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Diary entry #23

Tw sui and general panic (?), transphobia

Oh shit oh fuck they've banned HRT for minors. I'm not a minor but the amount of damage they'll be able to do to minors scares the fuck out of me. If you are a minor who's trans and wants to take HRT, I am so so sorry.

I'm a diagnosed autistic adult, what if they take it away from me too??? I don't know how I could survive that. I don't think I could. If that comes on the news, they may as well be sharing the date that I'll die.

I hope it doesn't come to that. I fucking hate Trump and his goons so much.

I'm hoping I can do DIY HRT if it comes to that. If they ban it for autistic adults, it's not automatically a death sentence, but I can see the way that it could lead to my death and thousands of others.

I don't really want to think about it, but what choice do I have? This is my future!

If I didn't procrastinate my moving out so much, maybe I would've been okay.

I hope the ACLU or something saves us. I can only hope.

Tw- transphobia

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Talking to a therapist lady and my grandma goes “”she”” wants to transgender. SHE WANTS TO TRANSGENDER. Fucking hilarious but not so funny when you realize she doesn’t support me at all. She thinks it’s some sort of trend or choice? Or something? I don’t really know. I mean I kinda get it sorta because I change my mind very quickly on things but transitioning isn’t, like, a super fast process… you don’t have to jump to T right away, it can start slow! Also I’ve known I was trans for about two years now. But this means I *might* be able to change her mind… idk though. All I want is to feel comfortable in my own skin but I suppose that’s too much to ask. Also the therapist lady asked if I was influenced by anything… bruh. I’ve known for two years at this point, if this was a hyperfixation it would’ve been gone by now. Sorry that I prefer to be called “he” I guess. Now I’m doubting myself, but maybe that was the point. I don’t know what else to add, so post over I guess.

no neurodivergent infighting here

This is so me. I feel like I was a little boy, not a little girl when I was a kid. I was allowed to have any hobbies I wanted, masculine or feminine mostly bc of my dad. I loved Sonic and Mario, videogames in general, anime, etc. So that kind of helped me to view my childhood as more masculine, but obviously it doesn't mean that anyone with my type of childhood wasn't a boy as a kid, but I hope you know what I mean.

I just hope that one day this flesh shell will fit the young man that I am inside.

Ty for the end portion, it's nice to hear :)

to be honest, i don't see myself as someone transitioning into a man. it's more like, i've always been a man but now i am transitioning outside of the female life i was put upon. of course, it's no one's fault that i was raised as a woman. i was assigned female at birth because of my sex, but sex is completely different from gender. gender is something we learn, something that comes from within. i knew i was different as a child when i looked up to male cartoon characters, despised stereotypical female clothing, wanted to be bigger and muscular, envied the boys who would have good looks and get all the girls yet had a disgusting personality, etc. i've always been a boy, nothing will change that. and as the years go by, my manhood will be more prominent. you cannot hide, soon you will be discovered. it is impossible to go against your true self, i have detransitioned before and the manliness in me never went away. try all you want, but the little boy inside you is begging to be free. love yourself, do not be ashamed. it is okay to be happy. you are deserving of freedom 🫶 🏳️‍⚧️

Diary Entry #25 (one mostly about something not trans-related... yay?)

I was stimming so much at work today. Or maybe ticcing or whatever bc I couldn't stop. It exhausted me more than actually working my shift. I wasn't feeling any particular way, I just got a bad stim/tic day just for some random reason ig.

My main tics/stims rn are sighing really deep, cracking my elbows, and inhaling hard with my nose. It probably looks really weird but I can't really help it. I guess that'd be more of a tic than a stim? I don't know if you can have tics without tourette's, i think I read that somewhere but like. i'm not sure.

I worry that I'll freak people out more whenever I pass as male or even as a trans male. I think it's worth the price of being seen as myself, it's just a minor concern i have. I'm really talkative and I worry about freaking out women. I don't act like a creep obviously, but I do appear autistic to most people and I am aware that people can be uncomfortable with me, even though I look like a girl.

If anyone with tics/stims can help me out here that'd be appreciated. I don't really know the difference.

Thanks for the welcome.

Welcome to our hellsite, Redditors!

MY VERY REAL AND VERY EPIC TRANSITION TIMELINE!!!!! (It actually hurt drawing me with boobs even though it's what I look like irl)

[I.D - a meme in which OP is in a transition timeline image, but it's drawn and both images are exactly the same; he looks like a blonde blue eyed girl in both images. The timeline is from 2021 to 2024, and it says My Transition Timeline!!! on the top followed by (FT.... uhh wait what). On the bottom panel of the image there's Peter Griffin, who has a speech bubble in which he says "Hello! This is Peter here to explain the joke. Basically, OP hasn't changed appearances at all between 2021 and 2024. He's a FTM guy who cannot express himself, and this post is basically a cry for help hidden under layers of irony." End I.D]

(Also if someone could tell me how to improve my image descriptions that'd be great cuz I'm not great at making them)