Don’t stop until you’re proud.
Thought I’d share another safe food/recipe🌟 I loooove ramen and noodles but they have a shitload of calories so I buy shirataki noodles! I use tofu shirataki noodles but you can buy the real yam ones which have less calories I believe. My brand has 30 calories per package which is one meal for me. I start by rinsing them, then I boil them for a couple minutes to get the salty/fishy smell out, then I fry them in a pan to get out the extra water and make them less rubbery. You’ll know they’re done when the make a squeaking sound when you rub them against the pan. I like to make spicy noodles by adding 1 tbsp of light soy sauce(10) and 1 tsp of siracha(5) sauce for a total of 45 calories! These are a bit rubbery but seriously so so great💕 Many people make them with spaghetti sauce. These are so diverse and wonderful 11/10 recommend✨
Okay you guys, this is it. I’m getting back on the wagon. I miss waking up every morning excited to be down another pound (or even two!). I miss looking down at my feet and seeing my flat stomach. I miss the feeling of my clothes fitting better. I miss feeling pretty.
I’m going to go back to eating 1200 cals (or less) every day, and hopefully by October I’ll be back to my LW of 138 lbs. I really want to do this right.
I’m also really sad that I stopped restricting in the first place. While I understand that I needed to eat properly to perform well on my finals, I wish I had just upped my intake to maintenance or something instead of going all out and binging every day. (I did get really good grades though, so at least there’s that…)
Note to self: if you feel like you can’t stand it anymore, DON’T JUST LET EVERYTHING GO. Don’t throw away all the progress you made. Just up your calorie intake a little and be a little looser with yourself. You’ll be thankful that you didn’t stop.
ok universe, i’m ready to feel good things. make me feel good things.
Doing that is a symptom of depression I believe it's called fixation or something like that you spend hours and hours thinking about everything that's wrong and it messes with your brain the more you think about it the more it'll happen it'll actually make all your disorders get worse it's what happened to me you should really see a doctor 💞 I hope you feel better
It’s nearly 3 in the morning and I can’t sleep. All I can think about is labels, Depression, Anxiety, Anorexia, Borderline, and how they slip between my fingers, how I simultaneously fit all of them and none of them. It’s hard to control an effect when you can’t name your cause
/// sea weed (help burn fat) /// broth (very filling when warm) ///dates ( help detox your body and work as a laxative /// rice noodles (low cal alternative to normal noodles) /// apple sauce (alternative to eggs in baking recipes) /// ice (brand) fizzy drinks 0 calories and great for fasting days ///apples burn negative calories ///cauliflower great alternative for rice or for chicken /// almond milk instead of regular milk ///strawberries boost metabolism /// asparagus stops the craving of chocolate and is very low cal
It’s only ten days, what do you have to lose …. other than ten pounds?
They are not pretty like the thinspo. It’s not high-waisted shorts, crop tops, and thigh high socks. It’s not cute clothes, compliments, and delicate skin. It’s not looking hot in coffee shops, fitting into tight spaces, and being able to be lifted. It’s not polite “No thank you”s and dainty shakes of the head. That’s not what and it is.
It’s leaning over a toilet and throwing up the calorie filled chicken parm your mom made especially for you. It’s closing yourself off from entire events if there is even a chance of food. It’s crying in the bathroom when you only dropped five pounds that week when you needed seven. It’s looking in the mirror and seeing every bone and still believing you’re not skinny enough. It’s seeing clothes you were never able to wear before but still wanting to be a size 0. It’s freezing cold showers that make your fingers numb. It’s sleepless nights because your bones make it uncomfortable to lay down. It’s unconsciously pinching and pulling at your body in public. It’s seeing the bump on your lower abdomen and believing that it’s all fat. It’s thinking about getting a rib removed so you can look thinner. It’s lonely weekends because your friends want to go to the movies and out to eat but it’s your fasting day and can’t be stopped now. It’s under eye bags and fragile limbs. It’s smiling and saying no when we want to stuff our faces. It’s passing out because we haven’t eaten for a week. It’s trying to deceive the doctor into thinking that our small frame could really hold 130 pounds. It’s painful. It’s scary. It seems like it will never end. We tell ourselves we’ll stop here but, in the back of our minds, we’re not sure if we can. It’s hating everything about yourself and only feeling like you’re worth something when you’re not eating. It’s low electrolytes, a raw throat, and scarred fingers. It’s exercising until you want to faint. It’s being terrified that your weight will shoot up if you eat one chip. It’s scarfing down five servings of something to make the pain go away and crying for hours after. And this is not even the half of it.
There are so many other eating disorders a person could go through and they’re all hell. Ask someone if they really love what they’re doing. Most if not all the time a person will say they hate it. It’s killing yourself and we know it. But here we are. So no. EDs are not pretty. Don’t ask me to teach you to get one.
(I’m sorry but I’ve actually been asked in real life and on the internet how to become anorexic or bulimic. And I hate it. They think it’s an amazing thing. An amazing way to drop a few pound in a month and get off once they drop a size. I just needed to rant about it a bit cause I’m tired. DON’T ASK ME HOW TO GET AN ED I WILL NOT TELL YOU! I would not give an ed to my worst enemy. So I will certainly not give the tools to a friend or even a stranger.)