Still Life Study Of A Flower From A Dying Bouquet, Under The Window Light.

Some sketches I did while I was working on my animated film project in 2018. I was testing for imagery that looks both realistic and abstract at the same time. It is that midpoint where you can still make out the forest, yet there is also enough ambiguity to let you see pure, organic shapes.

Aside from the first one, these didn't make it into the movie. With time constraints, I was unable to do as much as I liked.

WIP (Though I don’t really know what to do with it)

It was a very sunny day and I was in the school bus. For some reason, the bus followed a different path that day and I got a weird sensation out of the places we passed through. So this was made with the inspiration coming from that bus trip. 

From the deeps he comes. From the darkness he teaches the secret of love. Those who desire light know him not.

〜 Water, Earth, Fire, Air 〜

The Pathfinder and At Least 3 Worlds (2018) 

This image is significant to me, which has much to do with its unusual way of emerging. It is not my creation but rather my sober hallucination. I started with tree branch-like shapes and a background texture. In the texture I was seeing things, and I started giving them visibility by going over them, preserving their original appearance. After I did this throughout the whole image, I checked whether there was a pattern with the images that had come about, and realised that the painting was divided into three.

LEFT - HELL

On the left, figures like demons (middle) as well as what I believe to be a suffering woman has emerged (bottom). An interesting detail which didn’t emerge clearly in the picture, but that I can vividly feel, is a girl of innocence who has sat on a dragon.

MIDDLE - EARTH



A dog’s face, a snake preying on a bird, a boy with headwear over them, a pregnant woman are some figures among this part of the image that emerges from the branch-like shapes that give the whole work its body, it’s structure. The most important figure of all is that whom I called the Pathfinder. He is a dwarf-like figure with a pointy hat, has lifted his hand as though if he is in command and is somewhat mischievous though also religious. I imagine him appearing to those who seek and take them places on a vast green, rocky land.

RIGHT - HEAVEN

 This part of the image is the one with the least figures, and is also divided into two. On the top, there is a being of a different dimension, somewhat in the appearance of an elf, smiling mischievously as though if seeing through the dreadful humor of existence. On the bottom, there is a wise old man with a key and a badger-like animal appearing next to his image.

Transitory Figures

There are two figures in the Earth section that seem to be referencing to the Heavens. One is a small alien, much like a baby in a womb, standing between earth and the elf-like being. The other is the face of a man on branches, which seems like a narrow reflection of the wise old man (though a different person).

He was returning home, wondering if...

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There is a process video here!

The Feminine is the most potent, real and lifegiving power in my life. But it is also the most subtle and invisible, most easily lost against the currents of normality. Most easily lost inside the struggle.

Again and again I come back to it and life is born anew. What a feeling! To be that which I had forgotten that I am. That, which is unexplainable, unintelligable. Only felt.

I am the wind, I am the trees and rocks, I am all that is breathing and crying. And life is complete, despite being incomplete.

Had I not had a man in me, could have I just be? Oh, but the man and the woman are one and the same. I love him, and he loves me. I love her, and she… She is…

Oh, she. That’s all we want to know.