Hi Names Eagan!

Ao3 down :[

I was on 13/40 chapters of a social media SpiderLad fic

Watching the epic musical animatics excuse my future out of context text posts

I blame you @purpleblobfrompluto

Idea: flamebird (wally) gets offered to join the justice league. Barry is utterly surprised when his nephews response is "I'll have to talk with my partner in Blüd haven, first"

Barry is confused since when was flamebird operating in Blüd haven and have a partner there???

[This came purely from the fact I love those birdflash fics where they have a relationship reveal because the justice league is scouting nightwing as new recruit, and I went but what if it was refused with flamebird!wally?]

Wally comes home and is like "hey rob, uncle Barry just offered for me to join the justice league you and spooky mind if i join you on the big boys team?" And dick just calls Oracle and asks her for the footage of that conversation because holy shit he needs to see his future uncle in-laws reaction to that conversation!

(Usual birdflash vigilante au: flamebird!wally, nightwing!dick, living together in Blüd haven, probably engaged, flamebird is not as well-known as nightwing.)

Kinda similar vibes to 'flamebird came first' on Ao3

character type

Yeah I get that, but it's more the fact they were all marketed at trans people, that pissed me off so much.

Also that was a very a accurate comparison!

Been doing those are you a boy are a girl quizzes...

I am deadass annoyed i keep getting that thing where it's like this:

Like i get one or the other but I'm androgens according to the tests (I'm trans masc btw)

I swear to you, the questions that lead to me getting that female % was questions about emathy and children

So apparently men can't be empathetic or nice to children now.

Oop-

Vent post (aka part of my dark backstory) lol

Tw: sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse, manipulation, self harm, rape, suicide attempts, sucide encouragement/baiting, incest, trans inclusive radical feminist mindset, emotional manipulation, transphobia, fatshaming (Also Anything along those lines)

My step father: he emotionally & verbally abused me. He would also often grope me while I was 9 - 10 years old but the worst didn't happen to me. It happened to my mother and sister but I was still there to witness it all.

I couldn't take it anymore. At 9 years old i made a plan for sucide and failed. So I made another plan in my diray and wrote a sucide note about how everything my step father did was effecting me which my mother found and ended up showing my step father who didn't give two shits. That was what finally got my mum to stand up to him and kick him out.

My bio father: abused me physically (but did it less the older I got) and emotionally abused me. At 6 years old I was raped by my own father, nothing was the same after that. I started gaining weight, I became withdrawn among people my own age and only really talked to adults. I would overeat when stressed and would later get fatshamed for it so much I now struggle to eat twice a day. (My mother was not aware of most of this they had been divorced since I was 2) my father encouraged my sucide attempt and my self harm. I ended up attempting suicide 7 seapreate times. He made sure i felt too guilty to ever tell my mother.

Because of these experiences i distanced myself away from any males, and hyperfemnisted myself. Because masculinity was evil and like all the father figures i ever had, and feminity was my mother, my friends and everyone who made me feel safe.

So unfortunately I ended up down the trans inclusive radical feminist mindset, to specify I included trans women & nonbinary people in radfem mindset but not transmasc people.

I thought trans man were superior to man for their female experiences and feminised them. They were not included in my kill all men mindset and I believed they were nonbinary people in denial. (Which wtf younger me???)

This of course was not good for me. I eventually realised how wrong my mindset was after I had a really caring male English teacher who cared deeply about my well-being, got me a counsellor and helped me heal a lot.

I however made no effort to change this mindset until a few years later. I still have a long way to go towards healing my relationship with masculinity. And i generally sympathise with a fem person quicker than with a masc one still but I'll get there.

Older kirai

@purpleblobfrompluto we do be doing wayyy to often lol

have you ever stayed up late with someone texting or chatting and known as the hours ticked by that you’d be ridiculously tired in the morning but it didnt matter because it was really fun and totally worth losing sleep over just to laugh with someone and enjoy their company maybe and then the next day you keep tiredly recalling how much fun it was

I misread gengar as gender-

I thought the gengar was named gender omfg