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Though I’ve dedicated a large portion of my adolescent and adult life to it, I am still awestruck, somewhat confused, and endlessly intrigued by methamphetamine. I’m infatuated with it, of course, it’s an unhealthy fixation and need I cannot curb for the life of me. But I’ve spent so much time getting firsthand experience and doing actual research on this glorious horror show of a drug and it’s effects that I could say, if I felt it was true, that I know all there is to know, that I’m an expert. But that’s the thing, there is no knowing it. It still baffles me that a chemical like that can even exist, It is the only drug I’ve come across in the twelve years I’ve spent altering my consciousness that I sincerely believe I will never be able to fully wrap my mind around. It’s effects are never fully predictable, and even the ones that are, I can’t make sense of. How could a substance exists that is a fix for every human ailment you could ever have? Tired? Sad? Angry? Self conscious? Shy? Hungry? Lazy? Achy? Sick? Writer’s block? Unfocused? Overweight? Unmotivated? Have trouble making friends? Not having a great time at work? Not getting enough done?  Have to clean and don’t feel like it? Having problems in the bedroom? Have to go to an event you’re dreading and socialize? METH. Fucking meth, it’s the answer to everything. Something like this shouldn’t exist. That’s one of the reasons why everyone tells you it’s the devil, not to touch it. For one, it’s because for every good thing meth gives you or makes you feel, you will pay dearly for later one way or another. Nothing is for free, and something this good requires a lot of sacrifice to break even. But more then that, they say it’s the devil because it’s so good, once you know how it feels to be the ultimate version of yourself, you will never be able to to go back to what you once were. And god forbid you mainline it.. then on top of all of that, there’s the rush… the rush that releases 100x the amount of endorphins and dopamine the human body could ever create on its own, the rush that makes you literally lose your breath, your hairs all stand on end, your skin become electric.. the rush that can literally can give you an orgasm without being touched. There is nothing on this planet that compares, I’m losing words trying to describe it.. Nothing could ever feel this good, and that’s actually scientifically proven. And the fact that a simple substance made mostly from household chemicals (basically) can give you everything you ever wanted and didn’t know you needed, open your eyes and your body to an overwhelming, intense, fucking deathly beautiful combination of feelings and sensations like this, with one shot, it will always blow my mind. Meth is as close to a miracle drug as mankind will ever get. At least in the opinion of this warped junkie mind, entangled in a toxic chemical romance.

You know you’re a junkie when….

You freak out when your supplies end

People comment on your eyes

You become a self-made chemist doing mixes of various drugs

You can’t sleep enough or you sleep too much. Or you have a messed up sleep schedule in general

You lose weight

You drink a drug instead of water

You try different methods of administration to see what works best

You lie about not being high

You get cravings and have a meltdown if you don’t get your drugs

Withdrawals and rocking back and forth

You don’t know if you’re anxious, irritable and depressed because of withdrawals or because you’re depressed

You think IVing is the last stage of addiction and you never want to get there, but sometimes you do

Your tolerance skyrockets and you hate it

Tolerance, that bitch

You can’t wait for your next high

You were told to go to rehab

You lost at least one person because of your addiction

You isolate yourself and focus on drugs

You hang out with other junkies

All you think about is how high something can get you

You’re hated, walked on, discriminated against because of your drug use

Your personality changes

You find yourself being selfish and a liar sometimes

You want to try something new

You struggle a battle only another user understands

every girl should be a hoe at least once in her life and here are ten reasons why:

1. It’s a total boost to your self esteem. Why shouldn’t you feel like that bitch every day???

2. It helps you determine what you like and dislike in bed and how to verbalize your needs and wants (makes you better in bed in general)

3. You’re never quite “alone” and therefore you have a stronger sense of self and it gives you a better appreciation for true alone time.

4. Who said networking only happens in college? Suck a dick and get yourself a nice letter of recommendation and some jobs sis. Secure the bag.

5. You’re hip to game. No man will ever be able to play you or treat you like shit ever again bc you learn not only to think but also move like a man.

6. Desensitization: in layman’s terms, you can finally get the fuck out of your feelings. Being a hoe is art because you learn to not take shit personally and therefore very few things bother you.

7. Your presence will intimidate others. Idk about you girls but I love to walk into rooms and watch how shook bitches and niggas get.

8. This one is for all of the girls dealing with heart break. Suck a dick into your next chapter sis. The fastest way to get over one is to just get another one.

9. It is an adventure and you get to learn about yourself through your hoesperience. Every day with yourself is a surprise filled with new shit. You get to learn your tolerance and limits.

10. Your future husband will thank you! “I did I️t for us, honey.” 😘

Tragic Girls (@tragicgirlsco)

😌💅

Drugs will never break your heart.

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I get way too sensitive when I get attached to someone. I can detect the slightest change in the tone of their voice, and suddenly I’m spending all day trying to figure out what I did wrong.

Humans of New York - Amman, Jordan (via help-n-quotes)

Shes two different people when shes clean and when shes on drugs

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Yup

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The worst type of torture is watching your mental illness slowly fuck up your life

My whole life is just one big game of how much more can she take before she loses her god damn mind

My whole life is just one big game of how much more can she take before she loses her god damn mind

I look like a drug addict half of the time, and a drug dealer the other half.

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Fucking right!!

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I get way too sensitive when I get attached to someone. I can detect the slightest change in the tone of their voice, and suddenly I’m spending all day trying to figure out what I did wrong.

Humans of New York - Amman, Jordan (via help-n-quotes)

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I dream of days where I am free from addiction, days filled with no cravings, obsessive thoughts, or reminders almost as if i wasn’t an addict. I also dream of days where I am doped out in my own little world, numb to all of my afflictions. Dreams of nodding out peacefully with an abundant amount of drugs, giving no end to my false sense of serenity.

Journal entry titled daydreams December 30th 2015 (via nicolethedopefiendqueen)

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