thing anymore, he could barely get out of bed, kept the curtains and windows closed at all times. The only reason he was still alive, was because he couldn’t even care enough to die anymore. And, because somewhere in all this mess, Mink was there. I don’t know why, he didn’t say a word in the whole dream, but he took Koujaku with him, to someplace far from Midorijima and he held onto him. 

For Koujaku, it was all that was left.

Some good days good weather fun!

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 21: Music & Lyrics

Die Welt steht still // The world stands still zwischen uns // between us Mach die Augen wieder auf // Open the eyes again Atme langsam wieder aus // Breath out again Die Welt steht still // The world stands still

[Die Welt steht still - Revolverheld]

"Die Welt steht still" is about two people who slowly drifted away from each other. They have changed over time and each of them has made a lot of mistakes which are now mounting up in between them and creating some sort of an invisible wall. He sings that he doesn't know whether it's too late to forgive all of that, to see each other anew, but he is willing to try it. It's all up to the other.

What really impressed my about this song is the video. It adds a complete new layer of meaning to it. You can see a woman who is pulled out of a river and people running her way trying to save / reanimate her. It was actually this life saving aspect that really caught my attention.

With the woman coming back around during the end of the video it is very clear how the story in the song is supposed to end, I rather wanted to show the uncertain state before the decision instead. I'm not sure myself though, whether this will be a "life saving" or a "going down together" story or something else completely.

"Thanks, guys!" 15 Days.

Re:Coded is one of my absolute favourite games ever. For me it's probably the funniest game in terms of gameplay and still it's so incredibly sad and heartbreaking. I mean, fighting while there's Riku's or Roxas' Theme playing?! I'm really sad that it's "just" a movie in 2.5 Remix ... u _ u But I am sure I will love it anyway :) And hey, SECRET MOVIE.

Re:Coded is actually the game that made me like Sora. I disliked him very much when I started in on the KH series five years ago – I started with KH2, followed by 358/2 Days, followed by BBS. I had immediately a strong connection to Roxas, but Sora ... For me he was just a bad replacement (somehow ironic), and I could never forgive him for running around killing people so easily. I mean, yes, they are Nobodies, but still ... Only Re:Coded made me realize then that Sora is (still) a really really really cool character, DDD did then do the rest.

And I just love DataRiku.

[Image Description: Image is a pastel chalk drawing of adult Lea and Isa from Kingdom Hearts sitting on a beach. Lea is sitting between Isa's legs, leaning his back on Isa's chest. He is talking nonsense with a smug expression, gesturing with one hand, while Isa kisses him on the cheek, smiling. Both their eyes are closed and their hands are linked in front of Lea's chest. The drawing is done in warm sunlit colours and the edges of the drawing are slightly smudged into the white paper frame, giving the image a dreamlike quality.]

Lazy Afternoons

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AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 3: SET C - “Friends”

“Why are you doing this?“ “Because we’re friends, why else?“ “… We are?“ “What?! Sure we are! Pft, so mean! Now you have to pay for the ice cream next time!“ “What?“ “Naaah, just joking, really, don’t take everything so serious. Come on, let’s get-” “I will.“ “Huh?“ “I will buy ice cream next time. Then I’ll show you my favourite.“ “You have a favourite ice cream?“ “Just what do you take me for? An alien?“ “Naaaa~ahaha. So, which one?“ “…Sea Salt.“ “Eww, sounds gross. Maybe you are an alien after all.“ “Oh, shut up.“ “…“ “Why are you grinning all of a sudden?“ “Nothing~ Come on, Isa, let’s get moving!“

It felt great. Having a friend.

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Akusaimonth Day 1: Dawn & Dusk

Artist: Skia (σκιά)

“This is the first AkuSai work I have ever done. I attempted to illustrate the course of their friendship by the metaphor of the sun’s course.”

This is my younger brother’s work! He doesn’t have a tumblr, so I’m uploading it for him!

"He was weak." 17 Days.

I'm so looking forward to see the Final Mix cut scenes ingame!! = u = / So much more Saix. So much more emotional Saix, höhö.

(Also, I love the fact that Axel and Saix are sitting across from each other in the Round Room. I can't stop imagining Axel to grin and wave into Saix' direction, especially in the beginning when they first joint the Organization - and if just to cheer him up.)

AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 16: SET C - “Disappearance”

I was watching as your light went out, and I felt nothing.

When he came for me, I fought with everything I had. He had beaten me before, but surely this time, surely with all the not-hatred I felt for him, I could win.

I couldn't.

As I felt myself vanishing, the pain and the sadness finally caught up on me. It was just for one moment, but I felt an overwhelming hurt. In that moment I wanted nothing more than to go back in time, back to when things were okay. I wanted nothing more than to be whole again. 

But there was nothing to be done. You were gone, and so was I.

In the end, it was all for nothing.

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