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Komm mal zehn Minuten in mein'n Kopf und du kommst nicht mehr klar - fuck.

BEVN

I could be YOUR pretty girl!!

My dream car 😋

I still have more to say

Tell me why I'm reading old texts and thinking to myself I hope that I can't even say it. I hope he trips and falls down the stairs all day everyday like literally any time he goes up and down any stairs. It's so bad I wanna never think of him again.

My Ex situation-ship

I'm gonna cry, throw-up, crash out, pull my hair out, and I dunno runaway. Today I was just tanning outside and I went to spray water on myself but instead it sprayed his old cologne. I almost died on the spot I had forgotten I put his cologne in an old spray bottle so we would never miss each other. I feel like I might burst right now. I'm so cooked!

Un(fortunately) I would let him fly me out and take my virginity

No cause why is this so real though 😭

I really want to lose my virginity but I’m so afraid it will hurt :/

that so hot though

:p

Birthday Tomorrow! 🥳

I’m not gonna make it😭

Good lord I need help with German or I think I might not make it out here. I’m trying big oh my gosh sometimes I wanna cry on floor for an hour.

Sobbing 💀

Guys I’m crying right now like I know this is tmi but my b00bs hurt a lot and it’s like making me sick to my stomach. What do I dooo?!!

I love this song!

Please let someone hold me while this song plays its all I ask for

me this summer trust 😋

me and that one older man

I need that right now 🎀

hooking up in a cheap hotel room with a man who’s 3x your age and pretending to be father and daughter to the staff >>

Got my first Tattoo!! At 16!!

Yesterday I got my first tattoo with my mom we chose to get like matching tattoos. I’ve never felt so happy and my dad actually approved of my idea for the tattoos!!

Summer break almost here! 🎀

I can’t freaking wait!! I might be going back to the states!

Dad problems

I can't stop thinking about how many times I messed up our father and daughter relationship, telling him that I wishes he wasn't my father or spending weeks not talking to him. Like the time he got deployed to Spain and I asked him before he left if he would text me and send me pictures of Spain. He was gone for almost a full year not a single text that wasn't about my grades or helping my mom. Or when he hits me and then promises me he wont do it again just for a week to go by and he takes another persons side before hearing mine and hits me again. I've apologized many times for the things I've said and done but nothing seems to work. That man wont ever see me as his daughter again and it breaks my heart.

So tired

It's currently 1:11 am and I don't know what I'm doing up anymore I just wanna sleep. Today has been so confusing and stressful. My parents and I keep arguing and I'm fine arguing with my mom she's my bestfriend. On the other hand it hurts so much that my dad doesn't care anymore and I'll have to keep begging him too till I die. just wish I was 5 again and eating ice cream with dad on birthday like is it too much to ask for?

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The Leopard (1963)

Gross

Does anyone ever feel sick to their stomach after doing something they’ve always wanted to do but are not supposed to be doing. I dunno I think I seek too much attention, I just wanted to feel loved for once or at least wanted.

I’m kinda craving a cigarette..

Me thinking about my Birthday 😋