TW self harm, alcohol
I got home and fucking cut my foot and got drunk and now I'm just laying here with a paper towel inside my sock, feeling so fucking much better. I feel bad because I plan to lie to my husband if he asks about my foot, but not bad enough to not do it I guess. I don't want him to know so I'm not telling anyone irl.
I'm just. I'm so tired and it's been a bad, triggering af day, and this is what I've chosen to do about it. I'm in my fucking thirties and I'm still acting like a fucking dumbass.
I don't want to be alone right now but my husband isn't going to be home for hours and nobody is answering the phone and. Idk.
I'm just here. Trying to stay alive. Trying to convince myself to stay alive.
Do not talk about your abusive family on tiktok. Do not talk about your closeted identity on tiktok. Do not talk about your traumas and mental illnesses on tiktok. Do not talk about your plans to move out from your abusive household on tiktok. Do not talk about the ways you disagree with your bigoted family on tiktok.
Do not attach your face or voice to anything on tiktok that you do not want your family members, neighbors, coworkers, or classmates to see. Be smart and stay safe.
Nothing justifies abuse, and you are allowed to hate whoever abused you, regardless of who they are or what factors were involved in their own life.
One of the most challenging things I’ve had to learn is that healing must be intentional. There is no one golden day that comes and saves you from all your misery. Healing is a practice. You have to decide that it’s what you want to do and actively do it. You have to make a habit out of it. Once I learned that, I only looked back to see how far I came.
I stopped following this last week because I was having panic attacks about it & there's literally nothing I can do. But fuck this shit. These assholes are playing with people's livelihood and it's because they DON'T CARE that people could DIE from this. Diabetics on medicaid might not have access to insulin. Disabled people on SSI or SSDI (me) might not be able to pay their mortgages or rent, much less afford their meds.
Meanwhile if the country fully defaults, we don't even know how bad it will be. Just that it will be bad.
I'm fucking tired.
If they don't fix the debt ceiling problem by June 1st—and it looks like that's a real possibility—it's not clear if people will be getting their social security checks or Medicare coverage. This is so bad, I'm not sure if any of you are following this but we all probably should be.
I'm not gonna do a writeup myself because I'm brainfogged to hell and don't want to risk accidentally sharing inaccurate information but you should look for news articles on this.
on Tuesday I'm seeing my GI doctor to find out if I'm getting an ileostomy and I am absolutely freaking out about it. deep breaths
every time i ask people if they do any new years resolutions its all ooooo i dont like making them bc i fail or ohhhhh no i couldnt keep up wiht that and then when they ask me and i tell them about Pasta Quest (i am eating as many different pasta shapes as possible in the space of a year) or when i did Fruit Adventures (every time i saw a fruit i had never eaten before id get one and eat it and read the wikipedia article about it) theyre like hang on i forgot you can make Fun Ones i want a fun one
Disabled people deserve government assistance and benefits. Even if they have incomes. Even if their spouses have incomes. Even if both they and their spouses have incomes.
Because being disabled is fucking expensive, even with affordable healthcare, even under the best circumstances and in the most accessible situations.
Alright I’m curious, how much make-up do people use normally in their day to day life, for example, when you open almost any YouTube video or shorts, there are people getting for school, dates etc. with layers and layers of makeup and tbh I’m not sure how much of that is actually true
Crazyheadcomics
33. she/her. disabled. did & cptsd. sex trafficking survivor. posts might be triggering.
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