WHAT

i don't think i've seen people talk about how tragic the relationships tonny has with sahed and rainah are. not much is known about what happened between tonny and sahed to make sahed hate him so much, but we can infer that they once had a fairly close, maybe even brotherly bond. tonny tells julia that he was the one who taught sahed how to read, so we can also infer that sahed had been with the circus long before a contract was signed. whatever happened to cause such damage to their friendship must have happened after sahed signed the contract, and i'm wondering if it has anything to do with the fact that he's known all along that the people who ask to leave the circus don't actually leave.

but what really gets me about tonny's relationship with sahed is how sahed seed tonny. more specifically, his belief that tonny doesn't care; that he's hiding something evil and can't be trusted. it's true that tonny is hiding things from the circus members, and i'm willing to bet ryishmar is some kind of evil entity, but i have my doubts about tonny's willingness in the matter. he doesn't like letting people leave the circus because he knows what actually happens when they do. he's torn between his loyalty to ryishmar and the love he has for the troupe, and despite still referring to ryishmar as "prince" he clearly has no real love for them anymore, refusing to let them have power despite the fact that he's still, what i can only guess is, feeding them. sahed is unaware of all of this and very obviously doesn't see what it does to tonny; doesn't notice how miserable he actually is, and doesn't question when tonny says he "can't" give him the seal of life. "can't" and "won't" are two different things, but they might as well be the same thing to sahed when he doesn't care to look between the lines for what tonny can't say.

and then there's rainah. she's the oldest in the troupe after tonny (which indicates that all of those people who were in the castle are now gone, oof) and, like tonny, was very close with the woman eithra. she loved eithra, and immediately tried to take her anger out on tonny when he cut eithra's spirit thread. grief and rage are valid responses to such a traumatic event, i'm not dismissing her, but tonny's side of those events and his feelings about them have yet to be addressed. just like with mr. finnegan, he was upset having to do what he did and it's possible he even felt guilty for letting eithra fall into such a irreparable state. he was just as traumatized by those events and, what makes me so insane, he was left alone with it. he still is alone. rainah admits that she still hates him for it, but is at least glad that he won't hesitate when the day comes she asks to leave.

i have genuinely no idea how this man has not had a nervous breakdown by now. please keep in mind that the points i was trying to make (assuming any of them make sense) aren't meant to invalidate sahed or rainah or their respective traumas or how they've responded to them. they have every right to feel how they feel. we just haven't seen tonny's side of things yet; we don't know what happened between him and sahed, and we don't know what his relationship with ryishmar truly is or how he's been coping with everything he's done and still doing.

some fnafhs "rarepairs" i like as the worm text thing

Fnafhs meme photodump

Pretty Pretty Please I Don't Want to be a Magical Girl

While I’d want this concept to mostly be a lighthearted comedy, since that’s more my forte, the north star (heh) of this premise would be the loss of passion for something you once loved, feeling the pressure/expectations of sticking with something that you’re “a prodigy” at and the subsequent burnout. How hard do you fight for an old passion or at what point do you just let it go? Is it even okay to give up when so many people are counting on you? 

Sounds bleak but I promise I’m an optimist and that will always reflect in my work :)

Colour theory or something idk

Fox

y con esto ya estan listos los diseños de los animatronicos jiji

Las G.I.RL.S

i had completely forgotten that in t2 ep15 eak straight up tells ttrap he doesn't know if owynn wants him to eliminate him from the event or form THE PLANET. bro had no idea if he was asked to commit murder 😭

now that explains why i assumed someone had died when eak said he didnt want to "lose two" and i just assumed it was eak who did it bc he was asked to do it this time 😭shits crazy

the main cast: oh no... we're not competing in the event :(

the villains subplot:

Sgevsjns Mai again cause i love her

She's my little goofy girl, i wanna put her in my pocket and carry her around with me

+ small cute Mai

Anyway, i made a Maiggie playlist on Spotify beacause i love them so much

Headcanon that Megoy are like this:

Joy: Love you! <3

Meg: Love you too ♡

Meg: No homo tho

Joy: ...

Joy: No homo bro...??

Joy: Not even a little bit?